Monday, December 11, 2017

Fuck Glammy Shammy Chestnuts We Got S'Mores

Getting more and more into the holiday spirit, we say we're listening but do u hear it, sleigh bells ringing, carolers singing, the jolly joy in the air, one of my biggest fears, is people spending xmas alone, all are welcome to our Italian home, with tons of food to eat, kick off ur shoes and relax ur feet, it's time for celebration and cheer, we leave eggnog for Santa and carrots for the reindeer, make sure the kids are to bed early, believing isn't just for children it's for the big and burly, have a lil faith, show some amazing grace, it's all about family, ignore the cheesy glammy and shammy, just go with it, ho ho ho and shit, cuz it only comes once a year, teach the youth how to give and share, there are so many less fortunate, since the 1% keep hoarding it, u know all the wealth, be grateful for ur health, now's the chance, to rejoice and dance, to the songs by the Queen Mariah, let her voice take u higher, and touch the heavens, I just wanna be with and cuddle Kevin, fuck chestnuts let's roast s'mores, don't get all stressed out doing chores, it's for a good cause, no thanks needed or applause, the smile on their faces, wipes away and erases, the frustration and resentment, make peace and betterment, a global New Years resolution/mission, happiness isn't a condition, like fulfillment it's a purpose, nobody is worthless, every single person has value, donate not for a write off or cuz u have to, helping others helps ourselves, do u know the words to "Frosty The Snowman" and "Jingle Bells", how about the spoof versions, I have a feeling old Jack Frost is somewhere lingering and lurking, ready to blow snow, ur whole body shivers from just cold toes, don't forget the hat and mittens or gloves, cherish the ones u love, but remember those we've lost, Grandma K was a boss, and I'm sure she's with us always in our hearts, I sure do miss her a lot, and not just for her cooking and desserts, but whenever I was sick she was my nurse, yet now I have a man, nobody spoils me the way he can, he gives me everything I need, we minimally decorated with window candles a tree and some wreaths, I know it sounds rather chintzy, but anymore and I would've become kinda Grinchy, I've gotten lazier as I've gotten older, a lack of financial stability has put added weight on my shoulders, I'm really struggling to just get by, trying not to let my soul turn black like a dead guy, I'd rather shine like a bright white light, guiding ya'll thru the deep dark night, full moon style or similar to the north star, cuz whether ur near or far, it reminds u to be who u truly are, we set our own bar and par, so keep dreaming and believing, never letting anyone or anything ruin ur holiday season!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/11/17 

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

He's My Cup Of Tea

Lately before I go to sleep I pray, that tomorrow things will start to go his way, I've been in his position before, I think at some point we all want more, especially at a time when it seems like all is lost, to me he'll always be my sexy boss, he's so magnetic and charming, when he's down in the dumps it's alarming, cuz he's a fighter, hand him my lighter, so he can destress smoking a cig, at home is no place for him to live, it is literally hell, all the stories he tells, are straight up sad and disheartening, I understand why he's hardening, his soul has lost hope and trust, which has diminished his lust, I feel he's giving up, how do u help someone u love, when it's beyond ur control, when he's not around there's a huge hole, I miss cuddling with him, wish we could both get permanent jobs so our life together can begin, start a family of our own, build ourselves a happy home, just like everybody else, simply seeing him makes me melt, I know he's not everyone's cup of tea, but he does it for me, on every single level, he even nags me when I get lazy and disheveled, we shave each other's heads, we could spend all day in bed, he's a great caretaker and an amazing cook, it's true what they say how love finds u when u don't look, he's my support system my light, yes we often bicker and fight, but there's no one else I'd rather do it with, after all perfection is only a myth, no relationship is flawless, many people think he's gorgeous, sorry not sorry but he's all mine, doesn't have to try to wine and dine, I want to be there, continue to show how much I care, reciprocity is so important to me, I hate it when he has to leave, someday soon I know, there will be no woahs, just lots of joy, of course boys need toys, and I have quite a few in mind, cherish each moment cuz there's no rewind, leave the past behind, don't get too caught up in the day to day grind, u can work too much, shouldn't let money be a crutch, it's meant to be spent, not debt free but have made a substantial dent, I'll keep persistently chipping away, I'm not afraid, he gives me the confidence to be brave, just one kiss from his lips and I'm saved, like I can conquer the world, no matter the curve balls hurled, or how many punches the universe throws, like a see-saw we all experience highs and lows, whether we yo-yo or ying-yang, always stay true to u and do ur thang, everything has a reason purpose and meaning, u ain't dreaming, this is reality, don't become another tragedy, u shouldn't strive to be the best, only we get to decide and define success, won't settle for less, don't care if he's a mess, fuck alcohol pot shrooms or pills, as long as I've got my man I'm happy and fulfilled, !

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/6/17

Friday, December 1, 2017

Excess Power & Money Is Lethal & Should Be Illegal

Jobs can get real old fast, but don't look back on those that didn't last, everything happens for a reason, I often wonder if I'm worthy and have meaning, nothing I truly want or desire comes to fruition, people think I'm naive and ignorant for what I'm dreaming and wishing, I mean honestly Joe a Grammy, most don't understand me, that poetry and music are my passion, I refuse to settle and not take action, I will die trying, lately I've been crying, cuz I don't seem to get the results I was hoping for, shouldn't start doping more, to numb the pain, I'm done playing games, u can call me names, think I'm only after fortune and fame, but that's so far from the truth, I want a modest wardrobe car and roof, I'd rather travel, avoid jail or the judge's gravel, cuz I ain't no ghetto gangster or thug, I wanna spread consciousness and more love, cuz the world needs it especially now, I am confused as to when or how, this country will make a turn around or about, too many powerful misusing their clout, what's wrong with people, why are we perpetuating evil, victim blaming and shaming, do u even hear what these rap artists are saying, their lyrics are misogynistic demeaning and disgusting, I don't wanna be the product of crazy stalkers envying or lusting, which some may think is a compliment or flattering, stop excusing assaulting and battering, let's start investigating the current President, everyone deserves a fair trial verdict instead of anonymous allegations without evidence, what happened to innocent til proven guilty, I think we can all be a lil disrespectful overly flirtatious and filthy, dirty talk can be hot, but it matters if the desire was consensual or not, cuz then it becomes rape, which shouldn't be used to exploit or get revenge against a bad boss celebrity or a regretful date, society's gone awry, hell must've froze over and pigs can fly, perhaps maybe the sky is falling, we're not heeding God or mother nature calling, instead we go on polluting, unempathetic is what we're exuding, lacking compassion, proclaiming the homeless unemployed poor are lazy and simply slacking, less and less helping donating or giving, what kind of life are we living, ruled by money and fear, it isn't funny our own government doesn't care, their totally self serving and preserving, yet we apparently aren't deserving nor learning, falling for the same old shticks and tricks, like we're being persecuted just for kicks, 99% of us slaves, worked to the bone/our graves, which we dug ourselves, why don't the rich share the wealth, I mean when one person has billions of dollars that's unnecessary, redistribution shouldn't be discretionary, that type of concentration must be illegal, cuz especially when it comes to the economy that is surely lethal!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/1/17

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Oh Well

Full of mixed emotions, between high school drama and commotion, and celebrating 7 months, some people can be cunts, I don't like ultimatums or choosing sides, the best relationships endure thru both low and high times, I find the 9 to 5 grind, divides hearts and minds, where best friends become estranged, the one constant is things always change, it's how we adapt, not letting distance or the weeks that lapsed, come between us, is as difficult as differentiating love from just lust, marriage takes guts, many think it's nuts, to be with one person, especially with over population lurking, there are a plethora of fish in the sea, speaking metaphorically, the trick is finding another who can put up and tolerate u, along with all the quirky pet peeves we have and do, I mean I know I'm crazy, can be stubborn and occasionally lazy, as well as a loud mouth, who loves to verbally spar and bout, to my own detriment, I'm trying to focus more on my betterment, growing and evolving, quietly problem solving, instead of being Mr. know-it-all, I too am a human who fallibly falters and falls, very far from perfect, can admit when I earned or deserved it a guilty verdict, cuz I fucked up, now the door's stuck shut, slammed in my face, feel awfully bad/disgraced, rather be sprayed with mace, and would do whatever it takes, to make things right, I stay away at night, thinking about what I did wrong, often express myself thru poetry or song, it would be a lie to apologize, so I guess it's my fault for the demise, I was never really a part of that group, meaning there's no loss to recapture or recoup, but that doesn't diminish my sadness, this world's being corrupted by chaos and madness, and we're all we got, like it or not, we need each other, I always considered u a brother, I'm sorry I don't care for ur wife, but like my song says "That's Life", "and the bullshit won't quit", so folks that's it, I won't be attending my besty's bday bowling party, and I'd imagine my invites will be rare and pretty spotty, but oh well, if u couldn't tell, I'm gonna simply move on, maybe our past moment was a fluke or a true con, driven by circumstance and dumb luck, do u find it hard to openly just trust, because of old memories, if so what's the therapy/cure/remedy, how do u not only forgive but forget, and not let that shit get u upset, I try not to hate or wish anyone dead, over analyze shady situations in my head, gotta learn to let it go, pick my battles and avoid low blows, sinking to a vengeful level, which reminds me how often war helps to settle, it doesn't, let me make that abundantly clear if it wasn't, since ignorance believes truth is moot, u can dispute proof, but claims of fake news have been disproved, perhaps ur afraid to be incorrect or lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/22/17     

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Pray For My Unforgettable Special Sentimental Exceptional Essential Pretzel/Soulmate

