Wise Lies Help Myself

Now that I'm back in RI, wish to be both out of sight and mind, I just can't handle this, lose hope for happiness joy and bliss, I miss my whole damn family, not many can understand me, what I've been thru in 6 short years, surprised I haven't drowned in tears, so very overwhelmed, feel as tho I ain't even at the helm, forging my own path ahead, curious about what happens next, having no control, is fucking with my soul, trying to stay grateful, when I'm angry and hateful, can't focus on only the positive, always been honest how I live, to my detriment, choice isn't an experiment, annoyed and disappointed, look who y'all anointed, the worst of the pickings, questioning basic existence, no one's listening to the wise, unable to differentiate truth from the barrage of illusion and lies, I'm completely defeatedly fed up, uve barely said it let alone shown love, I desperately need help, but it simply seems I'm on a team all by myself!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/22/24