Monday, December 11, 2017

Fuck Glammy Shammy Chestnuts We Got S'Mores

Getting more and more into the holiday spirit, we say we're listening but do u hear it, sleigh bells ringing, carolers singing, the jolly joy in the air, one of my biggest fears, is people spending xmas alone, all are welcome to our Italian home, with tons of food to eat, kick off ur shoes and relax ur feet, it's time for celebration and cheer, we leave eggnog for Santa and carrots for the reindeer, make sure the kids are to bed early, believing isn't just for children it's for the big and burly, have a lil faith, show some amazing grace, it's all about family, ignore the cheesy glammy and shammy, just go with it, ho ho ho and shit, cuz it only comes once a year, teach the youth how to give and share, there are so many less fortunate, since the 1% keep hoarding it, u know all the wealth, be grateful for ur health, now's the chance, to rejoice and dance, to the songs by the Queen Mariah, let her voice take u higher, and touch the heavens, I just wanna be with and cuddle Kevin, fuck chestnuts let's roast s'mores, don't get all stressed out doing chores, it's for a good cause, no thanks needed or applause, the smile on their faces, wipes away and erases, the frustration and resentment, make peace and betterment, a global New Years resolution/mission, happiness isn't a condition, like fulfillment it's a purpose, nobody is worthless, every single person has value, donate not for a write off or cuz u have to, helping others helps ourselves, do u know the words to "Frosty The Snowman" and "Jingle Bells", how about the spoof versions, I have a feeling old Jack Frost is somewhere lingering and lurking, ready to blow snow, ur whole body shivers from just cold toes, don't forget the hat and mittens or gloves, cherish the ones u love, but remember those we've lost, Grandma K was a boss, and I'm sure she's with us always in our hearts, I sure do miss her a lot, and not just for her cooking and desserts, but whenever I was sick she was my nurse, yet now I have a man, nobody spoils me the way he can, he gives me everything I need, we minimally decorated with window candles a tree and some wreaths, I know it sounds rather chintzy, but anymore and I would've become kinda Grinchy, I've gotten lazier as I've gotten older, a lack of financial stability has put added weight on my shoulders, I'm really struggling to just get by, trying not to let my soul turn black like a dead guy, I'd rather shine like a bright white light, guiding ya'll thru the deep dark night, full moon style or similar to the north star, cuz whether ur near or far, it reminds u to be who u truly are, we set our own bar and par, so keep dreaming and believing, never letting anyone or anything ruin ur holiday season!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/11/17 

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

He's My Cup Of Tea

Lately before I go to sleep I pray, that tomorrow things will start to go his way, I've been in his position before, I think at some point we all want more, especially at a time when it seems like all is lost, to me he'll always be my sexy boss, he's so magnetic and charming, when he's down in the dumps it's alarming, cuz he's a fighter, hand him my lighter, so he can destress smoking a cig, at home is no place for him to live, it is literally hell, all the stories he tells, are straight up sad and disheartening, I understand why he's hardening, his soul has lost hope and trust, which has diminished his lust, I feel he's giving up, how do u help someone u love, when it's beyond ur control, when he's not around there's a huge hole, I miss cuddling with him, wish we could both get permanent jobs so our life together can begin, start a family of our own, build ourselves a happy home, just like everybody else, simply seeing him makes me melt, I know he's not everyone's cup of tea, but he does it for me, on every single level, he even nags me when I get lazy and disheveled, we shave each other's heads, we could spend all day in bed, he's a great caretaker and an amazing cook, it's true what they say how love finds u when u don't look, he's my support system my light, yes we often bicker and fight, but there's no one else I'd rather do it with, after all perfection is only a myth, no relationship is flawless, many people think he's gorgeous, sorry not sorry but he's all mine, doesn't have to try to wine and dine, I want to be there, continue to show how much I care, reciprocity is so important to me, I hate it when he has to leave, someday soon I know, there will be no woahs, just lots of joy, of course boys need toys, and I have quite a few in mind, cherish each moment cuz there's no rewind, leave the past behind, don't get too caught up in the day to day grind, u can work too much, shouldn't let money be a crutch, it's meant to be spent, not debt free but have made a substantial dent, I'll keep persistently chipping away, I'm not afraid, he gives me the confidence to be brave, just one kiss from his lips and I'm saved, like I can conquer the world, no matter the curve balls hurled, or how many punches the universe throws, like a see-saw we all experience highs and lows, whether we yo-yo or ying-yang, always stay true to u and do ur thang, everything has a reason purpose and meaning, u ain't dreaming, this is reality, don't become another tragedy, u shouldn't strive to be the best, only we get to decide and define success, won't settle for less, don't care if he's a mess, fuck alcohol pot shrooms or pills, as long as I've got my man I'm happy and fulfilled, !