Please send hopes best wishes and prayers, to so many struggling loved ones we hold dear, whether financially burdened, or their health's hurting, this world's becoming a very dark and scary place, can't help but wonder and fear fate, the good are dying young, too much work and no fun, leaves the hard working poor stressed, debit and credit card debt's a mess, from being unemployed so long, my savings is gone, I can't even give to help, cuz I won't have enough for myself, why all the evil and hate, we are being disgraced, corruption is progressing, cuz of Trump I'm guessing, the deplorables are out in droves, infiltrating hearts and homes, so it's impossible to tell who the bad guys are, I don't need flashy jewels or cars, just wanna get from point A to B, fuck living in the lap of luxury, I'd rather remain humble and modest, a decent day job a partner and the ability to pursue music if I'm being honest, so I can afford an apartment with my man, he's my biggest fan, believing in me even when I don't, wish I had a cushion so I wouldn't be afraid to rock the boat, and go after my passion/dream, we make an undeniably sexy team, but mainly he is my rock, not just a big cock dom top, he's compassionate and caring, positively brave and daring, putting me first, not being able to reciprocate hurts, he melts the pressure anxiety and pain, yet his problems are driving me insane, I can't do anything so the frustration keeps building, I'm ready able and willing, to do whatever it is I have to, to increase our worth and value, he deserves a fair shot, but the odds are against him a lot, so he falls thru the cracks, I want him to know we unconditionally got each other's backs, thru the thick and the thin, I truly believe he will eventually win, not only get up on his feet, but thrive and succeed, he's so determined and driven, to never relapse or go to prison, he has not only changed but grown, it's not about what he has or owns, I love him just because, he is more than enough, fulfilling all my lust wants and needs, he should focus on what he eats and sleep, both are so so important, he comes off a bit like an orphan, cuz his family doesn't accept him nor treat him right, everyday they bicker and fight, belittle and insult him, yet I very rarely hear him sulking, I just want to do more, to help him be happy at his core, he's such an amazing guy, I'm super duper lucky I get to call him mine, he's a diamond in the rough/one in a million, he makes every moment I'm with him exciting and thrilling, our chemistry is electric, we're both so competitive, and in many ways complimenting opposites, he lifts my self esteem up from feeling like a fat ugly troll or hobbit, he's undeniably special, putting up with me when I'm a mental stressful vessel of a devil, a rebel spectacle that stubbornly argues and verbally wrestles, who'd never settle for a potential speckle of time together in our penciled schedules, he's got several fine essential qualities/exceptional credentials, and there's no one I'd rather be intertwined with like a pretzel, with a high level of sentimental, I often wonder if he was the real inspiration behind the song "Unforgettable"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/21/17   

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Let's Make Earth Great

Looking to help, inspire myself, lately I've been feeling down and depressed, like I'm less than best, which is actually just fine, perfection is similar to the horizon line, receding as we approach, perhaps I need a life coach, cuz this relationship, got me hating shit, like gossiping rumors, swastika humor, offensiveness isn't funny, I'm not always smiley nor sunny, got a wide range of emotion, what's all the commotion, not all gays are pedophiles and not all pedophiles are gay, Kevin Spacey came out the wrong way, and set our community back ages, Dems are finally winning some races, it's about damn time, evil has been stoked and primed, ruling thru fear and hate, let's make Earth great, not just one country, I miss music that's soulful and sultry, with some intellect and depth, most these rappers and singers are inept, when it comes to songwriting, videos are consumed with sexy thong sightings, cuz it's what sells, true talent's gone to hell, I'm sure Britney and Madonna are entertaining, but I wanna hear them vocally straining, instead of dancing lip syncing, concerts are more about drugging and drinking, I want fun experiences with substance, it's not size but circumference, how u work the girth, making love shouldn't hurt, was it pleasurable, success and happiness are immeasurable, and have nothing to do with wealth, never shelf ur health, ur body is ur one and only temple, it's not a rental, appreciate what uve got, like it or not, God made u beautiful, ur morals ought to be immovable, where's our ethics and pride, so many epic classic artists have died, yet nobody's stepping up, fuck skills it's who u know and dumb luck, the industry like our government is greedy and corrupt, awww shucks it's rough and tough, cuz ur not buff enough, trust u need that 6 pack lust, can't be short bald and fat, people closest to u will stab u in the back, for fortune and fame, commence the blame game, they're mad u didn't share with them, what will it take to get me to care again, poetry is my therapy, to get the better me, reread and observe, solutions and answers lurk, somewhere within, when will the healing begin, criticism makes me defensive, fulfilling my dream's expensive, humans don't use history to learn lessons, failure can ironically be a blessing, it's how u react, stop rationalizing with alternative facts, no matter how hard u try, u can't justify a lie, when the truth's aloof, it breeds fools and goofs, who in turn produce ignorant slaves, we desperately need to existentially elevate and change our ways, before we're doomed and it's too late, don't have the luxury to wait, I've heard ya'll say ull pray, religious extremists are intertwined with the KKK, black white guy girl trans gay bi or straight, we all must unite together to alter our destiny/fate!

Peace and 1, 
Joe Conscious
11/15/17 

Friday, November 10, 2017

Heart Of Gold With A Whole Lotta Soul

I'm not the easiest person to have a relationship with, tho true love takes work it's a rare gift, nothing is perfect, it's ok to make a mistake if u learn from it, I'm a hot headed loud stubborn Italian, and boy is my man a stallion, can cook kind and considerate, many may think we're illegitimate, but we're 100% real, we don't care to hear ur judgments or how u feel, unless it's a compliment, we don't need no marriage certificate/document, to validate what we have, when he gets hit on I just laugh, cuz I know u ain't got a chance, I wish I could better dance, since he loves to do that, he's super supportive and always has my back, believes in me even when I don't, sometimes I regret what I said and wrote, cuz it was out of anger, it's sad when a good childhood friend becomes a stranger, fame brings fortune along with danger, but since neither one of us could afford Patti Stanger, we used Scruff, he claims to have zip tie cuffs, which I find hot and sexy, the best thing about him is he gets and accepts me, we gotta figure out how to agree to disagree, be together monogamously yet still be free, to live some semblance of our old lives, I hate that I'm sometimes the cause of his hives, I stress him out, when we constantly bicker and bout, I'm naturally combative antagonistic and defensive, I find mere existence unnecessarily expensive and offensive, especially education and health insurance, fines and penalties should be a deterrence, not bankrupt people to go broke, the judicial system like government's a joke, in total chaos and ruins, the sheeple pay more attention to the Sox Patriots and Bruins, don't even get me started on electoral college elected Trump, he's turning this country into a dump, how can he make America great again when it never was, no one holds him accountable for the awful atrocities he says and does, the rich are somehow exempt, I refuse to be a robotic slave who's kept, I don't want or need no sugar daddy, I ain't no worthless dumb faggy fatty, I try to stay fit, seriously don't give a shit, if u like me or not, I give all that I got, to fulfill my hopes wishes dreams and desires, when people tell me I can't I simply reach higher, watch me prove u wrong, then write and inspire with another phenomenal song, I'm talented and skilled, can move u and give chills, very driven and strong willed, I pay my own bills, and still help others, treat everyone with respect like they're my sisters and brothers, got a heart of gold, this shorty bald white boy's got a whole lotta soul, wanna make this world a safer peaceful place, leading by example with poise dignity style and grace, so unique and different, time flies by in the blink of an instant, seize every opportunity and moment, take ur destiny back and own it, the power lies within, remember that in order to finish we must begin!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/10/17

Thursday, November 9, 2017

A Catch & A Find

I know it seems like things are impossibly hard, fuck batteries wish the Energizer Bunny would charge his heart, my poor baby, there's no ifs ands buts or maybes, I promise it will get better, we can conquer anything together, focus on your health, while I work on our wealth, ur new job's only a couple weeks away, don't let ur hopeful positive optimism diminish or fray, ur stronger than u think, tho u feel on the edge/brink, it isn't over til that fat lady sings, u don't understand the amount of happiness and joy ur simple presence brings, I had given up, on ever finding true love, forget getting married, I don't wanna wind up Mariah Careyed, super successful but alone, I want us to make our own beautiful home, where u cook and clean, we have passionate kinky sex like fiends, but we both fulfill our dreams, an unstoppable team, ur the light of my life, with a big bear hug u melt the pain and strife, I miss ur kiss, being in ur arms is sheer unadulterated bliss, u inspire me, spark fire and glee, to warm my soul, time and space takes a toll, but it won't destroy us, this isn't just boy lust, tho ur my first, only u quench my thirst, believe me I've looked all over, u hold the weight of the world on ur shoulders, but u don't have to anymore, stand beside me on many tours, when I perform concerts in stadiums and arenas, if ur my Zeus I guess I'm Athena, I'm totally ok with that, knowing uve got my back, I can be brave, when I'm around u I have trouble trying to behave, cuz u make me so horny, awkward babbling and corny, I lose my nerve, being without u hurts, I've tried, lied and cried, ask myself why, what would I do if u died, never getting the chance to have that dance with my husband, I'm reluctant while he's untrusting, we both want a monogamous relationship of substance, I prefer karaoke bars over clubbing, quite the complimenting opposites, he wants country while I'm more metropolis, but there's always compromise, to homogenize our lives, nothing's perfect, but it's worth it, striving to blend, heal and mend, when fighting and bickering, our eternal flame's flickering, but refuses to burn out, every dead end is a turnabout, and when there's a fork in the road, a mountain or moat, flip a coin climb fly or boat, don't gloat, stay humble and kind, he's a catch and I'm a find, two peas in a pod, he's my king/God, I exist to worship, no cats cuz we're both allergic, Lucifer was the devil, and altho he's fun to revel, we are forces of good, knowing we did all we could, to make a difference, ignoring the gossiping and whisperings, following our guts, we'll dig ourselves out of any ruts, rise thrive and prosper, as fathers instill proper honor, whether naturally born or can adopt, either way we won't be stopped, there's absolutely no limits, but ya'll will be in awe when it's all said and done and we're finally finished!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/9/17

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Bout Doubt Obnoxious Unconsciousness & Incompetence

We all grow and evolve, changing is a problem like pollution that's not easy to solve, learn and adapt, don't get defensive and attack, cuz ur partner annoyingly nags, he's insecure about the excessive fb tags from fags and hags, it's all about trust, ur the one I lust, no one else, love urself, have hope and faith, our relationship would be great, if u focused on ur own plight and strife, ur lucky to find a soulmate in this life, that's more concerned with money materialism and wealth, than success happiness and health, why can't u chillax, my patience is filled to the max, I'm going to burst and explode, what would describe me better a fat ugly troll a meatball or toad, I see me as talented and beautiful, passionately driven not dutiful, I make music cuz it's my purpose, what did I do to deserve this, an existence plagued with epic failure, instead of hip hop and rap's savior, I'm unique and different, gay and white for instance, not gangster ghetto or hood, the middle class working poor are totally misunderstood, in debt cuz of forced education, being a kinky homo ruins my reputation, but don't doubt there's clout being out loud and proud, use words and lyricism to bout, obnoxious unconsciousness, what's with all the incompetence, I wanna connect inspire and relate, be considered one of the greats, not perfect or the best, refuse to settle for less, especially since I'm trying so damn hard, just cuz I'm sleeveless doesn't mean I don't wear my heart, I'm intelligent and smart, grateful for everything I've been given and got, I was raised right, I like being a "Beacon Of Light", which is my first track, do my songs have substance depth and a positive impact, that's what matters most to me, I can't afford to give away my art for free, I've invested too much, hate when people make a fuss, I'm just a regular person/average Joe, I do dream big tho, reach far "Beyond The Stars", not about mansions jewelry or cars, desperate for some fast cash, please buy my single "Monstah Mash", next up is "Keep Holding On", why don't we appreciate what we have til it's gone, and it's too late, wish I could predict my destiny/fate, I won't be ruled by fear or hate, how long do I have to wait, to become existentially fulfilled, can't start over again from scratch and rebuild, to be better the sixth time around, the repetitious grind is profound, for God sake, will I ever catch a break, why won't ya'll give me a chance, sorry not sorry I don't dance, but I can sure spit, a Gemini guy who's super sarcastic with pure wit, genuine straight forward and direct instead of obliquely cheeky, never meant to judge insult or be too preachy, that's not who I am, gimmicks and tricks are scams, I am 100% real, simply melodically express how I feel, always strive to do as I say and say what I'll do, we gotta collectively stay strong and true to let "Truth Love & Consciousness" "Shine Thru"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/8/17

