Vigilant Diligent & Dissident

How do I get people to buy my music, the neglect is borderline abusive, this time around I learned the lesson, becoming more independent would be a wise blessing, figure out how to do my own production would be profitable, learning to do videos too would make me unstoppable, perhaps I could help fellow artists, cuz this life is the hardest, I've spent thousands of dollars, for minimal fans and followers, trying to utilize YouTube and Facebook to market myself, but I need some serious help, my goal is to sell 10K albums since my first sold 7, I'm so lucky to have a supportive boyfriend like Kevin, who believes I deserve success, but also keeps me in check, reminding me to stay humble and modest, truthful and honest, without selling out my soul, he warms my heart when it grows cold, cuz the universe sure beats us down, the amount of pain and strife is profound, how I've even made it this far, with this hand dealt in cards, makes me feel magician-like or divine, no longer deal with stress using marijuana beer shots or wine, instead I focus on maintaining stable sustainable and healthy, I don't want fame and fortune I'd rather be wealthy, meaning I've earned enough, doing only what I want and love, in lieu of working a job I can't stand, an occupation doesn't define the man, I'm much greater than what I do for a living, I'd prefer to be giving, than constantly receiving, when I talk about Grammys peeps say keep dreaming, but I'm totally conscious/awake, I hate all these flakes and the fake, pretending they're happy fulfilled and content, I use my art as a therapeutic way to vent, and altho it seems I do it selfishly, it's actually selflessly, I give ya'll my whole being, it's quite existentially freeing, I come with the good and the bad, I don't care if I hurt feelings or make some mad, that's never my intent, Joe Vacca is the equivalent of Clark Kent, JC is the hero, compared to Pac Nas Em Talib Meth Red or IT I'm a nobody/zero, but someday I will be on a few's lists, I refuse to fight with bombs swords guns or fists, guess that makes me a pacifist, determined to be an lgbtq activist, proving that a short bald gay white boy can rap, enough with the discrimination crap, the constitution states all people are created equal, I don't expect u to bow down like I'm regal, but I demand respect, what happened to our government and authorities duty to serve and protect, now it appears we're guilty til proven innocent, imprisonment is imminent listening to a significant magnificent vocal instrument that's vigilant diligent and dissident!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/29/17

Killing Time Writing A New Rhyme

Felt like killing some time, so I thought I'd write a new rhyme, to keep my skills up to par, being an indy artist is hard, I have to wear many hats, and can never get too lax, cuz fans are fickle, they'll diminish and whittle, with each passing moment, there's need for atonement, I can't create songs that fast, I like classic tracks that'll last, soulful and epic, hypnotizing magnetic and electric, I'm very empathetic, focusing on my lyricism and rhetoric, cuz I definitely have something to say, I add value since I'm middle class college educated white and gay, not better just a different perspective, when it comes to hip hop and rap I'm super protective, especially of its legacy, it's easy to get caught up in envy or jealousy, but there's room for us all, everyone on top eventually falls, but that doesn't mean u failed, or have been derailed, it's simply another person's turn, I get more motivated after being burned, especially if done maliciously or viciously, make sure u turn the volume up to focus and really listen to me, this ain't no mumble shit, I try to limit my sarcasm to humbled wit, cuz it can come off as conceited or cocky, I get pumped hearing the theme song to Rocky, reminds me of the good ole soccer days, I've grown so much and in many different ways, no longer wanna be a lawyer, less of a wallflowerish voyeur, outgoing extroverted and brave, don't always behave, try not to worry about an early grave, very stubborn and refuse to cave, but open to criticism and suggestions, I like to switch my style up and keep em guessing, since I don't sing great, I enjoy finding talent to collaborate, I won't strive to be the best, live life with minimal regrets, wonder if I'm passing God's test, wish I could give my mind a rest, from over analyzing and thinking, the years fly by in the blink of an instant, especially as I get older, don't wanna become pessimistically jaded and colder, maintain my hope and faith, when I'm with my boyfriend I feel secure and safe, he's my world my heart my soul, supports me in achieving my dreams and goals, he's extremely compassionate and caring, courageous a lil dangerous and daring, but passionately driven and consistent in his love for me, I get his kisses cuddles and hugs for free, whenever and wherever I want, he's an amazing cook too and should open a restaurant, or he also is interesting in djing and tending bar, no matter what he chooses to do he'll go far, cuz he plays his cards with street smart, not afraid to reach for the stars, sticking together forever we can conquer whatever, I think and believe we truly make each other better!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/28/17

Success Takes A Lil Skill But So Much Is Mostly Luck

The holidays are fast approaching, on selling my music I could use some assistance/coaching, I'm not the best advertising or marketing, how can I stop my heart from hardening, looks like I'm cursed to work an office job, I feel like the universe and God rob, every single day of my life, overwhelmed by financial strife, that I can't focus on what I actually want, people are more concerned with the beat or font, rather that what I'm saying, I refuse to waste anymore time praying, or worrying for the matter, failed expectations just makes me sadder, constantly let down, the anxiety and frustration's profound, got nobody to blame but myself, the psych meds help, but I miss smoking pot a lot, wish a record label would give me a shot, I just know I'm super talented at rapping and writing, try to better my singing and refrain from fighting, especially with drag queens, many fags are mean, self absorbed petty and catty, in the gay world I'm a short bald ugly troll/fatty, except when I'm on the mic, I feel safe secure alright and liked, but only fuckable, not simply huggable or lovable, perhaps I'm trouble, cuz I wanna cuddle, too emotionally needy, why can't I be more business like and greedy, instead of always sharing the wealth, finally got ahold of my health, now I just wanna lose some weight, everyday I'm becoming more and more afraid, of what's happening to our country, this tax bill ain't funny, our democracy's eroding, the hand I was dealt in cards a poker pro would be folding, guess I'm stupid or just gullibly naive, ignorance is a real pet peeve, but I'm human too, another hypocritical fool, striving to change, which makes me uniquely strange, as others prefer to stay the same, to them this is all a silly game, with no consequence or responsibility, they're lackadaisically willy nilly, like they've got endless opportunities and chances, I'm not one of those performers who also dances, I've got a knack for creating songs, that apparently can be too deep intense and long, told don't show intelligence so much, success takes a lil skill but mostly luck, so I guess I'm screwed, altho I've never been booed, very rarely applauded, hope I never get audited, but I would like to achieve my dream, what a Grammy award winning selling out stadiums artist looks like and means!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/21/17

Watch Jaws Drop In Awe As They Gawk

Watching my dreams come to fruition, took tons of persistence listening to my intuition, follow my gut, preach truth consciousness and love, while many suffer in silence, I find it hard to ignore the injustice and violence, all the lies and alternate facts, feel like the collective got stabbed in the back, by our very own commander and chief, who is a corrupt misogynistic pussy grabbing harassing thief, yet keeps being rewarded, look at all the wealth the rich 1% have accumulated and hoarded, it's absolutely disgusting, then pundits wonder why we're so jaded frustrated and mistrusting, I know we portray gullible saps, perhaps our judgment's lapsed, but isn't it enough already, our economy like country is unsteady, a bubble waiting to pop, can this pendulum negatively swinging be stopped, we took many steps forward that were positive, sexual predators for years have been guarded closeted, even worse than the gays, hoping and wishing for better days, seems like crime pays, no matter how much a religious extremist prays, there will be no absolution of sins, until actual and practical change begins, not just talked about happening, this is no time for laughing, we need to alter our fate, before it is too late, between net neutrality taxes and healthcare, they're totally screwing over the elderly poor small businesses and single folks on welfare, how can politicians sleep at night, Congress should be abolished or fired since all they do is fight, further plight and strife, working isn't the purpose to life, it's supposed to help improve the way we live, the middle class are the biggest consumers and charitably give, can't ya'll get past the illusion/deception, there's no protection from a perception infection or inception, maybe we can't break out of the matrix, overwhelmed by the jealousy envy and hatred, the government should get their hands out my pocket, unless u can lyrically rock it, keep ur constructive criticism to urself please, why must we prove we're worthy of being free, isn't it an inalienable right not a privilege, original artists are being compromised raped and pillaged, fuck digital, Napster was pivotal, now people expect unlimited access to music, this is why we don't have nice things we abuse it, there's a limit to equality, I swear solemnly, that I will continue writing and fighting, pave the way thru the darkness using enlightenment, so we existentially elevate, the human race has the potential to be great, especially when confronted with insurmountable obstacles just watch in awe, ur jaws will drop in amazement as u gawk, we'll prove u wrong, I believe I have the power to change the whole world with one simple song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

12/18/17     

Mr. Ignorant Naive Buffoon

Suffice to say I don't suffer in silence, how do u turn a blind eye to injustice and violence, I hate not having any control, the most difficult thing to do is trust enough to let go, I'm done with advice, both giving and taking just gonna live my life, focus on myself, since u wanna be left alone and don't need my help, I suck at support, apparently a lousy cohort, a selfish attention seeker, a lying whore and a manipulative cheater, well I got news for u, I have problems too, it's not a competition of who's got it worse, ur nasty texts and words hurt, underestimating how much I care, intimidate using threats and fear, u reap what uve sown, now u can live ur last days alone, I'm done, u won, stop wishing u were dead, I've got a bright future ahead, keeping the negative closeted, pretending to be positive, makes u a fraud, I shouldn't be surprised look at the illusions we're taught, everyone portrays something they're not, unappreciative of what they've got, no matter how hard I work, I wind up the egocentric asshole/jerk, well I'm over the hateful shit, this isn't a healthy relationship, it's been a never ending one way street, I'm not good at accepting defeat, but I believe this is for the best, exhausted being treated and feeling less, all u do is criticize and complain, show me contempt and disdain, unless there are other people around, then u profoundly turn into a clown, tired of u putting me down, ur no longer allowed to keep me bound, I should be valued and treasured, I existed for ur pleasure, but u read me wrong, despised when I sang in a song, so here's ur Christmas wish, ur single now bitch, hope ur happy, misery loves company so here's to feeling crappy, fuck this holiday season, what's the point reason or meaning, life seems to be a sad tragedy, big whoop again ur mad at me, same old tune, no more Mr. Ignorant Naive Buffoon, I know my worth, putting myself first, it's time to grow up, go out and find real love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/15/17

