A Confusing Illusion

I love to snuggle and cuddle, but also like to huddle around and muddle, nestle wrestle and revel, like a mischievous devil, because being too good gets boring, you'll get ignored and, I bet u catch some snoring, or at least yawning, from your constant preaching and lecturing, truth censoring, consistently claiming, it's saving the youth from the pain and, all the suffering, can be healed by loving, but I find it's overprotection, creating deception, a false sense of security, children automatically misnomered pure fervently, imagine the arrogance, of some parents, thinking they can play God, but what's even more odd, is some try to live hilariously vicariously through them, middle age women and men having a 16 year old friend, go out dancing and clubbing, that mentality is what's troubling, I think some blunders are pivotal, and to not allow me to make the same mistakes u did is hypocritical, nobody's perfect, u can't control shit so worrying about what ifs just ain't worth it, life itself is a risk, and can be dangerous, you're bound to cause some trouble, even living in a bubble, like a hamster ball, rolling around spending mommy and daddy's money at the mall, or on marijuana and booze, giving a confusing illusion u follow the rules, you've gotten so nasty at lying, bribing conniving and hiding, to get ahead in the game, put off responsibility and blame, as long as u claim the fame, it's quite a shame, nothing in life is free or easy, how awesome would that be, capitalism is a rat race, hope u can keep up with the pace, otherwise you'll be left behind, finish last like the kind, or get lost in the grind, probably go out of your mind, stuck in padded ward confines, where the sun rarely shines, like in hell, or a jail cell,...whoops I forget to tell u, there is a limit to what u can do, when in doubt apply the golden rule, since the ten commandments are an outdated tool, unwilling to change with the times, without justification for their reasoning or rhymes, I'm tired of religion, and their babbling adlibbing fibbing, afterall if we have come to learn that the bible's stories of Jesus aren't 100% true, maybe all the laws it sets forth aren't too!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/21/09

Not So Subtle

I'm feeling hopelessly worthless, like my life and music no longer serve a purpose, I used to fight for truth justice and equal rights, but now my only concern is the money and bright lights, I've lost the urge and inspiration to write, don't think I can make it thru one more lonely night, pointless posts pics and memes get hundreds of likes, what am i doin wrong cuz i can't seem to get anything right, every day I wade thru shit and it's a struggle, wish if u were interested in me u wldnt be so subtle, instead of genuine love and support, I'm rejected and excommunicated by escorts gay resorts and forts, all I want is some friends and cohorts, to play games with or to watch sports, why can't I find a home or where I belong, finally have that big grammy award winning song, I'm losing faith that my destiny is still ahead of me, if ur sick and tired of my negativity just unfriend me, this is who I am, I don't fake omit cheat or scam, I'm a very talented lyrical artist and a kind hearted man, yet I'm still single and will never understand, I cld really use a companion to lend a helping hand, a compassionate ear and/or a big bear hug, i think I finally get how "sometimes love just ain't enough"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/28/15

Same Lame Old Game

Not gonna lie I hate spending Sunday fundays alone, why are friends so hard to come by and make when ur full grown, i miss the days of being a kid, boredom and lonliness make it hard to live, there's only so much love i can give, without any given in return, so many times I've been flaked on and burned, fuck this shit taking turns, i want mine and I want it first, a lack of intimacy and reciprocity hurts, within everyone both good and evil lurks, all relationships take lots of time and hard work, I'm not trying to be an overzealous jerk, but I've gone so long, without a regular steady shlong, I'm comfortable staying home stoned and masterbating, my sex drive is slowly diminishing and fading, I've gotten so used to riding solo, i don't know how to share when it's bogo, perhaps I'm actually naturally monogamous and straight, i call a fricken spade a spade, I'm sorry to say but I often wish I wasn't gay, I'm wicked worried and afraid, I'm being punished for poor decisions others have made, while u played and created waves, i guess I dug my own grave, cuz i refuse to compromise or settle for the same lame old game of heartbreak and pain!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/28/15

Another Distraction

Tho gay marriage is legal, it just isn't meant for some people, I can barely get a guy to hang out 2 days in a row, seems most homos only want one offs or anonymous blow and goes, those damn sluts whores and hoes, aren't only found in bath houses or glory holes, if u want to take a trip down the isle, visit the supermarket for a while, dressed in ur finest suit, who wears the gown is moot, ur both guys, blending finances is never a good choice or wise, u know fags can get divorced too, in the end the more successful get screwed, I'm not hating on the institution, trying to be all negative Nancy poo pooing, it's just I've seen more relationships ruined, after deciding to commemorate their union, one or both of them are caught canoodling, masterbating to too much porn or doodling, racy pics of big boobs and dicks, i think this was another smoke and mirrors trick, to simply distract us, from another awful atrocity/injustice, stay alert and weary, having no checks and balances is scary, I wonder what the government has up its sleeve, I'm sure it has something to do with more power and greed, I one hundred percent believe, no good deed goes unpunished and nothing in life is free!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/28/15

Love's The New Mantra/Motto

Remember when gay marriage was illegal, this monumental occasion is unbelievable, i can't even describe the feeling, it really is quite an epic achievement, tho a huge battle has been won, the war is far from being even close to done, but that poem is for another day, right now I'm gonna celebrate love and being gay, I believe my songs truly do speak for my generation, nobody's doing or making the lyrical message driven hip hop I've been writing and creating, all I'm saying is im glad of being part of a revolution, eradicating past biases hate and discrimination clouding and polluting, our minds hearts souls and existential consciousness, i like to fight with my words so I talk about real shocking and hot topics, totally not into pop commercial garbage, like the Internet ain't nothing can stop this, wise radical passionate empathic artist/activist, who knows how to use his witts and intelligence instead of pointless fists, which is just a competition of whos got the bigger swinging dick, it's actually hilariously simply stupid ignorance and ridiculousness, i hate repetition but i will say it once again, take a few minutes to appreciate this legendary moment with LGBTQ family and friends, love conquers all and will always remain triumphant, i feel a second hippie movement on the horizon line and it's finally coming, give lots of kisses and hugs, cuz our new mantra/motto is now peace and one love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/27/15

