Bitter & Cynical

The grass is never green enough, only my life is extremely tough, everyone else is moving on, is this a fantasy or am I being conned, I'm lagging and being left behind, I'm swine in my mind that's what I'm defined, get caught up in the 9 to 9, 12 hour grind, and don't get paid for all that overtime, taxes are how workers get fined, this is my moment of weakness, but I need to preach this, somewhat neurotic, far from lethargic, fated doomsday tirade, an I hate parade, I'm slowly trying to kill myself, smoking and drinking definitely help, too chicken shit to end this life, and so prude I'll probably never find a wife, the whole world is against me, I'm free but not from money, even education is a business, is it in the rich's best interest, wow I really sound bitter, others must think "oh he's such a kidder", I'm too young to be cynical, but evil's reign has reached the pinnacle, what have we as a society become, one giant conundrum, a crooked system building u up to fail, hanging u by a noose or a nail, like Jesus and his crucifixion, inflicting an addiction to superstition, a 40 day fasting mission, which really just hallucinates your vision, driving u insanely crazy, but we can dress it up saying it portrays honor and bravery, u never measure up, you're a useless shmuck, forever stuck, a submissive bondage slave I fuck, good luck, and try not to choke or gag when u suck, swallow my whole load, and be grateful of the gift I bestowed, take my abusive physical and verbal beating, all the dung shit and manure as your feeding, I'll breach your security, materialize your maturity, by corrupting your purity, I inertly make u dirty, I don't want to hear any complaints, we're all humans not saints, a nice guy is a puppet or pawn, who's strings are being pulled by the devil's spawn, hell on earth, more like hell is everything after birth, people are defined by how much they're worth, a man by his dick's girth, women by how many more animals she can produce, astute youths are lied to and made to believe in false truths, reality is a sham, alacazam, magic can't fix this twist, pull us out of these pits or miss the abyss, cuz we actually created  this mess, I guess we'd rather make jokes and jest, then take full responsibility, everybody's seeking anonymity, no one wants to be held accountable, the damage is already insurmountable, so now just sit back and start relaxing, as we watch this inevitable train wreck unfold and happen.

Peace and 1,
JC
3/4/09

Yester Years

It's dawn, and I'm already gone, from an overprotected bubble, where I was notorious for mischievousness and trouble, so now I'm on to the next phase, for a brand new exotic taste, add some spice, to my dull lackluster of a life, take a journey, to learn me, and figure shit out, rise up again to bout, whatever may come, try not to forget where I'm from, or the people I've met along the way, pray they stay ok, and then, when we meet again, we've grown, built our own home, fulfilled our wildest dreams, wants wishes and needs, conquered all our fears, dried and survived tears, we can reminisce yester years, compare careers, husbands and wives, the storms we've weathered in our lives, trade and rave about pics, of our pets and kids, maybe mourn, those that've passed on and are gone, some who got locked up and are in prison, for making a bad or wrong decision, did we change the way we envisioned, or have we become robotic-like and conditioned, forgot fun and the joy of living, all those innocent pranks jokes kidding and sinning, after all anything's ok in moderation, don't forget to also give back to where u can from, it's a definite obligation, so others can experience the same sensation, get entertainment, hanging with the bestest friends you've got for life, that's right we're super duper tight, growing up in lil Rhode Island, got plenty of fond childhood memories that leave me smiling!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/18/09

Settling On Revolutionary Road

I embarked on the deep dark revolutionary road, one of the most honest relationship rhetorical question asking stories told, on how our fate and futures are supposed to unfold, one person sacrifices their self, until loves not strong enough to help, and you become unable to feel, the difference between if you're dreaming crazy or for real, except u expect to stay stuck, in the god awful rut, getting caught up in a type of life, where things just don't seem right, working at a job u can't stand, cuz it's your responsibility to bring home the bacon and be the man, cash in hand, always a back up plan, and don't forget to have passion, acting and reacting, be spontaneous enough to get up and start packing, traveling instead of portraying the victim entrapped and, lagging sagging you're dragging, getting all mad and, constantly unhappy, sick of your misdirected anger at me, it's a travesty, how you've become a stranger in a tragedy, would u still love me if I got fatty, maybe unexpectedly pregnant, will u stand and support an abortion to end it, so I can fulfill my ambitions, mystic futuristic hopes wishes and visions, this isn't one of those I just chose decisions, we're both stuck in love's prison system, wondering who made up these rules, and proclaimed these insane have tos, such an impossible fossil a ring brings insisting forever I dos, we're all way plain fools, cuz nothing lasts forever, and the sun doesn't blast whenever, we get lost in that first moving moment, that you pray and wish u could duplicate and drone it, keep repeating the feeling, the lusting wanting and needing, but surely unfortunately ordinarily things always change, yes the unforgettable memory remains, permanently stains the brain, it's quite lame and a shame, not realizing what u had's sad, and sometimes makes u so mad, and after that in fact feel a tad bad, it took losing and bruising your heart, unaware we were both there with fear from the start, it's hard, to maintain independence confidence and trust, which is a must, to cuss and fuss, not just let us bust, but realize how it's wise, to not foolishly try and strive to collide lives, I despise marriage's expectations and lies, it'll be our downfall and demise, do u know you've got to go and grow with the times, together weather thru the grind, expand hold hands and minds, however stay clever to see the signs, that things went sour and are no longer fine, maybe it's best, to stop the pleasantries and jest, own up to a failing grade on the test, instead of living with regrets, show some backbone condone with my poem and let it be known no one should ever have to settle for less!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/25/09