Fuck Glammy Shammy Chestnuts We Got S'Mores

Getting more and more into the holiday spirit, we say we're listening but do u hear it, sleigh bells ringing, carolers singing, the jolly joy in the air, one of my biggest fears, is people spending xmas alone, all are welcome to our Italian home, with tons of food to eat, kick off ur shoes and relax ur feet, it's time for celebration and cheer, we leave eggnog for Santa and carrots for the reindeer, make sure the kids are to bed early, believing isn't just for children it's for the big and burly, have a lil faith, show some amazing grace, it's all about family, ignore the cheesy glammy and shammy, just go with it, ho ho ho and shit, cuz it only comes once a year, teach the youth how to give and share, there are so many less fortunate, since the 1% keep hoarding it, u know all the wealth, be grateful for ur health, now's the chance, to rejoice and dance, to the songs by the Queen Mariah, let her voice take u higher, and touch the heavens, I just wanna be with and cuddle Kevin, fuck chestnuts let's roast s'mores, don't get all stressed out doing chores, it's for a good cause, no thanks needed or applause, the smile on their faces, wipes away and erases, the frustration and resentment, make peace and betterment, a global New Years resolution/mission, happiness isn't a condition, like fulfillment it's a purpose, nobody is worthless, every single person has value, donate not for a write off or cuz u have to, helping others helps ourselves, do u know the words to "Frosty The Snowman" and "Jingle Bells", how about the spoof versions, I have a feeling old Jack Frost is somewhere lingering and lurking, ready to blow snow, ur whole body shivers from just cold toes, don't forget the hat and mittens or gloves, cherish the ones u love, but remember those we've lost, Grandma K was a boss, and I'm sure she's with us always in our hearts, I sure do miss her a lot, and not just for her cooking and desserts, but whenever I was sick she was my nurse, yet now I have a man, nobody spoils me the way he can, he gives me everything I need, we minimally decorated with window candles a tree and some wreaths, I know it sounds rather chintzy, but anymore and I would've become kinda Grinchy, I've gotten lazier as I've gotten older, a lack of financial stability has put added weight on my shoulders, I'm really struggling to just get by, trying not to let my soul turn black like a dead guy, I'd rather shine like a bright white light, guiding ya'll thru the deep dark night, full moon style or similar to the north star, cuz whether ur near or far, it reminds u to be who u truly are, we set our own bar and par, so keep dreaming and believing, never letting anyone or anything ruin ur holiday season!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/11/17 

He's My Cup Of Tea

Lately before I go to sleep I pray, that tomorrow things will start to go his way, I've been in his position before, I think at some point we all want more, especially at a time when it seems like all is lost, to me he'll always be my sexy boss, he's so magnetic and charming, when he's down in the dumps it's alarming, cuz he's a fighter, hand him my lighter, so he can destress smoking a cig, at home is no place for him to live, it is literally hell, all the stories he tells, are straight up sad and disheartening, I understand why he's hardening, his soul has lost hope and trust, which has diminished his lust, I feel he's giving up, how do u help someone u love, when it's beyond ur control, when he's not around there's a huge hole, I miss cuddling with him, wish we could both get permanent jobs so our life together can begin, start a family of our own, build ourselves a happy home, just like everybody else, simply seeing him makes me melt, I know he's not everyone's cup of tea, but he does it for me, on every single level, he even nags me when I get lazy and disheveled, we shave each other's heads, we could spend all day in bed, he's a great caretaker and an amazing cook, it's true what they say how love finds u when u don't look, he's my support system my light, yes we often bicker and fight, but there's no one else I'd rather do it with, after all perfection is only a myth, no relationship is flawless, many people think he's gorgeous, sorry not sorry but he's all mine, doesn't have to try to wine and dine, I want to be there, continue to show how much I care, reciprocity is so important to me, I hate it when he has to leave, someday soon I know, there will be no woahs, just lots of joy, of course boys need toys, and I have quite a few in mind, cherish each moment cuz there's no rewind, leave the past behind, don't get too caught up in the day to day grind, u can work too much, shouldn't let money be a crutch, it's meant to be spent, not debt free but have made a substantial dent, I'll keep persistently chipping away, I'm not afraid, he gives me the confidence to be brave, just one kiss from his lips and I'm saved, like I can conquer the world, no matter the curve balls hurled, or how many punches the universe throws, like a see-saw we all experience highs and lows, whether we yo-yo or ying-yang, always stay true to u and do ur thang, everything has a reason purpose and meaning, u ain't dreaming, this is reality, don't become another tragedy, u shouldn't strive to be the best, only we get to decide and define success, won't settle for less, don't care if he's a mess, fuck alcohol pot shrooms or pills, as long as I've got my man I'm happy and fulfilled, !

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/6/17

Excess Power & Money Is Lethal & Should Be Illegal

Jobs can get real old fast, but don't look back on those that didn't last, everything happens for a reason, I often wonder if I'm worthy and have meaning, nothing I truly want or desire comes to fruition, people think I'm naive and ignorant for what I'm dreaming and wishing, I mean honestly Joe a Grammy, most don't understand me, that poetry and music are my passion, I refuse to settle and not take action, I will die trying, lately I've been crying, cuz I don't seem to get the results I was hoping for, shouldn't start doping more, to numb the pain, I'm done playing games, u can call me names, think I'm only after fortune and fame, but that's so far from the truth, I want a modest wardrobe car and roof, I'd rather travel, avoid jail or the judge's gravel, cuz I ain't no ghetto gangster or thug, I wanna spread consciousness and more love, cuz the world needs it especially now, I am confused as to when or how, this country will make a turn around or about, too many powerful misusing their clout, what's wrong with people, why are we perpetuating evil, victim blaming and shaming, do u even hear what these rap artists are saying, their lyrics are misogynistic demeaning and disgusting, I don't wanna be the product of crazy stalkers envying or lusting, which some may think is a compliment or flattering, stop excusing assaulting and battering, let's start investigating the current President, everyone deserves a fair trial verdict instead of anonymous allegations without evidence, what happened to innocent til proven guilty, I think we can all be a lil disrespectful overly flirtatious and filthy, dirty talk can be hot, but it matters if the desire was consensual or not, cuz then it becomes rape, which shouldn't be used to exploit or get revenge against a bad boss celebrity or a regretful date, society's gone awry, hell must've froze over and pigs can fly, perhaps maybe the sky is falling, we're not heeding God or mother nature calling, instead we go on polluting, unempathetic is what we're exuding, lacking compassion, proclaiming the homeless unemployed poor are lazy and simply slacking, less and less helping donating or giving, what kind of life are we living, ruled by money and fear, it isn't funny our own government doesn't care, their totally self serving and preserving, yet we apparently aren't deserving nor learning, falling for the same old shticks and tricks, like we're being persecuted just for kicks, 99% of us slaves, worked to the bone/our graves, which we dug ourselves, why don't the rich share the wealth, I mean when one person has billions of dollars that's unnecessary, redistribution shouldn't be discretionary, that type of concentration must be illegal, cuz especially when it comes to the economy that is surely lethal!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/1/17

Oh Well

Full of mixed emotions, between high school drama and commotion, and celebrating 7 months, some people can be cunts, I don't like ultimatums or choosing sides, the best relationships endure thru both low and high times, I find the 9 to 5 grind, divides hearts and minds, where best friends become estranged, the one constant is things always change, it's how we adapt, not letting distance or the weeks that lapsed, come between us, is as difficult as differentiating love from just lust, marriage takes guts, many think it's nuts, to be with one person, especially with over population lurking, there are a plethora of fish in the sea, speaking metaphorically, the trick is finding another who can put up and tolerate u, along with all the quirky pet peeves we have and do, I mean I know I'm crazy, can be stubborn and occasionally lazy, as well as a loud mouth, who loves to verbally spar and bout, to my own detriment, I'm trying to focus more on my betterment, growing and evolving, quietly problem solving, instead of being Mr. know-it-all, I too am a human who fallibly falters and falls, very far from perfect, can admit when I earned or deserved it a guilty verdict, cuz I fucked up, now the door's stuck shut, slammed in my face, feel awfully bad/disgraced, rather be sprayed with mace, and would do whatever it takes, to make things right, I stay away at night, thinking about what I did wrong, often express myself thru poetry or song, it would be a lie to apologize, so I guess it's my fault for the demise, I was never really a part of that group, meaning there's no loss to recapture or recoup, but that doesn't diminish my sadness, this world's being corrupted by chaos and madness, and we're all we got, like it or not, we need each other, I always considered u a brother, I'm sorry I don't care for ur wife, but like my song says "That's Life", "and the bullshit won't quit", so folks that's it, I won't be attending my besty's bday bowling party, and I'd imagine my invites will be rare and pretty spotty, but oh well, if u couldn't tell, I'm gonna simply move on, maybe our past moment was a fluke or a true con, driven by circumstance and dumb luck, do u find it hard to openly just trust, because of old memories, if so what's the therapy/cure/remedy, how do u not only forgive but forget, and not let that shit get u upset, I try not to hate or wish anyone dead, over analyze shady situations in my head, gotta learn to let it go, pick my battles and avoid low blows, sinking to a vengeful level, which reminds me how often war helps to settle, it doesn't, let me make that abundantly clear if it wasn't, since ignorance believes truth is moot, u can dispute proof, but claims of fake news have been disproved, perhaps ur afraid to be incorrect or lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/22/17     

Pray For My Unforgettable Special Sentimental Exceptional Essential Pretzel/Soulmate

