A Gemini Goodbye

My effort has come to an end, u officially miss out on a gay best friend, letting opportunity pass by, simply out of pride, it's ur loss, not even a coin toss, I win either way, totally unafraid, in fact I'm excited for this next chapter, I'm creating my own happily ever after, filled with chosen family, if I can speak candidly, most don't deserve my light and love, when it comes to time there's never enough, life's all choice and consequence, I'm done with too intense, perhaps ur just insufficient, ur toxicity is malignant, good luck/journey, cuz now unfortunately there's no chance to earn me, that's the thing with us Gemini, really mean it when we say goodbye!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
11/29/24

Happy Moses Thanksgiving

Today I got to celebrate with the Moses family, and boy do they do a holiday grandly, so much love, helps get thru the tough stuff, I'm not only thankful, but tremendously grateful, thru the day to day, sometimes it's hard to find our way, that north star if u will, remember to just stand still, cherish these precious moments, never too late to make atonement, it's important to keep on living, hopefully have an amazing and happy Thanksgiving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/28/24

Not God's Plot Dead Ahead

I want to write something inspirational, this year I am extremely grateful, despite being overwhelmed with grief, I'm like a green leaf, burning slowly, can a gay guy be holy, if not, what's God's plot, do we exist in vain, these historical cycles are insane, like a hampster wheel, it ain't how u feel but deal, defined by our reactions, imagine actually faxing, a divine higher power, heard to talk to a flower, it'll help it grow, do u think food knows, it's about to be eaten, focus on sleeping, and ur teeth, the future shouldn't be bleak, the best is still ahead, stop saying ull rest when dead, it's just so toxic, workaholics gotta get conscious, are y'all existing or living, cuz time is consistent giving unforgiving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/27/24

In It Til We're Finished

Doin some shrooming, helped with my doom and glooming, it's totally understandable u know tho, from now on I only grow alone, trying not to be so stoned all the time, got to a place I'm able to say I'm fine, and truthfully mean it, keep fallen victim to Satan and his demons, yes I too am a fallible human I guess, perhaps y'all don't see the depressed and stressed hot mess, maybe u think I'm too blessed, hide behind sarcasm and jest, but I believe that's more ur truth, which unfortunately is both tragically sad and uncouth, pretty plain ugly, don't fucking hug me, frictioning negativity, they're sucking ur energy/spirit silly, gaming dude, is draining u, disengage and give space, separate and get away, cuz if we wallow within hate and stay stuck in it, we're ultimately just fucked finito or finished!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
11/25/24

Buck Up & Embrace Grace

Buck up for what, I've simply had enough, all this superficial uninterestingness is killing me, like literally, I'm way too deep for shallow, my light fights shadow, but in these overwhelmingly darker times, when I'm torn between hearts or minds, to try to connect with, this level of empathy and care doesn't feel like the best gift, in fact it's more of a curse, gay love hurts, and I wonder if it's even real, being a chameleon is ur shield, instead of wielding my sword, inheriting this life was something I never could afford, it is kind of upsetting, probably coming across as tho I'm rejecting/neglecting my blessings, need to surrender accept and embrace, stop giving away what I should hold onto...grace!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/23/24

Wise Lies Help Myself

Now that I'm back in RI, wish to be both out of sight and mind, I just can't handle this, lose hope for happiness joy and bliss, I miss my whole damn family, not many can understand me, what I've been thru in 6 short years, surprised I haven't drowned in tears, so very overwhelmed, feel as tho I ain't even at the helm, forging my own path ahead, curious about what happens next, having no control, is fucking with my soul, trying to stay grateful, when I'm angry and hateful, can't focus on only the positive, always been honest how I live, to my detriment, choice isn't an experiment, annoyed and disappointed, look who y'all anointed, the worst of the pickings, questioning basic existence, no one's listening to the wise, unable to differentiate truth from the barrage of illusion and lies, I'm completely defeatedly fed up, uve barely said it let alone shown love, I desperately need help, but it simply seems I'm on a team all by myself!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/22/24

Eternally R.I.P.

