Double Dare

Is it foolish to think I'll eventually be blessed, with fulfillment love happiness and success,  cuz it sure feels that way, maybe being gay is living the wrong way, I don't understand why, I can't find my soulmate in a guy, Coronavirus making things worse, all this boredom and loneliness really hurts, somehow tho I still have hope and faith, I find it much harder to hate, besides love conquers all, I know I can catch and pick myself up when I fall, I've made it this far, with minimal visible scars, but my wounds cut deep, while others stay I chose to leap, I see He met my needs but what about my wants, I've learned to be quiet and humble rather than openly gloat or flaunt, try to remain giving and kind, I'd be more apt to press fast forward than rewind, I don't believe in fear and regrets, I never wanna be the best, where there's nowhere to grow, I'm always working on both my writing and flow, but that financial compensation/validation must be nice, a god complex is when y'all judge what's wrong and the rights, point that hypocritical finger back at urself, not acknowledging ur part of the problem doesn't help, ur more self righteously absorbed than just empathetically unaware, like Kelly sings in multiple languages "I Dare U To Love" but I double dare!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/11/20