Victory When United

Today is such a beautiful day outside, why do we hide and work away most our lives, like without money we wouldn't exist, corporate capitalistic culture's got me super pissed, why do sheeple keep falling for it, enough with corrupt politicians and shit, I'm not even trying to be political, it's just that ur hypocritical, esp if ur a republican and ur a minority, I'm sorry but I'm not sorry, it needed to be said, if one of them becomes president it'll be like the Dark Ages all over again, aren't we supposed to get smarter and wiser with age, our founding fathers are appallingly turning over in their graves, we wage wars in the name of democracy, the whole country could revitalize infrastructure with the tax profits from the largest power ball lottery, where did all that revenue go, I really really really hate Congress u know, they are so fucking shady, what they blatantly get away with makes me angry, if Trump does win he better use his famous tagline "ur fired", look at the lousy house and senate mid term elections hired, I swear to God, this circus needs to stop, I want Clinton to drop out the race and get indicted, there will only be victory and positive change with Bernie leading a Democratic party that finally united!

Peace and 1,

JC

2/29/16

My Shy Old Soul's Time To Shine

Haven't learned how to let expired moments be, letting and setting love free, is probably the hardest thing to do, my emotions and stubbornness make me act a fool, burning what was once a fully functioning bridge, should follow my heart not my head or dick, I know he hates me now, and I don't have one single clue how, I'm ever gonna heal nor forgive myself, I was only trying to be ur friend and help, but I opened my big mouth, thank god I never swallowed, I already crossed my own morality line, then I hurt him with my rhymes, should've simply said no, the crush and the lust won tho, but then also having to hang with his significant other, I realized I was a homewrecking slut explaining the situation to my mother, at least in the end I learned my lesson, u can't beat urself up too much perhaps there's a hidden blessing, stop investing in and messing around with unavailable people, focus on and chase only what makes me happy for real, music is my dream destiny and purpose, I still get stage fright jitters and nervous, but sometimes I find, all I do is close my eyes, let my mind go blind and I'm fine, as the magic happens and it's my shy old soul's time to shine!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/28/16

Care To Share With Us

I'm letting light in to illuminate the darkness, when did we become so inhuman unempathetic and heartless, we've lost both compassion and passion, it's time for a revolution so let's take action, fight in the name of love, spread peace with pot and hugs, only got one life and one world, stop oppressing blacks gays muslims and girls, there's more to life than money, even ur failures and mistakes can be funny, unlike San Diego it isn't mostly sunny, some stories are serious dramatic tragedies, I don't willingly bow down to authority or address strangers as ur majesty, in my book respect is earned, and reciprocatingly returned, but I don't give blindly, I don't take to liars cheats fakes or flakes too kindly, tho I'm the nice guy always finishing last, my true value could never be measured by a worthless piece of paper/cash, so I'll continue to work hard, and maybe I'll get far, but if not, I'm still grateful to god, blessing me with so much, I'm talking about way more than just stupid materialistic stuff, if u have enough and then some why not show u care and share with the rest of us!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/28/16

Making Music=Happy

There are many times in life, when ur overwhelmed by the pain and the strife, nothing seems to go right, always angry mispicking a fight, truth is I lost my light, hold on to all the love u can get tight, like Michael Jackson sang "it don't matter if ur black or white", if u dare me to or I say I will it doesn't mean might, u can bet it's a definite yes, fuck ur no answer maybe or I guess, u either do shit or u don't, u sure u can't or u just won't, I ain't no slut/whore that can be bought or owned, now I too must reap what I've sown, at least I've finally learned my lesson and grown, I don't really like our closures tone, still alot left unsaid, I'm struggling to forgive while u so easily forget, makes me question ur intentions since our relationships inception, I blindly fell for ur lying cheating and deception, tho I'm JC there ain't gonna be any resurrection, sorry to say there's nothing to shield u from karma nor protection, thanks for making me feel worthless and less than, I'm not trying to surround myself with doubters or yes men, soul sucking greedy evil sheeple, I may have fallen and failed but I'm not helpless nor feeble, just really tired embittered jaded and sarcastically crabby, my new mantra is simply chasing my hip hop music dream and being happy!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/27/16