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Don't Rely On Drugs Bucks Or Luck Just Hugs & Love

Hate how money rules my life, it's the cause of most my anguish and strife, if only I had more, I'll tell ya'll what I'd use it for, to make conscious poetic hip hop music, I wouldn't be wasteful and abuse it, I'd share the wealth, focus on better health, could buy organic food, would I be considered shrewd, with it comes power and respect, I'd have to boost security to help protect, everybody wants some, perhaps I'd actually have time for vacation and fun, it's been years, paycheck to paycheck I'm consumed with fear, what if I lose my job again, I can't keep overextending family and friends, I'm even sick of me, wish education and insurance were free, like all the other first world countries, the hypocrisy of our capitalistic democracy isn't funny, it's tragically sad, and often makes me furiously mad, it's corrupt and greedy, why don't the 1% aid the 99% that are struggling and needy, no one said existence was fair, but their so selfish and don't even care, no one needs 5 cars and 3 homes, the majority of working poor can't get loans, the price of goods rises but not incomes, can't afford champagne to go with din sum, not that that sounds appealing, my art gives me a way of expressing how I'm feeling, and hopefully people can connect and relate, pray success is my destiny/fate, cuz I work extremely hard, expose both my soul and heart, putting it all on the line, with deep intellectually stimulating rhymes, it's not only my passion but my purpose, grow greater from experiencing things that hurt us, are u willing to go the length, and find ur inner strength, like love conquer all, get back up with u fall, and phoenixly rise, learn to compromise, but yet don't settle, mind ur own business u shouldn't meddle, focus on the present, altho the past is upsetting, it doesn't dictate what's to come, I won't forget where I'm from, stay humble and modest, genuine straight forward and honest, tomorrow is never promised, give the truth untarnished and unvarnished, there's no such thing as alternative facts, make sure u surround urself with real people who've got ur back, and won't stab u, do things cuz u want not have to, always try ur best, when u sin confess, we all are fallible and make mistakes, nothing's more annoying than fake flakes, ruining ur expectations hopes wishes and dreams, found my partner who works as a team, even when things are rough and tough, there's a foundation built on a whole lotta love, we won't ever give up, and don't rely on luck, tho it seems we're stuck and fucked, all we need is each other not dough or bucks, have enough materialistic possessions, I'm his and he's my obsession, we're addicted like drugs, and all my problems melt away with a kiss and a big bear hug!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/7/17 

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

I Write To Fight Nice

People are drawn to passion, now is the time for action, find something to do u love, smile at a stranger or give them a hug, spread a lil light, war ain't right, salute soldiers' sacrifice, giving up their life, so we can live better, we're stronger united together, let's be brave and free, nobody will censor me, u get both the good and the bad, Geminis switch from mellow to mad, in an instant, everybody is unique and different, it's all about adaptation empathy and acceptance, I question if music success is destined, but I have unwavering hope and faith, my problem is I lack the patience to wait, however I'm an extremely driven hard worker, wish I was a talented twerker, would be great in my video for Monstah Mash, hasn't yet caught fire to help bring in that cash, I don't do it for money, my sarcasm is more cynical truth than funny, and comes off assholishly mean, fuck being discrete, I'm a loud out and proud gay, who isn't afraid to stand up scream and "Shout" now like Otis Day, similar to Kelly Clarkson I wanna "Move U", don't be ignorant naive passive sheeple/fools, relate and connect, pay attention who u vote to elect, this divisiveness is scary, no offense but I want a rugged masculine man who's hairy, it's just a preference, when debating facts it's wise to quote a reference, gives words weight and clout, Pence prefers no homos allowed, hence tolerating Trump, yes we're a melting pot but seems we're becoming a dump, unsustainable and wasteful, why do rappers gotta be ghetto gangster misogynistic prejudice trash instead of intellectually conscious and tasteful, there's no more lyricism, democracy disguises imperialism, it's really about centralized banking and oil, the millennial generation are too lazy coddled and spoiled, but impressively more socialistic, CO2 is great for photosynthesis, terrible for the ozone environment and global warming, conservatives don't believe or heed scientific warnings, taken back to the dark ages, time heals but never erases, follow Pac when rapping "we need to start making some changes", so politically correct nothing phases or enrages, prices increase steadily but not our wages, stop listening to the haters, baby boomers should retire already, X-Ambassadors hit the metaphor on the head with "Unsteady", meanwhile I wanna be more like James Bay and "Let It Go", instead of Truman this is called the "Joe Show", the world revolves around my perception, apparently I'm exempt from heaven, cuz of my sexual proclivities, most fetishes and kinks are rather taboo gross and silly, but who am I to judge, Congress needs to compromise and budge, courts should be fair and just, there's a fine line between love and lust, got guts, or are u another putz, watching countless opportunities pass by, what do they say about the last guy, oh he's nice, fuck polite, I don't use fists to fight, I write!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/1/17

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Paused In Awe Amazed Jaw Dropping Gaze

Don't mean to delay dilly dally or doddle, there's so many financial obstacles, that get in the way, trying to make music today, big studios aren't worth it, but a record deal would seem perfect, until it's time to pay back what u owe, that's how many bankruptcies unfold, the trick is it's all about exposure, when the camera's rolling can u keep ur composure, do u get stage fright, fight for the limelight, or are u afraid of success, do u feel u tried ur best, in the end that's all that matters, many singers and rappers try to be actors, branding themselves, having sponsors and investors helps, believe me, money makes u free, from following the rules, allows u to pick and choose, without the stress or burden of bills and debt, not pursuing my passion would make me regret, it's my purpose and destiny, I care about lyrics and legacy, I write heartfelt thought provoking classics, sarcastic scholastic massive magic for the masses, to leisurely enjoy, I wanna be employed, hence the day job, I work and play hard, but I lack luck, consumed with mad mistrust, got guts and love, but it's not enough, perhaps I selfishly want too much, if one young gay boy or man fan is moved and touched, by the power of my words, it eradicates and erases the hurt, from feeling like a failure, altho paparazzi will probably nag and tail ya, it's the price of fame, this isn't just a hobby or a game, it's serious business, I watch the Grammys and think what is this, pop garbage art, lacking soul substance and heart, with one simple single, that makes even ur pimples tingle, I could become rich, gotta find my niche, my specific audience, not interested in shticks gimmicks or oversexualized gaudiness, judge me on my talent, my effort's been valiant, but I'm doing something wrong, everyone that listens to or sees me perform songs, can't stop their jaw dropping gaze, truly paused in awe amazed, my goal's to inspire and relate, strike up conscious debate, collaboration is great, hopefully RI isn't my fate, but if it is that's ok, tho I'm gay I'll still have faith and pray, I know it will continue to get better, with me and my man together, we're strong and resilient, existence is about finding happiness and fulfillment, focus on the now, don't wonder why or how, let shit go and let it be, change the pronoun from I to we, be whole instead of a half, find joy smile and laugh, remember everyone has a lil good and bad, may seem mad but really sad, appearances can be deceiving, all life has value should be mourned and deserves grieving, but death's not the end, while they're here take comfort and pride in ur family and friends, won't be long, til we're all gone, who knows if our spirit's reborn, deformed scorned, the devil's spawn, or beautiful angels in heaven soaring!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/26/17

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Unconditionally Believing Ur My #1

I'm over here crying, cuz I keep trying and trying, but there's no forward motion or luck, it's like I'm just stuck in a rut, that I can't seem to get out of, another bout with my love, it's a never ending battle, so easily shook shaken and rattled, such a big lapse of trust, fix this vast gap with cuddles kisses and hugs, lie close and tightly hold me, consolingly, allow the future to unravel and unfold free, could go for a Gansett Captain & Coke or cran and raspberry Stoli, it's been that kind of a year never mind week or day, a few people have said I'm too caught up with being gay, which I find a weird thing to hear, don't project onto me ur insecurities and fears, I'm sorry if my oppression offends u, ud rather be an ignorant naive buffoon prude who's a fool too to boot, I mean really, jokes may seem harmless and silly, but sometimes they cut deep, we're all going thru tough stuff nobody else sees, but we aren't alone, I was lucky enough to be raised in an amazing home, with unbelievably kind loving folks, growing up and old ain't no joke, doesn't get any easier, what u thought were friends show that they're actually deceivingly sleazier, we each own many masks, following thru with dreams goals and/or simple tasks, always take pride, don't lie shy away or hide, yes u are both smart and beautiful, love should be irrefutable immovable indisputable reusable computable irreducible so suitable it's pretty musical, magnificently magical, seems supernatural, we need to keep Earth habitable, am I sexy/grabbable, or a fat ugly sad nag, who doesn't appreciate anything he has, shouldn't use nigga or fag, I ain't mad, I'm hurt, feel devalued without worth, been cursed since birth, my height went toward my girth, and I'm bald too but I'm ok with that, unlike being betrayed let down or stabbed in the back, and especially whack rap, how and why do u even put up with the same crap, guess I'm just a sorry sap, hangry and desperately in need of a nap, finding it hard to find my smile and laugh, seal the latch and add that strap, so there's no escape, refuse to let love turn to hate, is solitude my fate, success is great, but I want to share it with someone, wish I didn't take life personally or so serious and had more fun, it's a one and done thang, I can't get it out my head u don't wanna hear me sang, retract ur claws and fangs, I ain't no William Hung trying do cover "She Bangs", I got real skills and talent, idolize the righteous virtuous and valiant, be as humble and honest as possible, only say improbable, to avoid manifest destinying being self defeating, all it takes is some hope faith and unconditionally believing, I'm retrieving achieving and seeing what I'm dreaming, my bright white light is beaming gleaming, express urself and what ur feeling, whatever ur logic reasoning and meaning, every relationship changes like seasons, may take time for healing and grieving, my heart's both beating and bleeding, I'm seething watching u leaving, I despise cooking and cleaning, it's only u I'm wanting and needing, begging and pleading, kneeling ready for pleasing, even a humiliating demeaning beating, if that's what it takes, to make up for all the mistakes I made, I'll stay chaste and depraved, give in bow down and cave, ur my fantasy man, understand I will do anything I can, so please just stop, on the list of priorities ur at the top!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/25/17

