Vigilant Diligent & Dissident

How do I get people to buy my music, the neglect is borderline abusive, this time around I learned the lesson, becoming more independent would be a wise blessing, figure out how to do my own production would be profitable, learning to do videos too would make me unstoppable, perhaps I could help fellow artists, cuz this life is the hardest, I've spent thousands of dollars, for minimal fans and followers, trying to utilize YouTube and Facebook to market myself, but I need some serious help, my goal is to sell 10K albums since my first sold 7, I'm so lucky to have a supportive boyfriend like Kevin, who believes I deserve success, but also keeps me in check, reminding me to stay humble and modest, truthful and honest, without selling out my soul, he warms my heart when it grows cold, cuz the universe sure beats us down, the amount of pain and strife is profound, how I've even made it this far, with this hand dealt in cards, makes me feel magician-like or divine, no longer deal with stress using marijuana beer shots or wine, instead I focus on maintaining stable sustainable and healthy, I don't want fame and fortune I'd rather be wealthy, meaning I've earned enough, doing only what I want and love, in lieu of working a job I can't stand, an occupation doesn't define the man, I'm much greater than what I do for a living, I'd prefer to be giving, than constantly receiving, when I talk about Grammys peeps say keep dreaming, but I'm totally conscious/awake, I hate all these flakes and the fake, pretending they're happy fulfilled and content, I use my art as a therapeutic way to vent, and altho it seems I do it selfishly, it's actually selflessly, I give ya'll my whole being, it's quite existentially freeing, I come with the good and the bad, I don't care if I hurt feelings or make some mad, that's never my intent, Joe Vacca is the equivalent of Clark Kent, JC is the hero, compared to Pac Nas Em Talib Meth Red or IT I'm a nobody/zero, but someday I will be on a few's lists, I refuse to fight with bombs swords guns or fists, guess that makes me a pacifist, determined to be an lgbtq activist, proving that a short bald gay white boy can rap, enough with the discrimination crap, the constitution states all people are created equal, I don't expect u to bow down like I'm regal, but I demand respect, what happened to our government and authorities duty to serve and protect, now it appears we're guilty til proven innocent, imprisonment is imminent listening to a significant magnificent vocal instrument that's vigilant diligent and dissident!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/29/17

Killing Time Writing A New Rhyme

Felt like killing some time, so I thought I'd write a new rhyme, to keep my skills up to par, being an indy artist is hard, I have to wear many hats, and can never get too lax, cuz fans are fickle, they'll diminish and whittle, with each passing moment, there's need for atonement, I can't create songs that fast, I like classic tracks that'll last, soulful and epic, hypnotizing magnetic and electric, I'm very empathetic, focusing on my lyricism and rhetoric, cuz I definitely have something to say, I add value since I'm middle class college educated white and gay, not better just a different perspective, when it comes to hip hop and rap I'm super protective, especially of its legacy, it's easy to get caught up in envy or jealousy, but there's room for us all, everyone on top eventually falls, but that doesn't mean u failed, or have been derailed, it's simply another person's turn, I get more motivated after being burned, especially if done maliciously or viciously, make sure u turn the volume up to focus and really listen to me, this ain't no mumble shit, I try to limit my sarcasm to humbled wit, cuz it can come off as conceited or cocky, I get pumped hearing the theme song to Rocky, reminds me of the good ole soccer days, I've grown so much and in many different ways, no longer wanna be a lawyer, less of a wallflowerish voyeur, outgoing extroverted and brave, don't always behave, try not to worry about an early grave, very stubborn and refuse to cave, but open to criticism and suggestions, I like to switch my style up and keep em guessing, since I don't sing great, I enjoy finding talent to collaborate, I won't strive to be the best, live life with minimal regrets, wonder if I'm passing God's test, wish I could give my mind a rest, from over analyzing and thinking, the years fly by in the blink of an instant, especially as I get older, don't wanna become pessimistically jaded and colder, maintain my hope and faith, when I'm with my boyfriend I feel secure and safe, he's my world my heart my soul, supports me in achieving my dreams and goals, he's extremely compassionate and caring, courageous a lil dangerous and daring, but passionately driven and consistent in his love for me, I get his kisses cuddles and hugs for free, whenever and wherever I want, he's an amazing cook too and should open a restaurant, or he also is interesting in djing and tending bar, no matter what he chooses to do he'll go far, cuz he plays his cards with street smart, not afraid to reach for the stars, sticking together forever we can conquer whatever, I think and believe we truly make each other better!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/28/17