Please send hopes best wishes and prayers, to so many struggling loved ones we hold dear, whether financially burdened, or their health's hurting, this world's becoming a very dark and scary place, can't help but wonder and fear fate, the good are dying young, too much work and no fun, leaves the hard working poor stressed, debit and credit card debt's a mess, from being unemployed so long, my savings is gone, I can't even give to help, cuz I won't have enough for myself, why all the evil and hate, we are being disgraced, corruption is progressing, cuz of Trump I'm guessing, the deplorables are out in droves, infiltrating hearts and homes, so it's impossible to tell who the bad guys are, I don't need flashy jewels or cars, just wanna get from point A to B, fuck living in the lap of luxury, I'd rather remain humble and modest, a decent day job a partner and the ability to pursue music if I'm being honest, so I can afford an apartment with my man, he's my biggest fan, believing in me even when I don't, wish I had a cushion so I wouldn't be afraid to rock the boat, and go after my passion/dream, we make an undeniably sexy team, but mainly he is my rock, not just a big cock dom top, he's compassionate and caring, positively brave and daring, putting me first, not being able to reciprocate hurts, he melts the pressure anxiety and pain, yet his problems are driving me insane, I can't do anything so the frustration keeps building, I'm ready able and willing, to do whatever it is I have to, to increase our worth and value, he deserves a fair shot, but the odds are against him a lot, so he falls thru the cracks, I want him to know we unconditionally got each other's backs, thru the thick and the thin, I truly believe he will eventually win, not only get up on his feet, but thrive and succeed, he's so determined and driven, to never relapse or go to prison, he has not only changed but grown, it's not about what he has or owns, I love him just because, he is more than enough, fulfilling all my lust wants and needs, he should focus on what he eats and sleep, both are so so important, he comes off a bit like an orphan, cuz his family doesn't accept him nor treat him right, everyday they bicker and fight, belittle and insult him, yet I very rarely hear him sulking, I just want to do more, to help him be happy at his core, he's such an amazing guy, I'm super duper lucky I get to call him mine, he's a diamond in the rough/one in a million, he makes every moment I'm with him exciting and thrilling, our chemistry is electric, we're both so competitive, and in many ways complimenting opposites, he lifts my self esteem up from feeling like a fat ugly troll or hobbit, he's undeniably special, putting up with me when I'm a mental stressful vessel of a devil, a rebel spectacle that stubbornly argues and verbally wrestles, who'd never settle for a potential speckle of time together in our penciled schedules, he's got several fine essential qualities/exceptional credentials, and there's no one I'd rather be intertwined with like a pretzel, with a high level of sentimental, I often wonder if he was the real inspiration behind the song "Unforgettable"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/21/17   

Uncivilized Totally Indecent

Can't ever catch a break, being doomed seems fate, basically I worked extra for free, sick of my mantra "whoa is me", it doesn't pay being nice, u get taken advantage of in this life, stepped on and walked over, yet still feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, just trying to get by, without the luxury of getting high, staying sober clear headed, has become mind numbing and dreaded, all I want to do is forget, the seconds minutes hours days weeks and years I have left, not that I'm promised, what's the point of being honest, if u lie cheat and steal u succeed, truth justice and inequality I no longer believe, it was simply a hoax, I'm blessed to have my folks, but cursed with luck, just stuck in the mud, covered in shit, sometimes I don't wanna live, it's too painful to face, the constant failure and disgrace, I bring about, so tired having to bout, to get what I deserve, and rightfully earned, instead I get slighted, if ur gonna borrow my rhymes I better be cited, at least given credit, there's so much I've regretted, like giving too much, I don't have enough, compromised and sacrificed for nothing, too trusting and loving, I'm basically an ignorant fool, a used and abused tool, for others to get ahead, but I've made my own bed, so I guess it's time to lie down, the lessons I learned are quite profound, no good deed goes unpunished, perhaps my works are destined to be unreleased and unpublished, I can't afford it, would be nice to be appreciated and awarded, but it seems to be only a pipe dream, I'll indulge in some more ice cream, at least I can temporarily be happy and fulfilled, which is a better alternative to crappy and ill willed, I wanna start spreading hate, cuz all I ever do is wait, for my turn to be ignored, I'm wish I could be one of Tupac's Outlawz, cuz hip hop today sucks, and the fans don't give 2 fucks, for talented lyricism with substance, they prefer videos like 2 girls 1 cup or of a celebrity/star receiving a blumpkin, society is plain gross, the sheeple are vain and morose, yet bondage and sucking on sweaty stinky toes comes close, most friends have turned foes, out of jealousy and spite, all the pollution's suffocated my bright light, so my smile is gone, humans are the devil's spawn, like a Cancer, when did become necessary for singers and rappers to be dancers, ya'll always want more, maybe the rich are whores, selling their heart and souls for wealth, I'm exhausted playing the hand of cards dealt, I give up, evil runs amok, and no one cares, we're ruled by fear, can't conquer the ego, we need a new credo, cuz the golden rule doesn't apply, empathy's awry we're uncivilized, totally indecent, we've lost value worth and meaning for no reason, what if Trump did commit treason, can't turn back time or change the season, how do we stop the hemorrhaging/bleeding, I've been kneeling reeling begging and pleading, but God won't take any meetings, seems impossible to shatter that glass ceiling!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/20/17 

Let's Make Earth Great

Looking to help, inspire myself, lately I've been feeling down and depressed, like I'm less than best, which is actually just fine, perfection is similar to the horizon line, receding as we approach, perhaps I need a life coach, cuz this relationship, got me hating shit, like gossiping rumors, swastika humor, offensiveness isn't funny, I'm not always smiley nor sunny, got a wide range of emotion, what's all the commotion, not all gays are pedophiles and not all pedophiles are gay, Kevin Spacey came out the wrong way, and set our community back ages, Dems are finally winning some races, it's about damn time, evil has been stoked and primed, ruling thru fear and hate, let's make Earth great, not just one country, I miss music that's soulful and sultry, with some intellect and depth, most these rappers and singers are inept, when it comes to songwriting, videos are consumed with sexy thong sightings, cuz it's what sells, true talent's gone to hell, I'm sure Britney and Madonna are entertaining, but I wanna hear them vocally straining, instead of dancing lip syncing, concerts are more about drugging and drinking, I want fun experiences with substance, it's not size but circumference, how u work the girth, making love shouldn't hurt, was it pleasurable, success and happiness are immeasurable, and have nothing to do with wealth, never shelf ur health, ur body is ur one and only temple, it's not a rental, appreciate what uve got, like it or not, God made u beautiful, ur morals ought to be immovable, where's our ethics and pride, so many epic classic artists have died, yet nobody's stepping up, fuck skills it's who u know and dumb luck, the industry like our government is greedy and corrupt, awww shucks it's rough and tough, cuz ur not buff enough, trust u need that 6 pack lust, can't be short bald and fat, people closest to u will stab u in the back, for fortune and fame, commence the blame game, they're mad u didn't share with them, what will it take to get me to care again, poetry is my therapy, to get the better me, reread and observe, solutions and answers lurk, somewhere within, when will the healing begin, criticism makes me defensive, fulfilling my dream's expensive, humans don't use history to learn lessons, failure can ironically be a blessing, it's how u react, stop rationalizing with alternative facts, no matter how hard u try, u can't justify a lie, when the truth's aloof, it breeds fools and goofs, who in turn produce ignorant slaves, we desperately need to existentially elevate and change our ways, before we're doomed and it's too late, don't have the luxury to wait, I've heard ya'll say ull pray, religious extremists are intertwined with the KKK, black white guy girl trans gay bi or straight, we all must unite together to alter our destiny/fate!

Peace and 1, 

Joe Conscious

11/15/17 

Heart Of Gold With A Whole Lotta Soul

I'm not the easiest person to have a relationship with, tho true love takes work it's a rare gift, nothing is perfect, it's ok to make a mistake if u learn from it, I'm a hot headed loud stubborn Italian, and boy is my man a stallion, can cook kind and considerate, many may think we're illegitimate, but we're 100% real, we don't care to hear ur judgments or how u feel, unless it's a compliment, we don't need no marriage certificate/document, to validate what we have, when he gets hit on I just laugh, cuz I know u ain't got a chance, I wish I could better dance, since he loves to do that, he's super supportive and always has my back, believes in me even when I don't, sometimes I regret what I said and wrote, cuz it was out of anger, it's sad when a good childhood friend becomes a stranger, fame brings fortune along with danger, but since neither one of us could afford Patti Stanger, we used Scruff, he claims to have zip tie cuffs, which I find hot and sexy, the best thing about him is he gets and accepts me, we gotta figure out how to agree to disagree, be together monogamously yet still be free, to live some semblance of our old lives, I hate that I'm sometimes the cause of his hives, I stress him out, when we constantly bicker and bout, I'm naturally combative antagonistic and defensive, I find mere existence unnecessarily expensive and offensive, especially education and health insurance, fines and penalties should be a deterrence, not bankrupt people to go broke, the judicial system like government's a joke, in total chaos and ruins, the sheeple pay more attention to the Sox Patriots and Bruins, don't even get me started on electoral college elected Trump, he's turning this country into a dump, how can he make America great again when it never was, no one holds him accountable for the awful atrocities he says and does, the rich are somehow exempt, I refuse to be a robotic slave who's kept, I don't want or need no sugar daddy, I ain't no worthless dumb faggy fatty, I try to stay fit, seriously don't give a shit, if u like me or not, I give all that I got, to fulfill my hopes wishes dreams and desires, when people tell me I can't I simply reach higher, watch me prove u wrong, then write and inspire with another phenomenal song, I'm talented and skilled, can move u and give chills, very driven and strong willed, I pay my own bills, and still help others, treat everyone with respect like they're my sisters and brothers, got a heart of gold, this shorty bald white boy's got a whole lotta soul, wanna make this world a safer peaceful place, leading by example with poise dignity style and grace, so unique and different, time flies by in the blink of an instant, seize every opportunity and moment, take ur destiny back and own it, the power lies within, remember that in order to finish we must begin!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/10/17

A Catch & A Find

I know it seems like things are impossibly hard, fuck batteries wish the Energizer Bunny would charge his heart, my poor baby, there's no ifs ands buts or maybes, I promise it will get better, we can conquer anything together, focus on your health, while I work on our wealth, ur new job's only a couple weeks away, don't let ur hopeful positive optimism diminish or fray, ur stronger than u think, tho u feel on the edge/brink, it isn't over til that fat lady sings, u don't understand the amount of happiness and joy ur simple presence brings, I had given up, on ever finding true love, forget getting married, I don't wanna wind up Mariah Careyed, super successful but alone, I want us to make our own beautiful home, where u cook and clean, we have passionate kinky sex like fiends, but we both fulfill our dreams, an unstoppable team, ur the light of my life, with a big bear hug u melt the pain and strife, I miss ur kiss, being in ur arms is sheer unadulterated bliss, u inspire me, spark fire and glee, to warm my soul, time and space takes a toll, but it won't destroy us, this isn't just boy lust, tho ur my first, only u quench my thirst, believe me I've looked all over, u hold the weight of the world on ur shoulders, but u don't have to anymore, stand beside me on many tours, when I perform concerts in stadiums and arenas, if ur my Zeus I guess I'm Athena, I'm totally ok with that, knowing uve got my back, I can be brave, when I'm around u I have trouble trying to behave, cuz u make me so horny, awkward babbling and corny, I lose my nerve, being without u hurts, I've tried, lied and cried, ask myself why, what would I do if u died, never getting the chance to have that dance with my husband, I'm reluctant while he's untrusting, we both want a monogamous relationship of substance, I prefer karaoke bars over clubbing, quite the complimenting opposites, he wants country while I'm more metropolis, but there's always compromise, to homogenize our lives, nothing's perfect, but it's worth it, striving to blend, heal and mend, when fighting and bickering, our eternal flame's flickering, but refuses to burn out, every dead end is a turnabout, and when there's a fork in the road, a mountain or moat, flip a coin climb fly or boat, don't gloat, stay humble and kind, he's a catch and I'm a find, two peas in a pod, he's my king/God, I exist to worship, no cats cuz we're both allergic, Lucifer was the devil, and altho he's fun to revel, we are forces of good, knowing we did all we could, to make a difference, ignoring the gossiping and whisperings, following our guts, we'll dig ourselves out of any ruts, rise thrive and prosper, as fathers instill proper honor, whether naturally born or can adopt, either way we won't be stopped, there's absolutely no limits, but ya'll will be in awe when it's all said and done and we're finally finished!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/9/17