Age Of Enlightenment

Life is filled with so many intangibles, that can be wicked hard to handle, add in the fact I'm a gemini, yet u still don't understand why, I'm just super intense and extreme, always striving to explore more of the gray area in between, reality is in color not black and white, love can't necessarily be heard or in sight, like oxygen ghosts or the almighty god, when will awful atrocities war and famine stop, true artists and philosophers have become endangered if not already extinct, who cares if ur short bald and ur feet stink, the hottest jocks do too, manly men hate deodorant perfume and shampoo boo, my only exception is vanilla, what's more vicious a chihuahua or chinchilla, the smallest dogs have the biggest bark and bite, can't we agree no matter what breed they have bottomless pits for an appetite, it's awful to perpetuate stereotypes or falsely label someone, words can creep deep especially those jokes said in sarcastic fun, enough suicide has happened cuz of ignorant bullies and malevolent rulers, old people aren't useless they are unofficial teachers and tudors, same goes for women and gay men, let's not relive/repeat the horrible depression and dark ages again, who will be the next messiah that's heaven sent, get's us all to simply get stoned/bent, which will hopefully help lift us up to the age of enlightenment!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/24/15

U Really Want To Help

I'm tired of life's direction, and this country's inability to cast an educated vote in any recent election, for 8 years now I've been quietly suffering, numbing my mind with all the trees I've been puffing, nobody wanted to heed the warning signs, so you're just like the prisoners of Guantanamo Bay stuck to your confines, not only are Americans sexually frustrated, extremely obese or completely emaciated, misdirecting anger and bitterness cuz our own government conned us, but we enjoy hopelessly wiggling and squirming in bondage, the rich are masters and the poor are their slaves, gagged with duct tape and shackled with chains if anyone complains or misbehaves, we corrupt every idea, rule by fear, don't make or build anything, forget exporting we import everything, we are the equivalent of drug dealing middle men, our fiscal policy is spend and spend again and again, increasing the deficit to outlandish proportions, bailing out big banks and values, increase our taxes to pay for their snafus, when will this sadist masochisticness cease, my guess would be right around the time the Middle East seeks peace, be sure not to hold your breath, unless u want to meet your eminent suffocating death, my discourse would be the thirds some remorse, actualize globalization, country leaders should learn to have face to face confrontation, stop all the warfare, show u care by the millions of lives u spare, I refuse to stoop to your level of sniveling and smarmy, let's go back to the days where the presidents were the generals leading the army, I bet Bush wouldn't have the cohonez to stand up and fight, instead of dividing and conquering us he might preach like Obama to unite, all war seems to be, is conflict between two people who fight cowardly, u chicken shit hypocrite, tell another mother it's their sons' duty to die a patriot, if u mean what u say and u really want to help, how bout u do us all the favor and kill yourself!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/5/08

Uncensored & Unedited

No joke, I'm broke, without hope, and no place to go, which way, in this crazy maze, I've taken four rights, to be precise, basically standing still, too weary and dreary to climb the next hexed hill, until, a spark, so I utter hark, heard harsh shots, just being fired, have a caffeine fix to nix being tired, I'm wicked anticipating, when waiting, praying for some inspiration, to  help express the best tested, I want to invest in it innovation, a must mention invention and here's your invitation, I've got a whole entire collection that's amazing, written/spoken word integration, u can listen to see and read, lyrics so unbelievably real and deep, filled with honesty, about being a minority, conveying it bothers me, how I can't find where I belong, but credit's due for staying strong, in another era I bet, I'd already be dead, people used to not live so long, now instead I worry I'll be the only one to mourn, other friends and family already all gone, with no legitimate spawn, by being gay did I live life wrong, I'm constantly consciously torn, will my soul move on or be reborn, scorned, how do I begin, to even fit in again, I need a whole new outlook and focus, I'll transform into a locust, a beautiful killer, a written and spitting murderous verses pillar, one of the cornerstones that helped to lay the foundation, to the new wave where u rave u crave this poetry sensation, it's hypnotic, erotic, cathartic magic potion sort of tonic, that I hope spreads like that plague we all call bubonic, that sheds light on the dark side, instills confidence and self pride, so nobody stays inside, or has to try and hide, shadows won't exist it's so bright, u too should stand up to fight for what's right, gain some insight, to why there's so much plight, eight years this country's old government, was utterly ugly super repulsively repugnant, stuck the middle class in dungeons, while their corrupted records got expunges, blacks in fact pack cells already overcrowded, all our retirement pension and savings have been devoured, we don't even know when we've reached the darkest hour, it's ok if u fray the struggle will make u empowered, the seed to fulfill your needs and passion has sprouted, now learn how to go and flow with it, making old English teachers illiterate, with my gifted riveted rhetoric, effectively esoteric, impressive, they're not so easy to comprehend, unless u let the mind unwind then entwine and bend, it's my mental  practice and exercise, workout to be knowledgeable and wise, I'll be a great, it's fate, cuz change comes over time, and I'm primed to shine, paying bills won't be a priority of mine, I'll be a successful, intellectual who gets paid to share my creatively stated opinion, experience high class living, breach the space/time continuum, reach and teach future generations, even average Joe's have revelations, my new motto and financial plan, only non phony cash in hand, I make my destiny...I am my own man, I'm now in command and demand, to start to cut back but especially on fuel, using alternative energy's wicked cool, polluting our environment isn't...it's cruel, we need to end pork barrel spending, no more pretending, I've got money debiting and crediting, forgetting, bankruptcy and unemployment are evident, and eminent, but my optimistic sentiment, is thank God for our newly elected black president, his profound impact will eternally be unmeasured, just like my a capella spoken word record, where my poems will be untouched unchanged and will forever remain enedited and uncensored!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/10/09

