Yes Sir

Totally bored and uninspired, by all the fakes flakes and liars, my brain never seems to get tired, I don't know what the purpose is for nipples but mine are hardwired, seriously like the slightest touch, yet these dudes do too much, wanna be all rough and tough, punch u in the nuts or gut, don't get me wrong kink can be hot as hell, but with intimacy u need to be able to read well and tell, explore to find the proper balance of pleasure and pain, try playing a bondage game, u learn alot about urself giving up control, ur senses heighten too if u add a blindfold, let's wrestle for who's bottom and top, i don't believe u when u plead stop, shut up and take it bitch, i love making u squirm moan and ur dick twitch, i am a true switch, have trouble hitting that high falsetto pitch, cuz I'm a true dude, not a drag queen with a faggoty femmy attitude, not trying to be rude, it's just most religious folks are sexually ignorant prudes, u exude homo erotic undertones, do bromance buddies bone, everyone wants to know, I won't kiss and tell tho, I like being a gay Grey, but I'm very picky about my prey, ull be gagged and have no say, it's the master's way or the highway!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/31/15

Metaphorical Punching Bag

How dare u scream ur face off at me, while doin u a favor u claim this is a one way street, is that irony or hypocrisy, I'll talk to u when u state ur problem calmly, I'm done with u thinking ur the boss, who's more talented is a coin toss, like comparing oranges and apples, why is common sense so hard for people to grapple, it's about time u walk ur own talk, I'm sick of ur high pitched faggoty squawk, ur terrible at scheduling and planning, u can try to beat me up but I'm still standing, my time is only just beginning, my high school friend's hair is finally receding and thinning, sucks playing catch up, imagine u never get love, I'd rather be alone than a cheat, someone some day will love me because of my smelly feet, there's more than one person out there, love isn't a finite resource we have to limit and share, but abuse will not be tolerated, check ur anger frustration and hatred, i am not ur enemy or punching bag, there's 100 other reasons ur wicked pissy and mad, I'm sorry ur tired and had a bad day, i will celebrate my bday the whole last week of May, u will not bring me down, my art is inspiringly intellectual and refreshingly profound, musical degree or not, u can't teach the natural skills I got, I'm always working on growing as a person and my craft, hopefully I'll look back on this point in my life and just laugh, at the fact that despite impossible improbable odds, my dreams became a reality I am not a farce, i will be an ample example of the American dream, now all I need is for my hope and faith not to lose steam, cuz staying motivated with passion, is hard especially when ur finances are lacking, i know this may make me sound like a jerk, but i know my value and worth, this is just one of those transitional phases/growth spurts, i simply refuse to barely scrape by comfortably occupied with unfulfilling busy work!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/29/15

Spectrums

When it comes to some aspects of life like gayness, there's different degrees and volatility cuz spectrums exist, from extreme flamboyancy to being completely straight, the level u measure someone at is up for debate, there's also a scale that starts with an enemy, that stems and extends to a very best friend to me, we all have some good and bad within, it depends which stage or echelon of sin ur in, that's why balance and finding equilibrium are important, it's worth approaching things from different angles and exploring, get to stretching ur perception, learn there are special circumstances exemption and exception, u gotta go with the flow and try to be flexible, cuz anger and impatience makes optimism inexpressible, it sometimes feels awkward weird or strange, when we overextend ourselves and go outside our comfort range, remember between love and friendship there is a difference, and ur homosexual tendencies can pop out at any instant, for lesbians it appears to be more accepted, but the thought of a man kissing another man's automatically rejected, most women in general are prone to being bisexual, boy on boy action's as heinous a crime as being incestual, I'm not gonna lie the dichotomy can bother me, my right to sexual preference should be respected honorably, ur hatred's instigated from acting ignorant and cowardly, from not embracing ur race and the power to be free, discrimination gains appreciation when u don't stand clear from fear, segregate and separate yourself from everyone whose views you don't share, the point of life is to fit in with the people around u, this world's almost a prison system everything's confound to, u just have to accept population control is inept, u have no power over a person's intelligence wisdom or depth, that is why there's a grading and a rating for I.Q., people come in all shapes and sizes there's no one exactly like u, believe in even twins, it's a given are different, u have ur acquaintances, that need less upkeep and maintenance, u also have ur drinking buddies, ur one night stands and cuddle bunnies, people u work with, and relatable characters from a story or myth, any relationship has a degree on the scale, that depicts how much effort and work is entailed, I'm a rarity and quite the fluke, I'm nice to all which makes some people wanna vomit and puke, I try to be friends with everyone, cuz when ur surrounded by love life's just way more fun!

