Simply The Best & Blessed

Been plotting planning listing and vision boarding, dealing with alot of procrastination/hoarding, weeding thru so many memories, what tremendous legacies, all my immediate family members had, how are my heart and soul still intact, even astounds me, I'm resilient profoundly, I am my mother and father's son, if ranked they'd be number 1 so I won, either way u say it, double entendred greatness, extremely lucky and blessed, quite simply they were the best! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/25/24

At Peace Eternally

Today my mom was laid to rest, and she really was just the best, I was so blessed, now I'm left with an empty nest, but I can't be sad or mad, I'm so unbelievably humbly grateful for the wonderful family I had, for 42 years, there is no fear, I know my life will be great, my futures bright it's fate, I've got another guardian angel on my side, she is now my spiritual guide, traveling with me everywhere. I've received an abundance of love support and care, I'm simply touched, her light and presence will surely be missed so much, God speed, I'm truly relieved ur with dad and G, at peace eternally, please give em a huge hug for me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/24/24

Appreciative To Fly Free Be Happy & Live

Goin to see Pink again, with a couple of friends, this time she's with Sheryl Crow tho, hopefully they'll do a collabo, it's a beautiful day too, music concerts are just so cool, beautifully engulfed in refreshing healing energy, and I'm sure it'll be epically legendary, I need some relief, a major distraction from all this grief, these guys are the best, the abundance of love and support reminds me how much I'm blessed, overwhelmingly grateful and appreciative, this unrooted bird can finally fly free be happy and live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/21/24

Enough Rough & Tough...I Need Love

Putting on a brave face, trying to make it thru the days, if only there was more time, maybe I could say I'm fine, and actually mean it too, altho my emotional capacity grew, we all have our limits, perhaps we need a refresher in civics, lost our ethics and morals, y'all can't even muster cordial, it's pretty sad, I lost my sister mom and dad, what an exclusive club, I've had enough rough and tough, yes this situation absolutely sucks, but I'm embracing the tremendous abundance of unconditional love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/20/24

Never Ever Forget I'm Beautifully Blessed

It's been a couple days, and I'm still in a haze, just feels weird, not having my mom dad or sis here, only me now, I don't know how, or better yet where to go next, really thinking back west, but it's all a matter of timing, this journey of life is hilly and winding, with my guardian angels, I finally feel like success and happiness are being dangled, actually in grasp/reach, but since I can't teach grief, I love how my poetry and music, is turning out to be pretty therapeutic, helps others and myself get thru, cuz when push comes to shove there's only what u do or don't do, won't wallow nor crumble, remain kind and humble, the future's bright and the best is yet to come, I'll never ever forget the beautifully blessed family I'm from!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/19/24

Mom's Poetic Prayer

Mom's finally at peace, she reunites and remeets so many peeps, such a sad natural part of life, but she no longer has to suffer nor fight, what a warrior woman she was, yes I'll take all actual and virtual condolences kisses and hugs, I feel the love in abundance, I was wicked blessed with familial substance, inherited so much understanding wisdom, incredibly glad dad sis and ur own folks are there to welcome u into his eternal kingdom, til we see each other again, R.I.P./amen!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/17/24

Life Right?!

How do u define a life, I feel like words can't do it right, ur light could never be out of sight or mind, a better family is impossible to find, is that why I chose blood, most guys are duds, not even on my level, if I'm pot ur kettle, far from perfect, but definitely worth it, genuinely loving caring and loyal, treat all peeps like they're authentically royal, with kindness and respect, this pig actually tries to serve and protect, pleasing and saving the world, yes gay but still love girls, cuz they have high E.Q.s, I've never been a teacher tho I just do, and that's not to be arrogant or cocky, I'm about to top the hip hop charts with my poetry and nobody's gonna stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/16/24

Legendary Memories

Crying is cleansing, instead of puking cry and rally's worth mentioning, let it rain, don't hold onto the pain, vulnerability isn't weak, be resilient to defeat, show up for urself, since ur the only one who u can truly help, choose ur family wisely, grief is always untimely, we shouldn't fear death, it's ok to express ur bereft, remember the beautiful memories, my mom dad and sis were all legendary, forever and eternally a part of my legacy too, I couldn't even be me without u!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/14/24

U Can Only Help Urself

Don't fear death it's a part of life, ur defined by how u react to the pain plight and strife, we hurdle cyclically, can u view the world and people not so cynically, don't be judgmental jealous or bitter, u can get wiser without having to be bigger, sometimes yes the truth is hard, but it's worse trying to maintain a webbed farce, keeping ur lies straight, we can't fight fate, so embrace it, communicate shit, instead of avoiding and escaping complacent procrastination, pacing is a totally acceptable and healthy form of meditation, find moderation and balance, bet on ur own talents, cuz fuck help, u can only urself, and then cherish chosen family and friends, who are ride or die to the very end!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/14/24