Bout Doubt Obnoxious Unconsciousness & Incompetence

We all grow and evolve, changing is a problem like pollution that's not easy to solve, learn and adapt, don't get defensive and attack, cuz ur partner annoyingly nags, he's insecure about the excessive fb tags from fags and hags, it's all about trust, ur the one I lust, no one else, love urself, have hope and faith, our relationship would be great, if u focused on ur own plight and strife, ur lucky to find a soulmate in this life, that's more concerned with money materialism and wealth, than success happiness and health, why can't u chillax, my patience is filled to the max, I'm going to burst and explode, what would describe me better a fat ugly troll a meatball or toad, I see me as talented and beautiful, passionately driven not dutiful, I make music cuz it's my purpose, what did I do to deserve this, an existence plagued with epic failure, instead of hip hop and rap's savior, I'm unique and different, gay and white for instance, not gangster ghetto or hood, the middle class working poor are totally misunderstood, in debt cuz of forced education, being a kinky homo ruins my reputation, but don't doubt there's clout being out loud and proud, use words and lyricism to bout, obnoxious unconsciousness, what's with all the incompetence, I wanna connect inspire and relate, be considered one of the greats, not perfect or the best, refuse to settle for less, especially since I'm trying so damn hard, just cuz I'm sleeveless doesn't mean I don't wear my heart, I'm intelligent and smart, grateful for everything I've been given and got, I was raised right, I like being a "Beacon Of Light", which is my first track, do my songs have substance depth and a positive impact, that's what matters most to me, I can't afford to give away my art for free, I've invested too much, hate when people make a fuss, I'm just a regular person/average Joe, I do dream big tho, reach far "Beyond The Stars", not about mansions jewelry or cars, desperate for some fast cash, please buy my single "Monstah Mash", next up is "Keep Holding On", why don't we appreciate what we have til it's gone, and it's too late, wish I could predict my destiny/fate, I won't be ruled by fear or hate, how long do I have to wait, to become existentially fulfilled, can't start over again from scratch and rebuild, to be better the sixth time around, the repetitious grind is profound, for God sake, will I ever catch a break, why won't ya'll give me a chance, sorry not sorry I don't dance, but I can sure spit, a Gemini guy who's super sarcastic with pure wit, genuine straight forward and direct instead of obliquely cheeky, never meant to judge insult or be too preachy, that's not who I am, gimmicks and tricks are scams, I am 100% real, simply melodically express how I feel, always strive to do as I say and say what I'll do, we gotta collectively stay strong and true to let "Truth Love & Consciousness" "Shine Thru"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/8/17

Don't Rely On Drugs Bucks Or Luck Just Hugs & Love

Hate how money rules my life, it's the cause of most my anguish and strife, if only I had more, I'll tell ya'll what I'd use it for, to make conscious poetic hip hop music, I wouldn't be wasteful and abuse it, I'd share the wealth, focus on better health, could buy organic food, would I be considered shrewd, with it comes power and respect, I'd have to boost security to help protect, everybody wants some, perhaps I'd actually have time for vacation and fun, it's been years, paycheck to paycheck I'm consumed with fear, what if I lose my job again, I can't keep overextending family and friends, I'm even sick of me, wish education and insurance were free, like all the other first world countries, the hypocrisy of our capitalistic democracy isn't funny, it's tragically sad, and often makes me furiously mad, it's corrupt and greedy, why don't the 1% aid the 99% that are struggling and needy, no one said existence was fair, but their so selfish and don't even care, no one needs 5 cars and 3 homes, the majority of working poor can't get loans, the price of goods rises but not incomes, can't afford champagne to go with din sum, not that that sounds appealing, my art gives me a way of expressing how I'm feeling, and hopefully people can connect and relate, pray success is my destiny/fate, cuz I work extremely hard, expose both my soul and heart, putting it all on the line, with deep intellectually stimulating rhymes, it's not only my passion but my purpose, grow greater from experiencing things that hurt us, are u willing to go the length, and find ur inner strength, like love conquer all, get back up with u fall, and phoenixly rise, learn to compromise, but yet don't settle, mind ur own business u shouldn't meddle, focus on the present, altho the past is upsetting, it doesn't dictate what's to come, I won't forget where I'm from, stay humble and modest, genuine straight forward and honest, tomorrow is never promised, give the truth untarnished and unvarnished, there's no such thing as alternative facts, make sure u surround urself with real people who've got ur back, and won't stab u, do things cuz u want not have to, always try ur best, when u sin confess, we all are fallible and make mistakes, nothing's more annoying than fake flakes, ruining ur expectations hopes wishes and dreams, found my partner who works as a team, even when things are rough and tough, there's a foundation built on a whole lotta love, we won't ever give up, and don't rely on luck, tho it seems we're stuck and fucked, all we need is each other not dough or bucks, have enough materialistic possessions, I'm his and he's my obsession, we're addicted like drugs, and all my problems melt away with a kiss and a big bear hug!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/7/17 

Should've Listened

Some people just aren't worth the energy, u can keep thinking ur more righteous and better than me, but I'm done wasting my time, gotta get back on my grind, focus on what lies ahead, I didn't mean it when I wished u dead, it was my hateful rage and anger, hope tho we finally become strangers, cuz I want nothing to do with u, I tried and tried and gave and gave like a stupid fool, should've listened to family and friends, thank God this toxic relationship has come to an end, I was looking for a way out, everyday was another bout, constant threatening emotional and verbal abuse, he pathologically lied manipulated and used, I guess that's what addicts do, love turned to hate so we both lose, I'm not mad I'm sad, ultimately happy and glad, filled with glee, cuz I'm single and free, I wish him nothing but the best, sick of feeling depressed and less, like I'm the bad person, I'll put my head down and concentrate on working, getting a full time permanent job, and ya'll should know the flowing poetry and music won't stop, it's my purpose and passion, inspiring the hope and faith I'm lacking, it's my therapy, diet and exercise is the recipe, to live a healthy life, without him around it'll reduce the amount of pain and strife, he was such a moocher, a trashy alcoholic loser, totally ungrateful, never thankful, couldn't acknowledge his flaws, watch as my career soars, just to prove him wrong, many out there love my songs, I'm far from perfect, but have value and worth it, I deserve more, so over the hostility and war, always having to walk on egg shells and tip toeing, tell u where and when I'm going, like a passive aggressive possessive insecure jealous control freak, ur destiny is dark and bleak, ur ceiling is my floor, I have my choice of windows and doors, while ur trapped in a padded cell, have fun living hell, cuz u get what u give, I won't forget nor forgive, u ruined the best thing u ever had, the epitome of a fag, such a shame u have so much potential, but ull never elevate evolve and become existential, ur not that profound, who even wants u around, enjoy being by urself, once u get insurance please get professional help, u desperately need it, ur soul's black like ur heart so u don't feel shit, ur ice cold empty and hollow, I lead u follow, riding coat tails, when it comes to achieving goals u failed, ur dreams are aloof, I live and speak my truth, cuz I've got guts balls and drive, I keep reimagining all those fake tears u cried, ur perpetual pattern has been exposed, make sure u wear protection when ur dumpster fucking those dirty hoes, now that we are officially over, my smile's bigger and brighter than ever from having that weight lifted off my shoulders!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/3/17 

I Write To Fight Nice

People are drawn to passion, now is the time for action, find something to do u love, smile at a stranger or give them a hug, spread a lil light, war ain't right, salute soldiers' sacrifice, giving up their life, so we can live better, we're stronger united together, let's be brave and free, nobody will censor me, u get both the good and the bad, Geminis switch from mellow to mad, in an instant, everybody is unique and different, it's all about adaptation empathy and acceptance, I question if music success is destined, but I have unwavering hope and faith, my problem is I lack the patience to wait, however I'm an extremely driven hard worker, wish I was a talented twerker, would be great in my video for Monstah Mash, hasn't yet caught fire to help bring in that cash, I don't do it for money, my sarcasm is more cynical truth than funny, and comes off assholishly mean, fuck being discrete, I'm a loud out and proud gay, who isn't afraid to stand up scream and "Shout" now like Otis Day, similar to Kelly Clarkson I wanna "Move U", don't be ignorant naive passive sheeple/fools, relate and connect, pay attention who u vote to elect, this divisiveness is scary, no offense but I want a rugged masculine man who's hairy, it's just a preference, when debating facts it's wise to quote a reference, gives words weight and clout, Pence prefers no homos allowed, hence tolerating Trump, yes we're a melting pot but seems we're becoming a dump, unsustainable and wasteful, why do rappers gotta be ghetto gangster misogynistic prejudice trash instead of intellectually conscious and tasteful, there's no more lyricism, democracy disguises imperialism, it's really about centralized banking and oil, the millennial generation are too lazy coddled and spoiled, but impressively more socialistic, CO2 is great for photosynthesis, terrible for the ozone environment and global warming, conservatives don't believe or heed scientific warnings, taken back to the dark ages, time heals but never erases, follow Pac when rapping "we need to start making some changes", so politically correct nothing phases or enrages, prices increase steadily but not our wages, stop listening to the haters, baby boomers should retire already, X-Ambassadors hit the metaphor on the head with "Unsteady", meanwhile I wanna be more like James Bay and "Let It Go", instead of Truman this is called the "Joe Show", the world revolves around my perception, apparently I'm exempt from heaven, cuz of my sexual proclivities, most fetishes and kinks are rather taboo gross and silly, but who am I to judge, Congress needs to compromise and budge, courts should be fair and just, there's a fine line between love and lust, got guts, or are u another putz, watching countless opportunities pass by, what do they say about the last guy, oh he's nice, fuck polite, I don't use fists to fight, I write!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
11/1/17

