Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Growing My Ability Flowing

Do u ever feel like me invisible, I thought the US was indivisible, but Trump proved me wrong, worry that I'll never have a hit song, and my life will be for naught, wish I was a victim of Cupid caught, love can't be bought, nor should it be sought, it'll come when the time is right, felt the sting of lust's bite, and the feeling wasn't mutual or reciprocated, 8 months is the longest I've ever dated, I must not be attractive, my soul's been held captive, by my 9 to 5, paying bills seems to be the only reason I'm alive, never get the resources to follow and achieve my dreams, at the end of the day it's all about that green, I'm really concerned about my future, perhaps to alleviate this testicular problem I should get neutered, I mean after all I'm gay, and don't want kids anyway, or if I did I'd adopt, will the pain and strife of life ever stop, my anxiety is sky high, doomed and cursed no matter how hard I try, I wind up knocked down, tied up tethered and bound, completely helpless without a Master Grey, do u ever even read to urself aloud and listen to the words I say, it helps the messages to sink in, perhaps like my socks sneaks and feet they're stinking, unrelatable cocky and too confusing, how can I create the thug illusion, I simply just don't understand, if Eminem can why is it I can't, cuz I'm not poor from the projects or the ghetto, imagine having a hit like Adele's "Hello", I could finally live the life I choose, instead of hearing on the news u lose to a noose, this isn't a cry for help, I'd never hurt myself, I'm emphasizing the seriousness of my ambition, I won't stand here bitching, I'm tired of complaining, this monotonous daily routine tho is draining, a dark cloud keeps hovering raining, no one knows how many minutes are remaining, so Joe get up and get going, put ur whole heart into growing ur ability flowing, cuz practice makes perfect, and I truly believe somehow someway ull prove it was all worth it!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/28/17

Monday, February 27, 2017

Try To Out Write Or Rap Me

Reapproaching overwhelming panic, that can't be controlled by Zoloft or Xanax, cuz I can't afford coverage for health care, not having Medicaid anymore realizes my fear, I only have a 2-3 month temp job, so I don't know when my income will stop, I made a dent in paying off my debt, but I still have close to 15K left, and that's not including my phone new leased car plus insurance or my college loan, thank God I'm able to live at home, cuz I wouldn't be able to afford rent food and gas, I'm poor tho my folks are middle/upper class, I'm so scared of my future when they're gone, I really need at least one hit song, otherwise I am totally fucked, forget about my finding friendship let alone unconditional love, I swear the gays are all psychologically messed up, I may be blessed but my life just sucks, I can't stand on my own two feet, this testicular issue makes it tough to sleep, I simply wanna be and feel normal again, will this bad dream cease or at least near the end, I take 3 steps forward only to go 5 back, I'm trying real hard to manage how I react, but my patience is thin, and when it comes to financial stability I don't know where to begin, I keep trying and trying and trying, but my hope and optimism is slowly eroding and dying, so I wind up crying singing Bon Jovi's "keep the faith", don't know how much longer I can wait, til it's finally my turn, I'm used to the abuse of being overlooked and burned, like Leona "I just wanna be happy", not many can out write or rap me, my talents and skills are quite sick/nasty, I'm not pompous or arrogant more sarcastic and sassy, wish I had the opportunity or chance, to reverse the hour glasses' sands, rewind time, to the days when hip hop was flourishing and shined, cuz now-a-days music is all garbage, finding decent lyrical content seems nonexistent and arduous, I'm the last of my kind a dying breed, I hate digital and miss buying cds, tho I know we can't recapture the past, pretty pretty please support me is all I can ask!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/27/17  