Let Go Of Control

You can't be in control, so you might as well let dumb things go, instead of getting all worked up and frustrated, and your stomach and guts get all braided, tied up in knots, so u go out for drinks and shots, but wake up in the morning with a hangover, and u feel pain in the back of your neck and shoulder, your problems are still unresolved and linger, the aggravation leads to u pointing the finger, blaming anyone else, thinking deferring responsibility helps, sometimes you should take time to reevaluate your own life, and try to alleviate the excess conflict and strife, maybe take some yoga classes, to stop those boiling-over mad relapses, where u just explode, mystified once you're realized u only reaped what u sowed, all actions  have consequences, too caught up on offense and hence u neglect your defenses, which often wins the game, there shouldn't be any shame, a stalemate can be great, especially in chess or a debate, that way the score says even Steven, neither party's grieving, and all men are still created equal, that way people learn for real violence perpetuated evil, endless fighting is feeble, animal-like and barbaric, anger and rage consumes rationality so u won't hear it, not an excuse but the explanation, maybe it was just simple miscommunication, take some time to calm down and cool off, instead of antagonizing situations saying sarcastic comments bumbling while u scoff, don't go gossiping more assumptions, start whisperings and mumblings, trying to persuade the others to your side, which would balloon your already big head with false pride, underestimating your competition, will escort u down the road to perdition, a bigger army doesn't automatically mean u win, u get screwed with too many cards when your opponent proclaims gin, overloading your plate, often leads to waste, overpopulation gets overwhelming, it's difficult to direct over everybody yelling, channeling chaos and confusion, to humans power and control is really an unattainable allusion, or is it all just an illusion?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
8/10/09

Justifiable Reason

It hurts when the person u want to give your heart to, is just not that into u, Joe knows, that's how my life story goes, every guy I like turns out to be straight, how long will it be that I have to wait, where is the love, is it written in the sky above, there's a soul mate out there for everyone, look to your friends...oh wait I have none, that look at me that way, most guys are sexually insecure and afraid, once u say you're straight I can't escape it, I'd never force myself on u I'm not a rapist, I can't seem to fit in, so I settle and give in to this lonely life I'm living, it's all about compromise, but it's the lack of effort from u that I really despise, any relationship is between two people, the time and energy u put into it can't be feeble, or it breaks and fades away, and I wind up alone for yet another day, my come on lines are quite atrocious, which is odd cuz I'd consider myself precocious, it's ironic that I'm usually outgoing, but around a hot guy my shyness starts showing, the skill of drinking and smoking I've mastered, but when I get nervous I become a sarcastic bastard, I hide behind a joke, I like to pry and love to poke, so I get to know u, I'm not interested in immediately blowing u, I've wanted to love for so long, when the opportunity arises I must come on too strong, I try to have low or no expectations, but I'm so bored all the time I can't help contemplating, planning for a future together, but if it don't go my way I'm down for whatever, I'm laid back and flexible, different unique and special, I believe in monogamy, I got a past too so yours doesn't bother me, I'll put my love in your hands, as long as I'm the one your hear demands, let's get wrinkled and old, use each others body heat when it gets too cold, be my king for this queen size bed, and bury yourself next to me when we're dead, with u I'd live long and prosper, but without u I'd act like a monster, always angry and mean, I wouldn't groom myself or stay clean, show everyone that I'm repulsive, act all crazy and compulsive, turn to the streets for a happy home, and finally give gossips a justifiable reason why I'm still alone!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/1/08

