Encouraging My Music

I'm learning to accept where I am, proud I've done all I can, to fight the strife in life, it definitely isn't fair or right, it just is what it is, I feel bad for the kids, I really wasn't well equipped, to handle this thick shit, how do u perservere in a world consumed with competitive capitalistic business, I don't empathize believing in utopian retirement bliss, its unrealistic and very selfish, creates an overeducated self entitled debt enslaved population that's making existence hellish, add the fact inflation's in full force, we're expected to be an imaginary super invincible work horse, but only paid beans, unable to be sustainable or live within a reasonable means, u must distinguish wants from needs, forget about fairy tales and dreams, by the way ull be paired up in one man and one woman teams, forever linked together for all eternity, seems silly personally, but that's what breeders believe virtually, or more like virtuously, parents always keep trying to protect and save, is it wrong to love and worry too much about the child I made, I mean really...fuck god...he's mine, somehow someway in time I'll find power so divine, he will never have to experience hurt or pain, it'll never rain, ull stay the same precious lil boy, so even at 31 ur still single living at home broke and unemployed, but I should be happy and grateful for my bestowed blessings, unfortunately in my confession my upbringing has become a source of resentment, I didn't have to struggle that hard, therefore how can u be a succesful hip hop star, its underestimatingly condescending to ask, but ur gay white educated and come from upper middle class, u earn respect its not given, I'm stuck in childhood prison, controled free will with limited choice, relate most to Ariel from The Little Mermaid without a voice, sheltered and ill prepared for survival, cuz as an adult everyones ur rival, comparison is primal, living an extravagant lavish lifestyle is vile, what I'm looking for and asking, is where the fuck is my compassion, I don't want pity or to make u feel bad, making music just happens to be what I'm talented and good at, so why can't y'all encourage and help me do that?!?!?!?

Peace and 1,
JC
(2/13/14)

Awakened Changed

Its hard to explain, but I've awakened changed, all my insecurities melted away, I'm less afraid, cuz he rekindled my faith, gave me the strength to be patient and wait, he does care, made the time to be there, which is what I needed, someone followed thru I can't believe it, its a fucking miracle, I can't help but get a lil hysterical, the way the universe constantly teases me, seems impossible to recover from thievery, but when its all my fears and worries, I'm not so overzealous and in such a hurry, I finally can catch my breath, relax have some fun and get out of my own head, overanalyzing makes me depressed, its hard to even motivate myself to get up out of bed, I've got to remember not to live life like I'm already defeated and dead, a more positive optimistic perspective would be that my caccoon has simply been shed, and I emerged totally transformed, 200% better than I've ever felt before!

Peace and 1,
JC
(8/21/14)

Won't Find Love Looking Up

Am I invisible or can u see me, what if music can't heal me, for some reason its no longer enough, this overanalyzing and thinking is too much, obsessing over a crush, longing and aching for that sensual touch, my fetish is intimacy, is 7 years deep still infancy, I can't stand being such a late bloomer, my soul is hardening into a black tumor, while my heart has been so broken and torn, my mind needed time to unwind and mourn, from even more disappointment and let downs, people are simply politicians and clowns, I know how I sound, being seeing and feeling bitter jealous and spiteful is so profound, I can't seem to let the hurt go, I'm very needy and demanding but not afraid of hard work tho, all those high expectations for myself, I guess are spilling onto everyone else, over extending relationships never helps, I always go above and beyond, so if u screw me over I won't just remain calm, im an empath so basically I'm a mirror, im learning to keep mine and ur shit separated clearer, but that is definitely hard, why do I try to manipulate using the pity card, saying condescending things like I'm disappointed, but who made me the annointed, I should shut my mouth, and let them learn how to bout, afterall its not my battle to fight, my experience and life lessons dont make my advice any better or more right, but I will always help guide u to the light, and motivate u to reach inside and find that strength/might, remind u that u have the power, never fear or cower, u won't find any answers looking up, the only thing that makes life worth living is love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(9/2/14)

