Why Lie Or Ask...We're Not Worthy & Won't Last

Do u too yell at some invisible guy in the sky, is all structured religion a mind controlling lie, it's hard to know the truth, people's intentions are often hidden and aloof, master manipulators, sarcastic instigators, like they get pleasure from other's pain, many are very superficial and vain, life ain't no game, my poetry is never tame, it's intellectual thought provoking insightful and deep, I can easily make my mind take faithful leaps, but not my body or heart, yes it's possible to be too smart, over-analyzing and overthinking, I'm all for celebratory smoking and drinking, everything is ok in moderation, excessive pollution makes it harder to see the constellations, gazing at the ocean and stars, I'm reminded how small and far we are, existence is a constant beating drum, it took me forever to take a dick and enjoy eating cum, sorry if that's gross and came out of left field, but I don't censor what I say or how I feel, I'm blunt with no filter, my sense of humor is pretty dry and a lil bit off kilter, super odd and a freak, into b&d jock socks sneaks and feet, I believe we all have fetishes and are kinky, I'm not embarrassed by my pits or paws being sweaty and stinky, I find it rather intoxicating and hot, not into piss shit scars blood or farts, some things are nasty, if u ask me, but that's just my opinion no judgment, I try to not be resentful nor begrudging, life's too short, I'd rather play than watch sports, they say I divulge too much, u don't know what it is or was til u lose love, gotta experiment with trial and error, figuring out what u don't like is how u make urself better, humans are a priceless treasure, whose true value can't be measured, kids today are under extreme pressure, dealing with insurmountable fear and terror, yet manage to persist and persevere, it shouldn't matter if ur black white man woman straight or queer, those attributes are inconsequential, how can government keep catastrophic events confidential, evidence and facts are kept secret, Obama provided hope when we needed it, we're still stuck between the second and third stages of grief, about to hit a rock bottom depression like no one'd believe, we might even be headed towards the biblically prophesied end of days, is it the final stage of this crazy maze, or does reincarnation repeat this vicious cycle, got caught up worshiping false gods and idols, perhaps we're simply not worthy, I'd never bow down or curtsy, especially to the devil, I know and understand death is inevitable, am I just an egocentric narcissist, I wanna go to a dispensary instead of a pharmacist, cuz for me pot is the only cure, still can't help but wonder how Jesus stayed so pure, oh yeah...that's right he wasn't real, is blasphemy worse of a sin than if u kill cheat or steal, round and around we go, our galaxy is way more profound than man can comprehend or ever even know, the universe is vast, but in the grande scheme perhaps, we evoke a giggly laugh, having the gall to ask will we last, or are we more like the plague Aids or cancer, I guess some questions simply can't be answered!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/26/18

Revolutionary Artist Or Econometrician Chartist

Karma means no good deed goes unpunished, my poetry blog will most likely remain professionally unpublished, fame is fun, but only money makes us feel like we've won, it's rather sad actually, my talent comes so naturally, yet the music biz, is aimed more for kids, so at 36 I'm too old, without music life seems so cold, like Mariah it's my saving grace, seems today only crime pays, just looking at the President, it's pretty clear cut and evident, evil has finally gained the reigns, and keeps fanning the flames, causing chaos and destruction, the middle class needs an eruption, perhaps another revolution, it's either destitution or evolution, or are we too smart for our own good, pretending to play God like we ever could, we're only human, but wtf are we doing, we're like cancer, ignoring the root cause of problems so there's no chance at an answer, looking like duped fools, laws are moot rules, that should adapt to the times, sometimes with writer's block I have a lapse in rhymes, but I believe it's ok not to be ok, we all have both good and bad days, that's the roller coaster ride of existence, it takes passion and persistence, to become successful, creating art shouldn't be stressful, for me it's a coping mechanism, I am not a fan of protectionism, especially as a foreign policy, wish people would exude more honesty empathy and modesty, capitalism breeds competition, so sick of tired of being taken advantage of and propositioned, I'm not ur resource, when wronged I have no recourse, like in this case I'm the exception, not to be confused with special or lucky, I swear the universe loves to sarcastically fuck me, like I'm the butt of their jokes, this is hell or one giant hoax, they're crying from laughing so hard, success is a la carte, cuz we can't have it all, gravity means that which rises will fall, have we already piqued, are u good at being criticized or critiqued, cuz I'm not, I hate it a lot, especially by someone who is unqualified, why when we die are we buried in a coffin after being embalmed with formaldehyde, trying to slow down decomposition, the US needs a econometrician, yes that's a real word and they exist, if I were Obama I'd be pissed, Trump shat all over his legacy, green is the color of money envy and jealousy, except when it comes to energy it means clean, I want a hip hop song the teens fiend, is that really too much to ask, I feel this urge to take the whole globe to task, why can't we grow, stop selling our collective soul, let's adjust the way we operate, I won't remake Juicy Changes I Will Survive or Lady Marmalade, I'm an original artist, I would say that Bernie was a chartist, look it up if u don't know, what's the point of counting down if u won't go?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/25/18