Today there are few words, that could encapsulate this hurt, but I will power thru, just like u taught me to, turning these tears to triumph, til I'm high enough, upon the mountain top, with u Gia and pop, ull be like omg, no silly it's me, simply wanted to say hi, I promise to try to stop asking why, it was all meant to be, y'all are always my family, in or out of our bodies, and truly deeply hope u eternally rest in peace!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/18/24

A Promiscuousness Bender Agenda

With all the phoniness, no wonder I'm consumed with deep loneliness, I know I'm not the only one authentic, but the level of fakeness is demented, add some makeup and a wig, and u can get anyone or thing, that's not a diss on drag, my identity isn't being a fag, yet I embrace that side of myself, wish when I was younger I had help, if I'm being honest I suck at sex, I think I've just been doin it incorrect, didn't know better, that's not how I spent time together, u don't need to fuck to be intimate, hookups are legitimate, maybe I won't want to, because it's u, stranger danger, working on my resentment mistrust and anger, which all stems from pain, I never thought or looked at relationships as a game, I promise I have no agenda, perhaps it's time I go on a promiscuousness bender!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/16/24

U Cool?

My intention of healing and cleansing, has been such a blessing, just getting away helps, happiness doesn't come from wealth, don't tell us to forget the past, u can't get over grief like that fast, until it happens to u, maybe it isn't cool, to even speak on it, peace is iconic, but finding joy and light, employs the fight in life, believe me, it ain't easy, yet there are precious moments, smoking weed eating donuts, have a cheat week or 2, it's called vacation dude, do absolutely nothing, shouldn't throw urself into drinking drugging and fucking, but hey, if that's how u escape, who am I to say that's wrong, I'd prefer to write poetry or a song, there's no one size fits all, please don't expect me to reach out and call, that's ur job fam and friends, my strength is spent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/13/24

Conned On & On By Don

There are sometimes words get in the way, certain occasions don't need u to say, anything in fact, shouldn't talk back, miss me in silence, no man is an island, especially in an over populated world, sure they can own cars and stuff but never girls, her body her choice, I'll whoop u with my voice, enough with this nonsense already, we must remain steadfast and steady, prepared for the fight of our lives, I love the Tupac quote "real eyes realize real lies", so much truth and it's clever, I took off the rose colored glasses to see better, but now I can't put em back on, how does a majority of America not know they've been conned by Don?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/10/24

Creativity & Its Unrelatability

Turns out I'm a liar, constantly dimmed my fire, to people please, I guess I'm weak, since I can't be honest, and be modest, it just doesn't work that way, I don't wanna know ur vote like u don't want my gay in ur face, move in silence, rhetoric can produce violence, songs are spells, we are collectively making earth a level of hell, only after money, hoarding it all abundantly, time's taking energy, disregarding legacy, will corrupt honor, sick of false prophets and martyrs, modern celebrities and fame, have eradicated talent from the game, too many plants, my pockets full of other people's hands, exploiting my creativity, simply because of its unrelatability, I've absolutely finally had enough, will only speak truth cuz it always comes from love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/9/24

The Dollar's Collar

One man's too much, is another's not enough, never a 50/50 split, trade tat for tit, why don't u rub and lick the nip tip a bit too, hope I'm not rude boo, but mine are hardwired, lyrically lately I'm on fire, can't stop writing, it's like the art is fighting, to spew out, a few bouts, within a single day even, two heads of the same demon, a double Gemini, how bubbled am I, but so is everyone else, while nobody helps, unless it's financially rewarding, heed this severe warning, if money is the root of all evil, what does capitalism mean to the American sheeple, with their almighty dollar, may as well put on ur leash and locked collar, unless ur kept or inept, genuinely direct whether or not u get upset, it's already been said, life's a bitch and then we're dead!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/5/24

Simmer To Glimmer Or Shimmer

So much bad mixed within slivers of good, man is life misunderstood, how we get thru day after day, the caveman way seems far away, now we just live to work/make money, I don't find it funny, the lack of accountability, y'all make lawfullness seem passe or silly, especially in a president, isn't his incapableness evident, I mean really, if we reject Kamala like Hillary, can we openly say we're both racist and sexist, but oh yes The US is the bestest, land of the free and a brave nation, except when it comes to health care and education, hypocritically policing and democratizing globally, discrimination in any form is unholy, intolerance shouldn't be allowed, who u do choose to lead doesn't mean blindly followed, things need to calm down and simmer, have faith and pray love's hope can glimmer perhaps maybe even shimmer!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
11/4/24