Follow The Gold Brick Road

Man I can't kick this depression, in this shitty life it's hard to see the blessings, there's war famine and poverty, casino games and the lottery are legalized highway robbery, there's no such thing as a sure bet, most musicians are only appreciated after they're dead, it's impossible to get ahead, a forty hour minimum wage job can't pay the rent and buy bread, I'm about to flip the fuck out, start a huge riot or bout, I'm a good moraled person who will resort to stealing, if u keep repeatedly ignoring my necessities and feelings, dangling that teasing bait, right in front of my face, and then quickly retract it with haste, the energy I put into our friendship looks to have been a total waste, now I'm left jealous angry and spiteful, while u elude ur more than fine and dandy ur delightful, well ur in some deep trouble, cuz I'm that asshole who loves to burst bubbles, and I won't dare stop, til I make sure urs is popped, I say revenge is like the sweetest joy next to sucking dick, I will follow my own gold road even if I have to lay it brick by brick!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(9/17/14)

Life's Like A Poker Game

I challenge myself to approach life like a poker game, not let my emotions control my face, too much love is such a waste, seems to be baby boomers legacy along with debt, there's simply no such thing as absolute sure bets, so what's the point in investing in insurance safety precautions or nets, education doesn't guarantee sustainability fortune or a career, both the justice system and government corrupt thru the use of abusive punishment persecution and fear, we all need to stop and ask ourselves the existential why am I here, what is my gift and purpose, being overwhelmed by too much"it comes from love" help actually deeply hurts us, remember in dark times yes u do have value and are never worthless, i gotta be more appreciative and graciously greatful, not so bitter jaded cynical jealous spiteful and hateful, nobody likes being around a negative vibe, but what if this awesome asshole facade/disguise, is my uncontrolable reactionary defensive mechanism produced lie, underneath it all I'm really a sensitive soulfully sarcastic too smart and self aware to be bashful guy, an artistic philosophical gemini thats always high, not totally wholesome tho addictively good fun to be around, and if u pay attention and listen u might learn something relatably wise and profound!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/26/14)

Metaphorical BDSM Session

I'm so used to doing everything alone, never feel like I'm supposed to when home, I just wanna run away, I'm pretty damn afraid, no one around here really knows me, takes time to find their own wants and needs, misunderstand reciprocity and intimacy, I'm seriously questioning intelligence and literacy, how else can I say or spell it out, I'm about to say fuck polite political correctness explode throw down and bout, god gave us two eyes ears and a mouth, learn to use them please, instead of being an unavailable tease, holding that retractable bait, u ignorant selfish narcisistic ingrate, ur rejected love turns to spite and hate, bravo's next reality tv show stars JC in an entertaining rap gladiator game, problem is tho this joe doesnt want fortune or fame, people enjoy watching others squirm and suffer in pain, everybodys superficial and vein, full of catholic guilt and ridiculously judgmental, play god like house pirched high on their self righteously entitled pedastal, I'm starting to get the impression, being human is a blessing, experiencing constant conflict and testing, a mix of discipline pleasure tickling and caressing, my fetishes are like chastity and the lack of release is perpetuating a depression, the universe's harsh lessons, are causing insecurity and resentment, got me wondering pondering and questioning, maybe this is all just one big metaphorical bdsm session!

Peace and 1,
Joe Consious
(9/28/14)

Inside RI & Reading's Freeing & Sunday Funday

I feel RI forces me inside, to hide til I die, no matter how hard I try, I can't care less or stop questioning why, it sucks being a straight acting gay guy, I'm not gonna lie, I should just say I'm bi, cuz I'm totally ostracized, by both sides, i don't want u all to see me cry, I think I've finally realized, I can't be hypnotized, to become corporatized, work an unfulfilling 9-5, wearing a shirt and tie, im so frustrated all i can do is sigh, my music dream has been shattered to its demise, failure and bad timing shouldn't be a surprise, I surmise there is no real deep meaningful reason or purpose for our lives, I'm starting now to say my goodbyes, watch me vanish permanently from both ur mind and eyes!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