It's True Love Conquers All

What a way to wake up to a new day, no longer do I feel like a second class citizen for being gay, marriage equality was passed by the US Supreme Court, which struck many nerves heart strings and chords, all across the country everybody is celebrating, of course there are a few folks still sulking and hating, I say it's about damn time, I don't understand how discrimination exists in human consciousness and minds, we are all essentially the same, don't hate the players hate the game, I can't comprehend petty jealousy and greed, i dream like Martin that the whole globe needs to be equal and free, why do we as a species try to limit love, blame an invisible guy in the sky and pray looking up, it's kind of strange and pretty weird, wish leaders in power wouldn't rule using fear, imagine if there was such a thing as a care bear stare, do u remove unwanted hair with Nair, i know it's a random question, but what a unique invention, we are so smart yet it's impossibly hard, to make sure nobody is homeless broke or starves, where did the righteous virtuous souls go, compassion sympathy and empathy are at an all time low, seems the mentality is every man for themself, having hope and faith does help, but the point and purpose of life, isn't just making money and finding a wife, it's super progressive and cool same sex couples are now able to marry, they too have earned and deserve the right to be happy, I just appreciate being able to choose, true love conquers all so it can never be destroyed or lose!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/26/15

Unequal Distribution Of Wealth

I really hate credit card companies, they woke me up this morning just to tease, offering a locked in lower interest rate, which ideally sounds great, but there is always a catch, so I took a few deep breaths, and let her have it, I have absolutely haddit, i am unemployed and broke, what ur suggesting is a fucking joke, I'm trying to go back to school, is Sallie Mae or Verizon customer service more rude, frankly I despise both, I'm losing all financial faith and hope, it's getting harder and harder to cope, can't even calm myself with a lil toke or smoke of dope, I'm hanging on by a frayed frail thread of rope, in the grand scope it's never one single vote, so what's the point in casting mine, aren't u all tired of the 9 to 9 12 hour grind, grow a backbone and a stronger spine, don't just wait til the universe and stars align, i constantly pray and pine, that if i remain patient and kind, someday soon it will be my time to shine, perhaps that's stupid ignorant and naive, unequal distribution of wealth is my biggest pet peeve, why is everyone elected to lead, totally consumed by greed!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/24/15

Wickednessless Bliss

With wealth comes certain envious perks, inspiring arrogant behavior and acting stuck up like jerks, why is it with money comes power, and the good turn evil by the toll of the final hour, it's baffling how the affluent get tax exemptions, here comes a new road to hell being paved with good intentions, even tho u try to be fair u can't satisfy everyone, perhaps that's the reason leaders stare down the barrel of their own gun, the whole world's gone green, but not environmentally friendly more a financially greedy money fiend, what's right and what's wrong's been clouded by clout, supremacy inevitably makes u impious without doubt, but if wickedness didn't exist, one would assume it would be utopia and bliss, being bad inherently means going against authority, u don't follow rules and respect ur elders deplorably, who would ultimately rule and how, would they plan for the future or only care about now, what will they use to decide the brain or the soul, being judge jury and executioner can be an overwhelming abundance of control, too much power puts the best to the test, drives the most honorable of men crazy from all the stress, when there is no righteous leader or guiding conscience, no one's held accountable and there's no such thing as consequence, the world would be in a state of chaos and madness, no justice or peace of mind instead, just revenge regret and sadness, it's a never ending battle on who gets to decide, who makes the laws for which everyone must abide, to reign and govern all seems like it would be so cool, but I think humans are naive and concede a king's just another fool, I don't have any desire need or ambition, to be high up on the latter or in a dominant position, I can barely even take care of myself, so I don't really think I'm a source to site for help, I'm not jealous or envious of the people on top, being king pin's addicting and once ur number one u can't stop, when u reach a peak the only thing left to do is fall, the one thing I do know is I don't really know anything at all!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/26/08

Consisent Discipling

You need to be way more consistent, when ur ruling and disciplining, cuz in the blink of an instant, you'll live to regret ur opinion, unable to see the bigger picture, until it's too late to miss and it hits ya, u ignore my decision, as insufficient, I'm pissed and disinterested cuz ur insignificant, true love is heaven sent, u can't fathom or imagine how magnificent, oh man the grand plan's persistence insistent, I guess it can get annoying, with all the playing and toying, acting all coy and, overwhelmed by joy when, life just shat on u, like it just has to and a blast too, for other people to watch, stare and gawk, continuing offering their opinion, like u should hang on their every word u turd this is their dominion, they sit there on a pedestal all meddlesome, just for fun, they discriminate and judge, stick to their strict moral code and don't budge, cheat tweak or fudge, but with humans still hold a grudge, they've gotten greedy with power, and it's turned them sour, bitter enough to instantly wither a flower, by creating an acid rain shower, envious of people who know and feel real love, while their stuck above, trying to live vicariously through us, they just huff, they'll even tell u it sucks, but will only say it in trust, if u blow their cover, u will ultimately discover, u should learn to keep a secret, don't leak or speak of it, they'll look everybody in the eye and deny, telling them all I inherently lie, to save their hide, they are really bashful and shy, don't ask why, or take either side, they're uncomfortable with feelings, don't fully grasp or comprehend human beings, living most of our lives without meanings, we can't grasp the bible's teachings, choir preachings and the lack of faith leapings, we're just supposed to open up our minds, realize there's more to life than the world's confines, the air we breathe we need, but it's invisible and can't be seen, so why can't we acknowledge, there's a power greater than the scholars, I guess it's hard when we live through the pain, there's little compassion and no one to explain, why there are so many awful atrocities, catch 22s and hypocrisies, and how if there is someone in control, how they just sit by and don't even try to help the soul console!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
1/5/09

Whoa A RI Tornado

Holy smokes, watching for a tornado, who knew, it cld happen in RI too, mother nature's wrath, will destroy any and everything in its path, fuck shit bitch, hope u all are ready for this, thunderstorms terential rain and damaging wind, I'm a lil bit apprehensive of goin to Prov tonight to rap and sing, I will miss the bliss and joy music brings, just the thought makes me cringe, no I can't hit them Mariah high notes, if I went on The Voice wld u call in for me and vote, think I cld handle the battle rounds and go toe to toe, I'd probably make friends with my competition and foes, whoa...im outside right now, watching it really come down, it's interrupting my thought process and flow, u shld get the gist of my sarcastic randomness by now tho...no, so I don't end this poem with a rhetorical question, i believe natural disasters are a form of population control and shld be considered blessings, otherwise, I'm left wondering why wise guys, get to decide who lives or dies, no matter how hard any human tries, ur not god and killing is a sin in his eyes, we don't have the right to take our own lives, abort and even doctors can't assist in suicide, when it's time to meet ur demise, and ur soul goes will it sink below or rise, burn in hell or flies high up into the heavenly skies, I like the after life being a nice mysterious surprise, I'd much rather focus on making the most out of every single day I'm alive!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/23/15