Better Off Alone

My story didn't change, ur memory is just delusional and deranged, u rewrite history, why is a mystery, ur worse than Kevin Spacey, u basically raped me, lied from the start, u can't love without a heart, or trust, perhaps u were consumed by addictive lust, I can't stand the constant fighting and bickering, my life is worth living, and being happy, u criticize me constantly and make me feel crappy, ur negative jealous and controlling, right now I need some consoling, cuz I'm truly devastated, u were like Bette said "the wind beneath my wings" that raised and elevated, giving me the ability to fly, now all I can do is cry, but I'm at work, yes I'm the jerk, cuz I didn't give in or take the blame, this is another one of ur mind games, u hate my beats and the way I sing, so I've taken off my ring, u don't know the meaning of support or help, I've had to do everything my God damn self, ur angry from being unfulfilled, all u do is smoke cigs drink and take pills, yet u focus on only my Facebook use, not seeing ur psychological verbal and emotional abuse, I need to let u go, erase any notion of marriage kids or our happy home, I think I'm better off alone, we now have to accept we reaped what we've sown, every single one of ur promises were shit, neither of us can handle communication in this relationship, don't know how or if I can move on, it's hard to accept the truth ur gone, cut me out, even tho u started countless bouts, it's always my fault, I'm locking my soul away in a vault, I'm beaten down and broken, going back to toking, I can't deal, time won't heal, it'll make it worse, I swear I'm cursed, my words hurt, I'm a lying cheating promiscuous flirt, I've lost hope confidence and self esteem, sorry not sorry I'm passionately driven to achieve my dreams, doesn't mean I love u less, never claimed to be perfect nor the best, I hide my insecurities behind defensive sarcasm and jest, last night I couldn't sleep or get rest, u know I hate going to bed upset, I'm consumed with regret, wasting energy and money on u, I'm such a naive gullible fool, fell right into ur trap, so u can stab me in the back, invading my privacy, u push and push and push and push and try me, then play the passive aggressive victim, I swear u wanna see me miserable in a pysch ward or prison, pretending to call the cops, ur manipulation must stop, u never follow thru, with what u say ull do, u fucking hypocrite, I'm done with ur bullshit, it's finally over, I feel like the weight of the world's been lifted from my shoulders, like u said we can't be friends, but I know like Lara Fabian sings"I Will Love Again"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/31/17 

Panic & Manic Antics

Trying to stay positive, means my fears and insecurities stay closeted, so no talk of failure or worthless, criticism often hurts us, especially when it's not constructive, my self esteem and confidence have been abducted, success hasn't yet erupted, fortune and fame are so seductive, but not at the cost of my soul, those lights can be so cold, can u put on an entertaining show, aerial dance or use a pole, distract fans with whistles and bells, sure sex sells, but I'd rather rely on talent, no matter what my effort was valiant, I gave it my all, seems I'm at a dead end/brick wall, I don't want to make anymore music, ur judgmental opinions are borderline abusive, stop poo pooing my ideas, ur anger and frustration's out of fear, just cuz u have unfulfilled desires dreams and ambitions, doesn't mean there isn't time to transition, if u don't like ur life than change it, ignore the uncomfortable strange shit, but don't avoid the improbable, nothing's impossible, unless u give up before u even try, guys it's ok to be vulnerable and cry, it doesn't make u lesser than, or a gay man, that's ignorant thinking, I'm starting the whole peace sign and middle fingering, as a symbol of unity and love, I really don't give a fuck, if ya'll are insulted or offended, wish ur minds bended, so u can understand my perspective, he may not be who I elected, it's what we got tho, go with the flow, if u don't like than fight, voice what u believe is right, there is always a choice, hard to hear with all the white noise, so be loud and proud, don't let negativity shroud with doubt, conquer stereotypes and misnomers, dis those trollers, do not allow strangers to effect u, anonymity can protect too, please refuse and refute the powers of evil, be careful of naive sheeple, they don't know any better, me and u together, are stronger than hate, take back our destiny and fate, we decide, shouldn't run and hide, stand tall, get up when u fall, it happens, follow ur heart's passion, answer ur calling, quit bitching and stalling, those with balls and guts aren't nuts, we've all been stuck in ruts, strive to thrive, be thankful we're alive, grateful for another day, follow thru with what u say, ur reputation is only as good as ur word, watch Mariah slay at the Grammys singing "Fly Like A Bird", it was absolutely amazing and stunning, aren't ya'll tired of running, face ur demons, find ur meaning and reasons, what's ur purpose, I too get nervous, afraid to make a mistake, faint cuz I didn't take a break, to heal or recover, balance may never be discovered, just like equilibrium or perfection, every single human being is a god sent blessing, embrace our differences and uniqueness, don't be consumed by mediocrity's bleakness, money awards and medals, aren't what makes a person special, it's the deeds, do ya'll actually listen when someone speaks, what about the lyricism in hip hop or rap, keep falling for the tick tock trap, yet another illusion, the constant chaos and confusion, causes mass hysteria and panic, enough with the conservative's manic antics, capitalism's got jealousy and competition rampant, socialism is about collective enhancement, not just for the wealthy few, the elderly and poor deserve to be affordably healthy too, society is becoming disgusting, look at the politicians we're entrusting, treating the majority like we're nothing, government is terrible at budgeting, lining their own pockets, why does catastrophic atrocity have to stop it, the bad behavior, I truly believe Bernie's our savior, he was the only one talking substance, had perpetually fought for equality and social justice, marched protested and rallied, why can't we find our happy, seems our legacy is lost, logically value equals cost, but the truth is aloof like the answer, let's eradicate HIV Alzheimer's and Cancer, homelessness hunger and poverty, unnecessary greed really bothers me, there's enough to share and go around, the death of the dollar yen euro and pound would be profound, so we'd have to rely on trading and bartering, this new history we're carving is alarming harming and so not honoring, what our four father's had envisioned, we need to break free from being enslaved and imprisoned!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

10/30/17 

Disciples Middle Fingering

What happens when ur expectations are let down, the impact to ur self esteem can be profound, I never said I was the best, I hide my insecurities behind sarcasm and jest, especially when it comes to my music, criticism can be borderline abusive, because most of the times it's not constructive, confidence can be abducted, how many songs have u written and sold, I'm not doing it for the accolades going platinum diamond or gold, it's a form of therapy, if u think ur better than me, put out ur own, don't be jealous of my parent's home, it's not mine, I hate the response fine, what's ur honest opinion, Earth is everyone's dominion, there's no one ruler president or king, of course I care what other people think, I'm a starving artist, so I work the hardest, of anyone I know, I do both, a day job and follow my dream, it's not easy maintaining motivational steam, with slandering judgmental critics, most pop stars use shticks tricks and gimmicks, but I still got respect for them, I probably won't put out another album again, I've lost the fulfillment fun and passion, plus it's disheartening getting tongue lashings, how I'm spoiled with a silver spoon, I swear u want my reputation ruined, so u have me all to urself, taking control doesn't help, I want it like Frank "My Way", won't hide the fact I'm gay, it's not what every track is about, but I'm entitled and allowed, to speak on my point of view, why do u gotta be so cruel, making fun of my ideas, ur anger stems from fear, I don't need u, remind me to breathe dude, ur the man I chose, falling victim to gossip and rumors blows, all I ever really wanted, was our souls to be bonded, together as one, I love u a ton, but I still have goals and ambition, must have patience going thru this transition, rushing the present, focusing too much on the past and future builds resentment, concentrate on the now, let's milk each other like cows, so we're not so horny, maybe I want my videos to be sexy cheesy spoofy spooky and a lil corny, I'm open to ur perspective, but can't stand being over protected, I need my freedom and independence, why do u keep envying my transcendence, u have ur talents and skills, I've earned my dollar bills, I didn't steal, I poetically expressed how I feel, in an attractive addicting relatable fashion, stand by my side is what I'm asking, be trustworthy and loyal, we aren't royal, there's no rules how to behave, let's start the human wave, with peace and one love signs, these are dark times, so I try to spread a lil light, consciousness is a fight, with so many zombies, it's impossible to debate calmly, when all parties are stubborn, I hate the way this country's being governed, what happened to the land of opportunity, nobody's looking out for their village or community, we're so divisive and divided, wish the boomers would finally be retired, so the next generation can take hold, we need to be bold and break the mold, the old way doesn't cut it, got too flustered I stuttered, gave up on hope and faith, this world can't be fixed with duct tape, with extreme inequity of distribution of wealth, why are we the wealthiest country but don't have free college or coverage for health, it's ridiculous, politicians are hypocrites, will lie straight to ur face, show poise and grace, then once elected into office, fill their wallets and moralless,  manipulative disgusting frauds, kids today have trouble cutting umbilical chords, cuz life is way to expensive, our collective debt is extensive, but who do we owe, our leader once had his own reality tv show, that is our prime example, the virtuous and righteous good are getting trampled, ethics have gone awry, Congress makes me wanna cry, my brain is fried, everything seems to have been tried, but our problems aren't solved, no one's sins are absolved, we're inherently fallible, the irrational radical are not palatable, in fact they leave a sour taste lingering, that's why my disciples are middle fingering, we've absolutely had it, sick of the 1% hoarding living lavish, we want our fair share, but if we dare swear, revolt or resist, their legions of armies bombs guns and ammo far outmatch our fists, we don't have a chance in hell to compete, inevitably we'll meet defeat!

