I'm tired of being blackmailed and bullied, threatening to have my reputation and name ruined/sullied, I have had enough of ur abuse, and being repeatedly used, I'm a good person, and I'm working, so I don't have time for ur bs, I never claimed to be perfect or the best, everyone has a past, but focusing too much on mine meant our relationship can't last, u pushed me over the edge, our love is dead, I don't ever want to date again, we won't even be friends, I'm moving on, cuz I'm tired of being conned, I too made mistakes, but I tried so hard not to be consumed by hate, and now I despise u, u lied too, yet I continuously forgave, u never give u just take take take, I'm so done, congratulations u won, blame me all ud like, for starting every single fight, when I was always defending myself, please get professional help, I'm pushing forward in my life, ur Judgmental Judy and Negative Nancy adding so my pain and strife, u destroyed my self esteem, u don't understand the definitions of trust sorry or team, I will fulfill all my dreams, no matter how hard it seems, and I will get over u some day, u never comprehended the difference between sex and kinky fun play, go have another cig and drink, insult me more telling me how u hate my beats and when I sing, ur horribly cruel, post whatever u want ull just prove that ur the fool, my support system is strong, perhaps ull inspire a new song, called dumpster junkie, which I only said after u made fun of me, over and over and over, say something mean steal or break up with me then give me the cold shoulder, fuck u and ur manipulative games, u ruined the best thing u had which is such a shame, now I wanna crawl in a ball and bawl and cry, wish I had guts to commit suicide and die, cuz I despise this existence, wasted energy with the amount of consistent persistence, and it was all for naught, u never remember what I did and bought, u simply took me for granted, kept falsely accusing me of lying cheating and being underhanded, claiming I never made u a priority, being gay makes us a minority, and I own the word faggot, doesn't make me feel like a nigger or maggot, I get empowered, I don't run from fear like a coward, I'm not scared of confrontation nor talking, u should be a PI since ur so good at stalking, I thought we'd be forever, but we're really not that good together, we both deserve better, so this is my goodbye letter, Dear Kevin, no more yelling, I'm deeply sorry I wasn't enough, getting over u will be rough and tough, but keep ur head up, we need to give each other back our respective stuff, u called my bluff, I never wanted to see u in cuffs, no matter how hard u huff or puff, I still say ur consumed with codependency addiction and lust, we can't be partners without trust, it's a necessity/must, guess hearts too can rust, I was ur ride or die by ur side or bust, bubba I was yours u drive me wild and nuts, no more penetrating butts, u can drain the water but there's residual suds, I wanted to plant roots have a family with u minus the blood, too bad u couldn't see u gave what u got, and I couldn't just roll over or keep my big mouth shut, I wish u peace and love, happy birthday but goodbye and good luck!
Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/13/17
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