Focus Ur Eyes On The True Prize

Imagine having a home u couldn't go to, pretending everything is all fine and cool, when it isn't, but if I didn't, it would cause more worry, why are kids in such a hurry, to grow old, letting fear and responsibility take hold and mold, leaving us feeling cold and alone, relationships don't work when only on a phone, since it's out of sight outta mind, people refuse to look inside afraid of what they'll find, nothing but regret, y'all forget to lift ur head, focused on keeping it down, never took a moment to look around, what are u all about, does ur character have clout, or consumed by doubt, no matter how loud u shout, my eyes try to realize the true prize is picking the right battles u do bout!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/27/23

Always Investing In & Betting On JC

I'm in a better place/head space, to man up and do what it takes, helping mom transition, finally break the vicious cycle of living in worry's addiction, another victim's self imprisoning system, why aren't any of y'all actually listening, to understand not respond or fix, stop being insensitive selfish thick pricks, assholes and narcissistic dicks, stuck in ignorant's disillusioned bliss, consider what legacy u leave, strive to be better than me, persistently an ample example, while I resiliently rise after I'm bulldozed over or trampled, naively thinking I'm invincible/plain sight invisible, an automatic underdog just cuz I'm lil, go ahead and underestimate me, I wholeheartedly and genuinely believe, and can almost 100% guarantee, eventually it'll pay off investing in and betting on JC!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/27/23

The Genuine Best Of Me

Y'all want a role instead of a real model, I refuse to sugarcoat or coddle, this tf who I be, the double Gemini always high me, that's just it, fuck business I'm artistic, I love both performing and writing, and it don't have to be verbally battling nor fighting, I'm stream of consciousness, sick of all this lack of lyricism obnoxiousness, like uve forgotten rap's actually an acronym, I've had it with mumble rapping, no hate tho, I appreciate any great yo, make ur money, even if I think it's corny or funny, every definition of sexy is different, can't admit we're sometimes ignorant, and that that's ok, can be cool white and gay, yet also be a god, especially in hip hop, cuz I won't stop, til I'm on top, not necessarily sexually, but all my true fans out there know I'll consistently give the genuine best of me!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/23/23

Watch & Gawk As I Walk My Talk

I'll take ur sympathy, even ur pity, at this point I'm annoyed, no longer find joy, in being social, especially local, I've totally outgrown, this place I've known as home, and I'm reminded, why I ultimately decided, to move to the west coast, not to brag or boast, it's just better for me, I'm allowed to vibe freely, be low key and chill, instead of my mood killed, by constant judgement, it's hard not to become numb and begrudging, the reason for my anxiety, dimming my shine was my priority, now the beast is unleashed, I'm gonna speak up teach and preach to a beat, cuz I ain't no amateur, anymore, I'm living out loud and proud, done with shame guilt and my bout with doubt, I don't cockily shout clout, maybe I should be an agent or talent scout if I knew how, being an artist, these days is the hardest, u gotta do it all by urself, while others aren't very interested in lending help, since ur competition, nobody's really hearing or listening, so watch and gawk, as I walk my talk, alone solo, cuz u know yolo!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/22/23

Surrender & Bender

And just like that, my train went off track, life's like a rollercoaster ride, everyone's running on ego and pride, fuck empathy, living regrettably, nobody knows their purpose or passion, y'all lacking action, wondering why, the world seems to keep passing u by, safe in comfortable bubbles, afraid of self made trouble, but making mistakes is human, just when u feel destroyed and ruined, that's when a star is born, I don't think we've been properly warned, grief is crippling, opioids are extremely addicting, there won't be social security, do u think god judges us if we're worthy, who enters the pearly gates, is hell the automatic destination for gays, like Lil Nas X says, perhaps it really is all guess, and we must just surrender, have fun and rock it like everyday's ur last bender!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/19/23