Where's There Righteous & Virtuous Leaders

It seems some people fiend, for robotic-like routine, having their lives mapped out, don't enjoy spontaneity or roaming about, aimlessly, gazing as we, nomadically, radically, travel, and try to unravel, the mystery, of our journey, or the purpose of our existence, put the puzzle pieces together without assistance, or resisting looking at the box cheating, demeaning the reason, the whole idea of trial and error, making mistakes that'll help u to become better, so u can survive stormy weather, break any confines used to tether, or restrain u, life's a giant catch twenty-two, it's conundrum, is achieving equilibrium, finding balance between extremes, do u know what the ying yang theory means, everyone has a complimenting opposite in the world, whether it be a boy or a girl, intelligence conquers discrimination, sees past the images of sex and race and, allows freedom and equality, improving legislation and policy, so nobody is unfairly or unjustly treated, and the awful atrocities of past civilizations hopefully won't be repeated, perpetuating a never ending cycle, to suddenly break it a trifle, involves randomness, abandon this, old notion, land stops at the ocean, which just suggests, our wits are being put to the test, it's time to spice things up and get creative, show them what we all our made of, that you're not just a mindless drone, who can only think monotone, we're multifaceted, and almost elastic, with the ability to bounce back, handle any sort of whack attack, conquer and prosper, win a Nobel Peace Prize Grammy and an Oscar, reign supreme, because u understand we all are a team, you'll never be consumed or plagued by greed, you're indeed, the real deal God soldier, so this honor was collectively decided to be bestowed on ya, a golden crown, without a doubt, may u rule by and for the people, fight to eradicate the forces of evil, a modern day Jesus resurrected, elected to keep the righteous and virtuous forever protected!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/22/09

I To We

Please God give me strength, to carry on and go the length, I'm used to walking alone, no matter how much I bitch and moan, my wants turn to needs, but u don't earn love by doing good deeds, I'm so tired of being lonely, meeting fakes liars and phonies, the first few weeks are usually great, til the point it's obvious they're not my soul mate, if I exist aren't there others like me, that can help change the pronoun from I to we, maybe that's the curse with being gay, instead of finding the complimenting opposite I'm searching for he who looks and acts the same way, opposites attract is a law of physics, maybe homosexuality is an unanswerable law of mystics, maybe it's man's misinterpretation of the bible, the apostles should be charged with libel, portraying Mary Magdeline a whore, perpetuating an eternal man vs. woman war, demoralizing women to hide in the shadows, subliminal brainwashing them to idolize the shallow, teach it's all about appearances and perception, put on makeup a disguise lie and try to hide with deception, it's hard to break down walls to get in deep, I'm only human but it's about the promises I do keep, u can't please everyone so just learn to respect yourself, you'd be surprised how strong u are when there's no one to help, it's a fact girls can take more pain than guys, a man couldn't survive birthing a child no matter how hard he tries, yet man is considered the dominant sex, the better athletes biologically stronger and lead the best, I'm a gay male but realize we all need each other, no matter what sex or race whether you're religious or prestigious I'll still treat u like a brother, cuz u know I got nothing but love for a sister or mother, we all need social interaction and relationships, saying you'd rather be alone's just being a hypocrite, as long as we both realize to strive, for love is necessary and needs work to stay alive!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/28/08

Home Of the Brave

I can understand feeling like u want to die, but I can't fathom following through with actually committing suicide, especially for just being outed as gay, there's got to be another way, sexuality isn't something u choose, when killing yourself loved ones lose, it's too tough to mourn through, carrying on without u, seeing those beautiful lifeless eyes, would undoubtedly be my demise, a life cut short and abbreviated, cuz it was the only way u knew how to alleviate it, all the suffering hurt and pain, repeatedly felt day after day, being constantly nagged ragged on and bullied, picked on beat up and sullied, kids can often be extremely cruel, use hateful words as an abusive tool, to make themselves feel better, while adults are quick to tether and fetter, to gain dominance and control, they'll show u the cold side to their soul, utilize intimidation tactics, that are borderline crazy and drastic, trying to get u scared, since people can easily be manipulated and managed through fear, discrimination is running rampant, and I really can't stand it, self confidence comes with age, however during the puberty stage, the young one's hormones are in a rage, thank God it's only a phase, and eventually they'll mature, hopefully find passion or maybe more, like figuring out what purpose they're here for, the reason for their existence, they definitely need to develop resistance, build up a bit of that thick skin, I know my patience often runs thin, particularly, when I let others effect and get to me, who really cares what the collective "they" say or think, the individual is an endangered species on the verge of going extinct, the world's turning robotic, originality's rare or scarce and gone exotic, lots of women and many men, get caught up simply emulating, when the power lies within each of us, to reach and dig deep where we have the guts, to stand up for your own convictions, despite plight or popularity's addiction, stop listening and giving in, to the majority's unsolicited opinion, if we could learn to embrace our differences, unity provides strength that is limitless, of course going against the grain can leave splinters, we totally need more revolutionary and forward thinkers, who aren't afraid to throw down and bout, instead of these pushovers ready to lay down or gracefully bow out, it's about time we realign, develop a stronger spine, and handle business, the current mentality that exists is, it's ok to settle back down or cave, when I thought this was the land of the free and home of the brave!