Is anybody listening or reading, do u care I'm bleeding, having trouble breathing, I'm the victim of endless teasing, everything unavailable is appealing, i can't control these lustful feelings, I'm a regular human being, who is a hopeless optimist and won't stop believing or achieving, when u finally stop dreaming, letting go of expectation is wonderfully freeing!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

What a great Sunday fun day, and today is monday, I'm feeling very relaxed somber and calm, woke up refreshed nice and early without an alarm, i got some music shit to do, and a whole lot still yet to prove, mostly to myself, I just realize and can admit I need help, life's a balancing act, the internet has diluted the truth turning opinion to fact, I simply can't get over the consciousness people lack, i wanna shake and wake them up, bug them with an overwhelming amount of love, but I've been rejected so many times now I just don't give a fuck!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

Lose Ur True Character

I'm so overwhelmed by utter lonliness, ri is filled with so much phoniness, I've even lost myself, stressed out how I'm gonna accrue wealth, I'm so jealous of everyone else, I don't think faking it til u make it helps, I can't be anything other than genuine, I'm a gay gentleman who's not very feminine, but no one takes me seriously, I can see my destiny clearly, due to other's failed dreams, I changed my page from original insightful retrospective uncensored rhymes to positive inspirational memes, my passion for music is slowly dying, and both my heart and soul keep crying, and with every streaming tear, it makes room for more insecurities and fear, i don't know how much longer I can stay here, my friends and family say they love and care, preach security sustainability and saftey nets, seems I'm hard to remember but easy to forget, people sure move on quick, are oh so stubborn and thick, trying to control and save me, I'm a fabulous independent antagonist thats adventurous faithful and filled with bravery, everyday i practice patience and empathy, life's balancing between achieving our wants and settling for what's meant to be, which will u choose, it's fun to win but a true depiction of character's when u lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Consious
(9/30/14)

Enabling The Vision Of Freedom

I hope the light of my smile returns some of the love I've been given, like receiving mail in jail/prison, something short and simple can be so sweet, u must always have hope faith and believe, we all have meaning and purpose, even for the awful atrocities that hurt us, nobody's worthless or without value, don't just do things cuz u have to, I'm such an antagonist I question why not, trial and error provides answers to the soul mind and heart, do u actually make the time to stop and think, isn't it all about balancing, experiencing extremes, helps distinguish between ur wants and needs, don't let the past jade u or or make u too guarded, marriage is a contract where love is bartered, but isnt the idea outdated and discriminatory, enough with these prince charming happily ever after bullshit stories, parents have got to stop overprotecting, even stupid lil white lies like Santa Jesus and immaculate conception, are more harmful than good, it is almost impossible for the truth to be clearly seen or understood, i wish u all would stop enabling me, wake up and see, u can never be free, if u live ur life dependant on money!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/2/14)

Fucking Suffering Confused Muse

I'm becoming everything I was afraid I already was, just waiting for yall to catch up, my vocal chords lungs and soul make me half black, with white privilege it's hard for yall to cut me some slack, so what I'm a gay rapper singer songwriter who smokes pot, what sort of talent passion skill ambition or dreams do u got, I'm self aware and conscious, brave enough to talk openly and honestly about taboo topics, expressing personal private intimate thoughts and experiences, without the crippling fear of fighting censorship discriminatory hate and other interferences, overwhelming me with help love and worry, but when I come collecting too intense yall run away in a hurry, I'm tired of being used and abused, i can't even see which path is true, cuz I'm consumed and entombed by my lustful infatuation with dudes, who are lost in pain so they're guarded too, but now their insecurities have been empathically infused, i dont wanna lose my witts with the overindulgence of herb and booze/brews, def avoid watching the news, am I supposed to suffer to be the world's muse, I'm just so fucking confused!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(10/5/14)

The New Golden Rule School

If ur feeling misunderstood maybe u don't know urself, to do that u need other sister and brothers to help, don't get caught up with superficial shit like drugs sex and wealth, i wanna start a new age school, where there's simply one rule, thou shall love everybody, i know it sounds condescendingly funny, but first find ur own boundaries and limitations, figure out what u want and how to get it without fear insecurity or hesitation, isnt it possible im prone to being overly patient, if wallflowers stay too passively waiting, u might miss fulfilling ur fate and/or destiny, music truly is divinely inspiring life saving and heavenly, it feels practically magically/miraculously fabulously sent to me, the ps to this poetic letter, smoking pot makes everything better, toke up, spread love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(10/6/14)