Friday, February 24, 2017

Puppeteering Pinocchio & His Mail Bride Ho

I like how Ruth described our country's symbol being better represented by a pendulum instead of the bald eagle, funny how both parties declare the other as inherently evil, all we do is go back and forth, meanwhile independents are overlooked and ignored, why not a 3 party system, when did Earth become a political prison, life has gotten so expensive it's ridiculous, Congress is just a bunch of fricken hypocrites, willing to cut our salaries and benefits, while steadily increasing what they get, I'm absolutely disgusted, the Trump administration should never have been entrusted, our legacy is slowly being whittled away and eroded, when he was announced the winner of the 2016 election my head heart and soul almost exploded, if ever I wanted to die, or try to commit suicide, it was more realistic than moving and/or leaving, I was still grieving from Bernie's loss and reeling, how we could let such an amazing candidate fall thru the cracks when he was right within our grasp, now we don't know how to deal with this pain in the neck/ass, I mean he is so clueless and disrespectful, still don't think tho not voting for Clinton is regrettable, I believe everything happens for a reason, he doesn't release his tax returns cuz it shows impeaching treason, by all means u can't even feed the poor or provide health care for all, conservatives preach fiscal responsibility yet are so gung ho for building this stupid wall, perhaps if it was made of solar panels I could understand, but God damn Steve Bannon the puppeteer man, with Donald as his Pinocchio, and his mail bride ho, who will be the single cause of WWIII/the end of days, teaching our children hard work no longer pays, but bankruptcy sure does, fuck bipartisanship handshakes and hugs, now's not the time for love just war, tell me what side of history ull be fighting on or for?

Peace and 1,
JC
2/24/17

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Remember The Future

Gotta be way more mindful, without being egotistical selfish or too prideful, it's ok to have negative thoughts and even express them, but don't keep harping on em time and again, I'm only saying this as ur friend, sometimes u have to let go and bend or get bent, altho I'm trying a new type of drug for my anxiety, instead of using pot to achieve the higher me, I'm trying a prescribed pharmaceutical, and sitting here writing at a computer in my cubicle, I already feel a huge difference, my mind changed in a literal instant, my commute included much less stress, and my energy levels are at their best, I've been down in the dumps, for about a lil under 3 months, but these testicular issues, have allowed me to see my marijuana misuse, and I've come to realize, compromise won't lead to demise, perhaps it is simply necessary, try to imagine myself legendary, my music on the radio winning that Grammy, finally show those who chose not to listen or hear me, that if u have hope and faith, ull achieve all ur goals and dreams someday, keep that passion alive, be persistent and consistent to eventually thrive, one eye's on the prize, with the other focused on the here and now is so wise, multitasking is everything and important to succeed, only a select few get to do whatever they please, cuz money is no object, don't be arrogant like some power hungry cops get, stay humble and modest, kind-hearted virtuous and honest, I truly believe good triumphs over evil, please don't be ignorant helpless sheeple, u are ur own worst enemy/problem but also the only solution, it's a fact that global warming is exacerbated by man-made pollution, religion isn't a substitution for science, even the most peaceful people act in defiance, u can't put a price on freedom, 10 years in the future we'll probably look back and think "what have we done", life used to be fun, remember Adele's "when we were young", our consequence is all the same, unfortunately there ain't no one person to blame!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/23/17

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Hard To Fathom Word Spasm

Need to get out of this hood, cuz I'm simply misunderstood, but where do I go tho, u need a support system u know, and I am super blessed right here, but not leaving is my biggest fear, feeling sort of trapped, so I start to randomly clap back, lashing out and misdirecting my anger, at any and all strangers, who get up in my face, invade my space, with bad vibes and intentions, do u believe in evolution or divine ascension, reincarnation is hard to fathom, but immaculate conception seems impossibly baffling like a hiccup or spasm, where do thoughts come from, I feel inadequate naive and dumb, always questioning the unaswerable truths, so I'm not another statistic/ignorant fool, those who don't learn from their past are doomed to repeat it, why does failure make me feel so defeated, I mean I can always try again, wish I had more than just a friend, an actual life partner, for when times get tougher and harder, to hold my hand and be by my side, someone in which I can trust and confide, but most gay men just want good rough sex, I swear homos are cursed and hexed, especially when it comes to unconditional love, it's tough to cuddle or hug, without giving the wrong impression, God please stop all this testing, without any rewards, what am I even working towards, I've forgotten what my purpose is, without financial success I appear worthless, perhaps the grass is greener back in Cali, or maybe I should go fuck some random hotty in a dark alley, get all nutty and slutty, the world really doesn't seem so funny, but I could be way too serious and a prude dude, need to have a more throw caution to the wind sort of attitude, let go a little, I hope u know my poems are riddles, giving ya'll insight to who I am deep inside, sit back and enjoy my mind fuck of a ride, cuz like Lauryn Hill sings "ready or not here I come u can't hide", put my puzzle pieces together if u can I double dare u to try!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/22/17