Denied Trys To Protect Us From Our Own Guts

Parents be like do as I dictate not do, take me for an incompetent lazy fool, even tho I've got more degrees than u, y'all can't handle the truth, claiming I'm the problem or danger, took us from family to strangers, moving on out was the best thing I did, my elders perceive me to be a perpetual kid, just cuz I am younger than them, even tried to be friends, but that didn't work either, can a person be both a wallflower and a leader, don't we eventually evolve, never got into golf, except mini, god I used to be so skinny, til puberty thickened me broad, rebellious against the boomer white lies they taught, micromanaging our lives, take away our tries, to supposedly protect us, from developing and following our own guts, so as I get older, I'm less of a go with the flow-er, lacking self esteem and confidence, these days I'm amazed at the extraordinary level of incompetence, from pretty much everyone, all these peeps have become numb dumb scum, not even poking fun, but evil's won and I'm just done!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/18/23

How Now Loud & Proud

Forget regret, ur life is ur own to bet, fuck what they say, who cares if I'm gay, bi or not, do I have soul and heart, let me be and do me, breakdown stereotypes and boundaries, I am who I portray I am, just another average man, making myself proud, laughing out loud, livin in the now, leaving all y'all father fuckers asking how!

Peace and 1

Joe Conscious 

10/16/23

We All Have The Power

In letting go, I'm returning to Joe, who's compassionate and kind, but not pressing rewind, I'm moving forward with grace and love, relearning I'm tough enough, sometimes healing, isn't actually a feeling, it's a state of soul, my heart turned cold, mostly cuz of grief, yet somehow I kept my belief, that hope and faith, will guide my way, thru the dark times, to where the light shines, not that then itll be easy breezy, but at that point if anybody needs me, perhaps I'll be ready, a lil more steady, don't wanna get ahead of myself, the only way anyone can help, is if ur own cup's full, depicts whether ur stock is bear or bull, no matter if we rise or fall, the power to succeed is within us all!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/15/23

Still Surprised I Resiliently Rise

U can love but not like, even after a brutal fight, easily can grow to hate, before u realize the mistake, it's the circumstance not the person, anger indicates hurting, which is wicked confusing, disillusioning abusing, cuz shit didn't go how u envisioned, stop gossiping and judging the way I'm living, tell me the number of licenses certificates and degrees u have, plus 2 hip hop/rap albums and 800+ poems to add to that, I'll wait and laugh, so as a matter of fact, don't ever ever ever call me lazy, nor crazy, when I feel entitled to not have to work harder, sorry not sorry I'm simply smarter, and I no longer feel the need, to justify defensively, I'm proud of my damn self, cuz I did it all with minimal help, my own family, didn't understand me, still I marched onto the beat of an original drum, stepped up to be a phenomenal son, after my dad and big sis passed, without any inheritance or financial assistance when I asked, kicked out of my home on my ass fast, once again the problematic outcast, but watch me resiliently rise, my true friends won't be surprised, with nothing left to prove, no matter what happens next I can't lose! 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/14/23

Society's Decisions Are Not From The Heart

Is this the world we created, cuz I absolutely hate it, upside down backwards land, and I'm so not a fan, they've bastardized truth and righteousness, how on earth do we fight this shit, it's fucking disgusting, while also disrupting, democracy as a whole, I guess the devil stole our soul, these boomer presidents need to retire, most of these sheep in Congress should be fired, don't even get me started, on the supreme court that's immoral and coldhearted, overturning Roe v Wade, I'm surprised they haven't made it illegal to be gay, we're in serious trouble, and all y'all are sitting safe in ur comfortable bubble, I get no satisfaction in I told u so, ur never to old to grow, but it seems ignorance persists, only an illusion of bliss, in reality it's not, society isn't business so decisions should come from the heart!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/13/23

A Reckoning's Beckoning

Risk taking is beckoning, since it's comfortable's reckoning, I did my best, and yet another test, is on the horizon, what I'm finally realizing, I was living wrong, wasn't working on any new songs, cuz i was burnt out, had to learn not to bout, surrender to my higher power, remember rainbows only come after the shower, stars are formed after a cloud collapsed, when ur feeling helplessly trapped, know that moments pass, nothing forever lasts, but what matters most, is holding onto hope, even if it is false, when loved ones die life halts, u become numb, u feel heavier than a ton, and u can bring down a whole room, best thing to do is shroom, it helps with PTSD and depression, the pain never goes away or lessens, we just exist around it, the grief is confounded, as the world keeps turning, while ur lost and hurting, waiting for that day, when u awake and simply know it'll all be ok!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/12/23