A Moosehead Trophy & Perfectly Beautiful Flaws

This RI school threat is getting kids comfortable with living in a police state, parents wanna control and protect instead of nurturingly guiding letting go and having faith, if I got to be patient and wait, then that goes double for u, don't make my youthful mistakes label who I am or define my truths, government's instilling fear thru subliminal abuse, to the point we even ask for the noose, which we need to have permission to use, ur first gut intuition isn't always the choice to choose, be careful not to be somebody's bitch or muse, jesters are truth sayers that amuse, I'm super intellectually deep too intense so i confuse, i often wonder who'll eventually take me down and have my head as a trophy on the wall instead of a moose!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/8/14)

My family is beautifully flawed perfection, give me so much unconditional love and affection, but overzealously obsess about having job security money and protection, gullibly caught up thinking life aint like modern day elections, staged corrupted rigged and filled with greedy lying evil people, i often ponder if being virtuously just and good is feeble, we are often bound by trying to uphold our own moral code, sometimes the real hell hole is right within our own very illusionary happy homes, like pink sings "in our family portrait we look pretty happy, let's play pretend and act like it comes naturally", my biggest fear is ur all nice to my face but behind my back ur laughing at me!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/8/14)

Rock Bottoming

Finally hit rock bottom, and all I can do is hope I get pardoned, I've made many mistakes and bad choices, how do u not get overwhelmed by the options and voices, I've lost my sense of right and wrong, anxiously awaiting that one hit song, I don't know how much longer I can hold on, smile keep my head up and stay strong, every day seems to be getting worse, can't see or think thru the hurt, my parents just worry they can't believe in me, please dear God give me permission to have an over abundance of money, not for power or greed, simply so I can help others in need, without it my life has no value or worth, gay sex is immoral cuz it doesn't result in a birth, i didn't realize to be successful u had to be a jerk, sell ur soul to the devil with a pay grade equivalent to slave work, perhaps it's time to move again, but then I think about my family and friends, and I slap myself saying joe this masochistic self sabotaging needs to end, figure out how to make urself be #1, stop thinking so damn much cuz ur missing all the fun!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/12/14)

Multiple Mini Metaphors

Traffic is a mini metaphor for life, there's an over abundance of aggravation stress conflict and strife, people have no idea how to drive right, i hate late night street lights, unnecessary stop signs, no passing zones and lines, we need more accidents and licenses taken away, to stop relying on technology to pave our way, since when can a gps, really know which route is best, even then most move at a snails pace, coming back home seems like such a waste, I've run out of faith, I'll find some magical super paste, that'll glue the pieces of my shattered heart and soul back together, with the power of love anything can be weathered, i think yall have the wrong assumption of me, i actually have way too much patience with everybody, I've reached my proverbial straw/breaking point, I'm wicked pissed jaded and annoyed, simply put...ive phucking haddit, my humanity switch is turned off and I'm one outspokenly mad rapping phaggot, who's gonna succeed just to spite u, just cuz i love u all doesn't mean I have to like u too!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(10/14/14)

Breaking Points

Thank u for the beautiful gift of another day, new and old friends to help me find my way, it isn't easy finding the right path, life isn't an exact science or math, my generation is overwhelmed by too many choices, lack one of those influential iconic voices, who speaks on behalf of real hard working people, fighting against the forces of corporate evil, has America become a modern day Hitler, Buddy Cianci is the political equivalent of Stifler, actually most politicians are full of shit, wish congress would do us all the favor and just quit, since they don't help anyone but themselves, imprisoning us in financial hell cells, it's no wonder there's a huge uneven distribution of wealth, doing a number to our mental health, leaving us overworked and stressed out, with no energy for fun or to bout, instead we passively lay down silently, that is until I reach my breaking point and I react violently!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(10/20/14)