Success Takes A Lil Skill But So Much Is Mostly Luck

The holidays are fast approaching, on selling my music I could use some assistance/coaching, I'm not the best advertising or marketing, how can I stop my heart from hardening, looks like I'm cursed to work an office job, I feel like the universe and God rob, every single day of my life, overwhelmed by financial strife, that I can't focus on what I actually want, people are more concerned with the beat or font, rather that what I'm saying, I refuse to waste anymore time praying, or worrying for the matter, failed expectations just makes me sadder, constantly let down, the anxiety and frustration's profound, got nobody to blame but myself, the psych meds help, but I miss smoking pot a lot, wish a record label would give me a shot, I just know I'm super talented at rapping and writing, try to better my singing and refrain from fighting, especially with drag queens, many fags are mean, self absorbed petty and catty, in the gay world I'm a short bald ugly troll/fatty, except when I'm on the mic, I feel safe secure alright and liked, but only fuckable, not simply huggable or lovable, perhaps I'm trouble, cuz I wanna cuddle, too emotionally needy, why can't I be more business like and greedy, instead of always sharing the wealth, finally got ahold of my health, now I just wanna lose some weight, everyday I'm becoming more and more afraid, of what's happening to our country, this tax bill ain't funny, our democracy's eroding, the hand I was dealt in cards a poker pro would be folding, guess I'm stupid or just gullibly naive, ignorance is a real pet peeve, but I'm human too, another hypocritical fool, striving to change, which makes me uniquely strange, as others prefer to stay the same, to them this is all a silly game, with no consequence or responsibility, they're lackadaisically willy nilly, like they've got endless opportunities and chances, I'm not one of those performers who also dances, I've got a knack for creating songs, that apparently can be too deep intense and long, told don't show intelligence so much, success takes a lil skill but mostly luck, so I guess I'm screwed, altho I've never been booed, very rarely applauded, hope I never get audited, but I would like to achieve my dream, what a Grammy award winning selling out stadiums artist looks like and means!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/21/17

Watch Jaws Drop In Awe As They Gawk

Watching my dreams come to fruition, took tons of persistence listening to my intuition, follow my gut, preach truth consciousness and love, while many suffer in silence, I find it hard to ignore the injustice and violence, all the lies and alternate facts, feel like the collective got stabbed in the back, by our very own commander and chief, who is a corrupt misogynistic pussy grabbing harassing thief, yet keeps being rewarded, look at all the wealth the rich 1% have accumulated and hoarded, it's absolutely disgusting, then pundits wonder why we're so jaded frustrated and mistrusting, I know we portray gullible saps, perhaps our judgment's lapsed, but isn't it enough already, our economy like country is unsteady, a bubble waiting to pop, can this pendulum negatively swinging be stopped, we took many steps forward that were positive, sexual predators for years have been guarded closeted, even worse than the gays, hoping and wishing for better days, seems like crime pays, no matter how much a religious extremist prays, there will be no absolution of sins, until actual and practical change begins, not just talked about happening, this is no time for laughing, we need to alter our fate, before it is too late, between net neutrality taxes and healthcare, they're totally screwing over the elderly poor small businesses and single folks on welfare, how can politicians sleep at night, Congress should be abolished or fired since all they do is fight, further plight and strife, working isn't the purpose to life, it's supposed to help improve the way we live, the middle class are the biggest consumers and charitably give, can't ya'll get past the illusion/deception, there's no protection from a perception infection or inception, maybe we can't break out of the matrix, overwhelmed by the jealousy envy and hatred, the government should get their hands out my pocket, unless u can lyrically rock it, keep ur constructive criticism to urself please, why must we prove we're worthy of being free, isn't it an inalienable right not a privilege, original artists are being compromised raped and pillaged, fuck digital, Napster was pivotal, now people expect unlimited access to music, this is why we don't have nice things we abuse it, there's a limit to equality, I swear solemnly, that I will continue writing and fighting, pave the way thru the darkness using enlightenment, so we existentially elevate, the human race has the potential to be great, especially when confronted with insurmountable obstacles just watch in awe, ur jaws will drop in amazement as u gawk, we'll prove u wrong, I believe I have the power to change the whole world with one simple song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