Not Not Negative Rhetoric

I refuse to lose to the fear of losing again, tho u can't choose ur family u do choose ur friends, don't be afraid to be brave, it's ok to make mistakes, that's what being human is all about, something isn't more important cuz u shout, in fact it's deafening, there's a huge difference between being and feeling threatened, I should know, do I need to speak if u read slow, I'm a grammar nazi, like where's Waldo can u spot me, in a sea of baldy beans, nothing is ever as it seems, book cover judging, by curmudgeons, it's automatic, like autocratic, aka Putin, teachers can be students, u can be both things simultaneously, I admire spontaneity, very vocabulary savvy, not just any guy can have me, who's got game, fools fuck lame, vanilla is boring, sorry for snoring, my worst trait, hate to bait, but love fishing, some sarcasm comes across bitching, I'm not not negative, just have naturally antagonistic rhetoric, afterall I'm a double Gemini, still in trouble for getting high, like it isn't legal medicine, bring back lethal injection, treat people like pets, give us the dignity of opting death, instead of having to suffer, like my poor sister and mother, creating survivor's guilt and trauma, when I do go tho I hope it's like my papa!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/9/23

Why I Rise & Shine Rhyming

Don't know why, I wasn't by ur side, couldn't watch u die, so I had to decide, to try and fly, cuz now's my time to rise and shine, no more crying, whining and dining, I'm worth finding and buying, hit the ground grinding, instead of shying from prying, the spotlight's blinding, eyes need drying, gotta stop hiding I'm priming, superstardom's aligning, signing wiling, vying for styling, y'all declining dividing while social climbing, lying spying and antagonizing my rhyming!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/9/23

Don't Escape Experience

Travelers experience life while tourists try to escape it, no matter how hard I want to I can't fake shit, caught up in living for tomorrow, cuz I simply don't wanna handle today's pain and sorrow, it's all just too much, I no longer give 2 fucks, I can only cross bridges when I get there, gotta stop being dictated by fear, it's stolen enough, keep ur tough love, the clock is ticking away now, I refuse to question why or how, that's wasting time, have faith it'll work out fine, lean in and take the leap, sowing oats so I can finally reap, making decisions for me, even if y'all can't see and believe, I can, and I'm my own man, comfortably single, open hearted and ready to mingle, letting go so it can be, explore more of the land they say is free!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/8/23

Conscious Not Cow Now

I'm feeling I'm being punished, not respecting my boundaries got me gutted, esp when it's my mom, she doesnt understand the psychological emotional and spiritual harm, on my confidence and self esteem, I thought we were a team, in the end I was a fool, got played like a useful tool, then left to fend for myself, with zero help, and so I'm done, life ain't fair or fun, it's designed slavery, y'all show me u hate me, by picking her side, enabling her ego and pride, I'll leave and u won't ever see me again, all I have are my friends, I'm an orphan now, my last name's Conscious no longer cow, I've got nothing but regret guilt and shame, and the harsh sad reality is I've only got my own choices to blame!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/2/23

Not Robots & Old Farts Sitting Pretty In Toxicity's Misery

Been staying more off line, reducing ur cough time, don't smoke those bowls, since everybody knows, at first smell, but oh well, it's an occupational hazard, I feel like Joss singing I'm torn and tattered, life's been brutal, haven't I proven myself responsibly frugal, yet still can't be trusted, who am I colonel mustard, what tool did I use, and in what room, guilty til proven innocent, there's no accountability for maga sheeple being ignorant, wanting to see democracy unglued, they won't obey or even listen to rules, the narcissistic exception, that can't understand my artistic expression, do I give y'all the impression, I think everyday is a blessing, cuz it definitely is not, all I hear about is robots and old farts, hoarding and ignoring their toxicity, boring sitting pretty in misery, abusing refusing to share their wealth, triggering rigging the hands they've dealt, shut and locked the doors once thru, most built drawbridged moats too, so much red tape, under their thumb seems impossible to overcome and escape, the next generation's screwed, only got to know hypocrisy's truth, made to believe in magic without proof, do as they say not as they do!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/1/23