Always In The Wrong

At what point can i give up, when should sex be incorporated with love, i can't even begin, to let go and forgive him, let alone myself, i refuse psychiatric help, i know the problem with me, is my intensity and severe ADD, I'm finally understanding my flaws, trying to nip my bad behavior at the root cause, i really am so ashamed, can't find the faith it's ok to be gay, is my music only a passionate hobby, am I destined to be a secretary enslaved in a law office lobby, or is it acceptable to just be patient, instead of compromisingly settling keep waiting, for the universe to fulfill my dreams and prayer, i wonder if the omnipresent can speak or even hear, my senses seem worse than Helen Keller, perhaps one day my merciful master will let me out of the dark cellar, and finally shine the way I'm meant to, i hope u received the appreciative thanks and praise I sent u, to our Lord Jesus Christ, thanks again for sacrificing ur life, and for the beautiful gift of another day, God loves faggots I don't care what yall believe or say!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/22/14)

Fight Stereotypes

When's the end of this nonsensical fight, sometimes I hate not fitting into any gay stereotype, proves I'm a rebellious non conformist, who the hell is anyone else to tell me what norm is, ain't nobody doin what I am, nothing but greedy talentless hip hop hags and hams, gay for pay fag scams, tramps who take advantage of use and abuse u, til ur so confused ur turned on or amused and almost immune to it too, guess i should shut my mouth before i find myself in trouble, visual perspective is an extremely small rigid bubble, my natural reaction and inclination, is to pop them without fear or any hesitation, but that makes me crazy and basically is distastefully wrong, fine...next time I'll keep the peace by ripping the grav bong, call yall out in a vague way thru my poetic lyrics in a good song!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(11/22/14)

Who's My Hero

Yes another new years...new cares...new dares...new fears, which resolution did u choose, i miss playing duck duck goose, I'm just beginning to let loose, i will not give in or call truce, music is what I'm doin and pursuing, don't like me...well shoo shoo then, stay the fuck out my life, i may be gay but I ain't afraid to fight, matter fact I'll kick ur ass, time to go on the offensive and attack, which for me is quite the challenge, but i believe in me and my talents, I'm actually rather amazing, relatably connect with strangers who stare star struck and gazing, being a white faggot rapper's trail blazing, hopefully paving the way for other oppressed minorities, to stop apologizing and saying sorry, living life slave like and robotic, why settle for less then abfab magical and exotic, compromise leads to jealousy and regret, when I becomes we u both tend to forget, to have ur own individual lives friends and goals, bein married with children takes a toll, i understand and know, I just won't sacrafice my soul tho, to me it's still silly, at the end of the day we all have only one responsibility, maybe I should lighten or give up, there's no ultimatum claiming I can't do music and find love, Mariah's history has unfortunately shown, humans haven't really learned and grown, fame and fortune changes people, am I strong enough to be the hero conquering my own inner deamons and evils?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/3/15)

Turning Negative To Positive

Instead of invoking feelings of spite anger jealousy and pity, i need to change the negative to much more enlightened positivity, most of life is beyond our control anyway, whether we're fat bald short or gay, been losing my cool and patience lately, i expect with all the hard work success should come hastily, why do we jump so many hurdles and hoops, still i feel stupid like a failure fooled and dooped, i gave in and played the game, yet I have yet to see any financial gains, with all these aches and pains, my heart and soul have gone black and cold from disdain, we supposedly live in the land of the free, but there's no escape from needing money, how long will i have to endure, cant every disease inevitably be cured, what about hatred ignorance or greed, when banks and Wallstreet got bailed out i almost peed, i mean seriously how is that fair, perhaps I shouldn't be distracted or care, it's absolutely absurd and comical, i miss when celebrity and stature were based on a person being talented respectable or honorable, I've seriously reached my breaking point and have had enough, it's about time we stand up to fight for what's right...truth justice and love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/19/15)