Friday, October 20, 2017

The Moral Man's Burden

If unconditional approval is what u seek, ur expectations will inevitably meet defeat, u can't please everyone hun, try not to take life too seriously have some fun, cuz u only wind up dead, stay grounded and keep a level head, as much as possible, make sure to say improbable, anything can be accomplished if we try, don't blindly accept shit ask why, too many have become numb and complacent, our laws have turned antiquated and ancient, what has to happen for us to dramatically change, this past election's outcome I still find deranged and strange, it just doesn't make sense, now more than ever this country's divided stressed and tense, constantly on edge, wish I had got my passport and fled, cuz I wanna live somewhere more socialistic, some define me as too emotionalistic, yes that is a word, underestimation and doubt hurts, I'm so sick and tired, of being a temp that never gets permanently hired, while my bosses receive promotions, u haven't seen a bipolar Gemini commotion, but I'm on the brink of breaking, my heart's aching from all the flaking and faking, people pretending their happy and available, yet their sexual appetite is insatiable, even ruining their sacred family, most don't stomach and can't stand me, so they won't give my hip hop a chance, sorry I can rap and semi sing but can't dance, guess I'm not a real entertainer then, if this doesn't work out for me I have to start all over again, what's this the 5th or 6th time, I must be going out of my mind, to have the audacity to believe, selling out stadiums and winning a Grammy is my destiny, I'm not arrogant or pompous just unapologetic, if u don't pursue or achieve ur dreams then ur pathetic, please stop taking it out on others, aren't we supposedly all sisters and brothers, which I find kinda disgusting, perhaps incest perpetuates the competitive curmudgeon, after all isn't existence, survival of the fittest and persistents, every man for themselves, I don't agree comparing or tearing down others helps, actually it makes me feel worse, like humanity is simply naturally cursed, society needs reversing, it's turned into the moral man's burden, when did evil triumph over good, am I not successful cuz I'm not black ghetto gangster trailer park or hood, it shouldn't take money to make it, let love conquer the hatred, embrace our unique differences talents and abilities, there's enough room for us all silly, no need to fight, if we individually focus on doing what's right, maybe darkness will see the light, there's always a dawn after the night, it's an endless cycle, I'm an original songwriter not some karaoke wannabe auditioning on The Voice X Factor AGT or American Idol, how come ya'll won't make room, if u continue to stifle my art I'm doomed, this is my purpose, otherwise I feel like a failure utterly meaningless and worthless, it's hard to maintain hope and faith, I lack the virtue of patience and can no longer wait, when do I deserve or earned my opportunity, I'm not doing it for selfish fortune or fame but for the young gay community, trying to give minorities a strong insightful voice, I'm not always dignified and poised, in fact I know I still got a lot to learn, but I consistently strive and yearn, to awaken our collective consciousness, prove and show there's more to the next generation than spoiled entitled laziness and incompetence, but baby boomers need to let go of control, trust that there are plenty of righteous inspirational capable souls ready to fill the voids and holes, we need new blood, to be brave courageously standing up for the truth justice equality and love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/20/17

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Limitless Felicitousness

This one's for us, all the minorities that lack the talent voice or guts, to stand up and fight, for what's fair just and right, trying to provide inspiration and hope, before more fall victim to guns or rope, suicide is no joke or hoax, what happened to our government sticking up for the poor and old folks, the collective has somehow lost its power, and it would seem we have approached our darkest hours, evil people now rule, employment has become an enslaving tool, slowly but sure eradicating the middle class, you can't pray away gay going to mass, or change the color of ur skin, shouldn't give in and let the devil win, it's never over or too late, we can take control of our destiny/fate, but u must open ur mind, explore more to see what u can find, start thinking with our hearts, being rich doesn't make u smart, u could be a liar cheat or thief, there's so much atrocity pain strife and grief, working hard no longer leads to success, it's almost impossible to get ahead or out of debt so we feel less, like no matter what we fail, money seems to be the holy grail, but it can't save our souls, imagine a world of no poverty hunger or homelessness just peace across the whole globe, I believe it can happen, why do we perpetually let ourselves be divided into individual factions, we're stronger and better together, I'm Houdini when it comes to being tied tethered and fettered, like Pinocchio we ain't got strings, I miss being moved when somebody sings, wish rap wasn't pretty much all crap, how do we bridge that gap, between record labels and skilled artists, aren't ya'll sick of these entitled narcissists, we used to idolize icons for a reason, celebrity has lost it's meaning, worshiping false prophets, hate like pollution is spreading with no answer on how to stop it, why hasn't the US taken the lead, helped the world go green, replace pharmaceuticals with holistic remedies, we're running out of room for dumps and cemeteries, religious leaders preachers and teachers have lost their way, when I think about the children I'm terrified and afraid, look at the legacy we're leaving, my blood's boiling and seething, consumed by frustration bitterness jealousy envy and anger, what happened to being kind and respectful to strangers, u never know what others have gone or are going thru, even if u do walk a mile in the same shoes, it's a metaphor dumb ass, where is the love and common sense I have to ask, the level of ignorance is alarming, same goes for Big Brother watching and monitoring, invading our privacy, music got destroyed by piracy, fuck digital, we're all a lil hypocritical, Rag'n'Bone Man said it best "I'm only human after all", the law of gravity states that which rises inevitably falls, "don't put ur blame on me", this used to be the land of the free, and home of the brave, please don't lay down wave ur white flag and cave, achieving glory takes consistent persistence, if no one else will step up I'll lead the resistance, I refuse to accept that's just the way it is, enough with the ruthless corrupt competitive corporate conglomerate big business, and this illogical wasteful unnecessary consumer culture, ya'll acting like sharks snakes monsters and vultures, yes sex sells, but paves the way to hell, we're defined by our reputation and actions yet only as good as our word, use abuse to motivate past the hurt, no pain no gain, sunshine comes after the moon and rain, it's time to let love's light shine, cuz when we unite and combine, felicitousness is limitless, and we can eradicate this listless frivolous vicious malicious wickedness!

Peace and 1,
10/19/17   

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Beating The Sheeple Pleasing & Teasing

I'm getting very worried, about my temp job and money, come the end of December, I will miss the security and sweet splendor, of having a 9 to 5, altho my true passion of music really makes me come alive, bur right now it's just a pipe dream hobby, no amount of hate or negativity can stop me, I am determined and driven, how dare anyone judge the way I'm living, keep ur jealousy to urself, in life we all need a lil help, I'm simply lucky and blessed, ain't no oracle so my future too is guess, financially I'm a mess, discouraged from failing success's test, I've lost my motivational hope and zest, never set out to be rich and famous or boast I'm the best, I just try hard, follow my heart, always been told, I'm an old soul, but time takes it toll, as I grow gray and cold, broke the mold, embracing being bold, unique and one of a kind, a brilliant mind, that over analyzes and questions too much, has trouble distinguishing love from lust, got guts, but blindly trust, believing in the good within people, ignoring the fact there's also inherently evil, the path we pick is a choice, still trying to fine tune my voice, learning my limits, refraining from gimmicks, but sick and tired of not catching a break, seems listeners prefer pop garbage commercialized fakes, lacking lyrical content and skills, I create thought provoking conscious songs to achieve happiness and become existentially fulfilled, writing is my therapy, fuck ya'll if u don't understand or get me, I don't do it for u, I'm done being a sheeple pleasing fool, I'm proud of all I've survived and accomplished, continue to try to be real genuine and honest, but I'm not perfect and never said I was, it's not what one says anyway it's about what he or she does, I religiously follow thru, I've had to restart from scratch every time I moved, I'm often shocked appalled and amazed, at the incredibly intelligent compassionate empath my public servant teacher parents raised, a lot less dazed and confused, same goes for being hazed from marijuana abuse, coping way better with stress, stopped hiding my insecurity behind sarcasm/jest, boy relationships aren't easy, especially when the gay community's so slutty and sleazy, trying to get in between and ruin us, wish I was a magician/illusionist, able to pretend to be happy, when 35 still living at home I feel like a failure miserable crabby and crappy, why do nay sayers gotta laugh at me when I mention my aspirations, I don't need all ur approbations, I'll sell out stadiums and get that Grammy, without having to sell myself or expose my fanny, sex may sell, but I don't want my reputation to go to hell, my pride isn't worth the cost, and I refuse to be bought, I'll make it on my own, eventually settle down and buy a home, but for now, I'm not gonna focus on how, just enjoy the journey/ride, no I won't close my eyes, they'll be wide open, this adventure doesn't require any tokens, it's simply what u make of it, instead of taking pics I poetically express it so other's can come along join or relate to shit, it's a god given gift, meant to help inspire and uplift, keep trying to fix the rift or shift, rap today's got me pissed, cuz it lacks meaning, while I'm contemplating the universe's existential reasoning, perhaps I'm too serious and deep, for so long I didn't make waves or utter a peep, if u cut me off I'll scoff swear or at least beep, I won't ever just accept defeat, my hot headed Italian Gemini stubbornness simply can't be beat!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/17/17 

