My Bent 2 Cents

I'm not most people's choice, altho many have said they love my voice, that's when love just ain't enough, rejection sucks and it's tough, to get thru, it permeates u, bruises the ego's self esteem, I hate when y'all laugh at my dreams, of Grammys and selling out stadiums, maybe I sprained my brain or its cranium, bumped the noggin one too many times, I'm bad at seeing signs/reading between the lines, often oblivious and gullible, a whole lotta innocent fun trouble, like Cartman I do what I want, stay humble and don't flaunt, simply gimme weed music or movies, my fantasies don't include vajajas or boobies, so no negative Nancy Debbie downer chatty Cathys or Suzie 2 cents, to all the jealous haters out there who fear the queers trying to persevere...get bent, I'm a genuine gentlemanly good gay guys guy, if my sexuality matters so much ask urself why, I'm hurting absolutely no one, we should be more concerned with discrimination corruption and guns, distracted by the dumbest inane things, that in the end nobody wins, especially the real needy, yet we keep lining pockets of the extremely greedy, I bequeath voting is beneath me cuz the popular don't matter, existentially elevating the collective consciousness thru hip hop/R.A.P's what I'm actually after!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
625/23

Who Decides Spotlight's Shined Time

I really hope someday, I'll find my way, to love happy and peace, I'm sick of resilience to hurt pain and grief, I've reached my limits, I believe god is a gimmick, used to control the masses, I'm done with religious political hypocritical asses, where's the separation of church and state, capitalism perpetuates evil jealousy greed and hate, I've simply had enough, feeling pressured and pushed to give up, but I've got too much faith and light, a ton of passion guts and fight, I forget how far I've actually already gotten thru, still feel this deep seeded need to please validate and prove, tho I understand it's not my time, who decides when and where the spotlight's shined, cuz these celebrities nowadays with platforms suck, they lack any substance and are talentless as fuck!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/24/23

Epically Legandary Legacy

Who knows, with tragedy empathy grows, I didn't think I could hold on any longer, then I heard Kelly sing "what doesn't kill u makes u stronger", I can totally relate, death is our collective fate, with no exceptions, all politics includes deception, both sides, are wings making the bald eagle fly, or of the same coin, the level of divisiveness is annoying, democracy's better, when we're working together, but rationality's endangered if not extinct, digital is erasing human footprints, like waves zambonying the sand, common sense and accountability are in high demand, life feels like the twilight zone, text does not highlight tone, in fact it's often misunderstood, wish they'd stop feeding fear and bastardizing good, why's it so profitable and fun to be bad, the corrupt are having a power grab, but I'm thankful for my angels, anyone else strapped for cash financially strangled, inflation and profits are out of control, there's not enough money hunny to buy my soul tho, what's ur ultimate goal/legacy, fuck fortune and fame as long my music and poetry are epically legendary!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/23/23

Bitter Pill Of Ill Will

I can't take anymore of this, if I had just one wish, it would be, for my mom to find peace, then maybe I've got a shot, this hurts alot, worse than dying, I'd be lying, if I didn't say, it's way better off not to be gay, maybe I'd have someone to rely on, I can't give grace and let bygones, I'm wicked fucking angry, y'all must really hate me, cuz ur all talk and no follow thru, I'm becoming a numb hollow fool, I'm so disgusted, an inactive volcano that suddenly erupted, spewing venom instead of lava, I only exist cuz I gotta, living is sheer torture, I wanna roll up a quarter, smoke it to the face, hoping it'll somehow simply erase, this never ending aching pain, all this waiting's driving me insane, their worry like friction, can anxiety be addicting, swallowing that bitter pill losing my will, like Pink sings "instead of making me better ur making me ill"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/21/23

Unapologetically Fallibly Flawed

Call me petty, consumed with jealousy, hypocritical too, a pot addicted fool, angry at the world, tired of gay equating girl, I wanna give up, on success and love, cuz I keep getting let down, perhaps I'm not fun to be around, maybe I'm ugly inside and out, my soul rotted from gout, u know kings disease, I don't wanna be resilient anymore or people please, isn't it time to move onto the next phase, finally find my happy place, this east coast vibe, won't allow me to thrive, I'm suffocating and drowning, y'all committed yet clowning, still looking for something better, get ur fucking shit together, miss me when I'm dead, not while I'm living and breathing instead, I'm sick of over procrastination, a lack of attention support applause or even a simple congratulations, keep being neglected dismissed and ignored, sorry not sorry I'm unapologetically fallibly flawed!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/20/23