It's Just Love

I'm honored and humbled, i didn't flub or fumble, in life u usually only get one shot, so u better give it the best uve got, many things can go wrong during a live performance, my words have great power so the responsibility is ginormous, hip hop already has such a bad negative rap, hopefully I broke down the stereotype and helped change that, it used to be the voice of the oppressed, now it's been spoiled I guess, all about money drugs bitches niggas fags and hoes, there's no intellect depth heart or soul, i miss being inspired and moved, spirtually connected and swooned, music saves my life every day, supports me all the way, no matter my mood or attitude, i can always find a song to relate to, and if for some reason I can't, I'll pen one with my own two hands, I am extremely talented and skilled, not gonna lie I'm afraid I may be assassinated or killed, by some religious extremist right winged nut, i don't need electro shock therapy cuz i suck dick and take it up the butt, omg why is this still even an issue, what the fuck is the problem with u, grow up, it's just love, let's all please remain sane and calm, like Pink sings "it's only love not a time bomb"!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/23/15

Just Being Me

What's with all the pent up repression guilt and shame, honestly the gay single scene is pretty pathetic and lame, most of the good ones are already taken, even they lie cheat make fake play dates and find them flaking, my blue balls are aching, the whole globe's slowly changing and awakening, but I've grown comfortable with just being me, it's so simple it's silly, the hardest thing tho, is to be patient and let go, I totally understand the universe is in control, but this depressive oppression is sucking my soul, thank god for marijuana and music, I try to take the hatred and negativity and use it, to inspire and uplift with my lyrical gift, has anyone else been feeling the rift or shift, I think a big change is on its way, I have hope and faith that there will come a day, when people finally decide, to focus on the quality of their own lives, u absolutely must follow ur heart, take big risks to fulfill dreams even tho the road seems dreary and dark, uve already dismissed it as probably impossibly hard, I am living proof anything u put ur mind to can happen, just cuz u don't see the chips I have stashed stacking, piling high waiting til it's my time to shine, i believe everything is as it shld be and'll work out fine, I'm still on cloud nine, from performing on the main stage at RI gay pride, maybe the tides have turned in my favor, with passion drive and a lil labor, u might be pleasantly surprised, never compromise an amazing relationship cuz it's based on a foundation of lies, keeping secrets is the #1 reason for trust's demise, and for the river of tears flowing from my swollen eyes, but like Pac "Still I Rise", or better yet "Ride til I die", and will continue to do so, are u ready...get set...cuz here we go yo!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/22/15

Sex Is The Best

I don't want to judge pry or meddle, but i don't get why gay guys compromise and settle, why be in a vanilla relationship, when ur into fetishes and shit, it just doesn't make sense, love is about happiness and fulfillment, maybe monogamous marriage just isn't for us, I'm not sorry ive got both balls and guts, i know what I want and like, I won't chase but will put up a fight, esp if we are kink compatible, ur lack of follow thru is frustratingly laughable, ive got all this pent up aggession, so i get too intense and give a negative impression, let me relieve u of any anxiety and tension, my healing hands are magic and a blessing, u repetedly taunt and tease me, send an enticing email only to leave me hanging evilly, u never get anything laying down low hiding in silence, the answer is never avoidance or violence, be upfront straight forward and honest, is it possible to be too prude uptight and modest, life is simply short, why's it so hard to find a cool cohort, to chill with and hang, i cld give two fucks if we ever bang, that's not what I'm about, the music industry is already an overwhelming stressful bout, seems nobody's capable of friendship anymore, I've managed past polyamorous relationships very well before, I'm not looking for a primary partner right now, I may not know when where or how, but i will find true love and occupational success, I refuse to settle for anything less than what's in my best interest, I bet this is another obstacle/test, god lately I'm so lonely bored and horny the only thing on my mind is sex sex sex!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/22/15

Wicked Explicit

Everyone's incognito, and on the down low, it's hard for a gay jock bro, to patiently wait tho, used to being someone's sloppy seconds, sometimes sex is like a slice of heaven, when there's a drought and have to go so long without, i start to crave cock in my mouth, sorry to be that blunt raunchy and wicked explicit, but every guy shld let a fag suck their dick, not gonna lie, without a lil love in my life I wanna die, it's especially tough being kinky, i need a strong masculine man not some queen who's femmy and wimpy, it's simply a preference, understand that sentence, i am an adult and have all types of relationships, it's ignorant to be judgy constantly hating on shit, mind ur own damn business, i wanna experience lots of hot erotic bliss, i know what I like and not afraid to ask, don't lie or flake and I won't take u to task, u should take my overzealousness as a compliment silly, wait til u see my oral talents and abilities, I wanna make ur toes curl, knock ur socks off and rock ur world, get u to shiver and quiver, im both a people pleaser and a giver, ain't nobody can do it like me, I've mastered the art of fwb and being discrete, i don't gossip or repeat, this undercover brutha keeps secrets respecting all limits and boundaries, and I totally believe in our right to maintain privacy!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/21/15

Global Proposal

Tomorrow is the big day, performing on RI's Gay Pride main stage, it's been a long arduous road, traveled coast to coast and wound up back home, there's no manual map to follow, just regret shaming the comfortably proud and hollow, i think gays are much more existential, they have this incredible potential, to broaden minds and hearts, don't we all deserve a fair shot, I find our community to be cliquey and ostracizing, lots of promiscuous hookering and sluttish conniving and lying, I'm not one to judge, or push my opinions on u trying to limit love, it knows no bounds, so heavenly divine and profound, even if it was a choice mine counts, take away my rights and I'll pounce, finally no more arresting for possession of less than an ounce, as needless police brutality and racial tension mounts, 30 somethings are still living at home off an allowance, the US economy is corrupt fucked up and broken, have we forgotten the important words revolutionary past activists have spoken, seems we all are just slave like pawns at the rich's disposal, i offer a global proposal, it's time to align so there's not 1 more single hate crime casualty, for simply being black Jewish or Muslim and believing in homosexuality, that would make me happy, but I'm sure ur reading this calling me crazy naive ignorant and basically just laughing at me, haters gonna hate, but I'm destined to be great and help effectuate change!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/19/15