Monday, October 16, 2017

Live Breathe & Believe With The Determination To Achieve

There are many things I'm not proud of, but I fly high on the wings of love, anger makes us say things we don't mean, everyone has vices a past and dreams, but do u have the courage to overcome all odds, the ability to reach far beyond the stars, to the intangibly unseen, success is something I fiend, not for financial reasons or the fame, life is nothing like the board game, it takes a lot of sacrificial hard work, when compromising I'm a jerk, cuz I take business personally and make decisions from my heart, I have a college degree but also extremely street savvy/smart, but I'm no better than anyone else, altho I'm not afraid to vulnerably ask for help, show my emotions, let my stubbornness cause a commotion, what can I say I have a big mouth, I don't use fists often I prefer to verbally bout, in other words debate, it's not about arguing blaming or hate, but my sarcasm can get in the way, I don't believe u can pray problems away, nor in an invisible man in the sky, I over analyze and inherently ask why, probably too many times, I don't understand the retort I'm fine, especially if ur not, defamation or hurting people is never my intentional or vindictive vengeful plot, I've got a good soul, I finally found a man who makes me feel whole, even tho we constantly bicker and fight, eventually we put aside who's wrong or right, getting back to basics, time heals but never erases, that's why we forgive but don't forget, not communicating to avoid me getting upset, isn't a justifiable excuse, we're all victims and perpetrators of some sort of abuse, using manipulation and lies, to trick others over to our side, disagreements aren't war, so what are those kind of hardcore tactics for, self defense is a natural reaction, just like when awkward situations happen I start laughing, I don't mean to do that, I need to exhibit more patience and tact, not letting my empathy, get the best of me, ruling my behavior, music is my savior, a universal language, helping me deal with pain frustration and anguish, when therapy booze or pot isn't enough, dealing with excessive stress is rough and tough, we gotta stop looking up, for someone else to come fill our cups, only u can make u fulfilled and happy, why do we perpetually go negative and nasty, instead of mature/classy, don't believe gossiping rumors just ask me, I'm spunky and sassy, but it can be a detriment, I change for embetterment, and for my health, ur existence isn't valued or defined by the amount of accumulated wealth, money doesn't buy joy, yes lots of materialistic things like cars yachts mansions other gadgets and toys, I've never been part of the club of good ole boys, pretending to be coy is a stupid ploy, just be humbly genuine, I aspire to exude respectable gentleman, perhaps also profound, being too seriously deep can bring a crowd down, yet truth consciousness and honesty, are very necessary compared to quiet politically correct modesty, there's a fine line, I'm not a kind mime, but a poetic thought provoking lyricist, never be consumed by fear resist, maybe we need a revolution, against corporate greed and pollution, for justice and equality, Trump's leading towards Revelations and Nostradamus's prophecies, I wanna go out on my own terms, schools teach history but we still haven't learned, should humanity accept defeat, are we doomed to cyclically repeat, I know we have only so much control, let's eradicate poverty hunger and homelessness to create peace around the globe, ask urself what legacy u wanna leave, then be like me always trying to strive with determination and achieve it while we're still alive and breathe! 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/16/17

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

For All The Ostracized & Excluded

Tho it may seem I haven't written anything negative, sharing it is simply no longer imperative, I've decided not to put certain things out in the universe, cuz I'm realizing like sticks and stones words hurt, but I can't deny I feel censored, wish I could be mentored, by Lauryn Mariah or Pac, I hear each and every tick tock, as I get closer to missing my chance, why are singers required to dance, every entertainer has their specialty/niche, talent skills and gifts, all the superfluous tricks gimmicks and shticks, can't fix the raw ability to sing or spit, but yes we can always improve, instead of emulating just do u, sure u can be inspired, but an exact replica isn't required, imitation is apparently the highest form of flattery, but I consider copy catting assault and battery, it's my image and reputation on the line, so I'm gonna take my time, getting my songs as close to perfect as I can, altho I understand I'm just a man, I strive to be my best, after all I define success, fuck record studios and contracts, I don't need ur bank roll or contacts, this is my divine destiny, and I could care less if u believe it's meant to be, cuz I do and that's what matters most, I'm too humble and modest to brag or boast, that's why I need a manager to help, promote and market myself, otherwise I come off as arrogant pompous and cocky, u really think I'm gonna let nay sayers and haters stop me, I don't give up, on my art or finding love, even with bad experiences and epic failure, whether or not u agree I'm hip hop's savior, I deserve and have earned some respect, unlike the President-elect, I pride on being a good person, that's why I continue working, I handle my responsibilities, my dreams aren't wishful thinking they're real possibilities, I'm not looking for fortune or fame/popularity, I seek existential happiness and clarity, fight for truth justice and equality, I'm not a gossipy wannabe progeny, consumed with misogyny hypocrisy bureaucracy autocracy dishonesty or despondency, but an uncommonly consciously prodigy, interested in philosophy and fulfilling my prophecy, most my poetry is insightful thought provoking and seriously deep not comedy, yes sarcastic and sassy, cuz that's me, a Gemini guy, who no longer lives life high, stoned out of my gourd, I don't blame or thank the Lord, I'm no longer religious but spiritual, this emcee isn't about the beat I'm lyrical, don't fear it tho, college educated and still empirical, extremely well rounded, rap music today's confounded, pisses me off, ya'll can laugh snicker or scoff, I don't mind if u can't stand me, my goal is to win that Grammy, and I'm rather quite determined, to eradicate impostors and money hungry vermin, I do this for the joy, and for all those other young white gay boys, who have ever felt ostracized or excluded, please open ur mind's eye and realize that u too can do it!   

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/10/17 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Tongue Twisting Rhymes Killing Time

Thru good times and bad, when ur happy or sad, music is the answer, whether ur a rapper singer songwriter or dancer, it's a universal language, whether inspiring positivity or inciting anguish, it connects people, love always triumphs over hate and evil, wake up and get conscious, a lack of lyricism is toxic and obnoxious, where's common sense and logic, when curve balls fly at ur face u gotta duck dive or dodge it, obstacles and hurdles means u need to jump, no one could've predicted a reality tv star President Trump, but hey that's what we got, whether we like it or not, sorry to get political, perhaps ud rather have Tom Riddle, in other words Voldemort, feel trapped in a windowless room with a bolted door, is Earth really hell, with all the atrocity and pain it's hard to tell, even worse than finding meaning and purpose, in the situations and circumstances that hurt us, especially our collective soul, as humans there's so much we don't know, we can't yield the power of the Gods, why in business do we lead with our minds and not our hearts, money is the root of what, believing achieving/fulfilling ur dreams takes passion drive and guts, can u muster the motivation or strength, to actually go the distance or length, or will u lay down and roll over, not everyone can handle the weight of the world on their shoulders, I'm not doing this selfishly for me, it's for the existential "we", I'm super seriously deep, thought provoking uncensored banishing ennui, listen as I'm killing time, with very clever vocabulary and tongue twisting rhymes, that'll make u think yet bob ur head, I'll sleep when I'm dead, cuz Nas said they're cousins, all of a sudden with a push of a button, dozens of gluttons, face Death's naturally punishing summons, and like Pac I'm wondering "how long will they mourn", uve been warned scorned and torn, since we've been born, how dare u surgically alter or morph to adorn, we're all beautifully special in the Lord's eyes, relationships are about communication and compromise, while life and existence is complicated finding equilibrium or balance, striving for perfection is noble and valiant, but it's like the horizon line receding as it's approached, wish there was some sort of instruction manual self help book or coach, cuz I'm still so lost and confused, can't watch anymore negative news, it's subliminal mental abuse, are we destined to lose, my perception's the truth is just a ruse, adversity and conflict seems to be my muse, waiting for the other ball or shoe to drop, maybe dooms day's destruction inevitably can't be stopped, what is our legacy, being classic's defined by longevity, epicness by brevity, where is our integrity, do u too excessively use alcohol and pot as stress therapy, we have a propensity for complexity codependency and supremacy, inherently infectiously incessantly inflexibly desperately and contemptuously have heredity a necessity/tendency/expectancy, for jealousy obscenity weaponry hegemony and inequity over empathy heavenly ecstasy revelry and transcendency!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/6/17

Thursday, October 5, 2017

Heal Hearts Minds Souls & The Whole World

I keep misdirecting anger, I've become but a stranger, looking in the mirror, wish I could see the future clearer, but it's all hopes wishes and dreams, nothing ever is as it seems, it's just illusions, so melodramatic thinking I'm destroyed and ruined, cuz things didn't go exactly as planned, sometimes we don't see the purpose or understand, why we go thru what we do, everything up until this point has made u, the person u are right now, I often can't contemplate how, did I even make it this far, and my heart didn't grow cold and hard, my soul is still intact, the truth is impossible to find in a world filled with alternative facts, am I the only one who thinks shit's gone crazy, the next generation is spoiled coddled and lazy, especially when it comes to work ethic, what's ur motto/method, to get thru life, with all the pain and strife, obstacles and hurdles, when things go south get rotten coagulated and curdled, which makes existence seem disgustingly gross and messy, miss the good old days taking high rides with the besty, now failed expectations define friendships, not to mention all the fun activities are expensive, especially food beaches sports games parking concerts or going to the movies, course u could sell sex if u got a big dick or boobies, be a pimp or a drug dealer, ain't nobody in hip hop more conscious or realer, fuck humble modesty, I'll give pure unadulterated uncensored honesty, try to be super genuine, a gay white rapper who's not stereotypically over-sexualized or feminine, just ur average Joe, fame and fortune isn't what matters tho, I wanna leave a lasting positive mark, open people's minds and touch their heart, make the hairs stand up straight, not because they're afraid, but they get the chills, from connecting relating and appreciating my actual talent and skills, I may sarcastically jest, I know I'm not the best, I strive to learn and be better, let's existentially elevate and rise high together, unite to fight, for truth justice equality love and light, we should all strive to do what's right, our voices have might, just like peaceful protest, pillaging looting and unnecessary violence is stupid and grotesque, treat others the way u want to be treated, if u said Trump would be President 5 years ago I wouldn't have believed it, I mean a reality tv star, what's worse is this is now standard/par, maybe Oprah will be next, I often wonder if humans are inherently cursed or hexed, I've heard of original sin, not everyone is destined to have kin, but we deserve the chance, to lend a helping hand, provide stability and a family to underprivileged abandoned unwanted youth, u can't make or teach someone to be homosexual so that point is moot, I'm sick and tired of illogical screwed up excuses, when we lack compassion empathy or sympathy our collective soul loses, whether u say salute peace or blessed be, please like Mike sang "make it a better place for u and for me"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/5/17   

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Song's Wrong Deadlines Come & Gone