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/6/17

Friday, December 1, 2017

Excess Power & Money Is Lethal & Should Be Illegal

Jobs can get real old fast, but don't look back on those that didn't last, everything happens for a reason, I often wonder if I'm worthy and have meaning, nothing I truly want or desire comes to fruition, people think I'm naive and ignorant for what I'm dreaming and wishing, I mean honestly Joe a Grammy, most don't understand me, that poetry and music are my passion, I refuse to settle and not take action, I will die trying, lately I've been crying, cuz I don't seem to get the results I was hoping for, shouldn't start doping more, to numb the pain, I'm done playing games, u can call me names, think I'm only after fortune and fame, but that's so far from the truth, I want a modest wardrobe car and roof, I'd rather travel, avoid jail or the judge's gravel, cuz I ain't no ghetto gangster or thug, I wanna spread consciousness and more love, cuz the world needs it especially now, I am confused as to when or how, this country will make a turn around or about, too many powerful misusing their clout, what's wrong with people, why are we perpetuating evil, victim blaming and shaming, do u even hear what these rap artists are saying, their lyrics are misogynistic demeaning and disgusting, I don't wanna be the product of crazy stalkers envying or lusting, which some may think is a compliment or flattering, stop excusing assaulting and battering, let's start investigating the current President, everyone deserves a fair trial verdict instead of anonymous allegations without evidence, what happened to innocent til proven guilty, I think we can all be a lil disrespectful overly flirtatious and filthy, dirty talk can be hot, but it matters if the desire was consensual or not, cuz then it becomes rape, which shouldn't be used to exploit or get revenge against a bad boss celebrity or a regretful date, society's gone awry, hell must've froze over and pigs can fly, perhaps maybe the sky is falling, we're not heeding God or mother nature calling, instead we go on polluting, unempathetic is what we're exuding, lacking compassion, proclaiming the homeless unemployed poor are lazy and simply slacking, less and less helping donating or giving, what kind of life are we living, ruled by money and fear, it isn't funny our own government doesn't care, their totally self serving and preserving, yet we apparently aren't deserving nor learning, falling for the same old shticks and tricks, like we're being persecuted just for kicks, 99% of us slaves, worked to the bone/our graves, which we dug ourselves, why don't the rich share the wealth, I mean when one person has billions of dollars that's unnecessary, redistribution shouldn't be discretionary, that type of concentration must be illegal, cuz especially when it comes to the economy that is surely lethal!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/1/17

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Oh Well

Full of mixed emotions, between high school drama and commotion, and celebrating 7 months, some people can be cunts, I don't like ultimatums or choosing sides, the best relationships endure thru both low and high times, I find the 9 to 5 grind, divides hearts and minds, where best friends become estranged, the one constant is things always change, it's how we adapt, not letting distance or the weeks that lapsed, come between us, is as difficult as differentiating love from just lust, marriage takes guts, many think it's nuts, to be with one person, especially with over population lurking, there are a plethora of fish in the sea, speaking metaphorically, the trick is finding another who can put up and tolerate u, along with all the quirky pet peeves we have and do, I mean I know I'm crazy, can be stubborn and occasionally lazy, as well as a loud mouth, who loves to verbally spar and bout, to my own detriment, I'm trying to focus more on my betterment, growing and evolving, quietly problem solving, instead of being Mr. know-it-all, I too am a human who fallibly falters and falls, very far from perfect, can admit when I earned or deserved it a guilty verdict, cuz I fucked up, now the door's stuck shut, slammed in my face, feel awfully bad/disgraced, rather be sprayed with mace, and would do whatever it takes, to make things right, I stay away at night, thinking about what I did wrong, often express myself thru poetry or song, it would be a lie to apologize, so I guess it's my fault for the demise, I was never really a part of that group, meaning there's no loss to recapture or recoup, but that doesn't diminish my sadness, this world's being corrupted by chaos and madness, and we're all we got, like it or not, we need each other, I always considered u a brother, I'm sorry I don't care for ur wife, but like my song says "That's Life", "and the bullshit won't quit", so folks that's it, I won't be attending my besty's bday bowling party, and I'd imagine my invites will be rare and pretty spotty, but oh well, if u couldn't tell, I'm gonna simply move on, maybe our past moment was a fluke or a true con, driven by circumstance and dumb luck, do u find it hard to openly just trust, because of old memories, if so what's the therapy/cure/remedy, how do u not only forgive but forget, and not let that shit get u upset, I try not to hate or wish anyone dead, over analyze shady situations in my head, gotta learn to let it go, pick my battles and avoid low blows, sinking to a vengeful level, which reminds me how often war helps to settle, it doesn't, let me make that abundantly clear if it wasn't, since ignorance believes truth is moot, u can dispute proof, but claims of fake news have been disproved, perhaps ur afraid to be incorrect or lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/22/17     

