Dag Nabbit Bad Habbits

Today I woke up with a different point of view, trying to be conscious of the negativity I think of and spew, it's become a very bad habbit, dag nabbit, how I get caught up in anxiety, cuz of what this world seems to require of me, yet not to everybody else, don't believe everything you read including yelps, unfortunately there are some evil people, same goes for the feeble regal, the whole idea of kings and queens just seems outdated, the argument of socialism equaling communism's been over debated, it simply isn't, whoever said life ain't easy wasn't kidding, time reflects tense, fuck Trump I'm more concerned about Pence, but let's not get political, altho during an election year it's almost instinctual, it's important to unplug, screw you Coronavirus I wanna be able to touch and hug, esp my dad, too bad he passed, hence my newfound obsession, with 11:11, it comes twice a day, I see it not even planning it that way, which is kinda freaky deaky, I consider the greedy needy, when's enough money, I find the idea of billionaires funny, is there such a thing as too much, why on the dollar bill does it say "In God We Trust", what happened to separation of church and state, there's not much commonality between lesbians trans and gays, yet we get lumped together, wish we could all get along better, everyone's so divisive, instead of using empathy ya'll self righteous, #BlackLivesMatter and #MeToo, but what about us gay white dudes, we're all original sinners and victims, wanting to beat and cheat the rigged system, aren't u so special, success is never guaranteed nor inevitable, no matter ur last name, life ain't a silly game, some say I take it way too serious, it's driving me delirious, I'm turning bat shit crazy, weird how I'm a stoner pothead but def not lazy, wicked motivated passionate and driven, an optimistic idealist, genuinely the realest, that faggot cracker rapper, sporting a fedora all suave devenere and dapper, but I'm also approachable friendly and engaging, my intent is never harming or endangering, I completely and deeply understand, the responsibility and power my words can have on my fellow man, more importantly younger generations up and coming, it'll be interesting to see what businesses in this crisis will remain profitably running, I can't believe this poem took me 3 days to write, guess I'm learning how to balance surrendering vs knowing when to fight!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/12/20 

A Massive Poopshoot

I've been slacking hardcore on writing new stuff, that apartment scam really punched me in the gut, I feel like I did back when I was 25, barely holding my head above water let alone thrive, it's time for a major change, starting over yet again seems strange even deranged, it gets harder as we get older, so much more responsibilities weighing on my shoulders, my postures all fucked up, and for sure my luck just sucks, can't catch a break, I'm having trouble surrendering to fate, cuz I am no good at accepting robotic routine, what about my rap superstar dream, should I throw in the towel, do I need to be down on my knees to beg and grovel, is God listening, or sadistically grimacing, as I plan he laughs, negative reinforcement messes with my ability to act, it's reaction that comes easy, does success equate sleazy and greedy, I agree that billionaires fundamentally shouldn't exist, it ruins the work ethic of ur grandkids' kids, no one person deserves all that money, the internet's got us behaving funny, socially incompatible, Earth is becoming uninhabitable, our government's ineffective, our President wasn't even really elected, at least not by the popular vote, does anyone care all the poetry and hip hop lyrics I wrote, or have I gotten lost in a sea of noise, been receiving lots of compliments about my voice, but still haven't made a profit, commercial consumerism defies all reason and logic, people are simply fickle, love seems to be an unsolvable riddle, especially as a gay man, inherently they can't, lacking vulnerability and empathy, this patriarchy is legendary, I say let women take the lead, Hilary and Pete both planted a seed, however that glass ceiling's still in tact, if we're not careful we'll lose all sense of truth and fact, proclaiming fake news, is a tyrannical ruse, that gave rise to Hitler, I'd rather be a nomadic drifter, than a comfortable sustainable zombie, I must be an anomaly, cuz I don't believe in retirement, humans have an obligation to protect the environment, what happened to fighting for the betterment of the greater good, most minorities are misunderstood, thanks to ignorance, homophobes are often hypocrites, are we even capable of evolving, is life really cyclically revolving, no matter what, there's purpose beyond busting a nut, or making babies, are there endless possibilities and maybes, I'm only asking cuz I don't know the answer, perhaps we are actually a cancer, and naivety might be a saving grace, once we're gone is there any trace, what is the legacy u want to leave, a lack of fulfillment is my biggest pet peeve, I see so many going thru the motions, never crossing borders or oceans, stagnant yet standing still, ud be amazed at the power u can wield and will, esp together united as a group, right now tho it seems the world's become a massive poopshoot!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/4/20