The Descension: In The Yin

My world changes from day to day, sometimes my anxiety makes me afraid, what if I'm not good enough, easily gullible attracted to lust, probably over trust, which is needed for love, u can't have one without the other, I treat everyone like fathers mothers sisters and brothers, in other words family, I hate greedy people who win underhandedly, the sinister are out in full force, I am not defined by my flaws mistakes or warts, I am all I've done, please don't ghost or shun, it's impolite, we forgot about the power of light, we're in the dark part of the yin, thing is neither side ever truly wins, it's what's more dominant, I hope to become one of music's prominent, wish ya'll would give me a chance, my songs are meant for dance, they're for chilling on high rides, I have trouble conquering my tides, finding equilibrium and balance, I feel at a disadvantage because of my respectfulness and valiance, am I the last of my kind, I'll be successful even if I die trying, it's what I'm here for, I won't be a part of their war, I fight for truth justice and consciousness, aren't ya'll sick of this obnoxiousness, whether economical or political, the struggle is real and literal, not just a figure of speech, since I can do I guess I can't teach, practice what u preach, don't be a mooch or a leech, it's annoying, thank God I'm elastic and buoyant, can rise again and bounce back, karma mounts fast, and u get what u give, so many are alive but don't live, all robotic slave-like and zombified, when we colonized we should've compromised, instead we quelled the indigenous, we've become numb self righteous hypocrites, spreading corruption disguised as democracy, this huge wealth distribution gap is destroying the economy demonstrably, it might be too late to fix, does fate exist, was this our destiny, how will history measure me, I care about my legacy, I wonder if most murder is caused by envy and jealousy, especially crimes of passion, will our government accept responsibility and take action, cuz Congress is useless, can only get by so much on ur cuteness, besides looks fade, we all age, those are the facts of life, could cut the tension with an ax or knife, so consumed by fear, entombed my tears, sensitivity is a sign of weakness, the next sequence is the descension of Jesus, our divine mythical lord and savior, except this time he won't sacrifice himself based on our bad behavior, we don't deserve redemption, save ur confession, some sins deserve suspension, I often wonder if existence is a curse or a blessing!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
8/22/18 

Having Talent & Skills Doesn't Pay The Bills

Ya'll may scoff and laugh at this, but fuck hope it's way too passive, it gives permission to let someone else do all the work, and creates lazy victimized jerks, who never take action, do u really think another Holocaust can't happen, the divide is growing, evil's face is showing, at least we now know the truth, guess we inherently lean to certain groups, we all want to fit in, win and be thin, but at what cost, when we all are the same individuality gets lost, I like being different and unique, I'm 36 and I've yet to begin let alone piqued, my whole life is ahead, I'll quit when I'm dead, cuz it won't be a choice, it took me a long time to find my voice, first I discovered who I was, had to be brave dig deep testing my balls and guts, it isn't easy following ur own path, we've abandoned our moral compass and lack tact, gone are the days of chivalry and empathy, corporations aren't people they're an entity, we need to get money out of our elections, our government exists for protection, and is supposed to be a public service, nobody is worthless, our vote matters in democracy, I can't stand republican hypocrisy, liberals are far from prefect too, checks and balances are the proverbial glue, keeping ourselves in check, is this Congress' best, cuz it's rather quite pathetic, pay attention to ur rhetoric, yes words hurt, it's ok to curse, as long as it's not unnecessarily excessive, my lyrical content is pretty eclectic sometimes eccentric but always thought provokingly impressive, u just have to listen carefully, I write magically/miraculously, I simply do, unfiltered and uncensored too, let if flow stream of consciousness style, this crazy obnoxiousness is wild, where are the revolutionary artists, it's hardest selling urself when ur naturally genuine humble and modest, where's my Suge Tommy Puffy or Clive, how did the late bloomers like me manage to survive, all those years unnoticed, having to applaud mediocre or straight up atrocious, the spirit of Pac evokes us, cuz we're both Geminis, when did avid hip hop fans become desensitized, rappers were activists, Eminem is sick with his rhyme schemes and adjectives, I know I come of arrogant cocky pompous and pious, and obviously I'm biased, but I've got mad poetry and song writing talent and skills, even tho my performances videos and sales don't pay the bills, I know I still have purpose and value, I work a day job cuz I have to, I'm not rich nor famous, and I'm starting to get incredibly anxious, cuz I deserve a turn, I've fallen been beaten and burned, but every single time I got up healed tried again and learned!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
8/10/18

A Rose That Chose To Grow From Snow

Lead by example not lecture, watch out cuz karma's gonna get ya, after all we get what we give, ur not God so don't judge the way I live, worry about urself, I'm here if I can help, but I'm learning, to focus more on working, even music and poetry is just a hobby, the womb is really hell's lobby, are we fallen angels, perception's different depending on the angles, what happens after death, will I remember regrets, for the next time, there may be reincarnation but no rewind, or is it simply black, for a male I have a decent rack, always getting complimented on my chest, I try to give my all and do my best, that's all anyone can ask, I refuse to wear all the different masks, I've got one face not two, tho that's what Geminis do, see both sides, they're insightful and wise, balancing the extremes, do u ever find urself wondering what it all means, what's life's purpose, why does the universe keep hurting us, or is it self inflicted, I don't like the way gays are depicted, so one dimensional, ur discrimination is intentional, we don't need more hate, the human race could be great, but we implode before we grow, global warming is not a hoax or a joke, we are the biggest contributors, I wanna be a marijuana distributor, or what's called a bud tender, when I think about the amount of money one must render, to just survive, I feel like I don't jive, perhaps I was born in the wrong era, have u ever written urself a letter, I find it helps during reflection, hindsight works for future protection, but there's no such thing as perfection, I wonder who'll be running in the next presidential election, still gotta get thru these midterms, maybe it's the kids turn, let them lead and take control, Bette sings "far beneath the bitter snow", "lies a seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes a rose", funny to think our personalities are based on the birth month we chose, it's been said we pick our parents, I don't believe in jealousy nor arrogance, cuz I'm grateful appreciative and blessed, this journey is filled with trial and error and a lot of hypothesized guess, we're bound to fail and fall, scale those boundaries and walls, breakdown barriers and blocks, don't ever give up or stop, especially on ur dreams, who says u have to be part of a team, I don't need another man to complete me, wish evil would retreat please, they may have won the battle but never the war, someday I hope to take the next step and be an opening act for a major artist on tour!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
8/7/18