Watching Stalking & Gawking

Still just don't feel right, everyday is another fight, to basically even smile, or fake it at least for a lil while, I can't understand man, stick to ur plan, follow thru with what u say, will I make it to May, turning 35, yet I feel less alive, which is ironic since I'm getting older, I don't want to be a soldier, always keeping a brave face, I find the gay community to be a disgrace, no morals or integrity, ya'll think ur better than me, or do u just hate cuz I don't put out, we'll see who's the pussy if u bout, ya'll seem more about talking, just sitting there stalking and gawking, have no balls tho to say what's up or hello, all ya'll are more basic than jello, rather gossip behind people's backs, prefer fiction over facts, won't go home with me, but put out for free, u lousy ass prostitutes/sluts, please have a heart some soul and guts, otherwise ull never get anywhere, doubt u even care, constantly contemplating running away, u can't erase exes or the past I'm afraid, shouldn't sound so jealous or bitter, if ur gonna act like a rat or some other nasty critter, ull get treated like one, it's stopped being fun, since I don't feel well, I put up my protective shell, pretend I enjoy being single, hibernate and never mingle, it isn't enjoyable watching everyone move on, ultimately feel evil duped and conned, u say I'm a nice guy, but didn't even have the chance to try, constantly second guessing urself, I'm finally getting professional help, cuz I need to change the way I react, watching u sugar daddy mack doesn't make me laugh it's plain sad, oh ur such a beautiful person, boy do I despise working, all I wanna do is make music and perform, why can't my songs on the radio be the new norm, I've never wanted to stereotypically conform, do u too ever feel sometimes u wish u were never born, I'm torn, so scorned, tired of all the bullshit and lies, perhaps if I close my eyes, then suddenly reopen them, I can magically start all over again!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/22/17

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Democracy's Lobotomy

There is definitely something wrong with me, I think I'm not getting good service cuz my United Healthcare was free, but no worries now, cuz Trump republicans have "bigly" vowed, to repeal the ACA, and millions of American's are afraid, but hey they're sick and poor right, they won't have the strength to fight, I'm just so sick and tired, of these blatant conservative liars, who aren't even about fiscal responsibility, our government seems useless and silly, across the world we are the laughing stock/joke, waiting for WWIII to be invoked, after all war stimulates the economy, we are literally performing democracy's lobotomy, and we're not licensed practitioners, wish I was born in an era where things were much simpler, less materialistic, but don't like extreme religiousness, I mean can't we strike a balance already, this country is supposedly the most wealthy, yet we can't provide even the most basic of services, and what's bafflingly worse is, socialism is cursed and such a bad word, but capitalism doesn't work and is absurd, too much greed and corruption, still can't get used to this administration's gumption, evil finally won and has control, all at the expense of our collective soul, what do we represent and stand for, like our First Lady a superficial scantily dressed whore, I despise corporate culture, which is synonymous with hawkish vultures, slowly picking away at our foundation, used to spread messages of hope and love now it's just hating and discrimination, dividing and conquering by pinning us up against one another, we've forgotten that we're all sisters and brothers, humanity means family, I thought being good and working hard would get me rewarded amply, but karma is a bitch, and like Jesus God Santa and free just really doesn't exist!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/21/17    

Monday, February 20, 2017

My Poker Face Sucks

Why are the good hearted so gullible, and evil people wanna create trouble, all ya'll Trump supporters need to pop ur bubbles, otherwise we are headed for an irrevocable kerfuffle, that could potentially end life as we know it, like poker I try not to show shit, but my face gives me away, I pray for the good ole days, but that's just unrealistic, feel God can be cruel and sadistic, to even allow this to happen, it's simply impossible to keep grappling, how u can't see he's a dictator/tyrant in the making, it isn't news that's lying and faking, don't underestimate limitless power, now's not the time to fear and scour, in fact we should fight harder, fuck ignorance learn to be smarter, our very soul is at stake, my hope and optimism isn't easy to shake and break, but I have a bad feeling deep down at my core, what is all the strife plight and atrocity for, seems we have free will yet no control, haven't had the urge to smoke a bowl, and I'm still existentially philosophical, a modern Aristotle Poe, all the previous revolutionary free thinkers and expressionists rolled into one, Malcolm Martin Biggie and Pac's prodigal gay son, resurrecting Bernie's mission, bet ya'll forgotten ur act of contrition, u know from bible studies class, u fucking hypocritical ass, picking and choosing which laws to follow, ur moral integrity is bitter and hollow, to u the truth is hard to swallow, live by the motto we aren't promised tomorrow, so it is time to wake up and make a change, or be prepared for an A-bomb Big Bang!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/20/17  