It's hard to have all this passion, while others ride coattails without taking action, I've given u weeks that turned to months into years, spent all this money yet u won't follow thru is my biggest fear, what am I supposed to do now, I can't contemplate nor understand how, the deadline has come and gone, the final versions are still wrong, uve taken no time upon urself, I've always been there to help, which I like, and I don't want to fight, but this is ridiculous, most producers are hypocrites, wanna charge an arm and a leg upfront, then they get lazy when we're approaching being done, I'm about to lose my patience, I'm waiting growing ancient and anxious, I have no more recourse, and I don't want my songs to be rushed or forced, but u dilly dallied far too long, u haven't 100% completed one song, I don't think I'm being unreasonable, ur effort's negligible and treasonable, not trying to be a jerk, just do the fucking work, like u promised, if I'm being honest, perhaps u should master faster, ur pace is slower than Scooby Do and Shaggy trying to capture Casper, otherwise I'm screwed, this is mental and spiritual abuse, I'm tired and fed up, got nothing but love, I'm sorry tho enough is enough, all our lives are busy and tough, we have a verbal agreement and written contract, I shouldn't have to find another producer to credit for the skills u lack, it's basically too late, I need a miracle or to at least catch a break, my temper is on the rise, no matter how many tears I've cried, I don't feel better, thought we were so good together, yet I'm so stressed, I'm a hot mess, misdirecting my annoyance and frustration, close but not yet to the point of summation, very aggravated and pissed, I want my album to be on adults and kids' wish lists, I question if it'll be ready for the holiday season, what is the meaning and cosmic reasoning, for having to deal with this crap, can't start from scratch, there's no rewind or redo, hope has pulled me thru, tho my faith is fading, my energy level's waning, I gotta stay strong, keep holding on, just like my lyrics say, this is not only for me but for each and every gay, and altho yes I am also white, let me be a guiding shining light, spreading some truth and consciousness, eradicating the toxic pop hip hop obnoxiousness, bringing back that old school style rap, bridge that mile high wild gap, making music refreshingly new and cool, commercially appealing chart topping epic ground breaking classics that rule, nobody can do what I do, I'm not being cocky it's simply true, exposing the tools and fools, refusing to do battles or duels, cuz I'm not about bashing and minimizing others, this is for everyone the fathers mothers sisters and brothers!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/4/17 

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Gratefully Graciously & Greatly Treasured

Forgiveness isn't limitless, but should be a litmus, to test one's faith in people, do u agree that good will always triumph over evil, then have hope, I'm hanging on by a single thread of hemp rope, which is about to give out, so sick of life and the constant bout, I really don't know how, to graciously take a bow, when I'm misinterpreted and misunderstood, why did I give too much more than what I took, helping others helps ourselves, overworking and stress are detrimental to our health, forget about drugs, there's healing powers in hugs, I'm wondering like Black Eyed Peas "Where Is The Love", why do we keep looking up, for solutions and answers, I think human beings are cancer, consuming and destroying everything in the wake of it's path, but we underestimate mother nature the cosmos and the divine universe's wrath, we aren't Gods, do u say hi with daps a half hug and a pat on the back or a simple head nod, I guess it depends on the connection, in the gay community friends more than family are a blessing, however I have both, a solid support system not to gloat, that doesn't mean I'm absolved from problems tho, adversity more so than achievement gives us the ability to grow, it's funny how many catch 22s, that appear to be lose lose, wish ya'll could walk a day in my shoes, understand why like Craft macaroni and cheese I got the blues, who's rules are the ones to follow, we're not promised but should still plan for tomorrow, don't live out of fear or with regrets, just at least try ur best, that is all anyone can ask, remove the politically correct disingenuous masks, be who u truly are, whether near or far, time distance nor space, could ever replace or erase, the desire to be with u, even if I'm a masochistic naive ignorant fool, it's my right and choice, sorry if u don't like my singing voice, I'm still gonna express my soul, reach my dreams/goals, with or without a partner, am I a flower or a gardener, not selfish but definitely self centered, I've never been guided or mentored, about how to be gay or a sustainable independent artist, it's almost impossible to sell urself when ur humble and modest, I wanna stay level headed and grounded, the pavement ahead of me has been pounded, while still having a day job to pay bills, celebrity today isn't about talent or skills, it's sheer popularity, I don't need to rely on gimmicks a sexy image or vulgarities, I fantasize about going on tour, my songs may be a lil wordy deep intense and long but I guarantee ur not bored, I'm spreading truth love and consciousness, censorship is feeding the obnoxiousness, fuck dumbing down, I wanna be inspirational classic and profound, I hate pop hip hop, a lack of lyrical content needs to stop, who cares about the beat, and if it makes u dance or at least tap ur feet, what are u trying to accomplish and say, do u have meaning or a reason, give something to passionately believe in evoking chilling hair raising goose bump producing feeling, I'm kneeling praying, dealing with the world changing, for worse or for better, being cursed hurts but we can weather the storms together, u define happiness and how success is measured, existence itself should gratefully and graciously be greatly treasured!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/3/17

Thursday, September 21, 2017

It's Ur Identity Legacy & Destiny

A poem's strength is not in it's length, but if it vividly depicts a journey uve gone or went thru and experienced, is it inspirational or relatable, perhaps a debatable fable or tall tale, some fiction mixed in with non, not meant to deceive or con, but maybe to teach a lesson, it's a blessing to keep people rereading and guessing, each time discovering something new, suspense and mystery are like glue, at least to the eyes, when mistakes are made replicate a phoenix and rise, after all practice makes perfect, in the end only u can answer if it was worth it, do things for urself, I often wonder if it's a proven statistic women are more incline than men to ask for help, as if it makes them weaker, don't ever stop being a believer or a dreamer, hope and faith are crucial to achieve success, as long as u always try ur best, there's no such thing as failure, let fear be an enabler, instead of a hindrance, life can end in an instant, so make the most of it, shouldn't let an invisible man in the sky control shit, with free will the power lies in u, we've proven that humans can fly too, we might not have wings, Whitney's voice would lift me to the heaven's when she would sing, while Mariah wrote her own music, she took the adversity in her life and used it, just like Pac that's what I aspire to do, but still want to remain humble and true, fortune and fame's for fools, popularity seems to mean ur cool, I'd rather be known for my talent, being good natured giving a humanitarian that's valiant, respectable and tenable, classically epic and unforgettable, a positive gay icon and role model, a driven hard worker who's soul's uncoddled, got scars on my heart, but never let it break apart, I've learned to be street smart Bart, curious if God molded me a la carte, since I'm so different special and unique, perhaps I simply haven't yet peaked, and need to continue on this journey, unafraid of the grave or gurney, just enjoying the ride, it's ok for guys to cry, vulnerability can be sexy, relationships are definitely messy, but there's nothing more important than love, shouldn't underestimate the healing ability of human interaction/touch kisses and hugs, enough with looking up, we won't find solutions to the rough and tough, without sacrifice and compromise, feeding the next generation disillusionment bullshit and lies, only complicates the situation, attack the impossible without hesitation, breakdown boundaries assumptions and limits, produce products with value and substance not money making gimmicks, take the time to discover ur identity, leave a long lasting legacy, there's no such thing as random coincidence it's all magically meant to be, remember that only u can create and fulfill ur own destiny!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/21/17

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Soulmates Forever

"When in doubt remember my lover
We always look out for one another
In good times or bad
Try to make u happy when ur sad
At the end of the day
I wouldn't want it any other way
Ur my world my all
Let me catch u when u fall
Neither of us are perfect
But our future together's worth it
Have a little hope and faith
I'll help guide u til u find ur way
Don't ever feel afraid
Cuz I'll forever be ur soulmate"

-Joe Conscious 

The Self Sufficient Brilliant Diligent Wordsmith Magician

Life is a yo-yo, imagine if everything was bogo, and what that would do to revenue, animals instinctively know to go to higher ground not for a better view, but for overall safety and survival, I don't consider rap artists today rivals, I have my own lane, not interested in playing the record label game, I'm independent and self sufficient, want my reputation to be wordsmith who's classically brilliant, with a work ethic that's diligent, my rise was like I'm an epic magician, miraculous and fabulous, blasphemous and ravenous, yet no callousness passionless tactlessness or savageness, based on old school emcee style talent and skills, murderous rhyming that slays and kills, metaphorically speaking, never stop dreaming or believing, fuck receding or retreating, my fans are existentially relating connecting and meeting, on a whole other higher level, true hip hop's soul and essence has been disheveled, nothing left but lousy imitators, time wasters and haters, get outta here with ur pop garbage, perhaps I'm too brutally conscious real educated and honest, try to stay humble and modest, cuz slow and steady will get me the farthest, I want more than just 15 minutes, rather my concerts be small and intimate, no lip syncing or Jerry Springering, but plenty of peace signs and middle fingering, cuz that's "the JC Salut" which is my signature sign, if good things take time, then phenomenal shit takes forever, with my love by my side together I'll be better than ever, I'm not sarcastically sassing joking or boasting, look at those wanna bes simply coasting, riding coat tails, then the industry wonders why there's failing record sales, digital plain sucks and exploits, buying cds brought so much joy, with artwork pics and lyrics it was a tangible package, what's happened to activist's inspirational moving music is simply tragic, there's no more uplifting messages with substance or positive fighting spirit, they may listen to songs but don't actually hear it, the booming bumping bass clouds and shrouds the words, we're dooming society by inflicting a stifling curse, the next generation's being numbed and dumbed down, the long lasting effects of which is devastatingly profound, art has sparked revolutions, we need to resist and persist against greed and the corrupt institutions, which paves the way to systemic racism sexism and slavery, the lack of empathetic neighborly united bravery is unsavory, wonder who are next savior will be, cuz we're unable to see we're experiencing dire straits majorly, and in my opinion the catalyst was Trump, the world is still astonished confused and stumped, our country/currency's going down the tubes, people think Americans are arrogant pompous and rude, getting our just deserts and what we deserve, history repeating's meaning is I guess we've never learned!  