Beautifully Weird & Strange

We always try to rationalize our own crazy, I like how pot makes worries and problems foggy and hazy, whoops a daisy, Joe u know they calling u spoiled and lazy, what a waste of space and talent, ur effort has been inspiring and valient, but really it's time to give it the fuck up, on a music career and fairy tale gay love, they're so sick of me they won't even offer a listening sympathetic ear or a healing hug, suck it up cuz everyone has it tough, except that's not really the case, its all random circumstance chance luck and fate, I'm 100% confident and have unwavering faith, everything is as it's supposed to be and will all be ok, hold on to friends family and hope, please respect my boundaries tho don't grope, I'm down to both adopt or elope, we all should be more accepting and as open as the new pope, someday the world will change, so the whole globe knows there's nothing wrong with homos we're just beautifully weird and strange, mystifying minds on a much higher divine existential plane, remember even twins are different no 2 people are the same, we all are fundamentally flawed fucked up and insane!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/18/15

Whisk Me Away

Wish some sexy jock or prince charming who's gay, would come kidnap me and whisk me away, I just can't take the responsibility of this life, the price of strife and the right to gripe, simply put don't come cheap, can't take the bullshit society heaps, I've definitely come leaps and bounds, but I've yet to experience any change that's positively profound, I'm constantly knocked down, feeling tethered trapped helplessly bound, fallen and failed so many times I've lost count, I'm being consumed by gloom doom and doubt, perhaps i fantasized a lie, as a gemini I instinctually wonder why, how come things are the way they are, it is seriously hard to get far, unless u have money or a degree, nothing seems to be free, so much pollution I have to pay for an inhaler to even breathe, most people aren't intellectual or that deep, I'm a difficult man to understand, cuz i have huge dreams and plans, save ur superficial small talk, for those silent wallflowers who'd rather stalk and gawk, than actually make an effort to truly be happy, spiritual fulfillment isn't stupid or sappy, faith is the key to success, gotta figure out what u want first and then try ur best, if u believe in god it's all He or She asks, make the most of now cuz time sure flies by fast, except of course when u don't have cash, I need my secret stash of grass, or I'll act like an ass, look at how much waste impacts the stacks of trash, i know u can't erase the gaps or cracks, but hopefully someday we'll be able to look back on the past crap and laugh!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/18/15

Fucked Up Feng Shui

I'm stuck in a deep dark hole and I can't get out, I have no more stregnth to bout, all day I've been crying histerically non stop, been fucked over by both a politician and a lying lawyer/cop, there seems to be no decent human beings, telling everybody to fuck off is freeing, i really hate men, i won't let my heart love again, it's just not strong enough, my skin is thin not rough and tough, I'm in some serious financial trouble, and the world just wants to burst my bubble, dreams don't come true, it's all an illusion and everyone's lying to u, they only care what u can do for them, fuck feng shui getting centered and zen, I'm about to flip my lid, nobody takes responsibility for the shit they did, yet I'm always held accountable, the amount of debt I'm in seems insurmountable, and I don't even have it that bad, totally appreciative of all I have/had, but now I wanna stand on my own two feet, may have been made defective without any greed gene, what is so wrong with being more socialistic, sustainably clean green and even holistic, corporations are destroying our old way of life, i hope technology can sufficiently replace ur wife, cuz I sure as hell refuse to be ur slave, on days like today I try to fight away my depressive rage, do we ever really change, 9 times out of 10 when I show my fangs, it's because I'm simply scared angry and trying to hide my pain!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/18/15

Solo Joe

I'm feeling ugly and lonely, yall a bunch of flaky phonies, seriously every single one of u, it's not how much game u talk but what u do, if uve got a bf why u online looking, I'm so sick of these bi guys teasing and hookering, i think I'm becoming asexual, or goin back to being hetero, fake a life with a wife and a few kids, better yet I shld just contract the hiv, honestly sometimes I don't wanna live, I don't get even a small return on all that I give, i don't understand the point, I've got no love no coin, got the chills tho and tears welling up in my eyes, as I realize there's so much sadness in my rhymes, today may be the day the music died, my heart and soul like my brain is fried, i can't handle the boredom and silence, the awful atrocities brutality and violence, smoke pot instead and spread peace, preserver and push past failure and defeat, things aren't ever fair or nice and neat, get over the fact ull probably never be a member of the 1% elite, I'm running low on options, both my heads are throbbing, the pressure and pain aren't stopping, why are people picking mates like they're online catelog shopping, i don't wanna be solo Joe or insecure anymore, please tell me what the fuck all this heartache and hurt is for?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/18/15

Layered Onion

Having trouble deciding what to do, is it worth goin in debt again for music production school, I think it's smart and feels right, what's 2 1/2 more years of life in RI gonna be like, but after that, I'm leaving and never looking back, this time when I go, I am determined to find my new true home, who knows where I'll be, Denver San Fran Chicago Canada or perhaps some European country, it's an online degree so there's room to still travel, can't wait for the day I pound that gavel, and finally make a definitive choice, i have a uniquely talented and gifted rhythmic voice, bassy raspy and deep, with a sound and style similar to hip hop in the 90s, i love Tupac Nas Guru The Wu and Lauryn Hill, they continue to be considered classic and their songs give me the chills, i miss when rap represented activism inspiration and poetic soul, i hate that fortune and fame is now the ultimate goal, I miss when music had substance and value, artists shldnt create just cuz they have to, it often comes in waves, hard work motivation and having unwavering passion pays, i wish u were more brave and stayed, not treated me like another notch on ur belt or just a great lay, im not like visiting Hawaii, ull probably get a post about u on my blog/diary, u cld say im a layered onion, very shocking and stunning, stinky but delicious and tasty, totally impatient overzealous and hasty, but dedicated to help better and change the world, let's all blend together like old school chocolate and vanilla swirl!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/17/15

Semi Trilingual

Wish the rain wld wash away heartache and pain, it's a damn shame love doesn't remain the same, it's always great in the beginning, ur only being shown their representative is what I'm thinking, there's definitely alternate personalities and versions, a sexy slut standing on the corner working, sucking fucking and jerking, so glad I'm not the sex that goes thru birthing, it's not good if I have to ask, are u being ur genuine self or wearing a mask, behind a computer screen uve got balls and can sass, but confronted face to face u forget fast, first time meeting no one gets it up the butt, I'd rather have intimate kinky sex instead of getting fucked, let's have a relationship progress naturally, I'm down with just dating casually, but that doesn't mean I'm a prude, I'm just a pretty picky personality driven gay dude, looking for someone similar, who can be comfortable around my friends and familia, we are Italian tho not Spanish, when momma makes gravy watch how quickly it goes and'll vanish, forget about it when it comes to her lasagna, ull have it for lunch and dinner both today and manana, lol like Britney bitch "oops I did it again", proving to not just be another monolingual ignorant American, to prove to u all that I am a real deal wise fella, I'll end this poem by simply saying buon giorno e ciao bella!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/15/15

