Looking to help, inspire myself, lately I've been feeling down and depressed, like I'm less than best, which is actually just fine, perfection is similar to the horizon line, receding as we approach, perhaps I need a life coach, cuz this relationship, got me hating shit, like gossiping rumors, swastika humor, offensiveness isn't funny, I'm not always smiley nor sunny, got a wide range of emotion, what's all the commotion, not all gays are pedophiles and not all pedophiles are gay, Kevin Spacey came out the wrong way, and set our community back ages, Dems are finally winning some races, it's about damn time, evil has been stoked and primed, ruling thru fear and hate, let's make Earth great, not just one country, I miss music that's soulful and sultry, with some intellect and depth, most these rappers and singers are inept, when it comes to songwriting, videos are consumed with sexy thong sightings, cuz it's what sells, true talent's gone to hell, I'm sure Britney and Madonna are entertaining, but I wanna hear them vocally straining, instead of dancing lip syncing, concerts are more about drugging and drinking, I want fun experiences with substance, it's not size but circumference, how u work the girth, making love shouldn't hurt, was it pleasurable, success and happiness are immeasurable, and have nothing to do with wealth, never shelf ur health, ur body is ur one and only temple, it's not a rental, appreciate what uve got, like it or not, God made u beautiful, ur morals ought to be immovable, where's our ethics and pride, so many epic classic artists have died, yet nobody's stepping up, fuck skills it's who u know and dumb luck, the industry like our government is greedy and corrupt, awww shucks it's rough and tough, cuz ur not buff enough, trust u need that 6 pack lust, can't be short bald and fat, people closest to u will stab u in the back, for fortune and fame, commence the blame game, they're mad u didn't share with them, what will it take to get me to care again, poetry is my therapy, to get the better me, reread and observe, solutions and answers lurk, somewhere within, when will the healing begin, criticism makes me defensive, fulfilling my dream's expensive, humans don't use history to learn lessons, failure can ironically be a blessing, it's how u react, stop rationalizing with alternative facts, no matter how hard u try, u can't justify a lie, when the truth's aloof, it breeds fools and goofs, who in turn produce ignorant slaves, we desperately need to existentially elevate and change our ways, before we're doomed and it's too late, don't have the luxury to wait, I've heard ya'll say ull pray, religious extremists are intertwined with the KKK, black white guy girl trans gay bi or straight, we all must unite together to alter our destiny/fate!
I'm not the easiest person to have a relationship with, tho true love takes work it's a rare gift, nothing is perfect, it's ok to make a mistake if u learn from it, I'm a hot headed loud stubborn Italian, and boy is my man a stallion, can cook kind and considerate, many may think we're illegitimate, but we're 100% real, we don't care to hear ur judgments or how u feel, unless it's a compliment, we don't need no marriage certificate/document, to validate what we have, when he gets hit on I just laugh, cuz I know u ain't got a chance, I wish I could better dance, since he loves to do that, he's super supportive and always has my back, believes in me even when I don't, sometimes I regret what I said and wrote, cuz it was out of anger, it's sad when a good childhood friend becomes a stranger, fame brings fortune along with danger, but since neither one of us could afford Patti Stanger, we used Scruff, he claims to have zip tie cuffs, which I find hot and sexy, the best thing about him is he gets and accepts me, we gotta figure out how to agree to disagree, be together monogamously yet still be free, to live some semblance of our old lives, I hate that I'm sometimes the cause of his hives, I stress him out, when we constantly bicker and bout, I'm naturally combative antagonistic and defensive, I find mere existence unnecessarily expensive and offensive, especially education and health insurance, fines and penalties should be a deterrence, not bankrupt people to go broke, the judicial system like government's a joke, in total chaos and ruins, the sheeple pay more attention to the Sox Patriots and Bruins, don't even get me started on electoral college elected Trump, he's turning this country into a dump, how can he make America great again when it never was, no one holds him accountable for the awful atrocities he says and does, the rich are somehow exempt, I refuse to be a robotic slave who's kept, I don't want or need no sugar daddy, I ain't no worthless dumb faggy fatty, I try to stay fit, seriously don't give a shit, if u like me or not, I give all that I got, to fulfill my hopes wishes dreams and desires, when people tell me I can't I simply reach higher, watch me prove u wrong, then write and inspire with another phenomenal song, I'm talented and skilled, can move u and give chills, very driven and strong willed, I pay my own bills, and still help others, treat everyone with respect like they're my sisters and brothers, got a heart of gold, this shorty bald white boy's got a whole lotta soul, wanna make this world a safer peaceful place, leading by example with poise dignity style and grace, so unique and different, time flies by in the blink of an instant, seize every opportunity and moment, take ur destiny back and own it, the power lies within, remember that in order to finish we must begin!