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Not To Keep Knocking But

It felt great to be recognized as a dope MC, seems more people are starting to u know...get me, I'm outspokenly weird and quirky, feel like bowing Garth and Wayne style shouting "we're not worthy", cuz I am we, only other Geminis will understand what I mean, often wonder if I'm bipolar or have a split personality, was just reading how music's being affected by AI and virtual reality, and it got me thinking, is humanity's soul sinking and shrinking, or simply becoming dark, like our cold and hollow hearts, completely lacking compassion and empathy, it's hard not to let he who shall not be named get to me, I mean does the President really effect my everyday life, he definitely adds to the collective plight and strife, I don't like him being a representative for me, he handles everything so poorly, lay off the travel ban Obamacare and celebrities on Twitter, and I'll stop comparing u to modern day Hitler, but anyway, I'm trying to write more gay, as in happy, not faggoty, so I hope ya'll are getting ready for the weekend, when u don't have to fake or play pretend, u can literally have fun and/or catch up on sleep, remember if u don't sow u won't reap, I spend a lot of free time honing my craft, performing can be such a pain in the ass, where do u even go, what if nobody consistently shows, I have a ton of supposed friends but few real fans, haven't mastered the art of supply and demand, basically I make no dough, it's much much more than just a hobby tho, my songs are a big part of who I fundamentally am, these garbage pop artists are frauds and scams, makes u debate if there is a secret society/Illuminati, hey Cali have u already forgotten about me, tho it's been 5 years and we're thousands of miles away, always and forever on my mind u stay, hoping someday to get back there, not to keep knocking work or RI but the scene is just plain whack here, my biggest fear is having to give up, cuz I can't have a quality fulfilled life without my music or unconditional gay love! 

Peace and 1,
JC 
2/16/17

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Love Urself More

Don't use pot or alcohol as therapy, living sober has produced a better me, I've also learned not to overextend friends, minimize expectation again, have some crazy fun every now and then, notice I didn't say never get drunk or bent, everything in moderation is fine, the only true limitation is time, all else can be solved, why haven't human beings evolved, in fact we've regressed, when's impeachment I'm taking bets, and I'm not a gambling man, simply ain't a fan, I cringe when he speaks, I still haven't gotten over Bernie's primary defeat, imagine president Sanders, Trump is worse than cancer, definitely not the answer, has the opposite of Obama's candor, boy do I miss him, will a third party ever win, or even be an option for that matter, my hope faith and naive optimism have been completely shattered, I understand now how ignorance gives the illusion of bliss, always try to use ur words instead of fists, violence solves nothing, stop fear mongering and pushing divisive buttons, pretty soon we'll all unite to fight against u, religion isn't meant to be an oppressive tool, I know my rhymes are often all over the place, but to not express myself creatively would be such a waste, I have undeniable talent and passion, honing my craft thru repetitive action, hard work pays off eventually, shouldn't question condescendingly if I'm ok mentally, I just don't like my soul stifled, think workaholics simply let their dreams go idle, and their hearts have turned cold, professing ur truth is bold, extremely freeing but definitely not easy, virtue is sexy but our moral integrity has grown sleazy, we the people have been tempted by enticing evil, misinterpreted beauty as royal and regal, money won't make u happy or fulfilled, love can't be bought or willed, I'll take my sanity and health any day over wealth, don't normally quote Beiber but perhaps "u should go and love urself"!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/15/17