Peace and 1,
JC
12/5/08

Shit Or Get Off The Crapper

I'm living for strangers connecting with my work, pardon me if ur constructive criticism makes u sound like a jerk, remember not everyone can be a poetic rapper, if ur not gonna take a shit get off the crapper, I'm tired of these amateurs hogging the glory, when will the world finally get to hear my story, I'm not a gangster or white trash, double majoring in college was a pain in the ass, thought I wanted to activate in the court of law, but honestly the justice system rapes the innocent worse than greedy whores, i just simply have a heart and soul, so I decided to reestablish my ultimate life goal, I find it sad not funny, how many live life only focusing on making money, living a comfortable life is great, but not following ur passion is a big mistake, we all have gifts that make us unique and special, not all winners receive recognition a trophy or a medal, for some artists the journey is much longer, they say heartache and pain make u stronger, but like the Black Eyed Peas I wonder where is the love, we've become so materialistic nobody believes in a higher divine power above, structured religion has destroyed our faith, picking and choosing bible scriptures to preach is such a waste, ur using god as a way to control people, do u even realize bigotry ignorance and discrimination perpetuate evil, when did being righteous and virtuous become cheesy, haven't u had enough of the same old song and dance bitches niggas and drugs for sheezy, where is music's substance value and inspiration, it's weird how we keep waiting for change and, yet nothing seems to be different or better, still fighting over global warming despite mother nature's crazy weather, let's go drill for more oil in uninhabited lands, are there really any real republican or democratic fans, cuz both parties in my opinion suck, im at the point where I wanna throw my hands up and just not give a fuck.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/28/15

NEXT

Oh my god I can't stop thinking about sex, all I have to say about the guys around here is...NEXT, a bunch of faggoty fairies, even the drag queens are sloppy and hairy, a bunch of amateurs with no talent, left for 5 years and look what happened, where'd the independent art scene go, RI is the place mom and pop shops used to call home, now everything's gone corporate it's all about big business, totally neglecting the elderly and miseducating the kids, there's no such thing as the middle class anymore, everybody nowadays is a member of the overworking poor, forget about following ur hobbies or passions, too comfortable to figure out what u want then take action, a bunch of silver spoons and platters, can never seem to get above the bottom rungs of success's ladder, like I missed that day of school, where they told u the tricks and loopholes to the rules, why can't I seem to figure out, how to stand unafraid to be brave and bout, I'm definitely strong enough, scrappy agile rough and tough, don't let my height fool u, even tho I'm quite a cool dude, i have low levels of shame, won't pussy foot around a dame, I'll say shit straight to ur face, ain't too proud to beg or use mase, I'll kick balls and punch tits, sexual preference is recognizable by how one runs talks or sits, there are exceptions tho like me and Mike Tyson, such a badass as long as he's not trash talking before fighting, the purse coming out his mouth got me crying cracking up too much, if old ugly retarded criminals can...why can't I find love, obviously it's plain to see, my heart's blatantly consumed by jealousy, what the hell is wrong with me, i gotta get out of this woah is me routine, remember to breathe, and just focus on positivity!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/27/15