It Takes Courage To Depress The Sluggish Rubbish Of Excess Luggage

I officially suck at life, the decisions I make just ain't right, everything's a fight, but I still maintain love and light, but I'm also a Gemini, with extreme lows and highs, not just monotone, I despise the misspelling of homophones, get smart, use heart, instead of ur guts or brain, people don't change but nothing stays the same, it's not that I don't need help, I just know and take care of myself, I took the time, to explore travel and find, thru trial and error, gotta not be ruled by fear and terror, be brave, don't always behave, trouble is my middle name, relationships are such a game, never 50/50, why y'all gotta be so shady and shifty, I put my worst foot forward, try to make the best of what the universe offered, which isn't easy, seems it pays to be sleazy, these billionaires are so greedy, I judge a person by the way they treat me, don't believe in gossip and rumor, I have a very dry sarcastic sense of humor, not a fan of slapstick comedy, sorry not sorry but I love sodomy, but then again I'm gay, fuck no I don't pray, or practice structured religion, I truly believe that Earth is either hell or a prison, trapped and unhappy, if ur curious just come and ask me, I'm an open book, I gave way more than I ever took, I admit my faults and flaws, take responsibility for mistakes too of course, how else do u learn and grow, I'm stubborn and rarely do what I'm told, a revolutionary/rebel, quite the lil devil, with a mischievous smirk, my ex was a selfish asshole/jerk, nothing but a user, a lazy ungrateful moocher, good riddens to bad rubbish, getting back on the dating horse I've been super slow and sluggish, too much excess baggage and luggage, it takes courage, I don't wanna risk another chance, was duped by lust at first glance, he wasn't capable of love, cuz he didn't know how to trust, a recovering junky, but in my eyes he was very sexy and hunky, but it was all a lie,  like Ariana "ain't got no tears left to cry", I didn't mean it when I said I wanted him to die, after all I hated being ghosted, he never ever hosted, he couldn't drive and was unemployed, he disliked my pre-used toys, expected me to accept his past, but the double standard hypocrisy reared it's ugly head fast, he was abusive and controlling, not supportive or consoling, but anyway enough about him, I'm ready to rebegin, start all over again, make my own family and new friends, cuz existence is fleeting, it's tough leaving, but I'm more scared of staying, I've become numb too comfortable and complacent, yet unfortunately there's not much choice, I'm' bored frustrated and annoyed, is this the best God has to offer, sick of everybody lining their coffers, while the majority of the population is broke, living paycheck to paycheck is no joke, money is man made, we're limited how much we can make, when the 1% hoards it all, our economy is about to collapse and fall, quite frankly it appears we're screwed, guess this is what happens when true good and the virtuous lose!   

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/20/18

Nothing's Guaranteed It's What U Believe

After my last relationship ended I gave up on marriage, it's as outdated as coal cds and the horse and carriage, maybe I'm jaded being gay, I can't pray my kinks away, so I remain a freak, perhaps hell is life on repeat, nothing but pain and tragedy, wish success came naturally miraculously or magically, cuz no matter how hard I work, along comes another moocher/jerk, who takes and takes but never gives, I'm not the best at free-styling adlibs, I'm a writer, a lgbtq activist and social justice fighter, but I've lost the will to hope, my faith too is very low, seems evil has finally gained the upper hand, a lack of empathy and common sense is hard to understand, how have we gotten this far gone, where did it all go wrong, we were progressing, now we're second guessing, our morals and ethics thrown out the window, I feel like a widow, tho my love is alive, I can't help wonder if it was just a lie, I was simply used, now I'm left super bitter resentful and confused, he plays the victim of abuse, but it's a delusional pathological ruse, I wish him the best, but I want him hexed, even the good hearted can be consumed by revenge, 2 important words are intent and consent, they signify murder and rape, sometimes I think I wanna rap in a fidora with a cane and cape, like a hip hop superhero, on a scale of 1-10 he was a stupid 0, pretty much a waste of time, I wish I didn't have to fake smile and say I'm fine, when the truth is I'm destroyed, so sick of being temporarily employed, altho I like this new job, I was totally robbed, by my old boss's fraudulent claim, my future opportunity was maimed, yet I still have to pick up the pieces and be brave, can't give in or up nor cave, this is my chance to start over again, move somewhere else and make new friends, I'm so unhappy unfulfilled and bored here all I do is get bent, I swear my family is heaven sent, I'm very lucky, thanks for the compliment of wanting to fuck me, random hookups just aren't my style, I'm always willing to go that extra mile, but I'm tired of no reciprocity, it deeply effects and bothers me, a partnership is not a one way street, I find it nearly impossible to admit defeat, sensitivity doesn't make men weak, it's ok if ur a geek, u gotta own it, I will no longer loan shit, without it being in writing, our consciousness needs igniting, are u woke, do u vote, we all must do our part, to revitalize our legacy our soul and our heart, get back some of the integrity we lost, compromise is inevitable but at what cost, we have got to learn to work together, team work is the only way to make things better, since we are at such a pivotal point, now is not the time to ignore or drink away problems and smoke a joint, get off those unnecessary opioids, stop benching and ghosting to avoid, this is reality minus the virtual, the younger generations believe the perfect match is searchable, as if the internet is a modern day online catalog of available people, being behind a screen can give some the anonymous power of evil, creating fake profiles and trolling, statistics are as about an exact science as polling, nothing in existence is guaranteed, screw other people's judgmental opinions the most important thing is what u believe!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/12/18