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/19/17

Thursday, September 14, 2017

"Let's Get Ready To Rumble"

Believe me my life ain't easy street, I've faced many failures and defeat, but I don't let it keep me down, try to maintain the opposite of a frown, even if it's to hide the pain, I've always struggled with weight gain, like a yo-yo bouncing back and forth, to boot I'm big boned bald and short, yet I refuse to let superficial shit effect my self-esteem, people still can be so mean, name calling and exclusion, felt unwanted and intruding, incapable of being loved, all I wanted was someone to hug, and tell me it'll be ok, didn't matter if I prayed, followed the rules, stayed in school, pretended to be cool, I was see thru, so transparent almost invisible, my faith had dwindled, and I turned to dope, how do u have hope, when what u want is to escape, why is the world filled with such discrimination prejudice and hate, it's hard to remain focused in the present moment, constantly gaslighted into feeling the need to repent in atonement, trying to help myself, things would be different if I had wealth, money solves problems but is also the root of all evil, the reality is even the regal are feeble, wearing a crown doesn't make u special, nor does winning the lottery or an Olympic medal, it only gives u 15 minutes of fame, I've come to realize life is a game, I no longer wanna participate in, perhaps I'm not properly articulating, which is ironic being a wordsmith, I've got a nerd's wit, making it impossible to reach and relate to the common man, my diet is aptly named the ramen plan, that's the sacrifice I'm willing to make, until I hit my musical break, to finally achieve and live my dream, nothing is ever as it appears to seem, everybody's faking happy and successful, most are envious and resentful, willing to tear u down to lift themselves up, u can't be fulfilled with materialistic stuff, it comes from accomplishment, my talent and skills amaze with astonishment, leaving jaws dropped, since I'm small it's assumed I don't top, constantly underestimated or overlooked, our current president elect has got the whole globe shook, along with giving me high anxiety, many have claimed they admire and are inspired by me, but I'm really a regular person/average Joe, u too have the power u know, to rise and conquer, flourish and prosper, if ur willing to work, ignore the naysayers and jerks that'll continuously hurt, cause u to fumble and stumble, like the wrestling announcer proclaims "let's get ready to rumble", existence is a battle/war, u gotta be hungry for more, don't lay down or roll over, we all carry the weight of the world on our shoulders, but we're never alone, Earth is humanity's home, it's a natural God given inalienable right, sometimes we have to fight, after all good things take time, simply never settle for just fine, altho our bodies may be imprisoned not ur minds, u can't stand still forever or go back in fact we gotta push and look forward to see what'll happen and we find!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/14/17

Friday, September 8, 2017

Have Hope For Peace Across The Whole Globe

Settling into hibernation mode, cuz I don't want social media to destroy or erode, my relationship which is much too important, to let sneaky hidden agenda manipulative underhanded haters/informants, spread false and fake rumors to get between us, blatantly making up stuff, to try and drive a wedge, so many people are on the edge of the ledge, barely holding on by a thread, wishing they were dead, cuz life lately, has been impossibly discouraging and difficult to put it plainly, there's so much evil in the world, don't think I can survive one more curve ball or hurdle, why can't things finally go my way, feel cursed for being born gay, like I even had a choice, can't let pressure fear or paranoia stifle my voice, but compromise is hard, what's most important heart or smarts, education has lost it's value, we've become robotic slaves worked to the bone cuz we have to, a small percentage is hording all the money, the wealthy are greedy and grubby while the poor are sick and hungry, we're not even guaranteed health insurance, and now earthquakes and hurricanes are becoming a regular common occurrence, our government is overwhelmed and won't help, I guess they expect we must save ourselves, yet they still collect our taxes, thank God celebrities hold telethons and concerts for relief from natural disasters, otherwise we'd be totally and royally screwed, unfortunately there isn't much I can do, I don't have a pot to piss in, at my parent's house is where I'm still living, just like my boyfriend, when will the exploit end, seem to be stuck in a never ending rut, with condescending ignorant morons saying it's cuz I lack luck initiative or guts, like I want to be broke in debt or poor, even breathing has become a chore, since I can't afford medicine, the pharmaceutical industry like oil and water's big benjamins, I predict the stock market's gonna crash, the Fed's already reduced our currency and credit/debit's replaced cash, so it's all just imaginary numbers, better benefits and privileges are given to refugee new comers, we no longer take care of our own, how can u have a private jet yacht and multiple homes, while there are kids or veterans on the street, should the human race accept defeat, there's a huge overpopulation problem, at this point can anybody stop him, u know President electoral college elected Donald Trump, how Hillary didn't win when she won the popular vote has us all stumped, while I'm over here like I wanted Bernie, the state of our democracy dumbfounds and concerns me, sorry to be such a negative Nancy, I could've been less wordy and fancy, but I figure why not, give my upcoming album "Truth Love & Consciousness" a shot, artists have always been historically revolutionary, let's get this country back on track and prove we're ready, to be the great nation we once were, the good times feel like a blur, yet for some reason I have hope, perhaps if we as a people unite to fight we can bring peace to the whole globe!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/8/17

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

PC PG & Family Friendly

Finding true love, has really picked and lifted me up, makes me wanna be a better version, of an older wiser person, I got rid of my JC page, to start a different stage/era/age, not about money numbers or sex, but about portraying my talent skills and art the best, before I barely got any comments likes or shares, which made me super paranoid about who if anyone at all cares, why do I only hear from negative criticism, does anybody anymore lyrically listen, or is Meghan Trainor right about it being "all about the bass", cuz if that's the case, then I'm obviously wasting my time, making pop culture garbage music should be a crime, it's supposed to connect relate and inspire, so kids can dare to dream bigger and higher, I wanna be a rap superstar, not Cypress Hill style tho living large giant house and multiple cars, I'd honestly rather stay humbly modest, and work my damn hardest, to be legendary epic and classic, maybe even help people believe in magic, anything is possible after all, u just gotta answer when u hear the call, learn to tap into that inner strength, it isn't about the length, but the impact u have, does it hold up and last, or just another, one hit wonder, like Lisa Loeb and "Stay", we need to seize opportunity every day, since no one's promised tomorrow, be careful not to get consumed by ego fear regret or sorrow, live in the moment, make sure to pay atonement, if and when u mess up, even failure takes guts, most won't try, sit on the sidelines wondering why with envious pride, jealousy is a biotch, mans being replaced by kiosks, AI is totally taking over, global warming doesn't mean it won't get colder, weather simply becomes much more extreme, how come we're going the opposite way of green, back to coal, letting business sell our collective soul, excessive profit's obnoxious,wake up and get conscious, if money is the root of all evil, don't ignorantly follow the leader off the cliff sheeple, u ain't the Roadrunner or Wiley Coyote, all ya'll haters can't blow me, cuz I have a sexy boyfriend for that, who's forever ever and always got my back, a dynamic duo/team, I'm really trying to be less vulgar profane and obscene, pc PG & family friendly, soccer mom vans aren't as cool as a Bentley, but they get me from point A to B, so tired of struggling financially, yet keep grinding away, changing stereotypes of what it means to be gay, we're not ruining the sanctity of marriage, please don't be disparaged, we will find a way to prosper and succeed, have a lil faith hope and believe, winning a Grammy is probable, hurdling all obstacles like I'm invincible/unstoppable, dedication perseverance and consistency, is the answer to the unsolvable mystery, how did I get here u ask, indulging in a glorious last laugh, I remembered that I have the power within, u can't finish if u don't begin, make a plan and stick with it, shouldn't let others make u feel illegitimate, bullies and nerds eventually switch roles, karma reverses who's in control, and God definitely don't like ugly, so I'll accept that many may run from and shun me, but that's more of a reflection of them, I'm wicked lucky grateful and blessed to have a huge support system of family and friends, there's no need to boast or gloat, I simply realized not to judge cuz we're all pretty much in the same boat!


Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious
9/6/17   

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Listen Learn Nourish & Encourage

Do u ever feel trapped in life, like it's not worth the fight of the plight and strife, u just keep getting shat on, don't believe that con, I do believe there's a purpose, growing pains hurt us, but we evolve and change, which seems very strange, more so then when we achieve and succeed, why do we get punished for doing good deeds, it's like the universe wants us to be bad, don't make karma mad, cuz that bitch can bite, in these dark times I keep asking myself where is the light, this tunnel appears never-ending, what's with all the ghosting benching and defriending, save it for death, we need to start using our hearts more than our heads, our collective soul, shouldn't be bought and sold, hold onto hope, our empathy mechanism must be broke, along with honor dignity and respect, our law enforcement are supposed to serve and protect, we're not paying attention to who we elect, I wonder what will happen next, where do we go from here, I'm tired of being ruled by fear, I just wanna be happy spreading truth consciousness and love, I wish my music and poetry were enough, to be financially sustainable and stable, there are very few gay white rappers who are capable and able, to tap into the majority, all I can say is I'm sorry, guess I'm not as strong as I thought, success doesn't come with a handbook or ever taught, schools concentrate more on discipline, why is it that nobody listens, especially to my lyrics, sometimes I think they only pretend to hear it, the deep thought provoking messages, stop all the hate against democratic socialists and progressives, we gotta keep pushing boundaries and limits, aren't ya'll sick of stereotypical politicians with their lies tricks and gimmicks, they're all the same, get into office and they're lame, I'm not looking for a magical savior, but voters ignore obviously deplorable behavior, in fact it's idolized and encouraged, we're supposed to inspire our kids and nourish, instead we're totally abandoning them, there's no reset button to start again, we only get one chance/shot, why does it matter if a singer can dance or not, I mean Jesus fucking Christ, I swear people criticize out of spite, mama said if u can't say something nice, don't roll the dice, cuz words can crush and stifle, just as harmful as a knife or rifle, suicide is still running rampant in my community, wish we could go back to the days where Queen Latifah preached "Unity", or Pac reminded us to "Keep Ur Head Up", even when the road is hard and tough, perhaps there can never be peace, so should we retreat, or continue to at least try, I could use a lil bit of oomph the Jadakiss song "Why" provides, maybe Lauryn Hill's "Light My Fire" or George Michael's "Faith", to eradicate the frustration anger and angst, nothing else seems to be working, nobody knows how much precious time is lurking, so we ignore the responsibility and reality, looks like we will all be a casualty, unless we resist and impeach, there's no bounds to the wrath of the hand of God's reach, so please stop testing His patience, wake up pay attention and actually learn some history from the stories of the ancients!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/30/17

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Praying Amazing Grace At Last