Am I Wrong

Can someone show some bravery, come sweep me off my feet and save me, i can't take it anymore, what is all this suffering for, i want my life to begin, have I committed too many sins and this is my punishment, no love sex or career, a thick shorty with small eyes big chest and no hair, am I really that ugly, what if u wake up tomorrow and I'm gone suddenly, wld I even be remembered, don't say I'm a diamond in the rough sort of treasure, yet I'm still single and alone, living unemployed back at my parent's home, how much longer will i be stuck in limbo, lots of time for going to the gym tho, but honestly what the fuck is the point, I'm utterly frustrated and annoyed, i can't seem to catch any break, I was gullibly deceived by another flakey fake, i guess u really can't trust anyone at all, they're probably waiting for u to crash and fall, drop the ball, like a T-Mobile phone call, perhaps I'm not in range, I think it's funny yall believe I'm the one who's deranged and strange, I always try to remain respectful and cordial, unfortunately a lack of responsibility and accountability have become normal, at the beginning of yet another depressive day, i wonder am I wrong for smoking pot liking kinky sex and being gay?!?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/27/15

Try

To reach ascension, relax those fists ur clenching, release the anger and tension, all that pent up aggression, exterminate hate, don't discriminate, starting a fight, over a lack of understanding aint right, simple miscommunication, could lead to obliteration, with nuclear capability, America can no longer be the world's military, just like an overprotective parent the US must let go, it's impossible for every country to be under our control, it took years a civil war and revolution, for democracy to take hold as a solution, we made many mistakes, enduring pains and aches, but they made us stronger, realizing disadvantaged minorities will never belong to ya, I can definitely relate to a black, no reparations or an apology for slavery is whack, owning them like property when they're real people, now we forbid same sex couples from marrying in a church or steeple, disproportionate tax benefits, I'm unable to provide foster care or adopt which affects the kids, gays are the ones now not being treated equal, this is mistreating Indians women and Jews' sequel, oh so many common misconceptions, instead of society and states holding elections, the pope and government regulate all social issues, that to me is the epitome of power and it's misuse, it's my life so I'll decide, what's wrong and what's right, and if u don't like it it's just too bad, we have got to stop showing favoritism based on a fad, start to update our laws, take a moment and pause, to make sure, all options are being explored, exhaust every remedy, find green renewable energy, bombarded by so many problems all at once, we have forgotten how to follow a hunch, everybody's looking for a sure thing, creativity and originality to the table u should bring, it's wicked easy to be copy cats, and for ur judgment to lapse, but don't u ever give up, and make sure to show some love, never lay down to die, anything is possible if u put ur mind to it and at least try!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/6/09

Gluttonous Greed

Why can't we all live amicably, is that notion just a drug related epiphany, people pretend to be cordial to your face, then behind your back they're spreading hate, I graduated from high school and that clique shit, and tried to rectify or apologize for the awful things I did, what can I say but I was young and immature, which is a terrible excuse I would choose to ignore, it's like saying sorry I was drunk, justifying the level u stooped to and sunk, nobody's perfect I know, repeatedly making the same mistakes though can show maybe you're just not able to grow, defunct and it's unnerving, how it seems like you're afraid of learning, eventually responsibility kicks in, and everybody is as vulnerable as a shin, some just have the ability to hide their suffering and pain, over the years adapted and got prone to the hail and rain, over time everything must change, no two things are exactly the same, for instance, in twins there is even a difference, human beings by nature are flawed, and are guaranteed to get in trouble when they're bored, that's why I smoke pot, but a bad person I am not, it's just one of my vies, evil has this undeniable way to entice us, some people smoke, while others drink eat too much or do coke, then u  have your chocolate lovers, and the addicted to caffeine mothers and brothers, you have workaholics too, who lose themselves in what they do, with the attitude u live to work, I work to better live does that make me the jerk, sometimes my mind drives me crazy, God's divine plan and purpose to me is just hazy, I cannot seem to grasp, why I receive nothing I pray for or ask, even when I say pretty please, I guess I have trouble distinguishing my wants from my needs, we always do want more, the grass is always greener mentality is at the core, can anyone really ever be satisfied, or will our gluttonous greed ultimately be our downfall and demise.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/29/09