I know it seems like things are impossibly hard, fuck batteries wish the Energizer Bunny would charge his heart, my poor baby, there's no ifs ands buts or maybes, I promise it will get better, we can conquer anything together, focus on your health, while I work on our wealth, ur new job's only a couple weeks away, don't let ur hopeful positive optimism diminish or fray, ur stronger than u think, tho u feel on the edge/brink, it isn't over til that fat lady sings, u don't understand the amount of happiness and joy ur simple presence brings, I had given up, on ever finding true love, forget getting married, I don't wanna wind up Mariah Careyed, super successful but alone, I want us to make our own beautiful home, where u cook and clean, we have passionate kinky sex like fiends, but we both fulfill our dreams, an unstoppable team, ur the light of my life, with a big bear hug u melt the pain and strife, I miss ur kiss, being in ur arms is sheer unadulterated bliss, u inspire me, spark fire and glee, to warm my soul, time and space takes a toll, but it won't destroy us, this isn't just boy lust, tho ur my first, only u quench my thirst, believe me I've looked all over, u hold the weight of the world on ur shoulders, but u don't have to anymore, stand beside me on many tours, when I perform concerts in stadiums and arenas, if ur my Zeus I guess I'm Athena, I'm totally ok with that, knowing uve got my back, I can be brave, when I'm around u I have trouble trying to behave, cuz u make me so horny, awkward babbling and corny, I lose my nerve, being without u hurts, I've tried, lied and cried, ask myself why, what would I do if u died, never getting the chance to have that dance with my husband, I'm reluctant while he's untrusting, we both want a monogamous relationship of substance, I prefer karaoke bars over clubbing, quite the complimenting opposites, he wants country while I'm more metropolis, but there's always compromise, to homogenize our lives, nothing's perfect, but it's worth it, striving to blend, heal and mend, when fighting and bickering, our eternal flame's flickering, but refuses to burn out, every dead end is a turnabout, and when there's a fork in the road, a mountain or moat, flip a coin climb fly or boat, don't gloat, stay humble and kind, he's a catch and I'm a find, two peas in a pod, he's my king/God, I exist to worship, no cats cuz we're both allergic, Lucifer was the devil, and altho he's fun to revel, we are forces of good, knowing we did all we could, to make a difference, ignoring the gossiping and whisperings, following our guts, we'll dig ourselves out of any ruts, rise thrive and prosper, as fathers instill proper honor, whether naturally born or can adopt, either way we won't be stopped, there's absolutely no limits, but ya'll will be in awe when it's all said and done and we're finally finished!