Peace and 1,
JC
11/2/10

Balance

I need to develop the talent, to find balance, it's irrational thinking extreme, perfection and equilibrium are beautifully in between, I've heard when your social life's gone to shit, asking for a raise is legitimate, I try to be a well rounded human being, but too much work and stress keep people from seeing, the good side of me, instead there's just loneliness and misery, try to keep a smile, be less aggressive and more docile, I'm a bit over opinionated, everything's ok to be debated, I have no patience, for stupidity and rationale that doesn't make sense, I'm a workaholic, pothead and borderline alcoholic, I don't claim to be Joe know it all, but I know what rises must fall, it's the law of gravity, if not accidental it's done savagely, I'd never steal rape or ravage, to live a lifestyle that's lavish, I get what I want thru hard work, I've earned every God damn one of my perks, I put my head down and push ahead, knowing I can't take my money when I'm buried and dead, I try to keep a grip on reality instead of fantasy, with adult ADD standing still alone makes me antsy, it's like Martin Luther King Jr said, "I have a dream" but mine's gay equality instead, I have to believe that dreams come true, but be weary they don't overwhelm and consume u, it's hard to live in the moment, pay respect to the past cuz u own it, while keeping a blind eye where you're unknowingly going open, remain humble keep your pessimism from showing, keep growing and learning, striving and yearning, to be better than before, without being ignorantly mauled over by mower, aimlessly running around like a chicken with its head cut off, don't mistake my being nice as me being weak or soft, I may be a lover not a fighter, a licker or kisser but not a biter, but I'm tired of the good hearted going unloved, the nice guys being pushed and shoved, the idea of chivalry's far too ancient, complacent in a relation with an asshole u believe u can change him, u think u want the bad boy cuz he's wild in bed, but instead u get fucked up and crazy in the head, I never saw the fascination, with the Asian revelation, can't understand privatization, or encouraging massive amounts of education, I find in the real world it's all about experience, too much book smarts resonates ivy league arrogance, I'd rather learn from the streets, adapt to stand on my own two feet, in this great big world, u can't run and hide like a pussy...excuse me...a girl, there'll be times when you're applauded for the things you've been doing, but you'll also be met with some hatred and a whole lot of booing and poo pooing, just cuz u wishfully close your eyes, all of existence doesn't suddenly meet its demise, no matter how hard u try, the sun will set and tomorrow it will rise, and the tides fluctuate from lows to highs, there's no such thing as lil fibs or white lies, everything that lives will eventually die, if it's your turn don't be shy, otherwise your life will be filled with regret, it's all about balance please don't forget!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/24/08

Global Mutiny

There's no excuse, why I can't produce, a double deuce, and speak more truths, shit on the notion there's absolute proof, the legacy of Jesus isn't just a farce or a spoof, it's time to take the youths off mute, and intrude, without a bout or an oral spout I'm not about to exude rude, or have a bad attitude, when I approach the moat, I'll hurdle and float, no need for a life preserver or boat, I've already broke your choke hold, stopped u dead in your tracks fast, forced u to reverse back, divert to last, must keep my defenses  in tact, I've learned to mask my attack, pay attention to the skills u lack, in fact, I'm pretty strategic, don't need to fake being bulimic or paraplegic, to get noticed, if u didn't know this, my methodology's premeditated and calculated, I can make your heart all palpitated, beating erratic and crazy, pressure doesn't phase me, it gets my adrenaline pumping, and my survival of the fittest mentality trumping, all of my thoughts and emotions, u can't stop radiation from atom bomb explosions, everything gets annihilated and destroyed, the boy and all his toys, all the other innocent children, it takes centuries for life to begin again and then, there are major complications, without any hope for vaccinations, to cure deformities and abnormalities, or psychological repercussions such as multiple personalities and realities, actually being passed onto future generations, which sucks cuz our government never pays reparations, even if they are to blame, they'll take u out the game, if u don't remain tame, and quiet, don't get smart or try to start a riot, astutely, try to claim mutiny, they'll immediately, commence shooting freely, before u even get to spread the message, people should stay true to traditions and heritage, if u think globalization is the bee's knees all that and great, take part with me in an open debate, and I'll create a list that will state, why it's not, it's how it all starts, everyone then becomes destined old farts, outdated robots, without competition, or opposition, progress comes to a halt, isn't it the follower's fault, no one is there to pave the way, or to say wait, is it too late for me to at least change what I believe fight for individuality and ultimately change my own fate? 

Peace and 1,
JC
3/7/09

Gone To Shit

No legitimate warning for global warming, with SUVs minivans and trucks swarming, the roads are packed, pollutions running rampant we all know that's a fact, all these natural disasters, man thinking he's God is a factor, hurricane Katrina, floods in the Midwest that could make a pool out of a football arena, forests catching fire, hurricanes tornadoes violent rains aspire, polar ice caps melting, our way of life is dying and no one seems to be belting, or screaming out in protest, I must attest, it's not just one mans fault, fighting over oil needs to come to a hault, let's find other renewable energy resources, even let schools have creating green energy courses, put all our heads together to come up with a solution, find ways to reverse the damage from all our abusing, man made problems, need another man to understand and solve them, that's how God works, creating people with their own quirks, opposites attract, they even pick up the slack, stop blaming other people, when the evidence u didn't lend a hand is feeble, let's get smart, driving a hybrid is a start, how about all these supposed billionaires, give money back to the country and show they care, times are tough, I'm living rough, starving myself every day of the week, only eat two meals to pay for electricity and heat, I'm not looking for a hand out, but if u have some work to do why not give me a shout, all I know this world's gone to shit, our ancestors would be having a fit, that's it I quit, u ignore my pleas and I don't like it a bit, I may be young, but I too have felt a bees stung, I haven't been alive for many years, but I have life experience that has driven me to tears, I'm made of blood, and sometimes I need a hug, and told it'll all be alright, just hold on tight, patience is a virtue, and not all people are out to hurt you, have some faith in mankind, things will get better you've just gotta give it some time!

