Gay Growing Pain

I suck at being gay, almost 43 and still experiencing growing pain, need love but they only want sex, everybody's looking for what's next, unappreciative of the one they have already, this level of unhappiness and unfulfillment is making me unsteady, can't find my footing/grounding, my fantasies keep on hounding, so my attention is misfocused, wish there was real hocus pocus, cuz I don't wanna hurt, feel so God damn cursed, I'm tired of alone and lonely, my radiant smile is actually phony, masking my sadness, caught up in this world of madness, worried about tomorrow, seems like life's just nothing but sorrow, cold dark empty and hollow, with no more guiding light to follow!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/22/25