We all grow and evolve, changing is a problem like pollution that's not easy to solve, learn and adapt, don't get defensive and attack, cuz ur partner annoyingly nags, he's insecure about the excessive fb tags from fags and hags, it's all about trust, ur the one I lust, no one else, love urself, have hope and faith, our relationship would be great, if u focused on ur own plight and strife, ur lucky to find a soulmate in this life, that's more concerned with money materialism and wealth, than success happiness and health, why can't u chillax, my patience is filled to the max, I'm going to burst and explode, what would describe me better a fat ugly troll a meatball or toad, I see me as talented and beautiful, passionately driven not dutiful, I make music cuz it's my purpose, what did I do to deserve this, an existence plagued with epic failure, instead of hip hop and rap's savior, I'm unique and different, gay and white for instance, not gangster ghetto or hood, the middle class working poor are totally misunderstood, in debt cuz of forced education, being a kinky homo ruins my reputation, but don't doubt there's clout being out loud and proud, use words and lyricism to bout, obnoxious unconsciousness, what's with all the incompetence, I wanna connect inspire and relate, be considered one of the greats, not perfect or the best, refuse to settle for less, especially since I'm trying so damn hard, just cuz I'm sleeveless doesn't mean I don't wear my heart, I'm intelligent and smart, grateful for everything I've been given and got, I was raised right, I like being a "Beacon Of Light", which is my first track, do my songs have substance depth and a positive impact, that's what matters most to me, I can't afford to give away my art for free, I've invested too much, hate when people make a fuss, I'm just a regular person/average Joe, I do dream big tho, reach far "Beyond The Stars", not about mansions jewelry or cars, desperate for some fast cash, please buy my single "Monstah Mash", next up is "Keep Holding On", why don't we appreciate what we have til it's gone, and it's too late, wish I could predict my destiny/fate, I won't be ruled by fear or hate, how long do I have to wait, to become existentially fulfilled, can't start over again from scratch and rebuild, to be better the sixth time around, the repetitious grind is profound, for God sake, will I ever catch a break, why won't ya'll give me a chance, sorry not sorry I don't dance, but I can sure spit, a Gemini guy who's super sarcastic with pure wit, genuine straight forward and direct instead of obliquely cheeky, never meant to judge insult or be too preachy, that's not who I am, gimmicks and tricks are scams, I am 100% real, simply melodically express how I feel, always strive to do as I say and say what I'll do, we gotta collectively stay strong and true to let "Truth Love & Consciousness" "Shine Thru"!
Hate how money rules my life, it's the cause of most my anguish and strife, if only I had more, I'll tell ya'll what I'd use it for, to make conscious poetic hip hop music, I wouldn't be wasteful and abuse it, I'd share the wealth, focus on better health, could buy organic food, would I be considered shrewd, with it comes power and respect, I'd have to boost security to help protect, everybody wants some, perhaps I'd actually have time for vacation and fun, it's been years, paycheck to paycheck I'm consumed with fear, what if I lose my job again, I can't keep overextending family and friends, I'm even sick of me, wish education and insurance were free, like all the other first world countries, the hypocrisy of our capitalistic democracy isn't funny, it's tragically sad, and often makes me furiously mad, it's corrupt and greedy, why don't the 1% aid the 99% that are struggling and needy, no one said existence was fair, but their so selfish and don't even care, no one needs 5 cars and 3 homes, the majority of working poor can't get loans, the price of goods rises but not incomes, can't afford champagne to go with din sum, not that that sounds appealing, my art gives me a way of expressing how I'm feeling, and hopefully people can connect and relate, pray success is my destiny/fate, cuz I work extremely hard, expose both my soul and heart, putting it all on the line, with deep intellectually stimulating rhymes, it's not only my passion but my purpose, grow greater from experiencing things that hurt us, are u willing to go the length, and find ur inner strength, like love conquer all, get back up with u fall, and phoenixly rise, learn to compromise, but yet don't settle, mind ur own business u shouldn't meddle, focus on the present, altho the past is upsetting, it doesn't dictate what's to come, I won't forget where I'm from, stay humble and modest, genuine straight forward and honest, tomorrow is never promised, give the truth untarnished and unvarnished, there's no such thing as alternative facts, make sure u surround urself with real people who've got ur back, and won't stab u, do things cuz u want not have to, always try ur best, when u sin confess, we all are fallible and make mistakes, nothing's more annoying than fake flakes, ruining ur expectations hopes wishes and dreams, found my partner who works as a team, even when things are rough and tough, there's a foundation built on a whole lotta love, we won't ever give up, and don't rely on luck, tho it seems we're stuck and fucked, all we need is each other not dough or bucks, have enough materialistic possessions, I'm his and he's my obsession, we're addicted like drugs, and all my problems melt away with a kiss and a big bear hug!