Super Sarcastic Tongue & Cheek Freak

Feeling numb these days, lost in a foggy haze, I've decided to close my heart, stop sharing my art, I mean what's the point, it's not making any coin, I'm not sure if it's even helping, I feel like the wicked witch of the west melting, my old soul is like Biggie Ready To Die, perhaps I am negative but at least I don't cheat and lie all the time, I give up on love and gay friends, will life's struggles ever end, cuz I can't take much more, I'm begging down on all fours, please please please, the universe needs to quit fucking with me, I am only 1 man, help me to understand, if everything happens for a reason, wtf was the meaning, how can I suppress my true feelings, when my emotions are tied to the seasons, it's winter so I guess, that must be why I'm depressed, too tired depleted and weak, wish the future didn't seem so hopeless and bleak, I'm a super sarcastic freak, but I usually am totally oblivious to hints that are tongue and cheek!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/22/16

Didn't Mean It

To be my friend u must comprehend me and my art, I speak my truth my mind and my heart, it's therapeutic and healing, letting go by expressing/venting my experiences observations lessons and feelings, my serious raw honesty and lyrical talent gets very intense, most can't handle humbled sarcasm kindness intelligence and genuineness, I don't know the extent to my own strength and the power of my words, I'm not gonna lie other people's choices and actions hurt way worse, I think love is cursed, without trust lust and open communication a relationship never works, why are most men insensitive soulless jerks, it's ok tho cuz karma exists and she's an evil nagging bitch that lingers and lurks, I've seen firsthand love turn to hate, i always say isn't there a learning curve/phase, why cldnt u set boundaries better instead of altogether dooming our fate, ud repeatedly mislead tease and say maybe ull play, then make me impatiently wait and wait and wait, for that miraculous day ud make some time for just me to chill out hang and blaze at my place, u can't simply avoid or ignore me or dealing with problems and shit forever, guess Mariah don't know Jack cuz we don't belong together, u didn't mean it when u said u loved me so, u get what u give and u reap what u sow tho, I won't come over ur house to put on a crazy irrational spectacle/show, and I'll be the bigger person but u can't stop me from referring to u in a poem, I never wld mention anyone by name, it's not my intent or purpose to harm maim or shame, I'm really not trying to hurt anyone be toxic or over obnoxious, I'm literally essentially freestyle typing stream of consciousness!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/22/16

I Approve Of Me

Fighting then forgiving makes friendships last longer, how can u think giving up and walking away from us means ur stronger, have hope and faith that's unwavering, who is it ur art is catering, u gotta know ur audience, crying shldnt be a sign of weakness or an annoyance, express ur true emotions and what u feel, lying and cheating isn't keeping it real, if u think I'm a negative lazy jealous bitch, wait til u meet karma the biggest baddest witch, don't worry I won't snitch, but don't call me when u get a sexual itch, cuz I'll be gone, finally moving on, the only thing I will chase is my dream, if something is too good to be true or so it seems, it usually is, wish we cld go back to being kids, with age comes responsibility, adults don't believe in magic act impulsive or silly, why settle for an unfulfilling life, u shld take the time to find urself before marrying a husband or a wife, we only got one shot, can't decide what's better to be spontaneous or plan and plot, it's not what u say but if u do, always apply the golden rule, how u treat others is very telling, I'm not buying what ur selling, ur simply a liar and a cheat, I'm not too proud or egotistical to admit failure wrong doing or defeat, some day my prince will cum, I'm not looking for just one, like the dad in Trainwreck said "monogamy is unrealistic", most people in power are greedy and sadistic, I'm done being used and abused, ur stupid ignorant and rude, in case ya'll are confused, stop trusting the internet politicians and the news, real love great sex and happiness is what I choose, why does the nice guy perpetually lose, I'm blessed and appreciative of my family friends food clothes and a roof, but when it comes to discovering purpose proof is aloof, I don't need a worthless piece of paper/degree, the only person I need approval from is me!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/21/16

Phoenixly Rise Fly & Soar

Me and my big mouth, I worry too much out of fear and doubt, I need more clout, I'm not training to bout, I simply exercise to stay healthy, I don't wanna be rich and famous I wanna be respected and wealthy, I don't care what anyone tells me, we all feel envy spite and jealousy, at many points in ur life, we can't avoid atrocity people problems or strife, u cld cut the awkward tension with a knife, not getting likes comments and shares bites, like Tina sang "I don't wanna fight no more", "cuz it's time for letting go" an impossible chore, my story will become legendary epic folklore, how even an average gay white short bald poetic rapper singer songwriter from RI can phoenixly rise fly and soar!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/20/16