Never Get To Know Me

Take it all in and on, to live a life of sheer happiness and bliss is a con, the best marriages take work, lots of pain sorrow and hurt, over the years there's been tears, holding hands while conquering our fears, together as a couple one cohesive unit, encouraging one another as we are both doin it, actually sharing our true selves with one another, ain't no abandoning ship when it gets hard stuck in the gutter, a creative creature experiences personified crab behavior, look at JFK MLK Milk Pac and our Savior, if u believe in that, sometimes I think about bible thumpers and laugh, same thing goes for trying to understand a Republican, especially if ur black Hispanic Muslim gay or a woman, I mean really, no shade I just find it silly, I'm a lil masochistic too, and submissive it's true, but at the end of the day it's if u can say and do, I'm looking for someone to reciprocate a fair proportion of the love I give u, sexual or not, what sort of boundaries and limitations u got, i know what I want and not afraid to ask for it, my face gives me away everytime so I can't mask shit, what u see is simply what u get, sick of being harshly judged by people I've only just met, like I'm some one dimensional easy to figure out spoiled wannabe, like Mariah once sang "you'll never know the real me"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/26/15

Boys And Their Toys

I'm at one of those pivotal points, where I need to focus only on music and getting those coins, otherwise I need a part time job, artists have to work twice as hard, I'm tired of having to stay busy, u luckily found ur career so why in such a tizzy, as if double majoring in college isn't enough, worked 2 and 3 jobs for years and it sucked, now I'm unemployed and struggling, rapping an original song wld be better with some juggling, people demand more to be entertained, most assume I'm in the game for fortune and fame, is anyone else fed up with the status quo, i miss Jr high days of spin the bottle and suck and blow, i never had the chance to slut around, sexual inexperience can be very profound, but basically for me im left with a lot of resentment, i need to choose from a group consisting of better men, not these emotionally deficient misogynistic boys, who needs feelings and intimacy with computers gadgets and toys, after all is said and done, I'm just looking for a good gay dude I cld call babe or hun, someone to cuddle with, a miraculous divine gift, that gives my life meaning, makes it so my aura is glowing and beaming, can someone pinch me to see if I'm dreaming, real magic dies when u give up and stop believing, fairy tales can and do come true, but the power lies within u!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/26/15

Where's The Follow Thru

I love that the world is changing it's view on homosexuality, it's a fucking catastophe/tragedy everytime there's another single casualty, I'm actually shocked Ireland legalized gay marriage, I'm afraid if a Republican becomes prez we'll revert back to the dark age horse drawn carriage, with concentration camps for all us fags, we repeat history out of ignorance that's just a common knowledge fact, race gender sexuality and religion, automatically effects our decisions, but it's down right disgusting and sickening, i have morality and spiritual conviction, refuse to let my soul be trapped or enslaved by a financial prison system, i no longer want to fantasize being the romantic hostage/victim, I'm writing my own role, winning a Grammy is my ultimate goal, selling out stadiums inspiring other rejects and wallflowers, shutting the traps of all the rap and hip hop haters with my hippie flower power, I'm an out and proud poetic gay rapper/singer, i spark contraversial outrage more spectacular and captivating than Jerry Springer, yall gonna have trouble staying in ur seats, just when I'm about to gracefully bow out i bout back cuz down deep I don't even believe in defeat, i may temporarily retreat, but that's to reenergize and strategize my defense, I like to put on a good show and naturally build up suspense, i don't like disengenuous and/or false pretense, fuck false facades and a faker who only pretends, i see and read right thru u, my biggest pet peeve are peeps who talk big game but never follow thru or do!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/23/15