People are drawn to passion, now is the time for action, find something to do u love, smile at a stranger or give them a hug, spread a lil light, war ain't right, salute soldiers' sacrifice, giving up their life, so we can live better, we're stronger united together, let's be brave and free, nobody will censor me, u get both the good and the bad, Geminis switch from mellow to mad, in an instant, everybody is unique and different, it's all about adaptation empathy and acceptance, I question if music success is destined, but I have unwavering hope and faith, my problem is I lack the patience to wait, however I'm an extremely driven hard worker, wish I was a talented twerker, would be great in my video for Monstah Mash, hasn't yet caught fire to help bring in that cash, I don't do it for money, my sarcasm is more cynical truth than funny, and comes off assholishly mean, fuck being discrete, I'm a loud out and proud gay, who isn't afraid to stand up scream and "Shout" now like Otis Day, similar to Kelly Clarkson I wanna "Move U", don't be ignorant naive passive sheeple/fools, relate and connect, pay attention who u vote to elect, this divisiveness is scary, no offense but I want a rugged masculine man who's hairy, it's just a preference, when debating facts it's wise to quote a reference, gives words weight and clout, Pence prefers no homos allowed, hence tolerating Trump, yes we're a melting pot but seems we're becoming a dump, unsustainable and wasteful, why do rappers gotta be ghetto gangster misogynistic prejudice trash instead of intellectually conscious and tasteful, there's no more lyricism, democracy disguises imperialism, it's really about centralized banking and oil, the millennial generation are too lazy coddled and spoiled, but impressively more socialistic, CO2 is great for photosynthesis, terrible for the ozone environment and global warming, conservatives don't believe or heed scientific warnings, taken back to the dark ages, time heals but never erases, follow Pac when rapping "we need to start making some changes", so politically correct nothing phases or enrages, prices increase steadily but not our wages, stop listening to the haters, baby boomers should retire already, X-Ambassadors hit the metaphor on the head with "Unsteady", meanwhile I wanna be more like James Bay and "Let It Go", instead of Truman this is called the "Joe Show", the world revolves around my perception, apparently I'm exempt from heaven, cuz of my sexual proclivities, most fetishes and kinks are rather taboo gross and silly, but who am I to judge, Congress needs to compromise and budge, courts should be fair and just, there's a fine line between love and lust, got guts, or are u another putz, watching countless opportunities pass by, what do they say about the last guy, oh he's nice, fuck polite, I don't use fists to fight, I write!
Don't mean to delay dilly dally or doddle, there's so many financial obstacles, that get in the way, trying to make music today, big studios aren't worth it, but a record deal would seem perfect, until it's time to pay back what u owe, that's how many bankruptcies unfold, the trick is it's all about exposure, when the camera's rolling can u keep ur composure, do u get stage fright, fight for the limelight, or are u afraid of success, do u feel u tried ur best, in the end that's all that matters, many singers and rappers try to be actors, branding themselves, having sponsors and investors helps, believe me, money makes u free, from following the rules, allows u to pick and choose, without the stress or burden of bills and debt, not pursuing my passion would make me regret, it's my purpose and destiny, I care about lyrics and legacy, I write heartfelt thought provoking classics, sarcastic scholastic massive magic for the masses, to leisurely enjoy, I wanna be employed, hence the day job, I work and play hard, but I lack luck, consumed with mad mistrust, got guts and love, but it's not enough, perhaps I selfishly want too much, if one young gay boy or man fan is moved and touched, by the power of my words, it eradicates and erases the hurt, from feeling like a failure, altho paparazzi will probably nag and tail ya, it's the price of fame, this isn't just a hobby or a game, it's serious business, I watch the Grammys and think what is this, pop garbage art, lacking soul substance and heart, with one simple single, that makes even ur pimples tingle, I could become rich, gotta find my niche, my specific audience, not interested in shticks gimmicks or oversexualized gaudiness, judge me on my talent, my effort's been valiant, but I'm doing something wrong, everyone that listens to or sees me perform songs, can't stop their jaw dropping gaze, truly paused in awe amazed, my goal's to inspire and relate, strike up conscious debate, collaboration is great, hopefully RI isn't my fate, but if it is that's ok, tho I'm gay I'll still have faith and pray, I know it will continue to get better, with me and my man together, we're strong and resilient, existence is about finding happiness and fulfillment, focus on the now, don't wonder why or how, let shit go and let it be, change the pronoun from I to we, be whole instead of a half, find joy smile and laugh, remember everyone has a lil good and bad, may seem mad but really sad, appearances can be deceiving, all life has value should be mourned and deserves grieving, but death's not the end, while they're here take comfort and pride in ur family and friends, won't be long, til we're all gone, who knows if our spirit's reborn, deformed scorned, the devil's spawn, or beautiful angels in heaven soaring!