All Work No Play

Guess I must not be cool, got no RI friends with a pool, I'll use my poetry as a tool, don't give a crap if u think I'm annoying fool, ain't nobody like me, u should know how my bite be, intense venomous and deadly, I've said before I've got a powerful mouth, i use to suck swallow spit and bout, wanna try it out, how about now, gained any leverage, we cld be smoking a blunt and having a refreshing alcoholic beverage, don't be lonely all work and no play, i just wanna have a Sunday funday, where we can have a grand ole time get some sun and be gay, not sexually silly, altho I know I can get ur already wet willy in a tizzy, get it so throbbing and leaky, u think music should be free and is easy, keep supporting exploitation corporations and a corrupt industry, and ull see, the world will wither away and die, artists like Tupac Lauryn and Mariah are the only reason why, I'm even still alive, haven't already committed suicide, u all really need to wake up, learn when enough is enough, yes life is expensive and the economy sucks, but work isn't work if ur doing what u love, most homos are superficial and promiscuous sluts, but who am i to judge, I'm probably just jealous i have very lil luck, we are at a crossroads and on the cusp, if we don't make a profound change soon...we're pretty much fucked!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/14/15

Charmed & Enchanted

Running low on topics of discussion, I'm as volatile as a volcanic eruption, i can randomly just blow a flow like it's nothing,  I don't think it's right to ban and sensor all cussing, sometimes ur so damn mad all u can say or think is FUCK, yes it can get excessive overused and abused too much, but really what happened to free speech, it's everybodys duty to help teach, cuz of a few bad seeds, now it negatively effects me, both radio and artists have to people please, always looking for donations and sponsers, to all the nay sayers or haters watch me succeed and conquer, I may be self righteous but I'm full of pride dignity and honor, i don't take anything for granted, i often think I'm living a fairy tale life charmed and enchanted, the truth is im just winging it, hope one day audiences will be singing my shit, but when or if that day ever comes, I will remain humbly grounded by loved ones, show forgiveness and mercy to those who in the past sassed and shunned, and u can bet for sure I'll never forget where I came from!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/13/15

Wise Advice

There's nothing more rewarding than fulfilling big goals and dreams, performing at RI Pride is a tremendous opportunity but I want the Grammys, i know that's extremely overzealous and ambitious, everybody has some rough patches bumps and hiccups, my legs look great from dodging obstacles and jumping hurdles, i can't decide who's my favorite of the teenage mutant ninja turtles, however the best xman has to be Jean Grey, i liked She-Ra more than He-Man I shldve known back then I was gay, i seriously had no clue, why do u care so much who i sleep with shouldn't effect u, I'm flattered man I just don't understand, this wasn't a choice for me and definitely wasn't planned, all I want is to do music find love and be happy, why when I say that do so many laugh at me, jealous I can have my cake and eat it too, or pissed cuz i don't fake it til I make it like u do, either way there's enough room to go around, I try to stay eclectic and diversify my sound, listeners are opinionated and fickle, some people hate country folk metal or rap more than being torturously tickled, when u find urself in a bind/pickle,  time's not on ur side it tick tocked and dwindled, it's almost criminal, "it could all be so simple", like Lauryn sang "but ud rather make it hard", i wonder if I'll ever get that far, to define a minority subculture a genre and a generation, u shld give her a standing ovation without any hesitation, with her amazing creations there's no need for any apology or explanation, u try being a black female hip hop artist, i sure as hell wouldn't argue over who had it the hardest, divine natural talent speaks for itself, as an aspiring gay white rapper singer songwriter myself I cld use some wise advice and help!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/12/15

Fuck Capitalism

My deflated overdrawn bank account, has got me pissed off feeling down and out, I don't understand how I'm supposed to get ahead, what happens to billionaires' money after their dead, I'm so sick of not having any savings, can u actually win the lottery by praying, I'm starting to get really scared, i hate being dominated thru fear, i just don't understand, why poor people don't take a stand, i wish everybody wld wake the fuck up, show a lil compassion and love, life ain't easy, unless ur sleazy and greedy, I'm sorry not sorry I actually have a conscience, why are heartache hurt and pain such constants, it's like the only way we know how to grow and learn, damn I wonder how many bridges have been burned, all over a stupid piece of worthless paper, the amount of student debt kids have left is major, basically we are all work horses and slaves, will the day ever come when the good people of the world will be financially freed and saved, we have to share natural resources, squash war and all ur ignorant superficial discourses, how about a lil more equality harmony and peace, it's too sad seeing all the hungy homeless on the streets, as they sleep under cardboard boxes, that kind of environment is filled with unsuitable toxins, even if it is my last dollar bill/buck, I'd give it away to help someone less fortunate and down on their luck, I know the feeling of being trapped and stuck, if we don't start evenly distributing wealth our capitalistic economy is fucked!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/12/15

Want To Get To Know Me

I don't feel the need to streak or suck cock to get ahead, I'm a genuine genius extremely lyrically inclined and talented, some say epically legendary, very much lodged in their heart's and pschy's memory, I'm actually globally influencing impacting and connecting, breaking down boundaries and stereotypes changing people's perception, on an even larger more worldly scale, seeing success happens slower than a moving snail, please universe...feel free to take ur time, it's impossibly hard to get by let alone thrive, without resorting to living a life of crime, I'm not looking for incredible wealth I just want what's rightfully mine, I'm totally humble and capable of sharing, we all need a lil comfort compassion and caring, some sympathy empathy and understanding, life in my opinion is a bit too expensive and demading, how the hell am I going to survive, can't just lay down close my eyes and die, what's the use in crying anymore, done longing lusting and pining over lying conniving whores, I'm not another notch for ur belt, sniff ur own shit that uve dealt urself, i no longer require ur services or help, ur unforgettable scent/smell, simply makes me melt, im sure everyday without u will be sheer hell, but oh well that's how it goes, best advice to life tho, is follow ur dreams and believe in ur own flow, use failure as a motivational tool to learn and grow, if u really want to get to know me JC/Joe, u should really read my poetry or come see me perform live at a show!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/11/15