Men Trying To Play God

Life is filled with angels and daemons, deciding whether faith or science explains its meanings, all men are flawed, behind many of the awful atrocities caused,  perpetuating an unanswerable war, making me question what the hell is this fighting for, forcing certain people underground, because their radical ideas are much too profound, hence the forming of Illuminati, a more secret society, than the one run by Gotti, also know as the enlightened ones, who use intelligence as their guns, ammunition and weapons, consisting of revolutionary artists and scholars, with a combined wealth worth gazillions of dollars, they don't feel the need to instill fear with violence, staying alive and thriving through silence, too many needless innocents dead, over a stupid piece of stale bread, and who's story of creation is legitimately right, since humans need tangibles or things to be in plain sight, maybe our hearts and minds aren't meant to understand, perhaps it's too complicated or an incomprehensible divine higher plan, beyond our conception, distracting or misdirecting our attention, from what really matters, constantly looking up the ladders, to God, consumed wondering why shit's so hard, instead of taking responsibility for our own actions, the crazy amount of mad bad sins, sometimes terrible stuff just happens, after all there are natural disasters, we'd cease to exist if the world was filled with pastors, who are we to decide what's right and what's wrong, like Chinese culture regulate how many women are kept after being born, which criminals live or die, can or can't I smoke pot and get high, is euthanasia against His will, is it ok to take the morning after pill, we all are just regular people, powerful religious extremists are the epitome of evil, concentrate on how u yourself are living, stop your prohibiting, I'm allowed to do whatever the fuck I wish, as long as I don't impede on someone else's freedom...ain't that a bitch?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/18/09

While Ur At It

Aren't a birthday and mixtape cause for celebration, then why am I wallowing in self loathing and hating, i get that it's just sex, but why does it seem I'm cursed or hexed, I'm tired of bored and alone, even the house I grew up in doesn't feel like my own home, my faith is running low, it's getting harder and harder to have hope, I used to look forward to another year, this time around I'm consumed by fear, caught in this quicksand of depression, wish a record label wld see I'm such a good investment, maybe then a guy wld too, instead of riding solo again like a lonely fool, i wonder if it's me they laugh at, well look who came crawling back, RI makes me feel inferior and trapped, constantly reminded of what everyone else has but I lack, like money family a house or a successful career, while ur at it wanna make fun of me for my man boobs and lack of hair, why do I care so much, when nobody else gives a fuck, perhaps I am a naive idealistic nut/shmuck, but when will I get a chance to enjoy true love?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/23/15

Ain't No Bottom Bitch

Trapped in my head, my heart's hollow and dead, I'm throwing in the towel and giving up, i no longer believe in fairy tale love, im so thru with being used, constantly thrown away like dirty tissues, only find one way relationships, I can't stand this shit, i thought I was the gemini, just wanna run away and hide, break down and cry, I need thicker skin to protect my insides, why am I being punished for knowing what I want when I want it, u instead withheld it teased and flaunted shit, if u did what u said u wld I wldnt act childish and throw a fit, technically in gay years I'm an 8 year old kid, with way too much talent sarcasm and wit, just cuz I'm submissive doesn't mean I'm a bottom bitch, perhaps it's true I'm too smart for my own good, i always feel dismissed underestimated and misunderstood, led on by a bunch of posers and frauds, i will read and ream u a new asshole if ur caught secretly fucking with other whores, it's so simple it's silly, all I want is intimacy and genuine reciprocity, be straight forward honest and real, omission or silence aren't as bad as lying but effective communication to me is a big deal, I'm a big boy and can make my own decisions for myself, but yes I wld love a companion a lending hand or help, to be at ur beck and call tho, I need to get off too yo, that's automatic and something u should already know, act full grown, or watch me turn my back and go, hoes are a dime a dozen, and I only associate with people with value and substance!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/22/15

