Disciples Middle Fingering

What happens when ur expectations are let down, the impact to ur self esteem can be profound, I never said I was the best, I hide my insecurities behind sarcasm and jest, especially when it comes to my music, criticism can be borderline abusive, because most of the times it's not constructive, confidence can be abducted, how many songs have u written and sold, I'm not doing it for the accolades going platinum diamond or gold, it's a form of therapy, if u think ur better than me, put out ur own, don't be jealous of my parent's home, it's not mine, I hate the response fine, what's ur honest opinion, Earth is everyone's dominion, there's no one ruler president or king, of course I care what other people think, I'm a starving artist, so I work the hardest, of anyone I know, I do both, a day job and follow my dream, it's not easy maintaining motivational steam, with slandering judgmental critics, most pop stars use shticks tricks and gimmicks, but I still got respect for them, I probably won't put out another album again, I've lost the fulfillment fun and passion, plus it's disheartening getting tongue lashings, how I'm spoiled with a silver spoon, I swear u want my reputation ruined, so u have me all to urself, taking control doesn't help, I want it like Frank "My Way", won't hide the fact I'm gay, it's not what every track is about, but I'm entitled and allowed, to speak on my point of view, why do u gotta be so cruel, making fun of my ideas, ur anger stems from fear, I don't need u, remind me to breathe dude, ur the man I chose, falling victim to gossip and rumors blows, all I ever really wanted, was our souls to be bonded, together as one, I love u a ton, but I still have goals and ambition, must have patience going thru this transition, rushing the present, focusing too much on the past and future builds resentment, concentrate on the now, let's milk each other like cows, so we're not so horny, maybe I want my videos to be sexy cheesy spoofy spooky and a lil corny, I'm open to ur perspective, but can't stand being over protected, I need my freedom and independence, why do u keep envying my transcendence, u have ur talents and skills, I've earned my dollar bills, I didn't steal, I poetically expressed how I feel, in an attractive addicting relatable fashion, stand by my side is what I'm asking, be trustworthy and loyal, we aren't royal, there's no rules how to behave, let's start the human wave, with peace and one love signs, these are dark times, so I try to spread a lil light, consciousness is a fight, with so many zombies, it's impossible to debate calmly, when all parties are stubborn, I hate the way this country's being governed, what happened to the land of opportunity, nobody's looking out for their village or community, we're so divisive and divided, wish the boomers would finally be retired, so the next generation can take hold, we need to be bold and break the mold, the old way doesn't cut it, got too flustered I stuttered, gave up on hope and faith, this world can't be fixed with duct tape, with extreme inequity of distribution of wealth, why are we the wealthiest country but don't have free college or coverage for health, it's ridiculous, politicians are hypocrites, will lie straight to ur face, show poise and grace, then once elected into office, fill their wallets and moralless,  manipulative disgusting frauds, kids today have trouble cutting umbilical chords, cuz life is way to expensive, our collective debt is extensive, but who do we owe, our leader once had his own reality tv show, that is our prime example, the virtuous and righteous good are getting trampled, ethics have gone awry, Congress makes me wanna cry, my brain is fried, everything seems to have been tried, but our problems aren't solved, no one's sins are absolved, we're inherently fallible, the irrational radical are not palatable, in fact they leave a sour taste lingering, that's why my disciples are middle fingering, we've absolutely had it, sick of the 1% hoarding living lavish, we want our fair share, but if we dare swear, revolt or resist, their legions of armies bombs guns and ammo far outmatch our fists, we don't have a chance in hell to compete, inevitably we'll meet defeat!