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Loved Tho Single AF

Altho I may be single as fuck, don't get it twisted I don't lack love, sometimes monogamy just aint enough, but I won't lie I've never had much luck, always the best man never the groom, being alone shouldn't imply doomed, having someone to rely on would be nice, but I truly believe it'll happen when the time's right, u can't force shit, lust isn't a corset, if u squeeze tight, ull appear light, but that's just an illusion, funny how relationships can be confusing, it's all about knowing limitations and boundaries, the amount of cheaters absolutely dumbfounds me, what's the point, anybody else annoyed, at the fact I can get a guy to sneak behind his kids and wife, then find an openly available masculine gay guy who's not only sane but nice, got a solid head on his shoulders, would be nice to cuddle with especially when it gets colder, I don't dread getting older, in fact I'm more secure and bolder, I know what I want and like, at this stage in my life it shouldn't be a fight, if it doesn't happen naturally, like a fairy tale ending magically happily, then why do I feel I'm doing something wrong, I think it's just more fodder for a new song, at least I have my lyrical talent, helps me stay humble empathetic compassionate and valiant, chivalry isn't dead, it's just we have Trump as pres, he normalized bad behavior, the megalomaniac thinks he is the second coming of our Lord and savior, boy is he delusional, maybe he needs more Metamucil, a lack of fiber might make him orange, stop discriminating people based on if they look foreign, that's the very definition of racism, how could you not see all the hatred within him, from just the way he speaks, it's tough facing failure and defeat, but again like Pac said "ya got to keep ya head up", there's nothing more hopeful and inspiring than the power of love!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/14/17


Monday, February 13, 2017

Talent Light Life

What does the early guy get since I don't eat worms, why are we not entitled to see Trump's tax returns so we know what he really earns, and all of his conflicts of interests, all right wingers are ridiculous hypocrites, claiming Bernie as a communist, but at least he genuinely cares and is honest, so what if he has idealistic ideas, he often has solutions too and doesn't prey on people's fears, what is so wrong with socialism instead of capitalism where people are valued more than money, seriously this survival of the fittest economy isn't funny, it's eradicating the middle class, Congress is a "yuge" pain in the ass, progression doesn't involve going backwards in time, I'm not sorry if ur tired of my political rhymes, aren't ya'll disgusted, can u admit u were duped again misguided and mistrusted, government and religion need to be separate, rioting happens more when the sheeple get angry and desperate, giving rich people more breaks isn't the answer, for fuck sake marijuana could be the cure for more than just cancer, I'm so sick and tired, of fake news and delusional liars, like Kelly Ann Conway, I wouldn't be surprised if Pence was moderately gay, otherwise why does he hate us so much, conservatives should show more guts, stop riding the majority party coattails, otherwise ride the rise but also the downfall when he inevitably fails, he is a dictator/tyrant, just wait til things get super violent, there are more poor than wealthy, stop being all southern and rust belty, use some common sense and morality, otherwise ur soul will be another casualty, since art reflects life, even the Grammys were talent light, I mean it's become so superficial and theatrical, when performers used to be awe inspiring and divinely magical, I wanna feel something and be spiritually moved, it's not all about the the bass and thumping aggressive grooves, don't we have multidimensional moods, don't underestimate the strength of bad ratings low sales and boos, show a lot more backbone and attitude, the true power to change things ultimately lies in me and all of u too!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/13/17

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Colossal Calamity & Insanity

Having opinionated feelings, is not the same as justifiable reasons, people aren't like seasons, most lack purpose and meaning, impervious to change, fearful of the different and strange, play happy like house or God, don't act all surprised and shocked, I warned ya'll this would happen, us Bernie bros aren't laughing, or saying I told u so, congratulations America ur soul's been bought and sold, Trump has broke the mold, turned our democracy into a tyranny/reality tv show, I'm just devastated and disappointed, electoral college elected isn't anointed, u are no Jesus, more orange than Reese's Pieces, does he own stock in Rogaine, ur image like ur talk is plain profane, alt facts are disguised lies, how dare u question the authenticity of Senator Schumer's Holocaust tears cried, ur a despicable human being, proclaim the same voter fraud and cheating, that put u in the oval office as president, is clear cut and evident, not realizing we the people didn't vote for u, ur a fool without a clue, disconnected and detached, with an audacity that's unmatched, who really even gives a fuck about the facts, this is not how the leader of the great free world superpower acts, look at all the civil unrest, for 98% of the population this is a revelationary test, hold on to ur hearts and sanity, we haven't yet seen the extent to this colossal calamity, don't be a sucker/sheep, make more noise than a simple pimple or peep, riot and march towards chaos and anarchy, I won't apologize for my remarks that are sarcastic and snarky, according to the Constitution I have a right to free speech, seriously I can't wait til this clown gets impeached, the only bigger concern is his VP, who's a religious extremist and totally against the lgbt community, but enough with all the cynical doom and gloom, since I'm off the pot I may as well indulge in some antidepressant shrooms!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/17