Peace and 1,
JC
7/1/08

The Last Laugh

Lately it seems, I smoke trees, and shit just comes to me, like an epiphany, pick a topic, drop it, an insanely craving it, crazy brainy form of entertainment, plus when I get high I'm gabby, a regular chatty Kathy, don't even dream to ask me, what I'm thinking, my lines intertwine in my mind quicker than blinking, it's somewhat trippy, a gift that's pretty nifty, envied with antipathy, don't poke fun but still cleverly witty, and because I'm Gemini I can be a bit shifty, but not shady, I'm aware that life and experiences change me, people may be strangely angry, flagrantly mangy, mutts, or what I now refer to as shmuckputz, u and your make believe Indian giving sunburns and cuts, I'm not falling for your tricks, like walking with my shoelaces tied together on my kicks, or looking up cause gullible's written on the ceiling, while u rig poker with your freaky sneaky underhanded dealing, u secretly u repeatedly cheated, so u could remain an elite member of the undefeated, I don't know why, I mean I shouldn't be surprised, with your lack of integrity, honoring your pedigree, did u intentionally, try to offend me, to end up an enemy, or an arch rival, competitively viable, no more wasting time, u swine, I'm fine, and will someday shine, victory will be mine, I'll be glorified and pined, you're probably just being an antagonistic little shit, and nobody wants to hear or deal with your hissy fit, always hate losing and complaining, especially in monopoly when your money's waning, maybe now all your hot air will start deflating, and you'll sit there til we finish playing patiently waiting, u win some u lose some, shake hands it's done, dwelling on the past is dumb, eventually the pain will numb, take your turn to lurk in the dirt, while I sit with this smirk, cause u may have won first, but I won second and third, u do the math, I wound up having the last laugh!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/19/09

Past Perpetuates Par

It's hard to forget the pain from the past, it can hurt as u get older how time goes by so fast, the way loved ones mistreated u can often leave a scar, in developing new relationships a lack of trust becomes par, thinking everyone has an ulterior motive, they'll say anything to get what they want leaving the truth sugar-coated, once there is a seed planted filling u with doubt, it's hard to believe the words coming out of any person's mouth, are they lying and conniving, or honestly replying which is surprising, almost too good to be true, I'm not falling for that trick again to play the fool, I think you're just being nice to get close to me, so that u can fulfill your undercover sexual need, u got to be careful in love not to get too paranoid, otherwise your heart will be left with a huge void, sometimes it's hard I know but u got to move on, let down your guard a bit and get your groove on, I'm not saying to be naive slutty or stupid, but it's not just on Valentine's Day to pay attention to cupid, u can still be romantic and cautious, although too many butterflies can make u nauseous, try to maintain honesty and integrity, avoid being judgmental thinking you're better than me, it's nice to be wanted and held, felt up and spelled, lust can make it seem like you're under some magical power, would u consider a condom as powerful an aphrodisiac as a flower, both insinuate and instigate love, now get some petroleum jelly and start to lube up, anything to help your sex drive enhance, after all life and love are all about risk and chance, sure there's a million possibilities of how things can go wrong, AIDs STDs like herpes on his shlong, but they say it's better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all, some relationships move at a fast pace while some slowly crawl, whichever speed u decide to choose, as long as there's a strong foundation of love and respect u can never lose!

Peace and 1
JC
12/3/08

What Are My Fans Called

If my nickname is JC then should my fans be called disciples or apostles, it's always interesting to see their ages ranging from toddlers to fossils, some with or without those wretched tonsils, tons of Gretas and even a few Hansels, i welcome all who read and/or listen, let's break out of money's prison, this ain't no funny business, happiness is the key to bliss, no amount of dough u know can buy it, i refuse to compromise shit, which in past tense becomes shat, I'm competitive and love to go tick for tack, but who will be the first to call toe, only peeps I grew up with know me as Joe, or more intimately as Joey, no one can duplicate or clone me, I'm one of a kind, not overtly sexy but damn fine, with that smile and chinky eyes, I'm a superhero that doesnt fly, instead writes rhymes, trying to save the world one crime at a time!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/15/15