Acception

It's extremely difficult to stay positive, almost like trying to be straight acting or closeted, why is it easier to find a married guy with children to cheat, then finding a good decent masculine gay guy to go on a date with me, it's pretty disgusting and revolting, how it's ok to see breeders fucking but not homo bros hand holding, never mind public displays of affection, I'm waiting to be condemned to the faggot section, i wonder what my scarlet letter is, perhaps they'll tie me down and force me to have kids, i still don't understand why what I do in the bedroom is anyone's business, cum guzzling is puzzling I'm wondering does anyone like the taste of gizz, most girls hate giving blow jobs, i love teasing edging it and polishing that nob, chastity fixes any lazy ass misogynistic narcisistic slob, their release dependant upon pleasing u and doin a good job, have u had ur homosexual cherry popped, never knock something u haven't tried, coming out was like Jesus resurrecting after he died, I'm a brand new person, and really dont give a flying fuck if u like the updated version, this is me, I'm happy, if ur not...make a change, explore more of the perplexing and strange, unfamiliar territory can be dicey and scary, but u should never ever ever hate or fear me!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/20/15

Damn Temper Tantrums

Enough with the anger and temper tantrums, it's childish and neither sexy nor handsome, I've gotten so wrapped up in my future destiny, i let living in my past get the best of me, meanwhile had i just been present and alert, perhaps all the failed high expectations wouldn't hurt, i get that people are only human, but when they consistently don't follow thru and, ur bored left alone to ur own devices, that's when I go overboard on one of my favorite vices, life is much more fun stoned, course there's always good ole fashioned boning or getting boned, no matter what I'm ultimately responsible, holding myself accountable is adult like and honorable, but where's the checks and balances for those in power, will we awaken before the toll of the final hour, the more darkness that corrupts and ensues, makes u vulnerable confused and its way easier to choose, the blatantly ignorant lies told by fox news, when both justice and truth are abused and skewed...we all lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/21/15)

Letting Go Being Strung Along

For over a year u strung me along and wasted my time, told me u cldn't but started a family of ur own leaving me bleeding behind, let's meet for coffee first have a 420 sesh or beer, not as atrocious as lying but omitting what u share, is such a politician's manipulating move, i have no sympathy or pity for u when they revolted and cooed, can boowhoo while i poo poo u, cuz ur a neglectful abusive fool dude, I have no consideration for hating discriminating nor ur disrespect, i don't give a fuck if u r the president elect, i didn't vote for u just cuz ur the lesser of two evils, I'm not like all these yng numb dumb robotic slave like people, narcisistic illiterate egoistic hypocrites thinking they're better than anyone else, can't wait for trophies to validate and replace the blank space on my shelves, we definitely need to breathe and simply ask for help, the worst judge and critic's still gotta be myself, eliminating regrets the best astonishing and thrilling, the feeling of finishing an accomplishment is so fulfilling, I'll surely succeed not out of greed or spite, but cuz i wisened up and just let u go from my consciousness/life!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/24/15)

Faith Keeps Us Safe

Lately I've been learning to love life, trying harder to be thankful and appreciative making it thru another night, waking up and taking that first breath of the day, reminds me to focus my energy in a calm composed way, u see people can be evil spreading so much hatred, altho I only see the best in everyone and belive they're good natured, perhaps they're just goin thru difficult times, and when it comes to expressing themselves maybe they are shy mimes, with the inability to talk or speak, ignorance and miscommunication is what makes our species weak, on top of lacking sympathy empathy and compassion, the only action is when there's a fire lit under their ass and, it's punishment time which includes whippings and lashings, ur ass will be red as hell and the pain will be long lasting, better that tho than being crucified like Jesus, we need a better Avenue to resolving grievances, besides if I were tied to a cross I'd probably pop wood, losing control can absolutely positively feel real good, i mean isn't that what religion teaches us...to have faith, if u listen to and follow ur heart and gut...He will always keep us safe!