Paused In Awe Amazed Jaw Dropping Gaze

Don't mean to delay dilly dally or doddle, there's so many financial obstacles, that get in the way, trying to make music today, big studios aren't worth it, but a record deal would seem perfect, until it's time to pay back what u owe, that's how many bankruptcies unfold, the trick is it's all about exposure, when the camera's rolling can u keep ur composure, do u get stage fright, fight for the limelight, or are u afraid of success, do u feel u tried ur best, in the end that's all that matters, many singers and rappers try to be actors, branding themselves, having sponsors and investors helps, believe me, money makes u free, from following the rules, allows u to pick and choose, without the stress or burden of bills and debt, not pursuing my passion would make me regret, it's my purpose and destiny, I care about lyrics and legacy, I write heartfelt thought provoking classics, sarcastic scholastic massive magic for the masses, to leisurely enjoy, I wanna be employed, hence the day job, I work and play hard, but I lack luck, consumed with mad mistrust, got guts and love, but it's not enough, perhaps I selfishly want too much, if one young gay boy or man fan is moved and touched, by the power of my words, it eradicates and erases the hurt, from feeling like a failure, altho paparazzi will probably nag and tail ya, it's the price of fame, this isn't just a hobby or a game, it's serious business, I watch the Grammys and think what is this, pop garbage art, lacking soul substance and heart, with one simple single, that makes even ur pimples tingle, I could become rich, gotta find my niche, my specific audience, not interested in shticks gimmicks or oversexualized gaudiness, judge me on my talent, my effort's been valiant, but I'm doing something wrong, everyone that listens to or sees me perform songs, can't stop their jaw dropping gaze, truly paused in awe amazed, my goal's to inspire and relate, strike up conscious debate, collaboration is great, hopefully RI isn't my fate, but if it is that's ok, tho I'm gay I'll still have faith and pray, I know it will continue to get better, with me and my man together, we're strong and resilient, existence is about finding happiness and fulfillment, focus on the now, don't wonder why or how, let shit go and let it be, change the pronoun from I to we, be whole instead of a half, find joy smile and laugh, remember everyone has a lil good and bad, may seem mad but really sad, appearances can be deceiving, all life has value should be mourned and deserves grieving, but death's not the end, while they're here take comfort and pride in ur family and friends, won't be long, til we're all gone, who knows if our spirit's reborn, deformed scorned, the devil's spawn, or beautiful angels in heaven soaring!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/26/17

Unconditionally Believing Ur My #1

I'm over here crying, cuz I keep trying and trying, but there's no forward motion or luck, it's like I'm just stuck in a rut, that I can't seem to get out of, another bout with my love, it's a never ending battle, so easily shook shaken and rattled, such a big lapse of trust, fix this vast gap with cuddles kisses and hugs, lie close and tightly hold me, consolingly, allow the future to unravel and unfold free, could go for a Gansett Captain & Coke or cran and raspberry Stoli, it's been that kind of a year never mind week or day, a few people have said I'm too caught up with being gay, which I find a weird thing to hear, don't project onto me ur insecurities and fears, I'm sorry if my oppression offends u, ud rather be an ignorant naive buffoon prude who's a fool too to boot, I mean really, jokes may seem harmless and silly, but sometimes they cut deep, we're all going thru tough stuff nobody else sees, but we aren't alone, I was lucky enough to be raised in an amazing home, with unbelievably kind loving folks, growing up and old ain't no joke, doesn't get any easier, what u thought were friends show that they're actually deceivingly sleazier, we each own many masks, following thru with dreams goals and/or simple tasks, always take pride, don't lie shy away or hide, yes u are both smart and beautiful, love should be irrefutable immovable indisputable reusable computable irreducible so suitable it's pretty musical, magnificently magical, seems supernatural, we need to keep Earth habitable, am I sexy/grabbable, or a fat ugly sad nag, who doesn't appreciate anything he has, shouldn't use nigga or fag, I ain't mad, I'm hurt, feel devalued without worth, been cursed since birth, my height went toward my girth, and I'm bald too but I'm ok with that, unlike being betrayed let down or stabbed in the back, and especially whack rap, how and why do u even put up with the same crap, guess I'm just a sorry sap, hangry and desperately in need of a nap, finding it hard to find my smile and laugh, seal the latch and add that strap, so there's no escape, refuse to let love turn to hate, is solitude my fate, success is great, but I want to share it with someone, wish I didn't take life personally or so serious and had more fun, it's a one and done thang, I can't get it out my head u don't wanna hear me sang, retract ur claws and fangs, I ain't no William Hung trying do cover "She Bangs", I got real skills and talent, idolize the righteous virtuous and valiant, be as humble and honest as possible, only say improbable, to avoid manifest destinying being self defeating, all it takes is some hope faith and unconditionally believing, I'm retrieving achieving and seeing what I'm dreaming, my bright white light is beaming gleaming, express urself and what ur feeling, whatever ur logic reasoning and meaning, every relationship changes like seasons, may take time for healing and grieving, my heart's both beating and bleeding, I'm seething watching u leaving, I despise cooking and cleaning, it's only u I'm wanting and needing, begging and pleading, kneeling ready for pleasing, even a humiliating demeaning beating, if that's what it takes, to make up for all the mistakes I made, I'll stay chaste and depraved, give in bow down and cave, ur my fantasy man, understand I will do anything I can, so please just stop, on the list of priorities ur at the top!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/25/17

The Moral Man's Burden

If unconditional approval is what u seek, ur expectations will inevitably meet defeat, u can't please everyone hun, try not to take life too seriously have some fun, cuz u only wind up dead, stay grounded and keep a level head, as much as possible, make sure to say improbable, anything can be accomplished if we try, don't blindly accept shit ask why, too many have become numb and complacent, our laws have turned antiquated and ancient, what has to happen for us to dramatically change, this past election's outcome I still find deranged and strange, it just doesn't make sense, now more than ever this country's divided stressed and tense, constantly on edge, wish I had got my passport and fled, cuz I wanna live somewhere more socialistic, some define me as too emotionalistic, yes that is a word, underestimation and doubt hurts, I'm so sick and tired, of being a temp that never gets permanently hired, while my bosses receive promotions, u haven't seen a bipolar Gemini commotion, but I'm on the brink of breaking, my heart's aching from all the flaking and faking, people pretending their happy and available, yet their sexual appetite is insatiable, even ruining their sacred family, most don't stomach and can't stand me, so they won't give my hip hop a chance, sorry I can rap and semi sing but can't dance, guess I'm not a real entertainer then, if this doesn't work out for me I have to start all over again, what's this the 5th or 6th time, I must be going out of my mind, to have the audacity to believe, selling out stadiums and winning a Grammy is my destiny, I'm not arrogant or pompous just unapologetic, if u don't pursue or achieve ur dreams then ur pathetic, please stop taking it out on others, aren't we supposedly all sisters and brothers, which I find kinda disgusting, perhaps incest perpetuates the competitive curmudgeon, after all isn't existence, survival of the fittest and persistents, every man for themselves, I don't agree comparing or tearing down others helps, actually it makes me feel worse, like humanity is simply naturally cursed, society needs reversing, it's turned into the moral man's burden, when did evil triumph over good, am I not successful cuz I'm not black ghetto gangster trailer park or hood, it shouldn't take money to make it, let love conquer the hatred, embrace our unique differences talents and abilities, there's enough room for us all silly, no need to fight, if we individually focus on doing what's right, maybe darkness will see the light, there's always a dawn after the night, it's an endless cycle, I'm an original songwriter not some karaoke wannabe auditioning on The Voice X Factor AGT or American Idol, how come ya'll won't make room, if u continue to stifle my art I'm doomed, this is my purpose, otherwise I feel like a failure utterly meaningless and worthless, it's hard to maintain hope and faith, I lack the virtue of patience and can no longer wait, when do I deserve or earned my opportunity, I'm not doing it for selfish fortune or fame but for the young gay community, trying to give minorities a strong insightful voice, I'm not always dignified and poised, in fact I know I still got a lot to learn, but I consistently strive and yearn, to awaken our collective consciousness, prove and show there's more to the next generation than spoiled entitled laziness and incompetence, but baby boomers need to let go of control, trust that there are plenty of righteous inspirational capable souls ready to fill the voids and holes, we need new blood, to be brave courageously standing up for the truth justice equality and love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/20/17

Limitless Felicitousness

This one's for us, all the minorities that lack the talent voice or guts, to stand up and fight, for what's fair just and right, trying to provide inspiration and hope, before more fall victim to guns or rope, suicide is no joke or hoax, what happened to our government sticking up for the poor and old folks, the collective has somehow lost its power, and it would seem we have approached our darkest hours, evil people now rule, employment has become an enslaving tool, slowly but surely eradicating the middle class, you can't pray away gay going to mass, or change the color of ur skin, shouldn't give in and let the devil win, it's never over or too late, we can take control of our destiny/fate, but u must open ur mind, explore more to see what u can find, start thinking with our hearts, being rich doesn't make u smart, u could be a liar cheat or thief, there's so much atrocity pain strife and grief, working hard no longer leads to success, it's almost impossible to get ahead or out of debt so we feel less, like no matter what we fail, money seems to be the holy grail, but it can't save our souls, imagine a world of no poverty hunger or homelessness just peace across the whole globe, I believe it can happen, why do we perpetually let ourselves be divided into individual factions, we're stronger and better together, I'm Houdini when it comes to being tied tethered and fettered, like Pinocchio we ain't got strings, I miss being moved when somebody sings, wish rap wasn't pretty much all crap, how do we bridge that gap, between record labels and skilled artists, aren't ya'll sick of these entitled narcissists, we used to idolize icons for a reason, celebrity has lost it's meaning, worshiping false prophets, hate like pollution is spreading with no answer on how to stop it, why hasn't the US taken the lead, helped the world go green, replace pharmaceuticals with holistic remedies, we're running out of room for dumps and cemeteries, religious leaders preachers and teachers have lost their way, when I think about the children I'm terrified and afraid, look at the legacy we're leaving, my blood's boiling and seething, consumed by frustration bitterness jealousy envy and anger, what happened to being kind and respectful to strangers, u never know what others have gone or are going thru, even if u do walk a mile in the same shoes, it's a metaphor dumb ass, where is the love and common sense I have to ask, the level of ignorance is alarming, same goes for Big Brother watching and monitoring, invading our privacy, music got destroyed by piracy, fuck digital, we're all a lil hypocritical, Rag'n'Bone Man said it best "I'm only human after all", the law of gravity states that which rises inevitably falls, "don't put ur blame on me", this used to be the land of the free, and home of the brave, please don't lay down wave ur white flag and cave, achieving glory takes consistent persistence, if no one else will step up I'll lead the resistance, I refuse to accept that's just the way it is, enough with the ruthless corrupt competitive corporate conglomerate big business, and this illogical wasteful unnecessary consumer culture, ya'll acting like sharks snakes monsters and vultures, yes sex sells, but paves the way to hell, we're defined by our reputation and actions yet only as good as our word, use abuse to motivate past the hurt, no pain no gain, sunshine comes after the moon and rain, it's time to let love's light shine, cuz when we unite and combine, felicitousness is limitless, and we can eradicate this listless frivolous vicious malicious wickedness!