  

Peace...The Good Fight

The traffic every morning really fucking kills me, ya'll need to pay attention and drive purposefully, I often wanna ram u in the behind, letting assholes cut u in line, when I've been waiting patiently, road rage makes me anxiously angry, I see what they're all doing wrong, now that cd players are obsolete I can't even jam out to my favorite songs, and we all know radio sucks, if u play chess like u drive ur a putz shmuck, do us all a favor and get off the road, pretend u have to drop a hell of a deuce/huge load, maybe then ull be normal, I'm so tired of being respectful and cordial, when nobody listens to mister nice guy, another reason why I was always high, driving creates stress, I don't claim to be perfect or the best, but god damn it, I can't handle shit, I'm at my wits end, if I had the money to spend, I'd hire my own personal driver, with marijuana priors, so we can take high rides together, I'm sure my life would be way better, but I don't want an electrical auto pilot, imagine robots picketing at riots, that'd be the day, didn't watch the Patriots play, nor had any desire to attend the parade, do u ever feel like it's all one big charade, a complete farce, seems we lack souls and hearts, no compassion nor empathy, miss hearing inspiring music like "Hallelujah" "Man In the Mirror" and "Let It Be", even Mariah has fallen off, poor thing sounds broken and distraught, she can't sing like she used to, look what constant neglect and abuse can do to u, poor thing is just looking for love, I wanna give her a hug, and remind us both that Bob Marley said "everything is gonna be alright",  unfortunately to achieve peace even the good must fight!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/17

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Awake An Addiction

Connecting with even one person is rewarding, I'm ok riding solo not focused on courting, love will come in time, still struggling with no rewind, wouldn't that be a magical fix, sorry but I don't turn tricks, I'm very genuine and honest, extremely humble and modest, a simple guy, trying to cope without getting high, it's not really a challenge, I submerse myself in my musical talents, cuz that's where I find passion and purpose, finally breaking the cycle of negativity and being attracted to what hurts us, don't forget I'm a twin, a thick Italian not twinky or too thin, learning to be more comfortable in my own skin, success isn't a place u begin, repetition and practice, makes me better at this, dropping rhymes on a dime, pretty soon I'm not even trying, it just happens naturally, my Trump supporting friends are apparently mad at me, it's hypocritical to allow him to tweet anything on his mind, but then demonize expressing the opinions and feelings that are mine, stop bastardizing true righteousness, I share my journey to help others turn their plights to bliss, it's human friction, finding inspiring soulful songs is my addiction, that's why I love Alessia Cara and James Bay, I adjust the lyrics sometimes to be more gay, since that's my perspective/point of view, call me out on the things I say but don't do, I'm open to constructive debate and criticism, it's important to actively listen, with the intention to understand, after all fallibility applies to every man, a fundamental law, once the dust settles and ur cold heart thaws, I wonder if u can admit ur short comings and mistakes, in order to make ur dreams come true u first have to awake!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/7/17

Monday, February 6, 2017

No Regret Or Remorse

Didn't watch the Superbowl, or the Lady Gaga half time show, just not my cup of tea, altho the Pats are my favorite football team, I can't support those who don't support me, just like Christianity, if ur friends or fans of Trump, sorry not sorry but ur getting dumped, I'm done searching for answers, love the phrase #FuckCancer, it's the cause of so many deaths, I wonder how much debt is from bad bets, no hate, I'd just rather play or be at the game, I'm not into television these days, I occupy my time in other productive ways, like karaoke and performing original hip hop music, I find the news to be extremely abusive, to both my mind and my soul, my spirituality is replaced by a big black hole, me and God aren't on good terms, I just don't understand what it is I'm supposed to learn, from all this atrocity and pain, the world's materialistic superficial greedy and vain, I pursue art out of love not what I can gain, fortune would be nice but I don't want the fame, most of it's negative or sheer shock value, I want ya'll to listen not cuz u have to, but cuz u actually like what my lyrics say, sick of the same pop garbage repetitively overplayed, I miss songs with substance, I tend to look at life's circumference, I'm like a chess player very long sighted, this is my destiny and I need to stop fighting it, a revolutionary poetic wordsmith, calling ya'll out on ur hypocrisy bullshit and hurtful absurdness, if I have to choose a side, I will always fight for what's right and never compromise, u should really know by now, it's not about why or when but how, and I'm not too proud, to say I too am still trying to figure it all out, I know I'm far from perfect, but failure is totally worth it, as long as u get back on the proverbial horse, I refuse to live my life with regret or remorse, perhaps that makes me crazy, but I'd rather try than give up and be labeled lazy, I'll try and try and try again, and if u can't handle that then we can't be friends, I will continue to speak up, weathering the calm before the storm is tough, cuz patience is not my strong suit, yes I'm a faggot/fairy/fruit, but watch me puke cry and bleed, keep coming back for more until I finally succeed!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/6/17