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Pray For My Unforgettable Special Sentimental Exceptional Essential Pretzel/Soulmate

Please send hopes best wishes and prayers, to so many struggling loved ones we hold dear, whether financially burdened, or their health's hurting, this world's becoming a very dark and scary place, can't help but wonder and fear fate, the good are dying young, too much work and no fun, leaves the hard working poor stressed, debit and credit card debt's a mess, from being unemployed so long, my savings is gone, I can't even give to help, cuz I won't have enough for myself, why all the evil and hate, we are being disgraced, corruption is progressing, cuz of Trump I'm guessing, the deplorables are out in droves, infiltrating hearts and homes, so it's impossible to tell who the bad guys are, I don't need flashy jewels or cars, just wanna get from point A to B, fuck living in the lap of luxury, I'd rather remain humble and modest, a decent day job a partner and the ability to pursue music if I'm being honest, so I can afford an apartment with my man, he's my biggest fan, believing in me even when I don't, wish I had a cushion so I wouldn't be afraid to rock the boat, and go after my passion/dream, we make an undeniably sexy team, but mainly he is my rock, not just a big cock dom top, he's compassionate and caring, positively brave and daring, putting me first, not being able to reciprocate hurts, he melts the pressure anxiety and pain, yet his problems are driving me insane, I can't do anything so the frustration keeps building, I'm ready able and willing, to do whatever it is I have to, to increase our worth and value, he deserves a fair shot, but the odds are against him a lot, so he falls thru the cracks, I want him to know we unconditionally got each other's backs, thru the thick and the thin, I truly believe he will eventually win, not only get up on his feet, but thrive and succeed, he's so determined and driven, to never relapse or go to prison, he has not only changed but grown, it's not about what he has or owns, I love him just because, he is more than enough, fulfilling all my lust wants and needs, he should focus on what he eats and sleep, both are so so important, he comes off a bit like an orphan, cuz his family doesn't accept him nor treat him right, everyday they bicker and fight, belittle and insult him, yet I very rarely hear him sulking, I just want to do more, to help him be happy at his core, he's such an amazing guy, I'm super duper lucky I get to call him mine, he's a diamond in the rough/one in a million, he makes every moment I'm with him exciting and thrilling, our chemistry is electric, we're both so competitive, and in many ways complimenting opposites, he lifts my self esteem up from feeling like a fat ugly troll or hobbit, he's undeniably special, putting up with me when I'm a mental stressful vessel of a devil, a rebel spectacle that stubbornly argues and verbally wrestles, who'd never settle for a potential speckle of time together in our penciled schedules, he's got several fine essential qualities/exceptional credentials, and there's no one I'd rather be intertwined with like a pretzel, with a high level of sentimental, I often wonder if he was the real inspiration behind the song "Unforgettable"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/21/17   