No Guts No Glory

Things are finally starting to turn around, this transitional period of my life has been quite profound, compared to making it in the music industry, college seems like it was a breeze, should I go back to school to get a degree, wish we were more like other countries where education is free, i realize stability is crucial to survival, will hip hop and rap ever have a revival, nowadays it's mostly bubblegum garbage pop, a few legendary icons might need to just stop, the time has come for new blood, to achieve glory u need perseverance passion and guts, unlike other fields there are no fairy god guides or prepaved gold roads, most people live in modest humble homes/abodes, what happens after death nobody knows, I wear my heart on my sleeve and apparently it shows, always somebody trying to take advantage of decent nice people, perhaps there is no ending to the epic battle of good vs. evil, life is perpetual war, we all want more, especially than our other brothers sisters and neighbors, do u think martyring urself makes u a qualified savior, maybe u should get professional mental help, or at least check ur ego and get the fuck over urselves!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/11/15

Do U Too Believe In Magic

It's tough to watch a person ur interested in love someone else, I often wonder if jerking off all the time hurts or helps, what can I say but I'm a horny guy, to deal with life's strife I stay super stoned and high, u never get anything u want with omission or lies, why is it demasculating for a grown man to cry, u can bet if I'm pissed off I'll cause a scene or commotion, I'm a human being therefore I'm capable of a wide range of emotion, because I'm in touch with my sensative side, it makes me much more empathetic existential and wise, see the genuine sincerity in my eyes, I absolutely refuse to settle and compromise, this Italian stallion's stubborn as hell, it took me a while but I'm starting to break out of my hard exterior/shell, wish u could simply fix shit with a magical spell, but since it doesn't exist how about u pray everything's ok and works out well, don't write me off as crazy and not listen to me, it sounds silly but there's power in positivity, helping others helps ourselves, we as a society really need to stop classifying people by their wealth, focus all energies on our own country's health, stop perpetuating the same hatred and discrimination displayed by those assholes in the bible belt!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/9/15

When All Else Fails

How do people get millions of YouTube views and FB likes, i seem to meet a lot of Shawns Ryans and Mikes, it's pretty freaky actually, trouble just happens naturally, guess I'm a metaphorical magnet, u know I'm going to but haven't asked yet, the law of attraction, is as confusing as fractions and fracking, i gotta work more on my daddy macking, i wonder if I'll follow suit and move from hip hop to acting, should I go back to school, a music production degree would be a crucial useful tool, not to mention, it's the perfect place for networking, trying to at least get my foot in the door, afraid of being taken advantage of as if I were a cheap whore, don't have a pot to piss in, find myself caught in a compromising demoralizing position, what am I supposed to do, forget everything I knew to be true, unfortunately there's only a chosen few, who can hang with this cool unstereotypically gay dude, I'm pretty sure I'm destined to be single, I'm a poetic philosophical nomad that travels and loves to mingle, seeing and meeting new people and places, makes me appreciate god's blessings and good graces, it's a beautiful world and life, happiness like a rainbow comes after the storm and strife, let the colorful light shine bright, afterall things aren't necessarily basic black and white, it's a complicated spectrum and array, I'm not 100% right but there's existential value in what I say, anyone else consumed by the gloom and gray, when all else fails and is lost I look up to the big boss and humbly pray for better days!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/9/15

Modern Artists Mutiny

My old undergraduate degree, has quite frankly become obsolete, and what's worse is I'm still 8 gs deep, my balls pits and feet are sweating profusely, i ain't no Bruce Lee, or Mariah Carey cutesy, u will never ever mute me, it's about time modern artists mutiny, take back what's rightfully ours, finally be paid for the blood sweat tears and hours, who knew I had these amazing lyrical powers, these presumed astute super producers are really just talentless coat tail riding cowards, no offense to the naturally gifted beat makers, I'm simply one of the divine empathic message relayers, this is a god given gift, but it isn't all glitz glamour happiness and bliss, amateurs unfortunately don't get the gist, if u have a passion or dream u go to extremes to achieve it, and u could give a fuck or two shits, just stay focused and mind ur own business, haters gonna hate so just smile and blow them a lil kiss, average isn't legendary or missed, we care about who scored the winning goal not the assist, problems don't get solved with guns knives or fists, i know I shouldn't get all riled up and pissed, i just hate it when people have no common sense or think about realistic logistics, it's absolutely pathetic and ridiculous, how this world is filled with so many ignorant hypocrites!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/9/15

Too Fast For U

What's the problem am I writing too fast, am i simply just a crass big pain in the ass, don't throw me away like a piece of shit/trash, victory will soon be mine at last, why won't u forget about what u thought of me in the past, do I actually connect with u make u gasp giggle or laugh, I hope I help diversify ur consciousness and inspire better questions to ask, put away those fake agents representatives and masks, u gotta understand man that's just my genuine charm with a splash of sarcastic sass, this is the role god has bestowed and cast, ive got a certain cool calm swagger that makes me a real class act, im still working tho on my glutes and 6 pack abs, probably cuz of the dorritos and ice cream ive got not so secretly stashed, yes u sexy police officer I will do any dirty task u ask, relish in ur scent except when u pass some more gas, I know I'm irritably overzealous and rash, occasionally assume the worst so I burst back with a whipping tongue lash, and then left yet to wonder if I'll ever understand the feelings Etta James had, when singing her signature hit "At Last".

Peace and 1,
JC
6/8/15

Learn To Listen

I just wanna rap and sing my heart out, who knew getting in the music industry would be such a bout, i have a very talented mouth, and I don't need to scream and shout to cut u down, make sure u keep that ego in check, I'm super bashful and humble as heck, definitely don't wanna hog the spotlight, I'm like a small dog where my barks worse than my bite, I'm such a cuddly ball of love, give the best foot massages and hugs, I'm all about peace and harmony, truth justice and equality, we only get this one life to live, don't forget u get what u give, always defy laws question and rebel, i can't help but wonder if this existence is really hell, i feel evil has taken over, first impression's everything but what if ur a grower not a shower, nobody sees past superficial shit, totally inept with no depth or width, so focused on making money and business, many adults have the maturity of big kids, I relate more to old revolutionary philosophical souls, like Macolm X Milk Tupac Aristotle and Plato, hey u know that one person actually can make a difference, it could all very well change in an instant, but will u stay stuck in this prison system, or make the decision, to follow ur own ideas and vision, finally learn to listen to gut intuition and ur heart's experienced wisdom!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/8/15