Peace and 1,
JC
(1/25/15)

Window Shopping Love

No u don't get to window shop my heart, try me on and see if everyone thinks we are good for each other or not, so to prove ur love, everyday I want u to hit me up, whether a text or a call, i need to know ull be there if I fall, this once a week or month crap, instigates my condescending sarcastic laugh, if u can't make any regular room or time for me, i will not just give u all my best blindly for free, reciprocity is critical and crucial, one way relationships are abusive non conducive and brutal, they can ruin a person's self esteem confidence value and/or worth, do u only become a man marrying a woman who gives birth, the thought of procreating in an overpopulated world makes me unnerved, what's better to have length or girth, i think what's most important is if it's straight or curved, sometimes with roadblocks and obstacles u have to hurdle or swerve, everything happens for a reason tho, there really is no need to compromise or settle u know bro, many men are incapable of changing but can grow, please don't stoop low and hookup with just any random pro hoe, god loves to bestow lessons like u reap what u sow!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/26/15)

Planet Earth Needs A Rebirth

With all these gmos and bpas, our government's killing us and turning men gay, some plastics contain this alternate form of estrogen, why isn't it regulated or banned then, cuz scientific research was doctored and falsified, big corporations bribed trying to get scientists to lie, as if putting fluoride in our water wasn't enough, where do they come up with this mind control stuff, making us docile and complacent, nowadays the amount of misinformation is atrocious and blatant, even the media is becoming much more controlled, eradicating newspapers journalism integrity and has taken our music's soul, what set us humans apart, was we had both smarts and hearts, but business has somehow changed this, seems making money is the only way to achieve happiness and bliss, truth and facts are under attack, unfortunately there's no goin back, I'm extremely worried our future looks bleak, i wish our economy wld collapse worse than Greece, perhaps bartering will make us reevaluate what we value and has worth, planet earth is in serious need of a rebirth!

Peace and 1,
JC
(1/28/15)

The Power Of Words

I often forget the power of words, they can cut u down which hurts worse, than Prometheus' curse being pecked by birds, within us all both good and evil lurks, perhaps we were both jerks, i really am sorry and apologize, I want to wipe away these tears I've cried, but i can't hide my reddened eyes, seems I've lost another friend, and I have no idea how to heal and mend, I've always admitted im far from perfect, what's so wrong with me im not worth it, am I not worthy of forgiveness and unconditional love, let's not say anything else and just hug, it's sad for sure when a gay icon dies, but it's even more shameful when our chosen families divide, until we all are united as one, my work here is far from done!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/30/15)

Angel Of Death

I know at times I'm intense and dramatic, aren't geminis by nature extreme and spastic, don't understand then why so many are shocked by this, r they just ignoring me or is it ignorance, sexism and racism are like oranges and apples, they're two different types of the same thing it's not that hard to grapple, hate is hate it's never right to oppress or discriminate, the real question is do u believe in free will/manifest destiny or a preslated fate, is it possible to be a random combination of both, i suppose it's not something meant for us mere human mortals to know, perhaps it's more than we can understand and handle, i fear the end of days is near and all will come undone and get dismantled, only after complete destruction can we begin again, i have faith we Phoenixly rise from the ashes cuz spirit's can, death often leaves lingering angels hovering and haunting family and friends, u can see if u truly believe u just need to free ur mind and let ur perception bend!

Peace and 1,
JC
(1/31/15)

Hip Hop Heart

What do I do now, I keep wondering how, did things get so screwed up, ironically finally found love, looks like ill have to leave my heart and my man, here in san fran ... damn, its hard to fathom and understand, the divine hands plan, still just so confused, which path to choose, since I can't have my cake and eat it too, either way somehow I lose, and u can't elude that truth, I miss the days of my youth, when things were hella stellar and terrific, naive and simplistic, while these days I've turned pessimisticly jaded, gotten aggravated by all the hatred that's accumulated, being falsely persecuted and adjudicated, I'm usually rudely debated, as truly intuitively abrasive, with bone chillingly rough edges, overzealous in exploring crevices, even reaching the ones that are the deepest, kept hidden in whisperings and secrets, I made up my mind quite a while back, I gave my heart to making quality poetic hip hop and rap!!!!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(2/7/13)

