U walked away for the last time, perhaps I've been too generous forgiving and kind, all I feel is neglected and used, I'm sick of this abuse, let's look at our individual histories, I have life long connections while urs are a mystery, go ahead and cut me out ur life, it just proves I'm right, at least I had the balls to fight, I'm amazed with all ur negativity how I even still have some love and light, we can't be soulmates since u don't have a soul, ur so superficial u know, ur never romantic or get deep, u won't sow but expect to reap, I may be cheep, but at least I can drive a jeep, I'm not ur errand bitch, I don't like ur hypocritical double standards one bit, ur completely delusional and misremember facts and order of events, I'm sick of listening to u complain but u won't let me vent, u rant and rave thru texts, but ur shallow stories are moderately boring at best, u tell me things like this person hit on u like I care, I don't let my relationships be ruled by fear, I trust u 100 percent, there u go falsely accusing me of lying cheating and talking to other men again, why can't u stop with the assumptions, u have some nerve and gumption, to say I don't care, don't u fucking dare, let's look at who brings what to the table, I am fully capable and able to be self sufficient and sustainable, I can achieve fulfilling both my wants and needs, I go after my passions and dreams, I'm done be punished, ur not even remotely funnish, now u expect me to be a sober prude recluse, it's always some lame excuse, I'm sick of ur unemployment and health issues, I've damn near run out of tissues, I refuse to keep sweeping problems under the rug, in this situation my love just ain't enough, I hate the silent treatment and quiet games, along with driving in general but especially at night or in snow or rain, I can't stand ur prejudiced parents, ull never ever change and that's apparent, u make me so angry and give me anxiety, I've been there thru thick and thin and always made u my #1 priority, but wasn't appreciated, I feel devalued and depreciated, ever since we met, it's been nothing but bickering criticism insults and threats, perhaps we're simply not compatible, ur effort's been laughable, if heartbreaking was funny, when will u reimburse me all that borrowed money, u probably won't, dating ex addicts who've been cheated on before isn't condoned, don't even invest ur energy, guess since we can't be together I'm ur enemy, I'm sure this for u is similar to how it's always ended, I'll soon be blocked and unfriended, I know it might seem hard to tell, but I do love u wish u well, maybe someday ull figure out the things u really want, cuz I feel completely misled strung along and conned, I am getting help, but u make me feel so bad about myself, I'm a genuine good decent person, uve got me so vengefully enraged I wanna return all the hurting, cuz no matter what I do, ur bossy controlling vindictive sarcastic and rude, u have a flawed and screwed truth, wish u would fade disappear and become aloof, out of sight out of mind, think it's important for me to be single mingle and see what else I can find, we both deserve better, we're obviously not happy together.
Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/2/18
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