Speaking Out Loud

Don't worry I'm fine, just exercising my mind, writing another rhyme, actually enjoying killing time, unlike my mom im ok staying home alone, i dont drink too much i prefer to get stoned, I love myself, I don't need mental help, wish ud all stop calling me crazy, gotta be like Ms. Hill and not let it phase me, it's a sensative issue, don't joke and try to hand me a tissue, I'm super sarcastic but know where to draw the line, some assholes borderline hate crime, i feel awful if I offend or hurt feelings, u never know other's struggle story or reasons, it doesn't take much to be a good person, I contribute just don't conform to ur idea of working, u don't see me for hours writing performing and rehearsing, amazingly inspiring hip hop that doesnt rely on sex appeal oppression or cursing, my second album is 3 years in the making, surviving let alone thriving as a modern day artist is painstaking, but i wouldn't trade a single thing, not even to be tall and twinky thin or king, cuz with both power and beauty come great responsibility, I'd rather have my poetic lyrical talent skills and abilities, i do realize how truly special i am, traveled cross country twice and ain't nobody doing what I can, I'm speaking out loud and taking a stand, for my fans, a fellow lgbtq child woman and man, who probably just don't know how or can't!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/7/15

Why's It So Fucking Hard

It's all about marketing and promotion, i should do something shocking and cause a commotion, maybe I'll just rap in my boxer shorts, music is my life not a sport, perhaps I've gotten too lazy and complacent, with every passing second we're braving aging, I'm only a reflection of who I used to be, when I came out i had to go annd run away to find the real me, it was then I made the decision, to break out of my old life's prison, but being back in RI has rehashed the past, I hope my unwavering faith will last, I'm strong enough to have made it this far, nobody said it would be easy but why is it so fucking hard, I mean like all the time, I love jamming out to DMX's "Lord Give Me A Sign", these crazy peeps be blowing my mind, true love would be miraculous but I'll totally settle for a lil bump and grind, to help me get thru just one more day, it's very boring and lonely being gay, at times I wish I hard core drank or said yes to more drugs, but really all I want and need is someone to come over to cuddle and give me a hug!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/7/15

Proverbial Hide & Seek

How am I gonna make it, totally feel vulnerable and naked, when I'm up on stage it's just me, give me a mic and a dj to play the beat, I'm a one man show, GayA portrays the growth of my flow, everybody loves a good cover, personally I'm more of an original music lover, i have more respect for a singer/songwriter, Mariah Carey is such an inspirational fighter, i wonder if I'll ever be that accepted, do u ever get used to being rejected, i guess I'll focus on writing new songs, it's time to pull the bull by its horns, full steam ahead, u can sleep when ur dead, we only get this life, i hope my future's bright, cuz if the past is any indication, fuck god and his righteous indignation, give me control of my own destiny, are u just trying to hurt me intentionally, cursed as a late bloomer, average looking like Amy Schumer, but personality can add that special sexy, wonder which celebrities will eventually be my besties, popularity is a fickle thing, I know I rap way better than I sing, but my voice is unique, being a gay white rapper definitely shocks and intrigues, i wonder how many albums before my career peaks, seems success and I are playing a giant proverbial game of hide and seek!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/6/15

Flaky Make Me Crazy

Decisions decisions, I'd talk about it but I don't want ur constructive criticism/opinions, it's hard enough with the voices in my own head, life is unbearable so I smoke weed all the time instead, my nerves are shot from always being on edge, feel like a dog constantly playing a pointless game of fetch, I'm just gullibly dumb and fall for the same old tricks, I'm surrounded by crazy chicks and religious hicks, there are only a chosen few, I'm actually attracted to, unfortunately 9 times out of 10, they're straight or simply want to be friends, men want to get off with no attachment emotion or feelings, in essence ur cheating lying and stealing, saying what I wanna hear is teasing, leading me on with benefits ull be the only one reaping, yet expecting me to be at ur beck and call, yeah ur definitely sexy and all, but i still gotta get mine, ur flakiness is the reason I bitch and wine, I've fucking had it, with all these slutty selfish and greedy faggots, why does finding love have to be so hard, no matter how much I pray or wish upon a star, the harsh reality is, I have the sexual mentality of a kid, I'm looking for genuine good connection, someone who can give me some stability safety and protection, this world is impossible to conquer alone, like Tupac I'm on a quest to have my own "Happy Home", lord give me the patience and faith, are u really strong enough to carry my weight, seems I have absolutely no control, as I grow old my soul goes cold, my heart hardens but my skin hasn't gotten thicker, thank god for nature's lubricants like marijuana shrooms and liquor, does it hurt less if u rip the duct tape off quicker, at this point I'd settle for a great job or smiley face sticker, some sort of acknowledgement I have value or worth, I can't help but wonder if Adam and Eve really did curse us from birth, in that case arent women the root of all evil, and doesnt the story essentially encourage and perpetuate homosexuality people?!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/5/15

Live With Purpose

Why do I get so over eager, I'm such a perpetual people pleaser, even to my own detriment, some people are like angels heaven sent, and my intensity scares them away, I'm getting older becoming more scared and afraid, i may never find true love, music may not be in my cards or a part of the divine higher plan from up above, but then I don't understand the purpose of my life, i can't take all this heartache pain and strife, it's too much for one person to handle, I'm becoming unhinged and dismantled, my poor suffocating soul, feel like just packing my bags cuz im ready to go, after Pride head back to Cali, i think RI has had it with me, it doesn't provide a steady stream of opportunity for me to flourish, doing what I do takes talent persistence and a shit ton of courage, repeatedly putting myself out there, sometimes for nothing more than applause a blunt or a beer, but at a certain point, I need to make that coin, shouldn't have to work at a dead end unfulfilling job tho, I refuse to believe the meaning of existence is making the most dough, the idea of retirement has grown old and obsolete, a capitalistic society will eventually self destruct and implode over greed, please wake up and pay attention i beg and plead, it aint easy being happy cuz when money matters u can never truly be free!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/4/15

Too Far Left

I wonder what I'll say today, I can't remember the last time I kneeled and prayed, can u actually run out of faith, real torture is being patient and having to wait, do u all think this is the way my life would turn out, who knew a short bald gay poet/rapper could bout with just his mouth, who wants a read or aka a tongue lashing, the damage of verbal and emotional abuse is long lasting, i have a serious fear of rejection, mostly cuz I've never been rigged to win an election, seems in reality it's all just a popularity contest, i must confess I don't think the US is the best, and no offense but I'm not too fond of white people, the genocidal atrocities they've caused are pure evil, taking over the world in the name of democracy, don't u see thru the smoke and mirrors and all the hypocracy, the government is so out of touch, their life time benefits and outlandish salaries are too much, the global economy is in dire danger, pretty soon peace love and harmony will be overrun by greed envy and anger, we will eventually reach our breaking point, I mean I'm pretty passive and mellow but I'm really fucking annoyed, caught in the quicksand of unconquerable debt, have moronic republicans moved us too far left, what I don't get, isn't anybody else upset, in all honesty and sincerety, i miss the Clinton Era where the middle class saw prosperity, it was such a different time back then, what do u think can Hillary get us there again?

