Actually Magically Transcendent & Divine Sublime

Is it too much to ask, to be nice and not finish last, why doesn't being good pay, can we stop letting evil get its way, how come life isn't fair, wonder which sex is more defined by their hair, who named the wife beater, I've strived to be a light beamer, even in this world of heartless darkness, it's not about working the hardest but smartest, and society is failing, trying to fix shit jailing, when existence is literally a prison system, we collectively need to practice wisdom listening, not problem solving all the time, many hide behind the line I'm fine, but in reality they're suffering, I miss the bliss of dad and sis buffering, u best believe, grief is never brief, it sticks with u too, like an unhealed wound or bruise, spiritual abuse, u just simply can't mute, shouldn't dwell on it tho and excessively wallow, become so numb and hollow from the sorrow, I dim or extinguish, why don't most rappers grow up distinguished, seems only valid if ur broke from guttered ghettos, another exclusive club for the heteros, gotta somehow master actor that x factor, disguise truth thru sarcasm and laughter, these sheeple can't understand genuine authentic realness, music that moves and soothes u to deeply feel it, effecting ur whole soul, connecting younger generations with old, it's quite amazingly divine, magically transcendent and rather sublime!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/29/23

Friction Love

"I want y'all to loudly whisper Joe Conscious...til it becomes obnoxious.. .cuz it's hypnotic and intoxicating...so stop hating and start appreciating...my lyrical intelligence and wisdom...join our fabulous LGBTQ kingdom...where we transcend and trust that the thrust of lust...frictions lots of consenual hugs and allows all of us to just love"

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/23/23

A Worthless Hot Mess Inept At Success

Trying to shed the mental dread and darkness is the hardest, procrastinating selling her assets is not the smartest, she's burdening me with so much, when did I become a crutch, I can't handle all this, miss the peaceful bliss, that won't come til she's gone, I know in my heart that thinking is wrong, but it's my truth, psychological and spiritual abuse is hard to prove, life isn't fair it's only about having children and money, I'm not even being dramatic sarcastic or funny, no wonder I have no value or worth, I'm an unemployed single childless gay artist living at my moms house wishing I was never birthed, I mean why do I even exist, Earth is a hellish prison not a gift and I'm fucking pissed, I reject the notion I'm privileged or blessed, I get absolutely no credit compensation compassion or respect, especially my boundary lines, I'm expected to compromisingly change all the time, cuz u can't teach an old dog new tricks, I find boomers to be hoardish and extremely toxic, they've left nothing but a hot mess, while us cuspy gen x are completely inept and set up for failure instead of success!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/23/23

Oohs Awws & Wows

I don't condone, dogging imposter syndrome, I understand the pressure, embracing being a gay man I can't help but feel lesser, went from being a percieved prince charming to king, the day my dad stopped living, the queen is still alive so she rules the castle, trying to make it as a successful white poet rapper's a major hastle, if we had a black president and Kamala as VP now, what I wonder is how, haven't we had someone like me conquer the hip hop scene, is it cuz I don't come from poverty, I also didn't have a silver spoon, neither girls nor guys look at me and swoon, since I'm simply superficially an average Joe, when in reality a tragic maverick homo bro, tho I wasnt yanked out the closet, there's no trophy that goes to which letter has it the hardest, it's been a long hard road of self discovery, nothing came easy or suddenly, I had to abandon all I ever knew, stopping the hamster wheel insanity and try something completely new, pivot from being an introverted wallflower, to finding my voice identity and power, thru trial and error with lots of failure, music was always my one and only savior, but don't get it twisted I struggle with hope and faith, I'm insecure at times often lacking the patience to wait, submissive but have trouble surrendering, much too raw real and genuine, to pretend I'm something else, building bridges and planting roots helps, I'm finally learning to use my wings, while fine tuning my confidence to proudly loudly rap and sing when live performing, I've elevated and evolved, way past the chance of boos to just oohs awws and wows! 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/12/23

A Literary Ho Who Wrote

I'm a literary ho, my kids are the poems and songs I wrote, been doin it since June 2008, never intended to be one of the epically greats, perhaps it was always my destined fate, maybe I'm from outer space, just don't radiate gaylien, I'll never understand discriminating shaming, but better believe they are showing u who they really are, trauma can permanently leave scars, why do I spar so hard, pretty good playing the hand dealt in cards, since wicked resilient and adaptable, I find Rhode Island uninhabitable, the home I'd known, I had outgrown and desired to roam, and now I feel that way about the whole country, I'm so sick and tired of everyone being so damn cunty, especially politically, which is hypocritically silly, it's all childish behavior, who's gonna be our savior, we can't take a repeat election, seems both these men can't complete an erection, cuz they're too old, I boo polls, they're generally inaccurate, most candidates are simply inadequate, we need someone to rise up, unless the time's come to decree bye bye luck!

Try Try Try Til I Die

If u think saying I'm a cancer survivor, makes me a liar, I lost my big sis right when she turned 42, and basically a piece of me died too, just a couple years after dad, but if u think that's tragically drastically sad, I lost my friend and childhood neighbor, 3 super short days later, plus the fact he was there with me when she passed was rad/major, since I'm such a consciousness elevator, I often wonder what'll happen when I meet my maker, cuz I'm pissed the fuck off, yes...let's talk about tough love, when is enough enough, that's way too rough and tough, once moms gone I'll have no more immediate blood, technically an orphan, left to spend eternity suffering in solitude mourning, without warning spawned feeling torn, wicked privelaged and blessed yet scorned, often regret even being born, gratitude's another platitude each and every single god damn dawn, like Pac tho "still I rise", so much resilience all I know is try try try til I die!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/8/23

Insight To Unite & Light A Peace Pipe

Seeing Pink and Pat was absolutely incredible, both their live performance skills are quite commendable, then we had a guys night down at Bonnet, it's already the 6th and I haven't written one August sonnet, getting back to living again, really narrowed my circle of fam fans and friends, actually drawing boundary lines, learning somehow to pay attention to divine signs, seizing opportunity left and right, deciphering which battles to pick and fight, what's worth my time and energy, I'm very genuine with plenty of character soul and integrity, constantly striving to achieve a better me, life is ultimately deadly, that's facts, y'all spaz to the max, esp at an openly gay white rap dude who spews truth, like I lyrically juice, when in reality I've been blessed with wings and roots, ur legacy's defined by what u choose, since most don't or won't take action, lacking any purpose or passion, seems we've lost all motivation and hope, only empathetic to the anti woke, idolizing cheating the system, money's just a funny illusion but got us imprisoned, enslaved til graved, it's cool to discriminate and hate, these days brings those folks together, easily conquered once divided and untethered, afterall we need each other, we're all metaphorically sisters and brothers, so why can't we get along, jam out sing and dance to a good song, and by the way it ain't wrong, to do what Cypress Hill states and take "rips from the bong", maybe if we light a collective peace pipe, it might help insight the whole globe to unite!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/6/23