Steep Climb Uphill Against The Grain

No good deed goes unpunished, why is watching other people's misery sort of funnish, capitalism causes competition, socialism will never come to fruition, like righteousness it's been bastardized, almost everyone judges expects plays pretend and lies, faking shit til u make it, leaves u naked wasted, and they're all laughing at u, the opposite of strapping and cool, don't label me fat dude, sorry I'm an old school romantic/prude, so I'm not slutty sleeping around, instead of tabloid comedy I'd rather be conscious truthful and profound, intelligence and raw talent, is as endangered as men who are honorable and valient, elders forget respect is earned not automatically given, I can't help thinking this is hell on earth we're living, evil corruption and greed, has taken power control and the lead, life's not fair and being nice don't get u paid, working like a slave to pay bills can't be our only fate, I'd rather choose the grave, hanging on listening to Pac's "Still I Rise" "Unconditional Love" and "Better Dayz", while my grandma religiously prays, I'm navigating this crazy maze, trying to lead by example, experiment with trial and error or get trampled, ain't got time for standing still, success is a steep climb uphill, totally against the grain, sick and tired of being labeled mentally unstable/insane, I'm simply an intensely passionate and driven artistic gemini, and I'm not a sinner wrong or a bad guy just cuz I'm a gay white rapper who loves making music and getting high, aint no relationship like me and Mary Jane, it eases my anxiety depression hurt and pain, it's in fact medicine, but I'm not justifying or defending myself to u again, take me as I am, and please stop stifling me with insisting no u can't!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/30/16

In The Gutter On The Shitter

I get the best rhymes sometimes taking a shit, lately I haven't been handling this morbid abyss, a crossroads limbo transitional phase, never really fit in with the straights or the gays, it ain't easy being a homo bro, and nobody really knows tho, a white lgbt activist poet rapper singer songwriter and very kinky, I'm a stubborn passionate genuinely nice kind hearted dramatic sensitive guys guy and a lil bit over thinkery, I'm a philosophical analyzer, an ask whyer while getting existentially higher, some say too serious and intense, most don't need therapy they simply need better quality friends, or a more loving supportive family, which doesn't include u if u can't tolerate like or even stand me, I hate lack of follow thru dude being ghosted or benched, I'm used to athletes with their sweaty man scents, in fact I kinda dig it, let me get a whiff or sniff, excuse the boner, hope u won't lay there like ur in a coma, u better wiggle and squirm, u literally saran wrapped duct taped worm, ironically a jock or daddy mummy, it's humiliating but hot sexy and pretty funny, my mind's always in the gutter, I'm a wild and crazy dirty mutha phucker, I don't watch porn I'm the star, stop being so sexually repressed and just express urself and what gets u all leaky chubby or better yet throbbing hard!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/27/16

Let The Indy Lead

Only being positive, avoiding and neglecting its opposite, is so damn pc, it frustrates and aggravates me, to absolutely no end, we can't be friends, I'm too antagonistic/sarcastic, ya'll are stepford robots made from plastic, like cancer ur hazardous, humans are fallible and disastrous, so afraid of the truth, we all are immigrants with transplanted roots, telephone is a fun game, explains why history is a waste of time and it's a damn lame shame, cuz we're doomed to repeat it, doesn't anybody else see shit, thru the bs and illusion of freedom change and choice, I think I'm this generation's revolutionary gay activist voice, profound and wise beyond my years, not afraid of shame fame or exploiting my flaws and fears, not too proud to cry or admit I'm wrong, not a cocky arrogant narcissistic dick cuz I know I write record and perform the best original songs, that have inspiring poetic lyrical thought provoking classic timeless messages, but can't seem to awaken the collective's consciousness from all these chemtrails mind control and subliminal sedatives, I just want this election to be over, put the power on Bernie's shoulders, and make Hill or Jill first female VP, and let the idealistic Jewish democratic socialist who's indy lead!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/26/16

