Should've Listened

Some people just aren't worth the energy, u can keep thinking ur more righteous and better than me, but I'm done wasting my time, gotta get back on my grind, focus on what lies ahead, I didn't mean it when I wished u dead, it was my hateful rage and anger, hope tho we finally become strangers, cuz I want nothing to do with u, I tried and tried and gave and gave like a stupid fool, should've listened to family and friends, thank God this toxic relationship has come to an end, I was looking for a way out, everyday was another bout, constant threatening emotional and verbal abuse, he pathologically lied manipulated and used, I guess that's what addicts do, love turned to hate so we both lose, I'm not mad I'm sad, ultimately happy and glad, filled with glee, cuz I'm single and free, I wish him nothing but the best, sick of feeling depressed and less, like I'm the bad person, I'll put my head down and concentrate on working, getting a full time permanent job, and ya'll should know the flowing poetry and music won't stop, it's my purpose and passion, inspiring the hope and faith I'm lacking, it's my therapy, diet and exercise is the recipe, to live a healthy life, without him around it'll reduce the amount of pain and strife, he was such a moocher, a trashy alcoholic loser, totally ungrateful, never thankful, couldn't acknowledge his flaws, watch as my career soars, just to prove him wrong, many out there love my songs, I'm far from perfect, but have value and worth it, I deserve more, so over the hostility and war, always having to walk on egg shells and tip toeing, tell u where and when I'm going, like a passive aggressive possessive insecure jealous control freak, ur destiny is dark and bleak, ur ceiling is my floor, I have my choice of windows and doors, while ur trapped in a padded cell, have fun living hell, cuz u get what u give, I won't forget nor forgive, u ruined the best thing u ever had, the epitome of a fag, such a shame u have so much potential, but ull never elevate evolve and become existential, ur not that profound, who even wants u around, enjoy being by urself, once u get insurance please get professional help, u desperately need it, ur soul's black like ur heart so u don't feel shit, ur ice cold empty and hollow, I lead u follow, riding coat tails, when it comes to achieving goals u failed, ur dreams are aloof, I live and speak my truth, cuz I've got guts balls and drive, I keep reimagining all those fake tears u cried, ur perpetual pattern has been exposed, make sure u wear protection when ur dumpster fucking those dirty hoes, now that we are officially over, my smile's bigger and brighter than ever from having that weight lifted off my shoulders!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/3/17