What Happened

Where oh where cld my dream man be, perhaps in some random Colorado city, I've chatted with him a few times, his life isn't as flexible as mine, I can do poetry and music anywhere, i just have to decide if I wanna move there, i enjoyed Denver when I visited last, since RI is so small it's hard to move past the past, ironic as it is, adults are just older looking kids, i mean really people don't change much, life gets in the way and makes it tough to stay in touch, all relationships take time effort and work, when its only one way that's the worst, constantly giving never taking, when will the world finally have that epiphany/awakening, figure out what ur good at and do that, no matter how successful u get don't forget to give back, helping others helps ourselves, stop thinking perfection is achieved thru acquiring wealth, it's simply all about love, pay respect to the dead by smiling while looking up, success doesn't stem from luck, it's hard to be legit and earn an honest buck, cuz corporations got us enslaved, robotic like controlled and oh so well behaved, passive lacking talent and revolutionary action, i think our founding fathers and lost warriors are rolling over in their graves wondering what happened, where's our guts for glory, do u ever stop to think what the legacy is for our collective story, I'm often too shocked baffled and appalled when analyzing humanity, the awful atrocities we have performed is the sheer definition of the term insanity!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/15/15

Let Good Reign

Every generation is accented by a key speaker, who move and soothe the youth living proof the meeker, can rise to the dominant side, if he believes it to be when he tries, then he gains the power, to stand tall and tower, speak out and loud, dignified and proud, but alas, not to be a pain in the ass, or crass, but nothing can forever last, u can't hold this moment, control or own it, soon it'll be the past, u can't push people to follow ur path, or act too fast, cuz after a while, u lose abuse and refuse to use or muse a smile, ur tired from being invisible, little and minimal, so u strive to come alive, out from under the rock there where u hide, no more lies, lame excuses and elusive alibi cries, bitching moaning and sighs, try to buy silence by bribes, respect reflects honor hard work and true value, doing good deeds freely not just when someone's behind u or  have to, an actual pragmatical statue, a modern day Jesus staring there at u, with no judgment expectation or preconceived notion, his words inspire herds u can't stop the flock when they're spoken, his story lives in glory his book eternally open, following in his path in fact is how u obtain a token, to gain access thru heaven's pearly security gates, everybody waits, then states and debates, pleading the reason they should be forgiven for sinning and not burn at the stake, we all now and again make a mistake, we're all human doing spewing, fueling cooing and wooing, pursuing entombing and muting, thru googling and computing, stuck amuck a lack of good luck, I think technology sucks, makes people socially shmucks, u forgot u putts, to play outside, go boogie boarding hoarding the waves at high tied, stand in line for an amusement park ride, u only live once, so don't be a dunce, live life to the fullest, it's stock's always bullish, don't be afraid, stay away form the fade or the shade, and I'll pray for the same, the day our savior came and proclaimed, may the nonbelievers remain unnamed and unmamed, but I draw the line it's now about time the good gained insane fame and reigned.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/7/09

Broken Bonds

 What do u do when u can't get closure, just march on like a soldier, never looking back or thinking twice, damn tho a face to face wldve been respectful and nice, I never wanna hear the name Jesse J again, politicians lie about having ur best interest and being ur friend, having money and control doesn't give u all the power, how will god judge u in that final hour, did u treat others kindly, were u condescendingly happy and smiley, to give off a particular image, ur agenda is as transparent as a bad toupee or gimmick, being disengenuous and fake, will eventually make u break, cuz life isn't worth living if u don't have a clue, ur word doesn't mean shit if u say but never do, making time for someone special, doesn't get u a trophy or medal, but it shows the person u care, so many times I called u were never available or there, it was a one way relationship from the start, making promises u never intended to keep isn't smart, when I think of u I fight back tears, but being alone forever is no longer my greatest fear, i now know I don't need someone else to complete me, I've broken the bonds of my past and I'm finally foot loose and fancy free!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/14/15

