Actual Reality's Virtually Misunderstood

Today gave me a lil hope, tho the future is unknown, I feel like things might get better, can't believe the storms I've weathered, damn man, even when I didn't think I can, I did, don't wanna just live, it's time to start thriving, somehow I'm resilient and still striving, where does determination come from, honestly I'm stunned, like Whitney I didn't know my own strength, apparentlty I'll go to any lengths, when I put my mind to something, I can be quite stubborn, is that inherited, or simply embedded, in the fabric of humanity, like calamity, or is it developed unnaturally, is anybody truly happy, or are we all faking, my heart's aching, the next generation needs to take power, boomers are approaching their final hour, but are we equipped enough, cuz the corrupt run amok and it sucks, they're resource hoarding, ignoring my warning mourning's important, stop bastardizing good, AI has made it so actual reality is virtually misunderstood, aging backwards Benjamin Button style, while the pendulum is swinging wild, society's coming full circle, like a hamster wheel of neverending hurdles, both science and faith fail history, universal truths so outdated our origin story is a mystery, are u on the side of egg first or chicken, people play god so gender's now a decision, can even transform into pigs and pups on all fours, choosing to ignore divine law, ironically lacking pride, there's a huge distinction between dressing as expression vs a disguise!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/31/23

Change Is Strange

Today was a wakeup call, mom had a fall, on the floor for hours, I surrender to my higher power, I need help myself, no amount of wealth, can fix the problems, I just wanna solve em, this darkness never ends, I don't even wanna get mind numbingly bent, I pray she's ok, and lives at least another year or 2 from today, I'm not ready to let her go, that's beyond my control tho, I hope I can find my inner strength and faith, it ain't living if I wait, and may seem strange, but I think it's finally time to change!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/29/23

No Unity In The LGBTQ Community

Today I spent the day in bed, if u couldn't tell from my poem yesterday I'm depressed, no pride alive, years fly by, yet no respect earned, I've come to learn, there ain't any unity, in this hetero induced LGBTQ community, definitely no love lost, how much does a fuck cost, or perhaps ur character/soul, what is the ultimate goal, mine used to be music, but the industry is corrupt and abusive, this life isn't for me, perhaps hip hop success is just not meant to be, so take me home already, leaving me alone's deadly, I can't even remember happy, seems I must be nasty, and not the good kind, our moral compasses aren't aligned, hope my next statement is digestible, from this point forward consider me asexual!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/28/23

Excluded Yet Again

What if I was gone, would y'all even mourn, I'm alive and barely thought of, yearning for more love, or maybe I just need sex, still wondering if gay equals hexed, I'm tired being hired, to be abused then fired, when it's time for a raise, wish being genuinely authentic with raw talent paid, y'all think famous musicians are rich, digital is such a bitch, it devalued original artists, who be working the hardest, but get absolutely no where, like yall don't even care, ud rather support straights and drag, excluding me from my community is making me mad, I've had enough of this dismissal, life seems so abysmal, my dad and sister are the lucky ones, sometimes I really wanna give up and just be done!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/27/23

Time For A Reroaring Renaissance & Let's Rise

Just turned 41, and life's starting to get real fun, altho Tina Turner died, I'm still joyously grateful about to celebrate Pride, I've worked hard to get here, conquered so much hate and fear, I'm rather quite surprised, I wish my sister was still alive, this year hit different, time sure flies by in an instant, hope y'all will celebrate with me, my genuine authenticity, I'm definitely not perfect, but all LGBTQ+ are worth it, unconditional love, let's have a reroaring renaissance and rise the fuck up!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/25/23

Invisibly Devalued

The question lately I've been asking, should I go back to school for music production and/or broadcasting, do I also dare, maybe minor in theater, or just self teach myself, can anybody out there please help, I'm yearning for some direction or guidance, all I've gotten is a shitton of "denied" agains, nothing is meant for me, which I refuse agreeing to disagree, my wants the horizon line, while I'm hiding behind lying I'm fine, when obviously not, it actually bothers me quite alot, I mean when's mine, what about my time, tired of internalizing whining, cuz I'm too serious and heavy, quietly procrastinating instead regrettably inevitably, so y'all are ignorantly unprepared, ur deeds show me nobody cares, so I'm left feeling invisibly devalued, only tolerated cuz y'all have to!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/16/23

MJV 143

Thru all the ups and downs in life, whether wrong or right, u were always by my side, after dad and G died, uve become my whole world now, I don't know when or how, but I'm determined to make u proud, I'll write it down then say it out loud, uve guided my faith, helped me find my way, all I ever hope and pray, is that u know I'm so grateful to be ur son not just today but each and every single mothers day!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/14/23

Good's Misunderstood

Why do I feel the need to justify my resilience and strength, I def spent alot of time bent, how else can I quiet my brain, numb the heartache and pain, life's just hard, how u play God's cards, often fatalistic or narcissistic, fallibility and hypocrisy are intrinsic, again the pendulum swings, u can't have roots and wings, well I do, and flew too, but now everything's changed, the world's overrun by capitalistic zombies with soul sucking fangs, where did genuine authenticity go, boy has religious ignorance and complicity grown, I mean slavery still exists, prejudice and discrimination continues to persist, yet nobody's paying attention, in reflection everybody's deflecting or projecting, energy friction, I have a human interaction addiction, especially since covid, our recovery has been very unfocused, we keep losing sight of what's important, sick of all the baiting exploiting and escorting, they've bastardized good, to the point words like truth sex and love are completely misunderstood!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/5/23

Here I Come Til I've Won At Least One Hun

What u hear and read is what see with  me...especially live which is where I thrive and MCJC comes alive...ready to grind and shine...everything happens in its time...I ain't lying...nas on point with life's a bitch and then u ya die that's why we get high...never know when ya gonna go...which blows even mo' fo' sho'...focus on the positive and let nothing stop us...double Gemini with quadruple sides egos and prides...very revolutionary with plenty of integrity embedded buried beneath deep...finally screaming out loud and proud about to bout...but now y'all pout cuz I'm not fowl mouthed...my brands on point and enjoying ur so bothered/annoyed...it's apparent I've got massive raw talent there's no comparison...just starting to gain traction taking action...our months coming up when it's all just spreading gay love with lots of kisses and hugs...don't judge shrug or begrudge all religiously smug...like the Fugees ready or not here I come for fun son...I'm never done til at least one Grammy's been won hun!!!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/3/23

Not Perfect But Totally Worth It

I woke up feeling imperative, my last poem shouldn't be negative, what can I say, I had a bad day, but I won't let that define me, is treating with love kindly or blindly, like Leona I just wanna be happy, lately life seems so crappy, how do I motivate joy, is god just a ploy, where are u it's me Joe, did u already go, am I being carried, our footprints married, cuz I only see one set, is faith a safe bet, so many questions, simply don't feel the blessings, why all the grief, stop testing my belief, when's enough, I know I'm tough, but isn't there more to existence, then fallibility and resilience, what about success, do I have to love less, since no one can have it all, must've missed my call, and u didn't leave a message, u take no responsibility for the wreckage, maybe I just won't listen, trying to give myself permission, I'm not perfect, but damnit if I'm not totally worth it!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/2/23