Hush Little Baby Don't Say A Word

It's genuine genetics, u must accept this, consider it imperative, too always remember your heritage, it explains, the pain, why I'm plain, but estranged, making me deranged, and insane, I feel inane, always need to show restraint, don't black out or faint, forget how to function and use your brain, you are who u are, and who you've been so far, a combination of what u do and say, you;re not necessarily doomed just because you're gay, and it's still ok, to talk to God and pray, He'll lift and pick u up, carry u with the strength of His love, there He will miraculously be, unquestionably, and now u believe, but only after the the reprieve, and u see, one set of footprints in the sand, u finally get it and understand, all along He concocted this mischievous to bliss duplicitousness of a plan, He's got the whole world in His hands, but never demands, more than i Can suffer to stand, there will indubitably be, the right for me to pursue being happy, I maintain my right to stay silent, defiant, constantly trying, to exercise my ultimate prized, that I, still have free will, u wholly and solely determine whether your destiny's fulfilled, He delineates us not by our very petty silly abilities, whether or not u show some humility, have religious fertility, despite plight and life's volatility, the antonym of stability, we are defined by our choices, and He would never ever use His power to exploit us, oh so merciful Lord, for whom I've idolized worshiped and adored, it's tough but cut the umbilical chord, I'll reactively but tactfully, make all my wishes hopes dreams and visions an actuality, u must trust I'll straight up construct what's just including veracity in reality, leave no wounded soldier or casualty, gain the knowledge on how, to do u proud, without, losing sight, with what's right, for me, so...I smoke trees, please, no more pleas, does that make it unable for us to live in harmony, or u alongside me, peacefully, or am I just unforgivably, a sinner in the way that I'm living, too badly ghastly nasty of a person to be forgiven, u blackmail me into your prison, a cell, where I listen as u tell, your rationale, why I'm going to hell, spare me the peachy preachy cheeky speachy lecture, I don't like your tone's texture, you're a judgmental expector, unethical and a moral infector, your nagging negative thinking, is the reason I'm multiple level sinking, stinking and shrinking, in an instant, an inevitable parental visit, when u immediately tense up and are inhibited, those moments should be labeled illicit and prohibited, diverting u back to when u bibbed it, your mom and dad controlled and rigged it, treating like you're still their little baby, presumably lazy, maybe u exude frailty, like u need to be taken care of, sprinkled with tough love, don't bother to utter or say a single word, u continuously religiously remain refrained from and unheard, it's overt that it hurt, fulfilling other people's needs, following parental beliefs, forced to study the bible, encouraged to be the devil's rival, for an acquittal verdict in God's final trial, lead, and be, an ample example, don't leave things to chance or gamble, you'll get trampled, ravaged like a plate of the breakfast great eggs scrambled, whoops toots I ramble, can u stand it, off again on a tangent, a little sneaky and underhanded, couldn't be any better if I planned it, I'm just that good, totally misunderstood, so what...I spill my guts, gush mush, it's a must, and before I feel the need to mess this up and cuss, I probably should shut up and hush!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/9/09

I Hate Censorship

For the first time, I was told to censor my rhymes, remain restrained tame and refrain from profanity, letting a single vulgarity slip would be the ultimate calamity, ahhhh all this hypocritical insanity, demanded of me, teaching believing words commit crimes, what about a mime that signs, H-E-doublle hockey sticks, think about how long that take to depict, haven't u heard the truth, guns and knives take lives but words can't hurt u fool, unless u let them, perpetuate or repeat that poo poo again, the way I figure it, Jimminy Cricket, crud or fudge, can smudge, a swear word, to soften the hurt, but if you're asking me to eat dung hun and politely brightly smile, your itty bitty bum bum's gonna hurt from sitting waiting for a very long while, that's not my style, I tell it like it is, no sugar coating it for the kids, after all  isn't honesty, known to be the best policy, parents can u tell my why, it's ok for u to lie, don't I have a say or the right to decide, if it effects me the final decision should be mine, thanks for all your protection, but I've got to cast my own vote in an election, not express your view, what u want and expect of me might not be what I choose to do, and if u try to order me to, count on a coo, cause i'm not just a hollow body u can possess or vicariously live thru, and I refuse to be a puppetted pawn with my strings being pulled and controlled by u!

Peace and 1,
JC
11/26/09

The Superficial Choice

They say u got a choice, then destroy and censor the voice, all I see is superficiality, people play fake oh so casually, and naturally being a nice guy becomes my casualty, I think you're blatantly flagrantly and unashamingly playing with me, your gracious fakeness is apparently transparent see, and I definitely don't desire another parent or marriage mentality, someone always smothering, hovering over mothering one another and, then the other disrespects refuses to protect the brother in the gutter, I'll try not to sta sta studder, detailing how too much kindness too soon is suffocating, keep those elaborate talismans and gifts patiently waiting, or they'll start staying playing and preying, it's the money they're emulating, it's so unhealthy, the sleazy greedy stealthily seek the wealthy, u can't help me, my mind's blind, and I don't know why, I feel unfazed dazed and hazed, relationships are an uncharted maze, that I can't see straight ahead or right, I'll never be loved if I can't risk being disliked, I want to gain fame and insane popularity, I ignore your flaws and your remarks made disparagingly, shit happens B, but not all things end tragically or happily, don't misdirect and snap at me, laugh at or treat me crappy, I'll slap a G, and put a cap in his knee, if I have to I'll ignore your gums flapping rapidly, you're all talk, why crawl when u can walk, it's rude to gawk, and creepy to stalk, have some guts to say what's up, and if I offend u ask what the fuck, finding love is tough luck, u stay stuck, when u in fact act like and immature shmuck, just keep it real, the true u has mass appeal, tell me what u feel, trust and honesty may help seal the deal, since my heart is nearly impossible to steal, when u hurt me I don't heal, u only get one chance there's no appeal, i'm tired of your sly lies and your confusionous useless noise, take your sentence with poise, you're only an illusion of a good choice!