Gay Culture

I'm so over gay culture, y'all a bunch of vultures, drunk skunks, anxious to stick their dick in my trunk, my fetish is intimacy, u not being able to read me's called illiteracy, I'm nothing like, ur stereotypes, ur perpetuating reputation genocide, when u lie or tend to hide, ur true sexual identity, nobody's better than me, cuz we were all created equal, just fallible people, experiencing struggles nobody else knows, blind and ignorant to the path u think we chose, always on the defensive, our acting ability's extensive, creating complex webs, to protect what goes on in my bed, I will not be boxed and labeled, I'm perfectly capable and abled, to do or be, something u didn't expect or see, I'm an original individual, who's mission it is to be positive and pivotal, in bringing back, that old school classic hip hop and rap, but the road will be hard and long, especially since I'm the gay white underdog!!!!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(5/12/13)

#‎problemsoftheindebtunemployedpoor

Got a lot to be grateful for, yet I'm still super depressed and bored, constantly looking for more, u know...to score, but in RI I can't even find a kinky whore, without gap teeth or some sort of a shady cold sore, nor do I have the luck to find an undercover homo bro at the grocery store, guess I'll go get baked and contemplate my life's fate down by the shore, I've got great legs and face but still working on my core, which can no longer be ignored, when it rains tho it pours, just wanna go back on tour, instead of struggling suffering thru financial war, my windows closed so where's my door, when will I fly high and soar, become a big household name like Thor, finding a bill paying job or career is such a chore, much more gruesome/vulgar than blood and gore, I'm constantly forced to endure, like I was tied up forced to drink and swallow it thru a straw, ‪#‎problemsoftheindebtunemployedpoor‬!!!

Peace and 1,
JC
7/31/13

PTown Revisited

On my way back to ptown, my initial visit was beautifully profound, it just has such positive vibes, so why not at least give it a second try, let's see what happens, I do love nomadically traveling, meeting all sorts of people, from the poor ghettos to the lavish/regal, to me everybody is equal, im so non judgmental, def multifaceted not one dimensional, lyrically incredible, being gay makes me existential and special, cuz I'm able to be relatable, making conservative republicans more liberal and changeable, at least on social issues, enough with this obnoxious ostricism prison misuse and abuse, focused on punishment instead of rehabilitating, fuck acceptance they're barely empathetically tolerating, maybe they've been consumed by jealousy and envy from failed dreams, it seems I never get picked to be apart of the smart succesful cool teams, always wind up written off, the overlooked underdog, who was self made proclaimed and taught, but I can't figure out how to gain recognition and fame, become critically acclaimed, its hard balancing family friends and fans, on top of tryin finding a man, plus working at some corporate job I can't stand, I often wonder if I even stood a chance, god laughs when we expect to control our own life and plans, forget like the song says he's got the whole world in his hands, but whats just down right naively stupid and silly, is when humans place blame on him pawning off all responsibility and accountability, nothings for free, ain't worth shit if it comes easy, remember u gotta work hard for the money...hunny!

Peace and 1,
JC
(7/7/14)

Executioner Judge & Jury (Jure-Ree)

Sometimes people (including me) forget the power of words, but lack of action hurts worse, I can't pretend and flash my precious pearly whites, getting out of bed depressed every day is a fight, ‪#‎lolsmhfml‬ means laugh out loud shake my head fuck my life, salty tears stream religiously down from my numb chinky eyes, commence the omgs shocked gasps or laughs like it's a surprise, I've been crying for days for help, when I just want to be able to help myself, what's the point of having these musical gifts, when the reality of life is no one could give two shits, even if I believe in me actually achieving my seemingly big impossible dream, only selling out stadiums and winning that coveted grammy means, I'm worthy of people's money respect and attention, u haven't been in the presence of me performing I'm betting then, cuz if u had ud already undoubtedly know, I may look like ur short bald average Joe, but I'm an absolutely amazingly talented lyrical genius, I'm so not a narcisist overly cocky nor conceited, pretty much just a genuinely good honest hard working guy, i take pride in performing on stage but off i try to remain humbly grateful and of course high, I'm both an activist and a humanitarian, my tastes are extremely eclectic and varying, I'm non conforming and antagonizingly ignoring any and all authority, who made anyone including me u or Judy executioner judge and jury?!? (pronounced jure-ree lol)

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(1/14/15)