God's Stupidly Foolishly Beauty

Got to spend yesterday at the beach, I didn't inherit the ability to teach, I just do, like mom taught me to u get thru, no matter how hard it is, handle ur business, everything will be ok, tho it isn't easy being gay, it's not my identity, I'd never mean to harm or offend intentionally, that's simply not my nature, I ain't no judgmental hater nor an alienator debater, let people be, everyone goes thru shit we don't know about nor see, mind ur own beeswax, there are such things as truth free and facts, why should we pay to be born and exist, what the actual fuck is this, where's utopia's socialistic peace with universal bliss, but not for only a select few, capitalism's unsustainably cruel, money's an illusion when we define our own trade and success, humanity has createdly made one giant hot miseducated mess, but then again perhaps that's actually God's beauty, and man can't or too stupidly tries to understand foolishly!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/11/24

Evolution Revolution

What's the harm in, labeling myself RI's leather daddy/rap King Charming, let me be ur ruler, cuz I'm just simply cooler, spitting wisdom in rhyme, this is my shine time, quintessential beacon of light, using music and poetry to fight for what's right, wearing a harness and a crown, having representation is profound, I've never felt welcomed nor included, may not break that glass ceiling but moved it, tired of the same old monotony, gonna inspire change in the world so don't try to stop me, simultaneously leading both a Renaissance revolution, and a transcendent conscious evolution, more towards enlightenment, creatively writing enticing and inviting righteously delighting excitement!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/8/24

Mom's Are Never Too Far

In this moment it's imperative, not to dwell on grief focusing on the negative, experiencing similar loss yet still unprepared, my mom is the person I hold most dear, I wish her eternal peace, I'm sorry if I didn't fulfill her wants and needs, but hope I made her proud, I won't let the dark clouds shroud, ull be the brightest star in my sky, the wind beneath my wings helping me fly high, u are an incredible warrior for love and light, I will never understand ur endless relentless fight, altho I know u passed it on within me, I'm only beginning to see, how beautiful life and the future are, and I know in my heart u will never be too far!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/7/24

The Unkempt Me Almost Empty

Gotta respect her wishes, never been the type to vicariously live thru pictures, I hold the memories in my heart and head, can't imagine too much time left, these two weeks will be the hardest, feeling cardless, like I'm waiting on my next hand, does God listen to our willfull commands on demand, I'm struggling so deep, there are points I wail and weep, almost uncontrollably, my spirit doesn't seem holy, kinda ironic death's an angel, life is being slowly strangled, watching this all unfold, is making me bitter resentful and cold, so I try to shut up and isolate, I don't wanna spread hate, yet I have no control, this unrooting is drastically effecting my essence and soul, how can I fill this hole that's almost empty, y'all about to meet and see the real unkempt me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/7/24

Please Free Me

Living isn't procrastinating dying, holding onto hope at this point is lying, I'm burnt out, and can't fight her bout, I know it's hard to let go, no one's supporting Joe tho, nobody wants to talk truth, it's not my job to help y'all thru, it's supposed to be the other way around, this punishing suffering is profound, like a plot to kill me to avoid her death, I will have no spirit or will to live left, they keep shooting the messenger which is me, I'm sorry to say this but the time may be for her to fly free, there's nothing anyone can do to stop this, for all our sakes we need to accept the only option is hospice!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/6/24

Won't Let Grief Completely Beat Me

Tho far from perfect my mom's the best, she made a beautiful nest, we called home, I never felt alone, even after they're all gone, I know I can weather any storm, she taught me how, her strength is the very definition of wow, it took me a lifetime, so that I might find, approval comes from within, where do I even begin, a million I'm sorries isn't enough, u showed me nothing but unconditional love, with little asked for in return, after every single burn, u helped me resiliently rise again, tho trust was never broken it got bent, rather quite literally, u refuse to wallow in misery, kept persevering thru, like matriarchal glue, simply put she's magical, despite not always being compatible, I felt supported completely, no matter what happens I promise I won't let grief beat me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/4/24

Reap What We Sow

Reap what we sow

Shit ain't superficial it's deep yo

Y'all so empty and hollow

Thinking sorrow's for tomorrow 

But what if there is none hun

Time's under the gun like money an illusion

Wake up and embrace love u hateful fucks

Cuz we just weather better together...kisses and hugs

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/3/24

Humanly Humbling Unconditional Loving

Good days and bad, so grateful for what I have had, especially this long, u can't mourn wrong, honor those gone with success, always live and do ur best, tho there's plight and strife in life, don't let suffering steal nor dim the fight to shine ur light bright, they can't hang with angels, never been fancy or fangled, simply genuine and authentic, no hate or shade but don't assume I'd ever choose to use Ozempic, ain't no magical cure nor fix, even the rich can't achieve happiness/bliss, cuz the basic gist we exist is far beyond money hunny, y'all become numb young and dumb hustly hungry nutty grubby fuddy duddies all troubly, which is wicked fucking disgusting, encompassing nothing remotely close to utopianly conscious non judgment nor begrudging humanly humbling unconditional loving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/3/24