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Let's Make Earth Great

Looking to help, inspire myself, lately I've been feeling down and depressed, like I'm less than best, which is actually just fine, perfection is similar to the horizon line, receding as we approach, perhaps I need a life coach, cuz this relationship, got me hating shit, like gossiping rumors, swastika humor, offensiveness isn't funny, I'm not always smiley nor sunny, got a wide range of emotion, what's all the commotion, not all gays are pedophiles and not all pedophiles are gay, Kevin Spacey came out the wrong way, and set our community back ages, Dems are finally winning some races, it's about damn time, evil has been stoked and primed, ruling thru fear and hate, let's make Earth great, not just one country, I miss music that's soulful and sultry, with some intellect and depth, most these rappers and singers are inept, when it comes to songwriting, videos are consumed with sexy thong sightings, cuz it's what sells, true talent's gone to hell, I'm sure Britney and Madonna are entertaining, but I wanna hear them vocally straining, instead of dancing lip syncing, concerts are more about drugging and drinking, I want fun experiences with substance, it's not size but circumference, how u work the girth, making love shouldn't hurt, was it pleasurable, success and happiness are immeasurable, and have nothing to do with wealth, never shelf ur health, ur body is ur one and only temple, it's not a rental, appreciate what uve got, like it or not, God made u beautiful, ur morals ought to be immovable, where's our ethics and pride, so many epic classic artists have died, yet nobody's stepping up, fuck skills it's who u know and dumb luck, the industry like our government is greedy and corrupt, awww shucks it's rough and tough, cuz ur not buff enough, trust u need that 6 pack lust, can't be short bald and fat, people closest to u will stab u in the back, for fortune and fame, commence the blame game, they're mad u didn't share with them, what will it take to get me to care again, poetry is my therapy, to get the better me, reread and observe, solutions and answers lurk, somewhere within, when will the healing begin, criticism makes me defensive, fulfilling my dream's expensive, humans don't use history to learn lessons, failure can ironically be a blessing, it's how u react, stop rationalizing with alternative facts, no matter how hard u try, u can't justify a lie, when the truth's aloof, it breeds fools and goofs, who in turn produce ignorant slaves, we desperately need to existentially elevate and change our ways, before we're doomed and it's too late, don't have the luxury to wait, I've heard ya'll say ull pray, religious extremists are intertwined with the KKK, black white guy girl trans gay bi or straight, we all must unite together to alter our destiny/fate!

Peace and 1, 
Joe Conscious
11/15/17 

Friday, November 10, 2017

Heart Of Gold With A Whole Lotta Soul

I'm not the easiest person to have a relationship with, tho true love takes work it's a rare gift, nothing is perfect, it's ok to make a mistake if u learn from it, I'm a hot headed loud stubborn Italian, and boy is my man a stallion, can cook kind and considerate, many may think we're illegitimate, but we're 100% real, we don't care to hear ur judgments or how u feel, unless it's a compliment, we don't need no marriage certificate/document, to validate what we have, when he gets hit on I just laugh, cuz I know u ain't got a chance, I wish I could better dance, since he loves to do that, he's super supportive and always has my back, believes in me even when I don't, sometimes I regret what I said and wrote, cuz it was out of anger, it's sad when a good childhood friend becomes a stranger, fame brings fortune along with danger, but since neither one of us could afford Patti Stanger, we used Scruff, he claims to have zip tie cuffs, which I find hot and sexy, the best thing about him is he gets and accepts me, we gotta figure out how to agree to disagree, be together monogamously yet still be free, to live some semblance of our old lives, I hate that I'm sometimes the cause of his hives, I stress him out, when we constantly bicker and bout, I'm naturally combative antagonistic and defensive, I find mere existence unnecessarily expensive and offensive, especially education and health insurance, fines and penalties should be a deterrence, not bankrupt people to go broke, the judicial system like government's a joke, in total chaos and ruins, the sheeple pay more attention to the Sox Patriots and Bruins, don't even get me started on electoral college elected Trump, he's turning this country into a dump, how can he make America great again when it never was, no one holds him accountable for the awful atrocities he says and does, the rich are somehow exempt, I refuse to be a robotic slave who's kept, I don't want or need no sugar daddy, I ain't no worthless dumb faggy fatty, I try to stay fit, seriously don't give a shit, if u like me or not, I give all that I got, to fulfill my hopes wishes dreams and desires, when people tell me I can't I simply reach higher, watch me prove u wrong, then write and inspire with another phenomenal song, I'm talented and skilled, can move u and give chills, very driven and strong willed, I pay my own bills, and still help others, treat everyone with respect like they're my sisters and brothers, got a heart of gold, this shorty bald white boy's got a whole lotta soul, wanna make this world a safer peaceful place, leading by example with poise dignity style and grace, so unique and different, time flies by in the blink of an instant, seize every opportunity and moment, take ur destiny back and own it, the power lies within, remember that in order to finish we must begin!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/10/17