Why's Only Divine Sublime

Shot down yet again, questioning if we're even friends, I gotta really just walk away, I definitely feel cursed being gay, y'all don't know how to accept love, u make a brother feel not good enough, like simply making room, reflects the effort u exude, that shits whack, expecting I can magically give u the confidence u lack, altho I relentlessly try, I'm too much of a nice guy, giving limitless grace, which is such a waste, when I should've given more to myself, I see why the rich don't share or spread their wealth, I've never received a hand out, when it's demanded I bout, super consistent, got reverse gaydar intuition, picking the straights, who are these keepers of the gates, they're next in line behind God, y'all about to get curb stomped hard, pissed me right tf off, go ahead laugh at me and scoff, but it's finally my time to shine, cuz I'm tired of only the divine experiencing sublime!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/19/23

Timeless Existential Friction Addiction

The relentless struggles uve gone thru, I mourn too, I was so blessed for the family I was born into, I'm simply amazed by u, what a soldier and a warrior, always rooting more and more for ya, ur reletenless kind givingness and grace, even tho we all share the same fate, we get dead, there is no instead, ur spirit lives on, but ur memory/legacy is never truly gone, cuz ur timeless like friction, an existential addiction, asking myself how did u do all that, ur such a badass, made it look easy peasy, but believe u me, it's far from ideal, fame didn't have any appeal, yet the amount of lives u touched, when I think of u it's nothing but unconditional love, u have so many friends fam and fans, ur presence is in divinely sky high demand, we're all collectively rooting for u and praying, we'll all be ok knowing uve got dad g and a ton of loved ones awaiting, party it up with them, and I promise to live life to the fullest til we meet again!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/15/23

Would & Should Do Good

Dear mom, I hope u read this before ur gone, u are simply the best, never loved me less, despite my anger or flaws, u deserve the biggest round of applause, ur wicked amazing, all those hours reading essays and grading, u gave so many students inspiration, from this moment on I won't stay stagnant nor complacent, I will follow my heart with the utmost passion, finally start taking some action, to find more joy fulfillment and genuine connection, u can let go now of ur overprotection, that's like saying stop worrying it's impossible, I honor u by remaining giving graceful grateful and hospitable, when ur at peace I can be too, since like dad and g I'll always have u, I solemnly vow I'll be alright, because y'all raised me right to will and fight, for the forces of good, remembering to do what they would and u know u should!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/14/23

I Believe Love Is A Mustard Seed

So jealous I'm not a part of his every minute, I don't think our story is finished, I want him to bother me for the rest of my life, fuck all these ideas of what is wrong or right, I miss him every night, I'm totally willing to be both patient and fight, I hope one day he comes around, make my world beautifully profound, but since time like tomorrow isn't guaranteed, I find myself completely willing to beg and plead, I'll even get down on one knee, if this poem is a mustard seed, and u begin to feel exactly like me, I'll forever hold hope and belief, one day we will have each other, I'll even try not to snore and hog the covers, but if by chance I'm not the one, I won't regret or resent cuz the adventure together has been fun.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/13/23

A Light In My Life

Boy has life been hard lately, fear and anxiety amplified greatly, but no matter what, deep within my gut, lies the grace, to wait with faith, easier said than done, god do I miss the bliss when I found joy and fun, somewhere in the darkness I find light, he's one of the reasons I have the strength to fight, tho we are just friends, there's no depends, he's loyal, doesn't even see he's majestic and royal, plays humble and modest, if I'm being gutwretchingly honest, I think he is one of those living angels, he's not glitzy and fangled, anyway I just wanted to give a lil thanks and praise, without saying his name I'll love him til the end of days!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/12/23

Can We Reach Perfection's Utopian Bliss

Taking a break, meant time to isolate, I owed it to myself, I needed help, but I'm stronger than I thought I was, didn't wanna get so stoned and numbed, instead I refocused my energy, on my 2 pups and a better me, then let go of all the rest, stayed grateful and consciously blessed, even tho the humble, still fumble and tumble, it's resilience training, is life just a game we're playing, except there's no Contra cheat code for infinite lives, hard to remember but u and I are who ultimately decides, despite believing in a higher power, can anyone really premonition another's final day or hour, can fate or destiny and free will coexist, can we truly ever reach perfection's utopian bliss?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/10/23