Better Off Alone

My story didn't change, ur memory is just delusional and deranged, u rewrite history, why is a mystery, ur worse than Kevin Spacey, u basically raped me, lied from the start, u can't love without a heart, or trust, perhaps u were consumed by addictive lust, I can't stand the constant fighting and bickering, my life is worth living, and being happy, u criticize me constantly and make me feel crappy, ur negative jealous and controlling, right now I need some consoling, cuz I'm truly devastated, u were like Bette said "the wind beneath my wings" that raised and elevated, giving me the ability to fly, now all I can do is cry, but I'm at work, yes I'm the jerk, cuz I didn't give in or take the blame, this is another one of ur mind games, u hate my beats and the way I sing, so I've taken off my ring, u don't know the meaning of support or help, I've had to do everything my God damn self, ur angry from being unfulfilled, all u do is smoke cigs drink and take pills, yet u focus on only my Facebook use, not seeing ur psychological verbal and emotional abuse, I need to let u go, erase any notion of marriage kids or our happy home, I think I'm better off alone, we now have to accept we reaped what we've sown, every single one of ur promises were shit, neither of us can handle communication in this relationship, don't know how or if I can move on, it's hard to accept the truth ur gone, cut me out, even tho u started countless bouts, it's always my fault, I'm locking my soul away in a vault, I'm beaten down and broken, going back to toking, I can't deal, time won't heal, it'll make it worse, I swear I'm cursed, my words hurt, I'm a lying cheating promiscuous flirt, I've lost hope confidence and self esteem, sorry not sorry I'm passionately driven to achieve my dreams, doesn't mean I love u less, never claimed to be perfect nor the best, I hide my insecurities behind defensive sarcasm and jest, last night I couldn't sleep or get rest, u know I hate going to bed upset, I'm consumed with regret, wasting energy and money on u, I'm such a naive gullible fool, fell right into ur trap, so u can stab me in the back, invading my privacy, u push and push and push and push and try me, then play the passive aggressive victim, I swear u wanna see me miserable in a pysch ward or prison, pretending to call the cops, ur manipulation must stop, u never follow thru, with what u say ull do, u fucking hypocrite, I'm done with ur bullshit, it's finally over, I feel like the weight of the world's been lifted from my shoulders, like u said we can't be friends, but I know like Lara Fabian sings"I Will Love Again"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/31/17