Totally Self Unaware Ruled By Abuse & Fear

How do I get y'all to notice me, and don't say pray on rosary beads, I'm being genuine, I wanna be sexy instead of a handsome gentleman, haven't been flattered or wooed in a long while, been told I've got a great smile, when I'm trying to share my talent, showing the world I'm chivalrous and valiant, which everyone assumed like hip hop was dead, when will I ever get ahead, perhaps it's not my time, maybe 40s will be my prime, piquing in my late 50s, watching y'all try to JLo striptease as I sip teas, keeping my big mouth shut, gotta be gracious and grateful for what I've got, and not compare myself to others, don't be jealous or envious of lovers, always been a late bloomer, once day hopefully I'll own a schooner, but until then, I'll stay bent and zen, dreaming in my mind, remaining nice and kind, even if that means I finish last, I didn't set out wanting to make fast cash, it's what happens when u become famous, the level of wealth accrued can be outrageous, look at Facebook owner and Amazon's, ever notice how celebrities are glamazons, except Ed Sheeran who's not one of "The Beautiful People", why are immigrants and gays labeled evil, it just doesn't make sense, impeachment means President Pence, which is even scarier, blacks and women are naturally considered inferior, who makes up these cockamamie rules, greedy rotten crazy fools, who don't have empathy and can't share, use tools of abuse and fear, totally self unaware, replacing fun with despair, cuz if ur isolated an alone, it's easier to conquer competition and advocate the thrown, I need u to wake up, please don't fake love, cuz ull grow to regret life, did y'all forget what's right, or choose to ignore, who's in charge of the ripcord, we need to slow this motherfucker down, before we plummet straight into the ground, change must be profound, come quickly and astound, cuz we're approaching the point of no return, perhaps being complicit has earned us collectively being burned, I'd prefer not to go with the ship, I'm so over dealing with the consequences of everybody else's shit!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/30/19