Totally Self Unaware Ruled By Abuse & Fear

How do I get y'all to notice me, and don't say pray on rosary beads, I'm being genuine, I wanna be sexy instead of a handsome gentleman, haven't been flattered or wooed in a long while, been told I've got a great smile, when I'm trying to share my talent, showing the world I'm chivalrous and valiant, which everyone assumed like hip hop was dead, when will I ever get ahead, perhaps it's not my time, maybe 40s will be my prime, piquing in my late 50s, watching y'all try to JLo striptease as I sip teas, keeping my big mouth shut, gotta be gracious and grateful for what I've got, and not compare myself to others, don't be jealous or envious of lovers, always been a late bloomer, once day hopefully I'll own a schooner, but until then, I'll stay bent and zen, dreaming in my mind, remaining nice and kind, even if that means I finish last, I didn't set out wanting to make fast cash, it's what happens when u become famous, the level of wealth accrued can be outrageous, look at Facebook owner and Amazon's, ever notice how celebrities are glamazons, except Ed Sheeran who's not one of "The Beautiful People", why are immigrants and gays labeled evil, it just doesn't make sense, impeachment means President Pence, which is even scarier, blacks and women are naturally considered inferior, who makes up these cockamamie rules, greedy rotten crazy fools, who don't have empathy and can't share, use tools of abuse and fear, totally self unaware, replacing fun with despair, cuz if ur isolated an alone, it's easier to conquer competition and advocate the thrown, I need u to wake up, please don't fake love, cuz ull grow to regret life, did y'all forget what's right, or choose to ignore, who's in charge of the ripcord, we need to slow this motherfucker down, before we plummet straight into the ground, change must be profound, come quickly and astound, cuz we're approaching the point of no return, perhaps being complicit has earned us collectively being burned, I'd prefer not to go with the ship, I'm so over dealing with the consequences of everybody else's shit!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/30/19     

Help Ourselves

At the end of the day I'm just a person, deep inside hiding behind a smile hurting, getting anything close to what I want isn't working, no matter the amount of good deeds or flirting, I'm probably worse off then ever before, is it wrong to keep wanting more, I need both love and success, why do I feel this less, so I stay quiet, all I wanna do is revolt and riot, too much evil is winning, maybe the end will bring a new beginning, I'm desperately seeking change, getting older is plain strange, seems like a game, but how come fame is impossibly hard to obtain, what I really mean is I want to be respected by the whole globe, welcome to the Joe Conscious Show, I'm terrified of living the rest of my existence alone, especially after my childhood home's been sold, seriously lacking dependable connections, am I not worthy enough of protection, cuz y'all make me feel that way, ostracized cuz I smoke dope and a privileged white gay, whatever that means, skipped past innocent expected guilty pleas, if it weren't for bad luck I'd have none at all, when dad died everything stalled, every so often I breakdown and ball, wish I would dream small, and learn how to settle, why am I always anxious ungrateful and regretful, perhaps I am the duped fool, never felt popular or cool, yet I wouldn't categorize myself as doubtful, my lyrics are often a mouthful, try memorizing and performing them, music helps me get zen, it's saved my life time and again, tired of living in the remember when, I'm so much better now, I don't know why or where or how, but I hope to one day be vindicated and validated, is there such a thing as valid hatred, just wondering, cuz of the Trump king, wishing he was true royalty, unfortunately he receives loyalty, on a level I will never understand, where's my legions of fans, both woman and man, raise ur voices and hands, let's unite and fight together, this is my love letter, to all of humanity, stop the insanity, if we don't correct course ourselves, who else is gonna help?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/26/19 

What Is It...Me

Is it give what u get or get what u give
Live to work or work to better live
Get ur priorities gay
Do u like my word play
I blur lines
Even defy time
Making magic happen
Or am I just a con man acting
Is this really the land of the free
Can anyone truly know their real me

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/14/19