Let's Get Stoned

Things are finally going right in my life, despite incessant pain and strife, I'm carrying and keeping on, I never knew I was this strong, but I ain't gonna lie, without u I wanna die, I still don't know what I did, simply can't seem to fathom it, one day u just woke up, having fallen out of love, silence to me equates hate, I'm sad for u and ur settled fate, a dozen years together is great, what if there's no sexual compatibility with ur soul mate, all I want is companionship and company, I think the idea of gay marriage is stupid and funny, why is the world so obsessed with money, it can't always be positively sunny, gotta find equilibrium and balance, discover ur gifts/talents, and surround urself with the right people, the way u treated me was not only childishly immature but downright evil, u two arent attached at the hip but at the back, eventually pushing everybody away like that, ur going to wind up alone, all I asked for was a text or a call on the phone, we both know ur not doing anything but sitting at home, why can't we hug it out heal with forgiveness and let's get stoned!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/20/16

If U Don't Make An Effort

Ur a liar cheat and a bad communicator, while I'm a jealous spiteful hater, killed me with ur avoiding silence, consumes my thoughts with anger and violence, I have all our messages saved, I won't blackmail u til u cave, I may have chased u before, but now I want nothing more, than to be platonic best friends, why decide our relationship must end, the same shit I did and was in, ur partner was going thru the same thing, damn u really fooled me, who knew someone so beautifully talented cld be so mean, just up and abandon and neglect, u said ud forever love and protect, one day karma will come back to bite, cuz ur too chicken shit to fight, being honest is what's right, if u don't make an effort to fix this soon u might extinguish my love's light!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/20/16

Eloped Years Ago

I'm a good guy, yes I'm always high, intense at all times, why can't I see the signs, I'm becoming too much, boy do I spitefully grudge, I'll admit I can't let shit go, I don't hold my tongue or ever censor my flow, sorry if I hurt u, there isn't anything I won't try to work thru, I'm a mirror of truth, I can empathically walk in ur shoes, possess ur point of view, I often ask what would Professor X do, in my expressing perception deception and inception, there's constant misdirection as to what's the point/lesson, am I a curse or a blessing, I can't stop worrying and obsessing, we do what we know, but I have hope we can change and grow, I want my own hour long hip hop show, regularly performing at a marijuana smoke lounge would be dope, fyi 7 years ago me and music eloped, and now I don't feel so lost or alone, simply entertaining on stage brings me right back home!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/16/16

Balancing Act

My poetry lately, has been very dark and angry, I'm consumed with spite, cuz I don't understand the struggle that is my life, people repeatedly leaving me high and dry, when I think of u now I cry, what is so wrong with me, there's so much that u don't see, yet u still judge, do ya'll know the definition of unconditional love, tho I say love I don't wanna marry u fool, a relationship would be cool, but it takes time energy and work, most guys are desensitized misogynistic pricks/jerks, bad at intamacy and expressing feelings, can u decipher my secret hidden meanings, do u know about alliteration internal rhyme and metaphors, both good and bad are at our cores, it's all a balancing act, unfortunately there's no take backs, we only get one shot, so be sure to make the most of what we got!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/16/16

Total T.W.O.T.

Ur ugly on the inside, cuz u just repeatedly lied, not only to ur partner and me but to urself, ur a sex slut and u need help, friendship isn't controlled with a switch, u must have me confused with some other craigslist bitch, some day it'll catch up to u, can't forever hide the truth, ur unhappy and unfulfilled, look how u misdirected the anger u let fester too long it spilled, how can one day u wake up, decide to push away and deprive me of a best bud hug and/or ur love, my world has turned dark and gray, people like u make me ashamed of being gay, they're so superficial, divided and hypocritical, always settling while looking for more, no matter how hard u try to disguise the fact that ur a whore, ur papas is a fat lazy bore, perhaps that's why ur hookering while he's at work or the store, now when I think of u I'm embittered and enraged, 12 years later and ur still not engaged, ur ur own worst enemy, I'm too old to be playing pretend ur a friend to me, ur not, I gave and u got, I need way more pot, cuz ur a piece of shit and a total t.w.o.t.! 

Peace and 1,
JC
1/16/16

Ain't No Craigslist Bitch

Feeling pushed away, trying to go about my day, blocking my thoughts of u, again I was played a fool, guess I'm guilty of chasing, can't help wondering if u were faking, the whole time seems was just a tease, ur a good actor easy to believe, u said u wanted a best friend dude, more like wanted ur cake and to eat it too, getting over u has been the hardest thing to do, ur criticism was not only harsh but cruel, perhaps u should take ur own advice, negativity depression and laziness are a part of life, u totally misdirected ur anger, ignoring me is the quickest way to become strangers, don't complain to me about ur papas, thinking ur the almighty wise one and always right makes u pompous, u two deserve each other, if u don't have sex are u still considered lovers, how long u been together and haven't gotten hitched, u apparently can't handle this, I will no longer tolerate u and ur shit, go find some other stupid slut bitch to use from craigslist.

