What if this is really as good as it gets, yes I should stay humble grateful and blessed, but I feel like everything I am was all inherited, being masculine white I've already doubly benefited, I don't face much outward hate or oppression, my sexuality is not my identity so that facts irrelevant, I'm not too proud to admit I'm insecure as fuck, i chalk any success up to cconsistent talent passion and drive over luck, yet I still haven't made a dent in this hip hip industry, I guess nobody wants to make a financial commitment with me, that's ok tho yo cuz I believe in myself, I've been brave enough to ask for help, faced endless rejection, relying heavily on familial protection, probably too much, but I still got the guts, to pack up my car with all my stuff, to go after and discover my one true unconditional love, music, my life's infused with it, it's my purpose, just cuz labels don't see I'm marketable or profitable doesn't mean I'm worthless, me myself and I along with my rhymes have value, I rap and sing everyday since my soul simply has to, the one thing I ask of u, take off the mask dude, show the world who u r, bare ur broken heart, spit more bars, but of substance not superfluous superficial surface stranger shit like sports weather women or cars, y'all can't stand me, if u can't understand deep, it's inherent in the name, spreading consciousness ain't no fame game, I'm looking to make some real genuine change, am I the only one concerned the future's balance still hangs?!?
Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
4/22/21
