I feel RI forces me inside, to hide til I die, no matter how hard I try,
I can't care less or stop questioning why, it sucks being a straight
acting gay guy, I'm not gonna lie, I should just say I'm bi, cuz I'm
totally ostracized, by both sides, i don't want u all to see me cry, I
think I've finally realized, I can't be hypnotized, to become
corporatized, work an unfulfilling 9-5, wearing a shirt and tie, im so
frustrated all i can do is sigh, my music dream has been shattered to
its demise, failure and bad timing shouldn't be a surprise, I surmise
there is no real deep meaningful reason or purpose for our lives, I'm
starting now to say my goodbyes, watch me vanish permanently from both
ur mind and eyes!
Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)
Is anybody listening or reading, do u care I'm bleeding, having trouble
breathing, I'm the victim of endless teasing, everything unavailable is
appealing, i can't control these lustful feelings, I'm a regular human
being, who is a hopeless optimist and won't stop believing or achieving,
when u finally stop dreaming, letting go of expectation is wonderfully
freeing!
Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)
What a great Sunday fun day, and today is monday, I'm feeling very
relaxed somber and calm, woke up refreshed nice and early without an
alarm, i got some music shit to do, and a whole lot still yet to prove,
mostly to myself, I just realize and can admit I need help, life's a
balancing act, the internet has diluted the truth turning opinion to
fact, I simply can't get over the consciousness people lack, i wanna
shake and wake them up, bug them with an overwhelming amount of love,
but I've been rejected so many times now I just don't give a fuck!
Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)
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