Peace and 1,
JC
1/28/16

Confusing My Love

Relationships are like seasons, tho I believe we meet people for a reason, some I wish I never met, too tired of giving way more than I get, just cuz I remind u of the truth, the consequences of ur lies don't only apply to u, did hurting me so bad make u feel good, I'm far from perfect but always did what I cld, afterall I am just a man, maybe one day ull help me understand, as much as I wanna get revenge I'm ur biggest fan, often times sorry doesn't heal but hugs can, I wish u were still in my life, seems u keep confusing my love with that of a husband's or wife's, simply say ur unavailable, I'll still come along and bring something to the table, my folks raised me right, I find relationships grow stronger after surviving a fight, I will continue to strive and be a great best friend, cuz I'm unconditionally loving loyal trustworthy and honest til the end!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/15/16

Need A Real BFF

Finally figured out, u don't like to bout, ud rather avoid and ignore, even tho ur misdirecting ur own insecurities and flaws, raw truth and honesty, can only seem to be taken moderately, I miss u so much, but I won't compromise integrity for lust, u never really loved me, u used me when u needed to get lucky, if ur sexless codependent relationship isn't fulfilling enough, tough...cuz I no longer give a fuck, I ain't no craigslist call ho/slut, ur either delusional or crazy, look in the mirror or at ur partner when calling someone lazy, have fun settling playing pretend, I'm gonna go find myself a real best friend!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/15/16

Start Fresh Again

What I've come to learn and know, is u used me as a scapegoat, kinda like when people have kids to save their marriage or relationship, at least half of that last crap was literally ur misdirected frustration hate and shit, I'm not the manipulator, ur just a bad communicator, work more on urself, instead of giving advice trying to help, ur buddies shouldn't have to play or be therapists, don't solve problems with guns knives or fists, be a real man, stand face to face and make me understand, how u can fall in and out of love so easily, I was sexy discrete and free yet u still got greedy, some reciprocation but it was mostly a one way street, I unconditionally accepted all of u even ur stinky feet, what the hell is so wrong with me, I guess whatever will be will be, we have no control, my heart and soul both have holes, seems what u really wanted was two best friends, tho my chasing ur affection and approval has come to an end, I will cherish our many moments chillen getting bent, and if u ever change ur mind at anytime I'm willing to start fresh again.

Peace and 1,
JC
1/11/16

Always So Worried & Scared

Guess who's back, should learn to laugh, cuz taking life too seriously gets stressful, I'm frustrated I'm understimulated and bored cuz RI is so uneventful, but I find solace in alone time, it's ok I'm just a gemini I'm totally fine, I'm not bipolar I'm just sensative and over emotional, not giving urself enough credit can take a toll on a old soul, when God made me she definitely broke the mold, a talented philosophical activist and a skilled lyricist, I wish people would really read or listen and try to understand and hear this, the relatably deep meaningful poetic messages, I'm very interested to see who the next president elect is, cuz elections nowadays are shady corrupt and fucked up business, it's some crazy shady shit yet no one else is asking what is this, nobody's responsible or held accountable, the damage done from kicking the dumb can down the line is now improbable/insurmountable, and I'm worried it just might be too late, I'm scared we don't have the ability to change our course nor fate!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/16

Just Joe

I wonder if u think of me, do I make u happy, perhaps evoke a smile, I'd give anything to cuddle with u for a lil while, or how about at least a hug, it'll all be ok all u needs a lil love, some smoke and good deep conversation, can get easily overwhelmed in a sea of people/congregation, except when I'm up on stage, I hate the spotlight more than being locked up in a cock cage, it's so much pressure and the temperature runs hot, sometimes I close my eyes and give it everything I've got, I'm learning better to control my power, it's often wiser to listen than get louder, anger is right up there with fear, I definitely over analyze and care, but now it's time I let go, concentrate and focus on just Joe, I feel a big change is about to come, I'm done not having fun, we only get one life to live, gotta be more conscious of how much and to whom I give, these greedy zombified soul suckers be thirsty, I'm not like most queens I bow instead of curtsy, anyone trying to hate on or label me can take a hike, I ain't no stereotype, homo don't play that, a real wise gay man understands no reaction is the best way to react!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/7/16