12/18/17     

Fuck Glammy Shammy Chestnuts We Got S'Mores

Getting more and more into the holiday spirit, we say we're listening but do u hear it, sleigh bells ringing, carolers singing, the jolly joy in the air, one of my biggest fears, is people spending xmas alone, all are welcome to our Italian home, with tons of food to eat, kick off ur shoes and relax ur feet, it's time for celebration and cheer, we leave eggnog for Santa and carrots for the reindeer, make sure the kids are to bed early, believing isn't just for children it's for the big and burly, have a lil faith, show some amazing grace, it's all about family, ignore the cheesy glammy and shammy, just go with it, ho ho ho and shit, cuz it only comes once a year, teach the youth how to give and share, there are so many less fortunate, since the 1% keep hoarding it, u know all the wealth, be grateful for ur health, now's the chance, to rejoice and dance, to the songs by the Queen Mariah, let her voice take u higher, and touch the heavens, I just wanna be with and cuddle Kevin, fuck chestnuts let's roast s'mores, don't get all stressed out doing chores, it's for a good cause, no thanks needed or applause, the smile on their faces, wipes away and erases, the frustration and resentment, make peace and betterment, a global New Years resolution/mission, happiness isn't a condition, like fulfillment it's a purpose, nobody is worthless, every single person has value, donate not for a write off or cuz u have to, helping others helps ourselves, do u know the words to "Frosty The Snowman" and "Jingle Bells", how about the spoof versions, I have a feeling old Jack Frost is somewhere lingering and lurking, ready to blow snow, ur whole body shivers from just cold toes, don't forget the hat and mittens or gloves, cherish the ones u love, but remember those we've lost, Grandma K was a boss, and I'm sure she's with us always in our hearts, I sure do miss her a lot, and not just for her cooking and desserts, but whenever I was sick she was my nurse, yet now I have a man, nobody spoils me the way he can, he gives me everything I need, we minimally decorated with window candles a tree and some wreaths, I know it sounds rather chintzy, but anymore and I would've become kinda Grinchy, I've gotten lazier as I've gotten older, a lack of financial stability has put added weight on my shoulders, I'm really struggling to just get by, trying not to let my soul turn black like a dead guy, I'd rather shine like a bright white light, guiding ya'll thru the deep dark night, full moon style or similar to the north star, cuz whether ur near or far, it reminds u to be who u truly are, we set our own bar and par, so keep dreaming and believing, never letting anyone or anything ruin ur holiday season!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/11/17 

