Confusing Amusement

What to say today, I'm still lost and afraid, in this world it's all about money, but I find it rather funny, that no one seems to have any, impossible to distinguish friendly from enemy, these days they're all the same, yes life is a boardgame, but so is sorry and dominoes, and u can't eat those everyone knows, double entendres can get confusing, violence and other's suffering shldnt be enjoyed as amusement, people are evil and wicked fucked up, suck at identifying lust from love, pretend to be friends, please stop the excessive compliments then, I'm staying focused, codependency is my locust, beautiful but deadly, perhaps ya'll just ain't ready, hip hop ain't dead, leave it to JC to resurrect!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/30/16

Ring My Bell

Gotta stay humble but don't lose my spirit, don't get in ur own way worry and fear shit, this industry is hard, talent and passion only get u so far, sometime u have to compromise morals and play the game, I hate jealousy spite envy and shame, sex sells, distract with whistles and bells, it's not about hard work, but can u flirt, lose the shirt, pretend u don't know ur value and worth, the truth hurts too much, I don't believe in friendship or love, people are unreliable and can't be trusted, it's the fame and fortune they lusted, bunch of copy cat thieves, entitled to endless reprieves, ain't no responsibility when u got money honey, blunt me or front me a twenty, since life's super stressful and way better blitzed, not a cure or remedy for all my problems but a pretty good quick fix, music makes me tick, right up there with mastering the art of sucking dick!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/21/16

Just Leave

I think he's finally out of my life, lied thrice, u were such a big lesson, ur ugly game playing was a blessing, wow I have never met someone so broken, it's been what a month since we've actually spoken, when u asked me out, now all we do is bout, cuz ur insecure and don't know what u want or how to express it, don't try to guess shit, I unlike u, am all about communication commitment and follow thru, ur a fucking disgrace, u better not show ur face, when u see me coming walk the other way fast, cuz I'm 100% sure I wanna kick ur ass, u can't hide behind a screen or mask, if u wanna know how I feel just ask, but to bench and ghost, I'd prefer an all out roast, verbal carnage and warfare, I hate that I was born here, where it's so catholic and pc, don't make like a tree and plant roots...just leave!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/15/16

U Ying Or Yang

Starting to save, just waiting for the day, I can run away, to a progressive state, find success and a soul mate, I hate this plate, fuck fate, I have no more patience to wait, I need a break, time distance and space, am I a waste, where's god's grace, cuz I'm not amazed, actually I'm afraid, experienced too much pain, it's driving me insane, how life's lame, and it's a damn shame, not a game, sorry not sorry but ur the only one to blame, don't need to name names, use ur brains, blood stains, going against the grain, will get u maimed, or maybe even hanged, people are plain strange and deranged, which are u the ying or the yang?

Peace and 1,
JC
8/14/16

Speak Ur Honest Conscious Truth Too

Forgiveness is healing, I can't forget rejection's feeling, at the end of the day, I made a mistake, trusting u, a lustful fool, ur dreamy eyes, distracted from and disguised ur lies, by putting up a front, I'm an onion while ur a hollowed out blunt, ready to be stuffed, think I was just another failed fuck, but u pretended and proclaimed it could be love, I'd settle for companionship and a hug, in the end, we can't be friends, u ignore avoid and ghost, never offer to host, are u even divorced, ur unavailable of course, with one guy while looking for somebody else, open genuine honest communication helps, otherwise we're wasting time, I can't read minds, mean and do what u say, stop playing childish games, I'm not drama I speak the conscious truth, sorry but the only one getting in ur way is u, no more patience for lack of follow thru, pushing everyone away just leaves u alone screwed!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/10/16

Never Ever Give Up

Letting go is far from easy, having money doesn't make u greedy, too much of a good thing is bad, need to acknowledge more of what I have, instead of comparing myself to others, I'm inspired by single fathers and mothers, I can barely take care of just me, I'm a late bloomer and never lucky, life can really be sucky, even when the weather is lovely, hot or cold, feed ur soul, learn to mingle and adapt, nothing falls into ur lap, at ur worst is when u find out who's got ur back, wish I was bribed with Scooby snacks, or at least encourage instead of criticizing, I'm too genuine for lying, but a lil exaggeration is innocent, the beauty of this world is magnificent, it's people I don't appreciate or trust, man it's hard to distinguish love from lust, I've got cohonez and guts, but open and honest communication is a must, I can't read minds, how do I remember all my lines, practice practice practice makes perfect, in the end I know it'll be worth it, all the time hard work dedication blood sweat and tears, never ever give up on ur dreams because of fear!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/9/16

Long Gone Wrong Song

Been kinda spewing venom lately, will u forgive me baby maybe, hope I got it out of my system, I rush to react instead of staying calm to listen, my heart and gut got my back, they are like spidey senses we humans lack, but my brain always gets in the way, I still struggle fitting in and accepting I'm gay, I know that's weird, but I'm scared and have fear, esp when it comes to love, sometimes I just need to be told it's ok with a hug, please don't take my tears as weakness, just when I thought I hit rock bottom and shit was at it's bleakest, there's a slight shimmer/glimmer of light, I really am not trying to fight, life is way too short, to have holding a grudge be a sport, let it go and move the fuck on, squash beef cuz tomorrow isn't promised and he could be long gone, I don't wanna be right or wrong, I'm sorry but I'm an artistic old bold soul who loves to share my poetry and songs, sure I'm clearvoyant and it can get annoying, my messages are deep insightful prolific philosophical conscious relevant and poignant, wish we could learn to existentially elevate, otherwise the book of revelations could realistically be our fate!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Where's Our Moral Consciousness