Peace and 1
JC
7/30/08

Joe Vaccapella

I'll give writing another shot again, but you've got to listen to the messages I'm trying to send, mixing rap with poetry, and u know it's me, with my Joe Vaccapella, Joe Conscious has got to tell ya, the Absolut truth the real deal, expressing exactly what I feel, give emotions words, it's almost absurd, and the vocabulary is crazy, the life lessons taught aren't hazy, because I'm edgy and gripping, I take the time to memorize adlibbing, so my voice has the proper inflection, I give each piece my complete attention, and when it's being recited, it's almost like I'm in front of u writing it, so authentic totally in the zone and, entirely engrossed in the moment, there's an undeniable connection, that's contagious like an infection, but it's like I'm talking only to u, there's no one else in the room, willing to share their whole soul, avoid all paranoia and just let go, seems nobody says embarrassing personal shit openly, or shows vulnerability knowingly, men typically analytically think that makes them weak, underestimate sensitivity as easy to defeat, I personally believe, I'm just portraying me, fuck what anybody else says or thinks, even if my stuff stinks, you'll never take my passion away, or make me afraid, I learned a long time ago, for every friend there's a foe, unfortunately u can't please everyone, so i'm done, as long as I'm happy, who cares if other people hate or disrespectfully laugh at me?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/20/10

Lord Forgive Me

I'm choking, from too much smoking, and withholding, hurtful words that deserve to heard and spoken, instead I'm left speechless, from our future's bleakness, this economic's catastrophic uniqueness, I beseech and plea please, these bailouts adding to the deficit means, more taxes and fees, geez, will it ever cease, so consumers can again be at ease, no more of a lending freeze, America's financial system being plagued by disease, we are so quick to forget, which makes me fret, how did we originally get into this mess, let me just take one wild guess, 8 years of President Bush, isn't that enough of a cue for republicans to shush, we all should give each other a kick in the tush, letting our morals turn to mush, consumed by stupidity, inequity, we've ultimately lost liberty, please Lord forgive me, for not speaking out loud, proving I'm well endowed, gay and proud, and sticking up for my community and crowd, I'm totally ashamed, I feel mutilated and maimed, how our great country's  legacy's been defamed, it's pitiful and repugnant, some are even rooting against this newly elected democratic government, hoping there's continuously higher unemployment, and more troop deployment, presidential overexposure, waiting for Barack to lose his composure, as the dollar and Dow seem to plummet, would things go well at the G-20 summit, or was a new currency created, since our stability faded, fiscal responsibility got tainted, degraded, antiquated, should money be spent or saved is constantly debated, all I know, is we still have a long ass way to go, we need to breathe hope, and elope, from the strict moral code of the Pope, things are not always black and white, perpetually instilling separatism isnt right, Christianity is way too exclusive, yet abusively intrusive, that's it, I quit being a hypocrite, and have made my final decision, I will not transform to fit your vision, practice your religion, change my sexual preference or the way that i'm living, God is much more forgiving, and i'm pretty sure He didn't create Earth to be a prison, or for me to play your prey falling victim to this crooked prejudiced system, ruled by your illusive conducive ignorance and imbecilism!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/31/10

Can't Stop Won't Stop

How do I begin to apologize for my behavior, no matter what I can't be humanity's savior, but i can be a positive role model instead, just got discharged from the prison inside my head, like Pink I'm Not Dead yet, i easily lose patience and get irately upset, when prejudice  and discrimination are running rampant, peeps be all up in arms cuz I'm being too overtly critical and candid, on point for sure but too much to take, i promise to never again flake, especially on my big brother, just cuz I'm gay doesn't mean we are secret lovers, i need more positivity laughter and silliness, life isn't simple or about willy nilly bliss, it's about having a good support system, openly love more and listen, i must again say sorry tho to my RI family and friends, i hope u know I'm a ride or die guy here with yall til the end, let's find peace and those Better Dayz like Pac, don't u know by now that Joe Conscious can't stop won't stop!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/12/15

Phoenix Rise

OMG baby, where have u been lately, I've been patiently waiting anxiously, check mate b, hope u don't hate me, I've got too much passion drive courage and bravery, tho I try to better myself, every now and then we all need a lil help, helping others can help us help ourselves, now I  know I'm not an ornamental trophy laid displayed on a shelf, my lyrical beauty makes any soulful heart simply melt, I'm great at playing the hand I'm dealt, what if the only way to heaven is hell, I'll keep my change and throw myself into the well, since some of yall think I stink/smell, i will survive tho cuz the anti gravity  law always applies, i shall like a Phoenix be reborn from the ashes and rise!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/11/5