Peace and 1,
10/19/17   

Beating The Sheeple Pleasing & Teasing

I'm getting very worried, about my temp job and money, come the end of December, I will miss the security and sweet splendor, of having a 9 to 5, altho my true passion of music really makes me come alive, bur right now it's just a pipe dream hobby, no amount of hate or negativity can stop me, I am determined and driven, how dare anyone judge the way I'm living, keep ur jealousy to urself, in life we all need a lil help, I'm simply lucky and blessed, ain't no oracle so my future too is guess, financially I'm a mess, discouraged from failing success's test, I've lost my motivational hope and zest, never set out to be rich and famous or boast I'm the best, I just try hard, follow my heart, always been told, I'm an old soul, but time takes it toll, as I grow gray and cold, broke the mold, embracing being bold, unique and one of a kind, a brilliant mind, that over analyzes and questions too much, has trouble distinguishing love from lust, got guts, but blindly trust, believing in the good within people, ignoring the fact there's also inherently evil, the path we pick is a choice, still trying to fine tune my voice, learning my limits, refraining from gimmicks, but sick and tired of not catching a break, seems listeners prefer pop garbage commercialized fakes, lacking lyrical content and skills, I create thought provoking conscious songs to achieve happiness and become existentially fulfilled, writing is my therapy, fuck ya'll if u don't understand or get me, I don't do it for u, I'm done being a sheeple pleasing fool, I'm proud of all I've survived and accomplished, continue to try to be real genuine and honest, but I'm not perfect and never said I was, it's not what one says anyway it's about what he or she does, I religiously follow thru, I've had to restart from scratch every time I moved, I'm often shocked appalled and amazed, at the incredibly intelligent compassionate empath my public servant teacher parents raised, a lot less dazed and confused, same goes for being hazed from marijuana abuse, coping way better with stress, stopped hiding my insecurity behind sarcasm/jest, boy relationships aren't easy, especially when the gay community's so slutty and sleazy, trying to get in between and ruin us, wish I was a magician/illusionist, able to pretend to be happy, when 35 still living at home I feel like a failure miserable crabby and crappy, why do nay sayers gotta laugh at me when I mention my aspirations, I don't need all ur approbations, I'll sell out stadiums and get that Grammy, without having to sell myself or expose my fanny, sex may sell, but I don't want my reputation to go to hell, my pride isn't worth the cost, and I refuse to be bought, I'll make it on my own, eventually settle down and buy a home, but for now, I'm not gonna focus on how, just enjoy the journey/ride, no I won't close my eyes, they'll be wide open, this adventure doesn't require any tokens, it's simply what u make of it, instead of taking pics I poetically express it so other's can come along join or relate to shit, it's a god given gift, meant to help inspire and uplift, keep trying to fix the rift or shift, rap today's got me pissed, cuz it lacks meaning, while I'm contemplating the universe's existential reasoning, perhaps I'm too serious and deep, for so long I didn't make waves or utter a peep, if u cut me off I'll scoff swear or at least beep, I won't ever just accept defeat, my hot headed Italian Gemini stubbornness simply can't be beat!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/17/17 

Live Breathe & Believe With The Determination To Achieve

There are many things I'm not proud of, but I fly high on the wings of love, anger makes us say things we don't mean, everyone has vices a past and dreams, but do u have the courage to overcome all odds, the ability to reach far beyond the stars, to the intangibly unseen, success is something I fiend, not for financial reasons or the fame, life is nothing like the board game, it takes a lot of sacrificial hard work, when compromising I'm a jerk, cuz I take business personally and make decisions from my heart, I have a college degree but also extremely street savvy/smart, but I'm no better than anyone else, altho I'm not afraid to vulnerably ask for help, show my emotions, let my stubbornness cause a commotion, what can I say I have a big mouth, I don't use fists often I prefer to verbally bout, in other words debate, it's not about arguing blaming or hate, but my sarcasm can get in the way, I don't believe u can pray problems away, nor in an invisible man in the sky, I over analyze and inherently ask why, probably too many times, I don't understand the retort I'm fine, especially if ur not, defamation or hurting people is never my intentional or vindictive vengeful plot, I've got a good soul, I finally found a man who makes me feel whole, even tho we constantly bicker and fight, eventually we put aside who's wrong or right, getting back to basics, time heals but never erases, that's why we forgive but don't forget, not communicating to avoid me getting upset, isn't a justifiable excuse, we're all victims and perpetrators of some sort of abuse, using manipulation and lies, to trick others over to our side, disagreements aren't war, so what are those kind of hardcore tactics for, self defense is a natural reaction, just like when awkward situations happen I start laughing, I don't mean to do that, I need to exhibit more patience and tact, not letting my empathy, get the best of me, ruling my behavior, music is my savior, a universal language, helping me deal with pain frustration and anguish, when therapy booze or pot isn't enough, dealing with excessive stress is rough and tough, we gotta stop looking up, for someone else to come fill our cups, only u can make u fulfilled and happy, why do we perpetually go negative and nasty, instead of mature/classy, don't believe gossiping rumors just ask me, I'm spunky and sassy, but it can be a detriment, I change for embetterment, and for my health, ur existence isn't valued or defined by the amount of accumulated wealth, money doesn't buy joy, yes lots of materialistic things like cars yachts mansions other gadgets and toys, I've never been part of the club of good ole boys, pretending to be coy is a stupid ploy, just be humbly genuine, I aspire to exude respectable gentleman, perhaps also profound, being too seriously deep can bring a crowd down, yet truth consciousness and honesty, are very necessary compared to quiet politically correct modesty, there's a fine line, I'm not a kind mime, but a poetic thought provoking lyricist, never be consumed by fear resist, maybe we need a revolution, against corporate greed and pollution, for justice and equality, Trump's leading towards Revelations and Nostradamus's prophecies, I wanna go out on my own terms, schools teach history but we still haven't learned, should humanity accept defeat, are we doomed to cyclically repeat, I know we have only so much control, let's eradicate poverty hunger and homelessness to create peace around the globe, ask urself what legacy u wanna leave, then be like me always trying to strive with determination and achieve it while we're still alive and breathe! 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/16/17

Done Being Blackmailed Bullied & Sullied

I'm tired of being blackmailed and bullied, threatening to have my reputation and name ruined/sullied, I have had enough of ur abuse, and being repeatedly used, I'm a good person, and I'm working, so I don't have time for ur bs, I never claimed to be perfect or the best, everyone has a past, but focusing too much on mine meant our relationship can't last, u pushed me over the edge, our love is dead, I don't ever want to date again, we won't even be friends, I'm moving on, cuz I'm tired of being conned, I too made mistakes, but I tried so hard not to be consumed by hate, and now I despise u, u lied too, yet I continuously forgave, u never give u just take take take, I'm so done, congratulations u won, blame me all ud like, for starting every single fight, when I was always defending myself, please get professional help, I'm pushing forward in my life, ur Judgmental Judy and Negative Nancy adding so my pain and strife, u destroyed my self esteem, u don't understand the definitions of trust sorry or team, I will fulfill all my dreams, no matter how hard it seems, and I will get over u some day, u never comprehended the difference between sex and kinky fun play, go have another cig and drink, insult me more telling me how u hate my beats and when I sing, ur horribly cruel, post whatever u want ull just prove that ur the fool, my support system is strong, perhaps ull inspire a new song, called dumpster junkie, which I only said after u made fun of me, over and over and over, say something mean steal or break up with me then give me the cold shoulder, fuck u and ur manipulative games, u ruined the best thing u had which is such a shame, now I wanna crawl in a ball and bawl and cry, wish I had guts to commit suicide and die, cuz I despise this existence, wasted energy with the amount of consistent persistence, and it was all for naught, u never remember what I did and bought, u simply took me for granted, kept falsely accusing me of lying cheating and being underhanded, claiming I never made u a priority, being gay makes us a minority, and I own the word faggot, doesn't make me feel like a nigger or maggot, I get empowered, I don't run from fear like a coward, I'm not scared of confrontation nor talking, u should be a PI since ur so good at stalking, I thought we'd be forever, but we're really not that good together, we both deserve better, so this is my goodbye letter, Dear Kevin, no more yelling, I'm deeply sorry I wasn't enough, getting over u will be rough and tough, but keep ur head up, we need to give each other back our respective stuff, u called my bluff, I never wanted to see u in cuffs, no matter how hard u huff or puff, I still say ur consumed with codependency addiction and lust, we can't be partners without trust, it's a necessity/must, guess hearts too can rust, I was ur ride or die by ur side or bust, bubba I was yours u drive me wild and nuts, no more penetrating butts, u can drain the water but there's residual suds, I wanted to plant roots have a family with u minus the blood, too bad u couldn't see u gave what u got, and I couldn't just roll over or keep my big mouth shut, I wish u peace and love, happy birthday but goodbye and good luck! 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/13/17

For All The Ostracized & Excluded

Tho it may seem I haven't written anything negative, sharing it is simply no longer imperative, I've decided not to put certain things out in the universe, cuz I'm realizing like sticks and stones words hurt, but I can't deny I feel censored, wish I could be mentored, by Lauryn Mariah or Pac, I hear each and every tick tock, as I get closer to missing my chance, why are singers required to dance, every entertainer has their specialty/niche, talent skills and gifts, all the superfluous tricks gimmicks and shticks, can't fix the raw ability to sing or spit, but yes we can always improve, instead of emulating just do u, sure u can be inspired, but an exact replica isn't required, imitation is apparently the highest form of flattery, but I consider copy catting assault and battery, it's my image and reputation on the line, so I'm gonna take my time, getting my songs as close to perfect as I can, altho I understand I'm just a man, I strive to be my best, after all I define success, fuck record studios and contracts, I don't need ur bank roll or contacts, this is my divine destiny, and I could care less if u believe it's meant to be, cuz I do and that's what matters most, I'm too humble and modest to brag or boast, that's why I need a manager to help, promote and market myself, otherwise I come off as arrogant pompous and cocky, u really think I'm gonna let nay sayers and haters stop me, I don't give up, on my art or finding love, even with bad experiences and epic failure, whether or not u agree I'm hip hop's savior, I deserve and have earned some respect, unlike the President-elect, I pride on being a good person, that's why I continue working, I handle my responsibilities, my dreams aren't wishful thinking they're real possibilities, I'm not looking for fortune or fame/popularity, I seek existential happiness and clarity, fight for truth justice and equality, I'm not a gossipy wannabe progeny, consumed with misogyny hypocrisy bureaucracy autocracy dishonesty or despondency, but an uncommonly consciously prodigy, interested in philosophy and fulfilling my prophecy, most my poetry is insightful thought provoking and seriously deep not comedy, yes sarcastic and sassy, cuz that's me, a Gemini guy, who no longer lives life high, stoned out of my gourd, I don't blame or thank the Lord, I'm no longer religious but spiritual, this emcee isn't about the beat I'm lyrical, don't fear it tho, college educated and still empirical, extremely well rounded, rap music today's confounded, pisses me off, ya'll can laugh snicker or scoff, I don't mind if u can't stand me, my goal is to win that Grammy, and I'm rather quite determined, to eradicate impostors and money hungry vermin, I do this for the joy, and for all those other young white gay boys, who have ever felt ostracized or excluded, please open ur mind's eye and realize that u too can do it!   

