Won't Ever Let Up

I'm such a nervous wreck, I haven't really slept, do u know when something's not right, and no matter if u do or don't fight, it just feels wrong, I'm simply not happy with my song, I know perfection cannot be achieved, but there are major differences in what we believe, I don't need u to achieve my dreams or succeed, and I'm tired of other people taking credit, listen to me my critique and edits, otherwise give me my tracks so I can find someone else, ur harsh criticism and know-it-all attitude doesn't help, I'm so pissed off and aggravated, anxious and agitated, I'm not trying to be harsh or negative, but pragmatic truth is imperative, telling me how u feel, thinking ur keeping it real, is actually manipulative and insulting, I find ur hypocritical double standards revolting, u take me for granted, insinuating I'm sneaky and underhanded, while u play the mind games, boy have u got me trained, after all the gaslighting and subliminal abuse, I'm unjustified saying uve possessively controlled and used, still waiting for the list of compromises and sacrifices uve made, no I won't trade, I know my life is blessed, yet the future is guess, nothing is guaranteed, if u cut me I do bleed, I'm simply grateful, not jealous and hateful, like u seem to be, I'm not free to be me, cuz u know I rock it, when will u stop shit, drinking to deal with stress, smoking cigs in excess, or how bout u follow thru, telling ur parents about me and u, instead of focusing on my lies, I understand why break-ups sometimes result in cutting all ties, I try to be a nice guy, I'm good so I'm waiting to die, at 35 am I still young, waiting for this hell on Earth existence to be done, nothing's fair, nobody cares, everyone fakes happy, really miserably and nasty, misdirecting anger, projecting insecurities onto strangers, just cuz they're unfulfilled, don't diminish my talents when ur pissed ur unskilled, we each have unique abilities and attributes, I'd rather market myself word of mouth and grassroots, instead of depending on investors sponsors or sheer dumb luck, I could give two fucks, about ur ignorant opinion, u can't see the sea of debt I'm swimming in, from always doing the proper thing, tell me again how u hate when I sing, u don't know my journey or the road I've traveled, how many times I've had to pick myself up after being devastatingly destroyed and unraveled, yes I too have epically failed, never found easy street or smooth sailed, no silver spoon or platter, both my ego and self esteem have been shattered, but I'm here, and willing to share, when I have excess or a lil more, I am not a slut/whore, I categorize it as experienced, ur accusatory assumptions are delusionally delirious, sorry to say but ur not that mysterious, maybe u should act responsible and serious, we only get one shot, that's why I give 200% of what I've got, financially I may not have a lot, but I consciously bare my whole soul and heart with my art, and if that isn't enough, tough...cuz I won't ever let up!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/10/17