Reciprocate Love

I can't believe I made it to this moment, since time is intangible and u can't own it, I'm gonna just sit and appreciate, all that is beautifully divine and great, don't u get tired of being patient and waiting, awful atrocities happening constantly is degrading, i decide the quality of my life, it doesn't matter what u think is wrong or right, i am not defined by my possessions or wealth, instead I focus on my passionate soul's health, society has a weight that too often stifles, why do we worship talentless celebrities and false idols, i thought that was reserved for special god like people, seems the world's corrupted by the greedy forces of evil, what happened to living like Jesus or fighting for the greater good, i find more genuine real humble folks hiding in the hood, wonder when everything changed direction, I don't want to be subjected to one particular section, has our perception been reversed, cuz of Adam and Eve we all are now cursed, when will I be forgiven for my father's sins, does he have to die in order for my destiny to begin, it's funny how one story's ending, altho devastating mind blowing and bending, can actually be the best thing, always remember the joy and happiness family and friends bring, everything u do and who u meet has purpose and meaning, don't be afraid or ashamed to share ur true feelings, if at anytime u need someone to listen or give u a hug, know that I am here I care and wanna reciprocate love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/13/15

Phenomenally Great

Modern artists have it the hardest, I'm getting ready for the fall harvest, the birth of a second album, I'm inspired by black revolutionaries like Pac MLK Jr and Malcolm, music is the backbone of my life, it's always saving me during the pain and strife, all this tragedy that's happened to me, is nothing to be laughing at G, don't minimalize my struggle, since yall never included me in ur huddle, I'll enjoy my successes alone too, someday i know I'll find my boo...a real bro dude, who doesn't mind if my feet are sweaty and stinky, in fact I like things spicy and kinky, i want a man's man, what's hard to understand, that's just my preference, I'm a great friend and/or reference, I'm always willing to help and lend a hand, after figuring out what I wanted I plotted and planned, the level of talent and skill still amazes me even, I'm really trying to stop all the people pleasing, afterall I am only human, no matter what tho I will always continue pursuing, my passion hopes wishes and dreams, superficial shit is misleading cuz things aren't  necessarily what they seem, we create these false impossible expectations, everybody gets nervous and consumed with hesitation, gotta remember to cut myself some slack, look at my accomplishments that others can't conceive of and lack, like having a cd on Amazon and iTunes, internationally connecting healing lost souls and wounds, i can't wait to share my growth with the world, give a lil insight to the plight I've conquered and hurdled, I'm much stronger than I ever thought, ain't never gonna sell out or be bought, i know my value and worth, and realize that all the heartache and hurt, will shape me into something phenomenally great, i can handle the weight and won't break, when I meet that special someone we will start with a first date, only time will tell if destiny lead me to my fated soulmate!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/12/15

Leaving The Past

Gotta stop comparing myself to others, I'm a product of capitalistic fathers and mothers, everything is a competition for money, love is as make believe as Santa and the Easter bunny, perhaps I just don't know how to fake shit, will i still be able to make it, i don't play politics or games, between being gay and kinky I'm so ashamed, i never understood vanilla sex, vaginal intercourse is hexed, I'm sorry but I just don't want kids, this world's already overpopulated with hypocrites, inconsiderate and disrespectful, ignorant hatred is never really helpful, it's oppressive and damaging, a person can only take so much whipping criticism and hammering, I've always been underestimated and misjudged, this could've been easily resolved with an I'm sorry and a hug, they are life saving and healing, sometimes I'm not good at expressing how im feeling, out of fear of a simple misundertanding, most aren't empathetic compassionate or caring, i can't be the only one bravely sharing, yall a bunch of wallflowers just waiting and staring, watching life pass u by, I'm done apologizing for getting high, especially to overworking and eating alcoholics and drug users, abuse doesn't excuse becoming the abuser, prostitution is for losers, stop hiding in ur virtual reality computers, and just be real genuine people, lying and deceiving are equally evil, I'm tired of being the nice guy finishing last, I'm walking towards my destiny by leaving the past!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/11/15

