If unconditional approval is what u seek, ur expectations will inevitably meet defeat, u can't please everyone hun, try not to take life too seriously have some fun, cuz u only wind up dead, stay grounded and keep a level head, as much as possible, make sure to say improbable, anything can be accomplished if we try, don't blindly accept shit ask why, too many have become numb and complacent, our laws have turned antiquated and ancient, what has to happen for us to dramatically change, this past election's outcome I still find deranged and strange, it just doesn't make sense, now more than ever this country's divided stressed and tense, constantly on edge, wish I had got my passport and fled, cuz I wanna live somewhere more socialistic, some define me as too emotionalistic, yes that is a word, underestimation and doubt hurts, I'm so sick and tired, of being a temp that never gets permanently hired, while my bosses receive promotions, u haven't seen a bipolar Gemini commotion, but I'm on the brink of breaking, my heart's aching from all the flaking and faking, people pretending their happy and available, yet their sexual appetite is insatiable, even ruining their sacred family, most don't stomach and can't stand me, so they won't give my hip hop a chance, sorry I can rap and semi sing but can't dance, guess I'm not a real entertainer then, if this doesn't work out for me I have to start all over again, what's this the 5th or 6th time, I must be going out of my mind, to have the audacity to believe, selling out stadiums and winning a Grammy is my destiny, I'm not arrogant or pompous just unapologetic, if u don't pursue or achieve ur dreams then ur pathetic, please stop taking it out on others, aren't we supposedly all sisters and brothers, which I find kinda disgusting, perhaps incest perpetuates the competitive curmudgeon, after all isn't existence, survival of the fittest and persistents, every man for themselves, I don't agree comparing or tearing down others helps, actually it makes me feel worse, like humanity is simply naturally cursed, society needs reversing, it's turned into the moral man's burden, when did evil triumph over good, am I not successful cuz I'm not black ghetto gangster trailer park or hood, it shouldn't take money to make it, let love conquer the hatred, embrace our unique differences talents and abilities, there's enough room for us all silly, no need to fight, if we individually focus on doing what's right, maybe darkness will see the light, there's always a dawn after the night, it's an endless cycle, I'm an original songwriter not some karaoke wannabe auditioning on The Voice X Factor AGT or American Idol, how come ya'll won't make room, if u continue to stifle my art I'm doomed, this is my purpose, otherwise I feel like a failure utterly meaningless and worthless, it's hard to maintain hope and faith, I lack the virtue of patience and can no longer wait, when do I deserve or earned my opportunity, I'm not doing it for selfish fortune or fame but for the young gay community, trying to give minorities a strong insightful voice, I'm not always dignified and poised, in fact I know I still got a lot to learn, but I consistently strive and yearn, to awaken our collective consciousness, prove and show there's more to the next generation than spoiled entitled laziness and incompetence, but baby boomers need to let go of control, trust that there are plenty of righteous inspirational capable souls ready to fill the voids and holes, we need new blood, to be brave courageously standing up for the truth justice equality and love!
Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/20/17
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