Peace and 1,
JC
6/4/15

Don't Idly Sit By

I'm on a new mission, to eradicate superstition, fulfill my duty, by bringing to light all life's beauty, deployed to destroy, those who are paranoid, thinking everyone's out to get u, I bet u fret too ur not blessed too, we're all great in our own way, but get impatient and complacent when things don't happen today, if u can do whatever u put ur mind to, why u debating and hating what I choose, maybe I am rude and a fool, cuz I play the game not to win or lose, but to enjoy the ride, take a stab and dabble until I decide, the right path for me, it has to be, on my own terms, live life and learn, I may get burned, have to wait my turn, in the end I'll persevere, find a hot guy who's interests are queer, find an occupation, I go to everyday without hesitation, challenging and stimulating, never just emulating, not monotonous, no boss hovering on top of us, if I can live life free, gosh oh gee let me be the best me I can be, never settle for less, assume judge or guess, life is the master test, ull fail if ur a mess, get ur head on straight, be patient and wait, ur life will be great, if u stay in a calm and relaxed mind state, meet and great fate when the time comes, karma circles back to where it came from, u get what u give, it's not what u say but how u live, there's never an easy answer, enjoy company and friendly banter, a blunt and a deep conversation, fun that never needs a reservation, alcohol is nature's lubricant, always live big and exuberant, live each moment as if it's the last, get fucked up and just have a blast, u never know when it will all end, so surround yourself with family and friends, u can't replay moments again and again, u can't save the world but u should do what u can, to help make a difference, explain yourself with a for instance, lead by example, take risks and gamble, victory is always sweet, but ur true character's defined when u meet defeat, are u the sore loser type, do u wine and gripe, claim u were cheated out of victory, but ur contribution is a mystery, u sit idly by, others work while u get high, don't get spoiled and lazy, being tied and coiled will drive ur mind crazy, i'd rather work than get unemployment, this may be crass but being paid to sit on my ass just isn't a form of enjoyment, after all there's no such thing as free money, santa clause tooth fairy or the easter bunny, grow up those are childish ideas, like having closet monster and boogey man fears, enough is enough, for everybody it's tough, no more complaining, when things get cloudy and it's raining, just grab an umbrella, go with the flow adjust and become a wise fella, use ur brain man, and when u don't like something speak up and take a stand!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/8/08

Just Blame It On The Gays

God I need a lil peace of mind, my natural reaction is to say I'm fine, being rejected never gets easy, so many men assume I'm a beck and call cock slut who's sleazy, i def don't sleep around or randomly hook up often, will my walls ever come down and my rough edges soften, I'm way more jealous and spiteful than I thought, I wonder how many souls the devil has bought, seems people are much more inherently selfish and greedy, trying to make plans and coordinate schedules shldnt make me crazy dramatic or needy, take it as a compliment I like u, I definitely don't wanna fight boo, i just know what I want and need, I'm actually very easy to please, and unlike others i believe in reciprocity, giving up tho on the hope for harmony and equality, there's not enough fair distribution of wealth, it's effecting both human and mother nature's health, wondering what the percentage of food is now man made, when things go wrong they just blame it on the gays, I'm growing more afraid every day, it's getting harder to find a way to keep the faith, how much longer do I need to be patient and wait, if we can't fix financial or economic problems in the smallest state, i doubt things will change on a larger scale, seems afterall life really is just a sad tragic tale.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/3/15

Pursuing Happy

I don't think I'll ever understand, people with the inability to plan, how do u have unattached sex, when I meet someone I like i wonder when we can hang out next, I guess I'm too intense, it's easy to be overwhelmed with overzealousness, i repeatedly hide behind sarcasm and jest, randomn synchronicity is the freaky deakiest, happens more often than deja vu, i hate when I say I'm a rapper/singer/songwriter and they ask what else I do, like it defines who I am not how I make my living, i wish time was a lil bit more forgiving, i have no patience for ignorant thinking, being lgbtq is not sinning, Caitlin is Bruce Jenner's new beginning, she is simply redefining herself to the world, why do u care if she wants to be a girl, it has nothing to do with u, respect her decision even if u don't approve, she didn't need ur permission, I'm so sick of homophobes hiding behind religion, i thank her for courageously sharing her story, yes even a Transgender can achieve positive fame and glory, there's absolutely no denying, anyone pursuing their happiness is inspiring, i hope someday i can effect that much change, I'm sure it'll be super unnerving and strange, I'm already amazed at my music's international acceptance broad appeal and range, to know I'm relatably connecting with progressive people across the globe, all my hard work is paying off and it shows, I'd say the world is maturing and growing up, just like me u can see it in JC's evolution from Higher Consciousness to Love!

Peace and 1,
JC
6/2/15

Read U All Wrong

It's funny how the universe works, in hindsight I guess I was the overzealous jerk, the thing is that the hurt lingers and lurks, it's hard finding someone who'll accept all ur kinks and quirks, one of my biggest pet peeves, is people who can't plan and/or communicate effectively, if u want something bad enough ull make the time, holding people accountable for letting u down is not a crime, i will absolutely call u out, i always live up to the words coming out my mouth, i have high expectations and big dreams, staying constantly passionate driven and motivated is way more difficult than it seems, just when I thought u were fed up and done, u pay me a huge compliment so I'm stunned, who knew I read u all wrong, hmmmm that might be a good hook for a song, I need to learn to just calm it the fuck down, the torture of silence is insightful yet emotionally  profound, i don't know if I can handle a relationship, maybe I'm simply not built for it or equipped, perhaps u can't have ur cake and eat it too, music career or love which wld u choose if u were in my shoes, doesn't appear possible to have both, but why am I such a stubbornly naive idealist who believes there's still hope?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
6/2/15