He's My Cup Of Tea

Lately before I go to sleep I pray, that tomorrow things will start to go his way, I've been in his position before, I think at some point we all want more, especially at a time when it seems like all is lost, to me he'll always be my sexy boss, he's so magnetic and charming, when he's down in the dumps it's alarming, cuz he's a fighter, hand him my lighter, so he can destress smoking a cig, at home is no place for him to live, it is literally hell, all the stories he tells, are straight up sad and disheartening, I understand why he's hardening, his soul has lost hope and trust, which has diminished his lust, I feel he's giving up, how do u help someone u love, when it's beyond ur control, when he's not around there's a huge hole, I miss cuddling with him, wish we could both get permanent jobs so our life together can begin, start a family of our own, build ourselves a happy home, just like everybody else, simply seeing him makes me melt, I know he's not everyone's cup of tea, but he does it for me, on every single level, he even nags me when I get lazy and disheveled, we shave each other's heads, we could spend all day in bed, he's a great caretaker and an amazing cook, it's true what they say how love finds u when u don't look, he's my support system my light, yes we often bicker and fight, but there's no one else I'd rather do it with, after all perfection is only a myth, no relationship is flawless, many people think he's gorgeous, sorry not sorry but he's all mine, doesn't have to try to wine and dine, I want to be there, continue to show how much I care, reciprocity is so important to me, I hate it when he has to leave, someday soon I know, there will be no woahs, just lots of joy, of course boys need toys, and I have quite a few in mind, cherish each moment cuz there's no rewind, leave the past behind, don't get too caught up in the day to day grind, u can work too much, shouldn't let money be a crutch, it's meant to be spent, not debt free but have made a substantial dent, I'll keep persistently chipping away, I'm not afraid, he gives me the confidence to be brave, just one kiss from his lips and I'm saved, like I can conquer the world, no matter the curve balls hurled, or how many punches the universe throws, like a see-saw we all experience highs and lows, whether we yo-yo or ying-yang, always stay true to u and do ur thang, everything has a reason purpose and meaning, u ain't dreaming, this is reality, don't become another tragedy, u shouldn't strive to be the best, only we get to decide and define success, won't settle for less, don't care if he's a mess, fuck alcohol pot shrooms or pills, as long as I've got my man I'm happy and fulfilled, !

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/6/17

Excess Power & Money Is Lethal & Should Be Illegal

Jobs can get real old fast, but don't look back on those that didn't last, everything happens for a reason, I often wonder if I'm worthy and have meaning, nothing I truly want or desire comes to fruition, people think I'm naive and ignorant for what I'm dreaming and wishing, I mean honestly Joe a Grammy, most don't understand me, that poetry and music are my passion, I refuse to settle and not take action, I will die trying, lately I've been crying, cuz I don't seem to get the results I was hoping for, shouldn't start doping more, to numb the pain, I'm done playing games, u can call me names, think I'm only after fortune and fame, but that's so far from the truth, I want a modest wardrobe car and roof, I'd rather travel, avoid jail or the judge's gravel, cuz I ain't no ghetto gangster or thug, I wanna spread consciousness and more love, cuz the world needs it especially now, I am confused as to when or how, this country will make a turn around or about, too many powerful misusing their clout, what's wrong with people, why are we perpetuating evil, victim blaming and shaming, do u even hear what these rap artists are saying, their lyrics are misogynistic demeaning and disgusting, I don't wanna be the product of crazy stalkers envying or lusting, which some may think is a compliment or flattering, stop excusing assaulting and battering, let's start investigating the current President, everyone deserves a fair trial verdict instead of anonymous allegations without evidence, what happened to innocent til proven guilty, I think we can all be a lil disrespectful overly flirtatious and filthy, dirty talk can be hot, but it matters if the desire was consensual or not, cuz then it becomes rape, which shouldn't be used to exploit or get revenge against a bad boss celebrity or a regretful date, society's gone awry, hell must've froze over and pigs can fly, perhaps maybe the sky is falling, we're not heeding God or mother nature calling, instead we go on polluting, unempathetic is what we're exuding, lacking compassion, proclaiming the homeless unemployed poor are lazy and simply slacking, less and less helping donating or giving, what kind of life are we living, ruled by money and fear, it isn't funny our own government doesn't care, their totally self serving and preserving, yet we apparently aren't deserving nor learning, falling for the same old shticks and tricks, like we're being persecuted just for kicks, 99% of us slaves, worked to the bone/our graves, which we dug ourselves, why don't the rich share the wealth, I mean when one person has billions of dollars that's unnecessary, redistribution shouldn't be discretionary, that type of concentration must be illegal, cuz especially when it comes to the economy that is surely lethal!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/1/17