Doesn't Make Any Logical Or Common Sense

I don't know what happy or love is, cuz like family friends hugs and education it's all money or business, I hate this life, ya'll so quick to invalidate my strife, keep ur worry and pity, along with ur misunderstanding of empathy vs sympathy, don't look down on me from ur self made pedestal, give sarcastic criticism while u pass judgment considering it helpful to meddle, perpetually hide behind innocent good intentioned white lies, without evidence or proof of harm or danger yet u still deny my right to smoke pot and get high, even tho it's medicine for my bipolar brain's adhd and my manic soul's anxiety, don't think u comprehend to me it seems ur paying lip service and trying to buy me, but my love can't be purchased thru materialistic possessions, take back ur false idols fake fairy tales and ur pretend affection that I was one of ur life's greatest blessings, forcing me to live out my safety net back up plan or second choice, cuz sorry to say babe but ur just an average Joe with a decent voice, ur way too intense unbalanced and not really that special, so negative serious and passionately mental, perhaps if u can just write for somebody else, none of ur bullying options nor unhypothsized opinions help, I don't need therapy or psych meds, don't ya'll understand I use meditation working out poetry pot and music instead, I just want to be wanted and needed by my family and friends, think about it from my end what ur absense and silence meant, no closure just ghosted and benched, being in butler twice just doesn't make any logical or common sense, when or why can't I have a lil intimacy validation or have u put the necessary energy into making some quality Joey V time, actually read or have a listen to one of my songs and rhymes, tell me which ones were killer lines, perhaps u have trouble following cuz that happens alot of times, the best way to solve that problem tho I find, is to simply press that classic magical button rewind, I promise the more u listen, ull existentially awaken to see and believe the conscious idealistic peaceful utopia I envision!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/22/16

My Magical Manifestation

I'm sorry I'm such a failure, but in my opinion I'm a way better songwriter than Adele Mariah Bruno Meghan and Taylor, and def any other hip hop artist, like Lauryn I feel I know I've worked the hardest, to both sing and rap, and not just do pop garbage whack crap, I guess I'm just a gullible naive sap, if I thought I cld tell a stranger I'm a gay white rapper and they wldnt scoff or laugh, I'm used to being underestimated and never appreciated, once born ur a slave and ur devalued/instantly depreciated, the world is ruled by money fear and hatred, they've bastardized virtuosity righteousness truth love and all that's sacred, I am not the enemy, I don't believe anyone who's ever said to be a friend to me, if u continue to help hurt me, I am absolutely capable and worthy, to do what I want and choose to do, and I will no longer apologize for saying what I mean finishing and actually following thru, especially when it comes to achieving success happiness and still fulfill my dreams, watch me prove u all wrong change the world and magically manifest what wasn't as impossible as ya'll made it seem, so now I know and learned the difference, between what's wrong with me and other people's misunderstanding discrimination and ignorance!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/21/16

Life Is A Nightmare

Can't sleep cuz of the nightmares, seems nobody cares, repetitive hollow bullshit I love yous, can't even empathically walk in my shoes, u can do anything u put ur kind mind to, oh except music dude, dad says so, my self esteem is low, I'm suicidal, can't afford pot varietals, keep working as a slave, but don't count on retirement or paid sick days, money is the root of all evil, and that's why I don't trust people, ya'll think it's the only purpose, lack of fun and consciousness really hurts us, I don't think I can get up from this homicidal rock bottom fall, I no longer believe in love or have faith at all so fuck ya'll, leave me alone, I no longer feel I have family or a home, I'm a lost abandoned pup, that has a ton of passion and talent but no luck, life ain't fair and it totally sucks, still waiting on my fed and state tax return bucks, but it's me and my fault cuz u say I'm lazy, u don't like me or wanna talk to me so that makes me clinically crazy, u cared more about ur precious car, u lied to me when u said just be true to who u are, somethings apparently shld never be tried, the day my family tag teamed and bullied me into not standing up for myself is the day both the music and my soulful spirit died!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/21/16