U made my smile brighter when u hurt me, u don't even think ur worthy, how am I supposed to, I think love is a hoax boo, an illusion like Trump, I'm plain stumped, where is our moral consciousness, ur level of small minded ignorance is frustratingly obnoxious, we need to collectively stop this, having fortune and fame is not bliss, all that matters is how u feel, I'm questioning if true happiness is fo' real, maybe when I'm 40, ya'll will catch up more to me, I'm done waiting patiently, overzealously jelly while my brain goes insane overanalyzing ur lies anxiously, why couldn't I see sooner and saved myself, ur gorgeous eyes and lustful reciprocation didn't help, even now I just wanna forgive and forget, but I think this is for the best, I need a man with a strong spine thick skin and some big balls, conversation isn't confrontation unless u block texts and avoid my phone calls, u live in a different state, what are u gonna forever stay away, I am so not drama, but I have to learn to control my defense mechanism better and to take rejection calmer, I'm like a volcano bubbling and boiling underground, anger and spite are actually quite profound, u see the ugly side to ur reflection, can we have a do over election, my soul needs protection, hearts and minds are plagued with evil's infection, ya'll acting all ethically willy nilly, like personal responsibility and accountability are simply silly, I worry for Gunner Mikey Nate and Lilly, their folks need almost a milly, to provide a decent life, hope and faith are the only tools to help make it thru the strife, trust is extremely fragile, perfection balance and equality are impossible never-ending battles, we all win and lose some, don't take shit so seriously and have some fucking fun!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Lonely For Life

I can't stop thinking of u and how u just left things, did red bull give u wings, u flew right out my life, broke my heart twice, now u already flirting with guys down south, next time I see u I'll have to do everything in my power not to punch u in the dick or mouth, wtf are u even about, I understand why u have a bad reputation and slutty clout, u led me on from the start, played the strings to my heart, then cut the chord, karma seeks revenge on behalf of the universe/lord, ur not a horrible person at all, u keep doubting and second guessing urself til u fall, and ur very lazy when it comes to getting up, I always will remember it was u who first said this might be love, as the reason u walked away if I recall correctly, someone so horribly ugly and broken on the inside could never be my besty, I wish I can wake up and u were just a bad dream, we would've made a good team, instead ud rather keep playing the field, because of ur continued childish behavior my fate is sealed, lonely for life, fuck finding a wife!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Happily Never Ever

Don't criticize always encourage, I try not to judge others cuz I too got luggage, just like everyone else, we all need love money and a lil help, live more genuine and passionate, I'm usually sassy and a sarcastic prick, not afraid to stand up and be a loud mouth dick, I've got real talent no shticks or tricks, some songs are hit or miss, can ya'll handle this, intense truth and consciousness, we gotta start seeking utopian bliss, and become a socialistic democracy, instead of a corporate capitalistic hypocrisy, where only a few have it all, and the rest of us are left to battle and brawl, hunger games style survival of the fittest, but the greatest gift is, hope and faith, tomorrow is another day, and even tho it's not guaranteed, we still are in the land of the free, where it's legal to be gay, I'm allowed to pray, if I choose to, I will not apologize for the fact that I simply outgrew u, I'm fucking existential, most don't know who they are or what they want let alone come close to their full potential, everybody is unique and special, unfortunately in life like the Olympics there's no participation medal, the experience is the prize, ya'll need to recognize, I'm epically legendary, why has art become secondary, where is our collective soul, what is the ultimate goal, when so many suffer and go without, how can u stare in the mirror and not doubt, even just one person homeless or starving, is disgustingly frustrating sickening and alarming, no one individual needs more than a million dollars, I'm broke tho I'm a double majored bachelor degreed scholar, and I've been raped by uncle Sam for years, politicians prey on fear and tears, and think we the people are stupid and weak, I will happily never ever accept defeat, so who's with me, are u a rebelious revolutionary?!?

Peace and 1,
JC
8/6/16

Letting Go Of Ghosters

Apparently ur a worse friend then a bf, memories of abandonment and a broken heart are all I got left, the silence is killing me, I hate god for letting it be, what is the fucking purpose or lesson, how can a failed relationship be a blessing, I did nothing wrong, trying to get lost in a song, take another rip or 3 from the grav bong, perhaps I'll sell my soul like my body in just a jockstrap/thong, bare it all, I hope this is the last time I fall, cuz I don't think I have the strength to get up again, does rejection ever mend, I simply don't know how to let u go, it's not in my nature to bench or ghost, there's too many zombies already, a lack of intamacy and empathy can be deadly, we need to care more about each other and the greater good, only when we uncomfortably communicate genuinely and honestly can we be understood, problems don't just vanish or disappear, if u run away or move they'll follow u there, we cyclically perpetuate our mistakes, bad habbits are almost impossible to break, please don't fake and flake, cuz one day ull awake, and I'll be long gone, be careful what u wish for cuz now I've moved on!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/4/16