Thursday, February 2, 2017

What Are We Gonna Do

Boy am I disheveled looking and out of shape, I am so not ur stereotypical gay, I'm definitely a chameleon, very expressive about how I am feeling, I love to share my stories, totally not looking for fame or glory, however I would like to be a success, don't believe in perfection or being the best, financially I've got a lot to learn, I'm not defined tho by how much I earn, especially when talking about music, the institution is quite racist discriminatory and abusive, like only blacks can rap, only skinny bitches allowed or men with 6 pack abs, when did we become so numb and superficial, I'd prefer substance and soul over hypocritical, all just illusion and fake imagery, I mean simply look at 50, the industry is super ageist too, like being a 34 year old short bald gay white Italian rapper/singer/songwriter can't be cool, defying the very definition, I hate labeling and society's stigmatism, focusing on all the wrong things, look at the inspiration love and joy my songs bring, with quality poetic lyrics, baffling and flouting theorists, I don't come from the ghetto and not a gangster or thug, more of a cute adorable smiley middle class college educated cub who loves to hug, breaking down past boundaries and limitations, the USA has always been a melting pot for immigrant assimilation, but now we're being ruled by Twitler Trump, versus having the perfect candidate in Bernie which left me dumbfounded and stumped, how could we let an opportunity like that pass us by, I can't help but incessantly wonder why, Hillary should've been the first female VP, what's so bad about that is beyond me, still would've shattered the glass ceiling, that ticket I'm sure would've been way more appealing, this current circus can't hold a candle, republicans have systematically dismantled, the entire election process thru voter suppression, I don't think God or Jesus would bestow their blessing, perhaps we got what we deserved, it's only been 2 weeks and the whole world's unnerved, one can only have hope he somehow gets impeached, Pence is even more of a religious extremist/freak, seems no matter what we are screwed, sorry but for the first time I have no empathic insight or clue what we're gonna do!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/2/17

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Moving Right Ain't Necessarily Correct

Moving to the right direction doesn't mean correct, the President Congress and Supreme Court are meant to serve and protect, for almost a decade now we've been moving progressively left, cutting Social Security and Medicare/Medicaid is grande larceny/theft, I've had it up to here, stop ruling by fear, we the people have had enough, it's simple we come from love, not selfishness or greed, u won't even hear our pleas, pretty soon we will be the refugees, women blacks and lgbts, what's with the blatant discrimination, flagrant hating, it's like ur trying to be the worst ever, nobody hurts Trevor, or his family, Clinton won the popular vote handedly, yet we're stuck with this clown, getting used to mass high anxiety and permanent frowns, becoming numb and hopeless, he's such a megalomaniac bigoted chauvinist, and he's extremely proud, obviously we need to resist and remain loud, altho I don't know how, it's like our souls have been gouged, gotta keep the faith, good always finds a way, to triumph over evil, stop being ignorant sheeple, we all have a choice, make more noise using ur voice, to drown out his distractions, now is not the time to give up but to take action, get up off ur asses, he can't fight the masses, giving him free reign is disastrous, even the Pope thinks he's blasphemous, not a true Christian, I'm making music activism my mission, listen to the words in my songs, "Keep Holding On" and stay strong, memorize my lyrics and sing along, take another rip from the bong, if that's what u need to help u get by, incessantly pondering and questioning why, will only drive us crazy, I've never been passive or lazy, so I won't start now, watch me draw a crowd, and lead the revolution, I follow the laws of our great constitution, fuck the chaos and confusion, haven't u learned yet that it's all just an illusion?!  

Peace and 1,
JC
2/1/17