Gay Fairy Tales & Dreams

Working on me every day, realizing there's no right or wrong way, it's what u do or don't, are u sure u can't or u wont, i actually take time to figure out what I want, I don't mean to come across as cocky or flaunt, I'm not afraid anymore or in competition, no longer focused on my own successful premonition, yall can believe in me or not, I'm still blessed and appreciative of all I got, and I have more than enough, which doesn't minimalize my struggles or mean my life isn't rough or tough, I've never really had luck good or bad, I'm super sensative so I cry when I'm mad and sad, cuz I'm an empathic lover not a fighter, my future's starting to look much much brighter, hip hop's been consumed by pollution, hope ur ready for another wave of conscious evolution, here I come, back where I started from, I still can't believe what I've accomplished and done, and it seems the fun has only just begun, I've already won, my parents are proud of their son, plus I'm loved by many, I'm extremely social and friendly, but i am quite bashful and humble, still get stage fright stumble mumble and bumble, forget a lyric or two, but continue on like those real pros do, I relate to Prince Charming but I like dudes, I wanna prove that gay fairy tales and dreams do come true too!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/8/15

The Healer

Call me He-Man master of my own universe, i understand the true value of what love is really worth, it casts a protective spell, that can save u from the pain of the fiery flames from hell, the sun is a powerful thing, I'm like a phoenix when I rap and sing, i bask at the fact of all the joy it brings, being rejected stings, leaving a scar on ur heart, even if I'm wicked smart, my brain can't control my emotions, i lose myself laying on the beach by the ocean, coast to coast, but I'm humble and don't boast, always love good company, I'm sarcastic witty silly and funny, but extremely intense and profoundly deep, super sensative emotional and unafraid to weep, I'm like cupid a lover not a fighter, roll a phat blunt and I'll spark it with my Bic lighter, I'm a gladiator with a white cap, instead of a halo I rock a fidora...don't u dare laugh, get the giggles all snorting and shit, laughter is addictive and I can't handle it, especially if it's at me, i hate the judgmental plain mean hurtful and nasty, alot of truth is said in jest, of course I'm aiming for being the best, yes I have high expectations, believe in the supernatural and the power of divine constellations, i respect even if I don't understand, afterall perfection is impossible for technology and man, yet I still try to empathize and comprehend, why ignorant hypocritical minds can't rationalize and bend, focus on the messages my poetry and music send, let me heal ur hearts and help some souls mend!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/7/15

Apologies Not Accepted

I tried apologizing multiple times, instead u treated me like I committed a bunch of felony crimes, u won't even talk to me, so my soul can once again be set free, closure is such an important part, it's how u begin to heal ur heart, but sometimes u don't get it, meanwhile I don't forget shit, u are my one grudge, a political consultant shldnt be a judge, u lie about ur name and where u live, in this life karma makes sure u get what u give, I'm a reflection of u, it's what empaths do, wish u wldnt abuse me like someone did to u, nobody knows the journey we all individually go thru, I'm always changing and growing, confused as to who's doing the blowing, am I bi or am I just gay, all my choices seem to lead me the wrong way, but that's in the past, wish father time wld make life fly by less fast, i wanna see happiness and beauty, far less soldiers preparing for their call to duty, thank u to the gladiators for their service, i imagine u dig deep below the surface, to the bowels of our existence, the grime and slime plagues us like resistance, some men are lower than the fungus that feed off of pond scum, they're the reason I use my left hand to jerk off and cum, cuz of a certain neglectful someone i no longer trust people, from now on i will refer to him as the devil since he's the epitome of evil, there's no excuse why u act that way, all I ever wanted was for u to stay, start with one night only, and make my life a lil less lonely, i don't even need sex, intimacy is the best, but if ur open and willing to pursue more, I'm down...I'll just never be ur whore, I've got value and class, i may be stubborn but I'm one hot sexy piece/pain in the ass, with loads of sarcasm and sass, and I always always always...get the last laugh!

Peace and 1,
JC
5/6/15