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

10/10/17 

Won't Ever Let Up

I'm such a nervous wreck, I haven't really slept, do u know when something's not right, and no matter if u do or don't fight, it just feels wrong, I'm simply not happy with my song, I know perfection cannot be achieved, but there are major differences in what we believe, I don't need u to achieve my dreams or succeed, and I'm tired of other people taking credit, listen to me my critique and edits, otherwise give me my tracks so I can find someone else, ur harsh criticism and know-it-all attitude doesn't help, I'm so pissed off and aggravated, anxious and agitated, I'm not trying to be harsh or negative, but pragmatic truth is imperative, telling me how u feel, thinking ur keeping it real, is actually manipulative and insulting, I find ur hypocritical double standards revolting, u take me for granted, insinuating I'm sneaky and underhanded, while u play the mind games, boy have u got me trained, after all the gaslighting and subliminal abuse, I'm unjustified saying uve possessively controlled and used, still waiting for the list of compromises and sacrifices uve made, no I won't trade, I know my life is blessed, yet the future is guess, nothing is guaranteed, if u cut me I do bleed, I'm simply grateful, not jealous and hateful, like u seem to be, I'm not free to be me, cuz u know I rock it, when will u stop shit, drinking to deal with stress, smoking cigs in excess, or how bout u follow thru, telling ur parents about me and u, instead of focusing on my lies, I understand why break-ups sometimes result in cutting all ties, I try to be a nice guy, I'm good so I'm waiting to die, at 35 am I still young, waiting for this hell on Earth existence to be done, nothing's fair, nobody cares, everyone fakes happy, really miserably and nasty, misdirecting anger, projecting insecurities onto strangers, just cuz they're unfulfilled, don't diminish my talents when ur pissed ur unskilled, we each have unique abilities and attributes, I'd rather market myself word of mouth and grassroots, instead of depending on investors sponsors or sheer dumb luck, I could give two fucks, about ur ignorant opinion, u can't see the sea of debt I'm swimming in, from always doing the proper thing, tell me again how u hate when I sing, u don't know my journey or the road I've traveled, how many times I've had to pick myself up after being devastatingly destroyed and unraveled, yes I too have epically failed, never found easy street or smooth sailed, no silver spoon or platter, both my ego and self esteem have been shattered, but I'm here, and willing to share, when I have excess or a lil more, I am not a slut/whore, I categorize it as experienced, ur accusatory assumptions are delusionally delirious, sorry to say but ur not that mysterious, maybe u should act responsible and serious, we only get one shot, that's why I give 200% of what I've got, financially I may not have a lot, but I consciously bare my whole soul and heart with my art, and if that isn't enough, tough...cuz I won't ever let up!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/10/17

Tongue Twisting Rhymes Killing Time

Thru good times and bad, when ur happy or sad, music is the answer, whether ur a rapper singer songwriter or dancer, it's a universal language, whether inspiring positivity or inciting anguish, it connects people, love always triumphs over hate and evil, wake up and get conscious, a lack of lyricism is toxic and obnoxious, where's common sense and logic, when curve balls fly at ur face u gotta duck dive or dodge it, obstacles and hurdles means u need to jump, no one could've predicted a reality tv star President Trump, but hey that's what we got, whether we like it or not, sorry to get political, perhaps ud rather have Tom Riddle, in other words Voldemort, feel trapped in a windowless room with a bolted door, is Earth really hell, with all the atrocity and pain it's hard to tell, even worse than finding meaning and purpose, in the situations and circumstances that hurt us, especially our collective soul, as humans there's so much we don't know, we can't yield the power of the Gods, why in business do we lead with our minds and not our hearts, money is the root of what, believing achieving/fulfilling ur dreams takes passion drive and guts, can u muster the motivation or strength, to actually go the distance or length, or will u lay down and roll over, not everyone can handle the weight of the world on their shoulders, I'm not doing this selfishly for me, it's for the existential "we", I'm super seriously deep, thought provoking uncensored banishing ennui, listen as I'm killing time, with very clever vocabulary and tongue twisting rhymes, that'll make u think yet bob ur head, I'll sleep when I'm dead, cuz Nas said they're cousins, all of a sudden with a push of a button, dozens of gluttons, face Death's naturally punishing summons, and like Pac I'm wondering "how long will they mourn", uve been warned scorned and torn, since we've been born, how dare u surgically alter or morph to adorn, we're all beautifully special in the Lord's eyes, relationships are about communication and compromise, while life and existence is complicated finding equilibrium or balance, striving for perfection is noble and valiant, but it's like the horizon line receding as it's approached, wish there was some sort of instruction manual self help book or coach, cuz I'm still so lost and confused, can't watch anymore negative news, it's subliminal mental abuse, are we destined to lose, my perception's the truth is just a ruse, adversity and conflict seems to be my muse, waiting for the other ball or shoe to drop, maybe dooms day's destruction inevitably can't be stopped, what is our legacy, being classic's defined by longevity, epicness by brevity, where is our integrity, do u too excessively use alcohol and pot as stress therapy, we have a propensity for complexity codependency and supremacy, inherently infectiously incessantly inflexibly desperately and contemptuously have heredity a necessity/tendency/expectancy, for jealousy obscenity weaponry hegemony and inequity over empathy heavenly ecstasy revelry and transcendency!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/6/17

Heal Hearts Minds Souls & The Whole World

I keep misdirecting anger, I've become but a stranger, looking in the mirror, wish I could see the future clearer, but it's all hopes wishes and dreams, nothing ever is as it seems, it's just illusions, so melodramatic thinking I'm destroyed and ruined, cuz things didn't go exactly as planned, sometimes we don't see the purpose or understand, why we go thru what we do, everything up until this point has made u, the person u are right now, I often can't contemplate how, did I even make it this far, and my heart didn't grow cold and hard, my soul is still intact, the truth is impossible to find in a world filled with alternative facts, am I the only one who thinks shit's gone crazy, the next generation is spoiled coddled and lazy, especially when it comes to work ethic, what's ur motto/method, to get thru life, with all the pain and strife, obstacles and hurdles, when things go south get rotten coagulated and curdled, which makes existence seem disgustingly gross and messy, miss the good old days taking high rides with the besty, now failed expectations define friendships, not to mention all the fun activities are expensive, especially food beaches sports games parking concerts or going to the movies, course u could sell sex if u got a big dick or boobies, be a pimp or a drug dealer, ain't nobody in hip hop more conscious or realer, fuck humble modesty, I'll give pure unadulterated uncensored honesty, try to be super genuine, a gay white rapper who's not stereotypically over-sexualized or feminine, just ur average Joe, fame and fortune isn't what matters tho, I wanna leave a lasting positive mark, open people's minds and touch their heart, make the hairs stand up straight, not because they're afraid, but they get the chills, from connecting relating and appreciating my actual talent and skills, I may sarcastically jest, I know I'm not the best, I strive to learn and be better, let's existentially elevate and rise high together, unite to fight, for truth justice equality love and light, we should all strive to do what's right, our voices have might, just like peaceful protest, pillaging looting and unnecessary violence is stupid and grotesque, treat others the way u want to be treated, if u said Trump would be President 5 years ago I wouldn't have believed it, I mean a reality tv star, what's worse is this is now standard/par, maybe Oprah will be next, I often wonder if humans are inherently cursed or hexed, I've heard of original sin, not everyone is destined to have kin, but we deserve the chance, to lend a helping hand, provide stability and a family to underprivileged abandoned unwanted youth, u can't make or teach someone to be homosexual so that point is moot, I'm sick and tired of illogical screwed up excuses, when we lack compassion empathy or sympathy our collective soul loses, whether u say salute peace or blessed be, please like Mike sang "make it a better place for u and for me"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/5/17   

Song's Wrong Deadlines Come & Gone

It's hard to have all this passion, while others ride coattails without taking action, I've given u weeks that turned to months into years, spent all this money yet u won't follow thru is my biggest fear, what am I supposed to do now, I can't contemplate nor understand how, the deadline has come and gone, the final versions are still wrong, uve taken no time upon urself, I've always been there to help, which I like, and I don't want to fight, but this is ridiculous, most producers are hypocrites, wanna charge an arm and a leg upfront, then they get lazy when we're approaching being done, I'm about to lose my patience, I'm waiting growing ancient and anxious, I have no more recourse, and I don't want my songs to be rushed or forced, but u dilly dallied far too long, u haven't 100% completed one song, I don't think I'm being unreasonable, ur effort's negligible and treasonable, not trying to be a jerk, just do the fucking work, like u promised, if I'm being honest, perhaps u should master faster, ur pace is slower than Scooby Do and Shaggy trying to capture Casper, otherwise I'm screwed, this is mental and spiritual abuse, I'm tired and fed up, got nothing but love, I'm sorry tho enough is enough, all our lives are busy and tough, we have a verbal agreement and written contract, I shouldn't have to find another producer to credit for the skills u lack, it's basically too late, I need a miracle or to at least catch a break, my temper is on the rise, no matter how many tears I've cried, I don't feel better, thought we were so good together, yet I'm so stressed, I'm a hot mess, misdirecting my annoyance and frustration, close but not yet to the point of summation, very aggravated and pissed, I want my album to be on adults and kids' wish lists, I question if it'll be ready for the holiday season, what is the meaning and cosmic reasoning, for having to deal with this crap, can't start from scratch, there's no rewind or redo, hope has pulled me thru, tho my faith is fading, my energy level's waning, I gotta stay strong, keep holding on, just like my lyrics say, this is not only for me but for each and every gay, and altho yes I am also white, let me be a guiding shining light, spreading some truth and consciousness, eradicating the toxic pop hip hop obnoxiousness, bringing back that old school style rap, bridge that mile high wild gap, making music refreshingly new and cool, commercially appealing chart topping epic ground breaking classics that rule, nobody can do what I do, I'm not being cocky it's simply true, exposing the tools and fools, refusing to do battles or duels, cuz I'm not about bashing and minimizing others, this is for everyone the fathers mothers sisters and brothers!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/4/17