Lately like Kesha I've been "Praying", not only to be patient, but for my boyfriend, for his pain and suffering to end, I need him around, losing love can be overwhelmingly profound, and I've had enough loss already, my faith is a lil unsteady, especially after my grandmother died, I'm not gonna lie, I'm still mad at God, why does life have to be so hard, will we ever catch a break, or did I make too many mistakes, and I'm being punished, there's only so much I can stomach, have had enough heartache to last a lifetime, no I won't be fine, unless I achieve some musical and financial success, I give my all and do my best, but apparently it's not good enough, I too just wanna be loved, perhaps we're exempt being gay, and we will all be damned to hell come judgment day, but I don't truly believe that, I have hope the Lord has my back, even tho no one really knows, the story of Jesus has very many holes, and doesn't make a lot of logical sense, that's blasphemous so I guess I gotta repent, can u recite the Act of Contrition, it's standard protocol to absolve sinning, but it's been twenty some odd years, do people actually believe u must be in Church for Him to hear, and only when ur down on ur knees, does He seriously listen to ur pleas, who made up these rules, King James has been playing us for fools, religion is a form of control, all I want is to let go, there's too much responsibility, and apparently I don't have the ability, to make good choices or decisions, is existence really just a prison, where the body traps the soul, fuck Truman is this the Joe show, feels like it, wish Adam didn't bite shit, least of all the apple, Eve was created from his rib is hard to grapple, guess the chicken or the egg theory is plain irrelevant, where's my forty acres and a mule as settlement, my government has neglected me, gave the illusion we're free, was blind but with amazing grace I now can see, I hate reality, we've lost the truth, the point to life is too aloof, lacking meaning or purpose, seems just to hurt and work us, like worthless slaves, forced to dig our own graves, there's no room for fun or play, be careful what u say, cuz they have no problem silencing u, not talking about using glue, they murder and kill, there's no such thing as free will, this Gemini is conscious and cognitive, yes there's negative and positive, but my poems are a mixture of both, I'm learning to practice my art without dope, some days are good while others are bad, sometimes I'm happy others I'm mad or sad, I exhibit a full range and spectrum of emotion, I love being thought provoking and causing commotion, adding a lil spice to life, I'm tired of always being nice, that guy finishes last, trying to stay in the moment instead of focusing on the future and/or past, wish the universe would simply do what I ask, let the heavens shine down on me Etta James style "At Last"!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/29/17  

Monday, August 28, 2017

Manifest Destiny Don't Think Extinct

Hate being schooled, played the fool, cuz I'm too trusting in people, we're both inherently good and evil, it's what we choose, that defines u, how do u use ur power, to make others fear and cower, or to uplift motivate and inspire, teach young ones to reach higher, and achieve any dream, capitalism is losing steam, creating such inequality thru competition, envy induces division, especially when money is the root cause, does greed and corruption give u pause, maybe u just ignore and accept, I'm sorry not sorry but I don't wanna be kept, I have independence value and self worth, having everything easy or handed to u could be considered a curse, yet it's said they're blessed, lottery winners claim the experience was a mess, u see the ugly side, good luck trying to hide, everyone wants what they can't and don't have, do ya'll understand the logic and rules of math, a pie has a finite amount of pieces, this is a poem not a thesis, I forgot ur superficially shallow not consciously deep, don't understand the basic consequences of what we reap, guess u don't sow, so how could u know, u lazy fucks, learn the distinct difference between true love and lust, it has nothing to do with sex, perhaps humans are naturally hexed, doomed from the start, that's what happens when u lose soul and heart, unable to find ur voice, knowledge is a choice, so stop wasting time, the less working smart the harder the grind, I will not and refuse to apologize, for having the gusto or foresight to try and strive, making the most of an education, laying down a crucial fundamental foundation, providing myself with future possibilities and an abundance of opportunity/chance, I may be gay but I don't dance or prance, I keep my sexuality on the dl, since most religions believe we're damned to hell, as if they're absolved impervious and free from sin, existence is as fragile and vulnerable as the shin, no one's promised tomorrow, obviously u can't deal with the regret and sorrow, perhaps now ull think twice before u act, use some patience poise and tact, cuz ur actions impact ur reputation, seems like we're approaching Revelations, with encumbering darkness, too many mother and fatherless, kids need a positive force of support role model or example, otherwise they get trampled, it is also imperative, to cherish one's heritage, history isn't a mystery, but we repeat the misery, if only taught falsehoods and lies, will Trump lead us to our demise, not if we don't let him and resist, and I'm not talking about with guns bombs or fists, there's gotta be a peaceful solution, to overpopulation discrimination and pollution, let's put our heads together and think, before someone drops a bomb or nuke and everything becomes extinct!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/28/17

Friday, August 25, 2017

The Duped Fool Who Can't Be Cruel

I can't control when inspiration strikes, or the amount of comments shares or likes, seems people prefer racy pics, conscious thought and substance takes a back seat to tits and dicks, why are we so sexually repressed, some of the fattest ugliest folks sing the best, so video really did kill the radio star, I thought when Obama was elected we as a nation had come far, now we appear to be regressing back, our civil rights are being attacked, and we have no activist leaders, just a whole lot of corrupt greedy cheaters, setting a bad example, while 99% of us are getting trampled, like Black Eyed Peas asked "Where Is The Love", don't millionaires already have enough, how bout ya'll share the wealth, so many don't make the most of the hand they've been dealt, jealousy's a bitch but so is envy, u don't want a tongue lashing then don't send for me, I don't practice throwing shade, I'll say shit directly to ur face, maybe in a sarcastic way, but keep ur judgments to urself about the gays, let me knock u off ur pedestal, if u automatically presume we're all going to hell, how many ex wives do u have, religious extremist's hypocrisy makes me laugh, nobody is exempt, the devil naturally tempts, no matter which sin u choose, karma is an unpredictable game of duck duck goose, how fast can u run, there's nothing worse than being rejected or shunned, when's it my turn, cuz I've only been burned, still waiting for music success, I write poetry to get the stress off my chest, what if I never make it, sometimes I wish I could be disingenuous and fake shit, but my facial expressions give me away, wish true unconditional love would stay, but the universe keeps throwing curve balls, will he see penitentiary bars and walls, or will he get off, I hate when haters snarl and scoff, u ain't better than anyone else, being modest and humble helps, opinions are like assholes everybody's got them, talking politics exacerbates being so not zen, why push buttons, are we all gluttons for punishments, masochistic by nature, don't believe in global warming look at the melting glaciers, guess we haven't learned from past mistakes, here's a foreign notion do whatever it takes, make compromises and sacrifice, cuz like my song says "That's Life", "nothing's fucking fair or right and the bullshit won't quit", avoiding responsibility makes me sick, time flies by ridiculously quick, is the average American really a thick hick, or simply lacks common sense, please please please don't impeach cuz we'll be stuck with Pence, who is so much worse, the human race is cancerous/cursed, I know both good and evil lurks, but everyone not doing their part won't work, the collective suffers and hurts, ud think I was asking jerks to give up their homes food or shirts, when all I'm asking is to give a little if u can, we should lend a hand to any needy woman child or man, cuz it's the right thing to do, perhaps I'm just a naive selfless hopeless optimist and a duped fool who can't be cruel!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/25/17

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Responsibility & Pressure To Be Better

Something's gotta give, counting the days til the weekend is no way to live, seems we exist to work and pay bills, why don't we try to harness individual's talents and skills, how can an eighteen year old know, what they want to do for the long windy road, that's a lot of responsibility and pressure, I hate how a person's value and worth are measured, it's all about the money, so life isn't fun or funny, like when we were kids, why isn't there any heart in business, where is the love inspiration and soul in music, our government has become corrupt and abusive, 99% have turned into robotic slaves, work work work work work til we're burned or buried in our graves, and cemeteries aren't really sustainable, perhaps existential evolution is simply not attainable, cuz as a race we seem to be degrading and recessing, maybe we're circling back around to a modern day Greater Depression, Trump is crushing our hope and spirit, when it comes to issues and solutions nobody wants to hear shit, like our problems will miraculously and magically just get solved/fixed, a president should lead by example provide motivation and uplift, not be so divisive, people need to get their heads out of their asses and devices, will we be replaced by AI, or give UBI free healthcare and education a try, what is the problem being more socialistic, why can't our food and medicine be more natural and holistic, consumerism is so so wasteful, when did Congress get so hateful, we need bipartisan effort, listen to the advice of experts, policies and laws have long term consequences and ramifications, waiting for midterm elections with such anticipation, there has to be positive change, collectively retract claws and fangs, disarm and make peace, it's ok to admit failure and defeat, it doesn't diminish or make us weak, make sure to use ur voice and speak, especially if u see atrocity and something wrong, I wish these grown men would stop thinking with only their shlong, trying to fuck us, our judicial system should be way way more fair and just, why are so many still racist, and religious folks hate us, being gay doesn't make us evil, stop following the herd of sheeple, think for urselves, learn to share give and help, nobody can do it on their own, we all deserve a chance to create and build a family or happy home, love is love, enough is enough, the discrimination has gotta stop, especially from parents teachers and cops, we're in this world together, please try to strive and make things better!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/24/17

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

We're God & Heaven Sent/Meant To Be

U know us gays have a flare for the dramatics, but don't let a tough situation turn tragic, there's no need, sometimes u gotta dig deep and find peace, in whatever we can, remember we're just man, fallible by nature, a real family could never hate ya, sure there can be arguments and dislike, every relationship has had their share of fights, the important thing is to never give up, especially when there's still so much love, life seems to throw curve balls that get in the way, it's more important what we do than what we say, particularly when it comes to apologies, changed behaviors make the best I'm sorries, let music drown out thoughts and heal, it's not easy to express and communicate how we feel, I'm just a fluke, sometimes I'm so sappy and cheesy I make others wanna puke, we all gotta learn how to better cope when we're upset, so we don't wind up perpetuating regret, and that can be super hard, when it comes to matters of the heart, see my problem is I don't set boundaries and limits, gotta separate private life my relationship my art and business, everything has its place, why can't we disagree with grace, pasts can not be erased, and we shouldn't rush to the finish line with haste, instead slow down and enjoy the ride, sometimes there's nothing more releasing than a good ugly cry, maybe even hyperventilate a little, have u ever shed a tear from laughter or get tickled til u pittle, it's never good to gang up on someone, or make a person already down on their luck feel all alone and shunned, be there for them, that's the definition of a friend, show compassion and listen to help, it's impossible to get out of a bad situation without wealth, it's worse for those who don't know how to save themselves, eating and sleeping are vital to wellness and health, u may even have to force it, to breathe loosen the corset, let ur mind calm down and rest, just cuz they're older and wiser doesn't mean they know best, leave criticisms opinions and judgments at the door, always be positive have hope and faith that this isn't it there's way more, we're only four months in, it's still the beginning, of a long happy life together, I'll stand by ur side and be supportive til things get better, hold my hand and use my light, we write our own stories and decide what's wrong or right, I know we meet people for a reason it's destiny and fate, Kevin Michael Carvalho u are my soulmate, trust this isn't superficial lust, it's not a phase either forever ever and always or bust, it isn't how u start but how we finish, fuck the haters don't let them diminish, if they can't understand or comprehend, that's their problem they can't change adapt or bend, we're God and heaven sent/meant to be, I promise to work on my patience if u follow Pink's advice and "please don't leave me"!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/23/17