Done with social media for a while, gotta bring back my smile, cuz it's been gone far too long, so sick of being ridiculed and scorned, rather focus on reality minus the virtual, I'm still reachable tho and searchable, I'm on YouTube SoundCloud and here, please don't fret too much or fear, once my new album is completely finished copyrighted distributed and officially released, we will see, honestly it's a huge distraction, ruining my relationship turning me back into a fraction, only half of a whole, I know I'm masochistically crazy but he has both my heart and soul, gotta stop going back and forth, my temper is too short, I'm hasty, publicly too racy, share way too much personal stuff, I wanna rebuild my trust, but I can't sacrifice my social life, to avoid another fight, it doesn't mean I prioritize or love u any less, stop with the false accusations assumption and guess, I have an overloaded plate, there's only so much we can control the rest is up to divine destiny/fate, I pride myself on being grateful and thankful, refuse to stoop low anymore to mean nasty or hateful, why do we hurt the ones we love the most, perhaps cuz we're afraid of people getting that close, where they have the power to destroy or ruin u, but like Mr T says "I pity the fool", who tries to fuck with me, I avoid lust and greed, but there's a fine line between, more to fulfillment or success than marriage and money, don't lose urself, in another or wealth, both can be detrimental to ur health, we won't get to choose the hand we're dealt, defined by how we react, corrupted and skewed the truth and facts, manipulated perception to ur advantage, broken hearts can't be repaired by revenge or with a bandage, time doesn't heal all wounds, a job isn't supposed to enslave or entomb, but we still gotta pay bills, over stressing and working kills, more so than alcohol and cigarettes, thinking about re-moving out west, perhaps a fresh start is needed, I regret all the warnings I never heeded, even if u said this is where I'd end up I wouldn't have believed it, I may not be blind but I don't see shit, and definitely don't listen, do u too ever feel Earth is a prison, overpopulated and crowded, my dreams are diminished dismissed laughed at and doubted, my hopeful optimistic light's been shrouded, didn't get anything handed when I demanded it or pouted, I'm no longer a child, don't mind spicy but prefer mild, instead of feeling the burn, growing impatient waiting my turn, when's my fifteen minutes, why do we fall for shticks tricks and gimmicks, I've got real talent and skills, prefer pot over pills, home cooked meals not fast food, u get further being nice instead of rude, altho probably end up last, screw debit and credit use cash, digital sucks I miss cds, gotta start changing I's and me's to us and we's, if we're truly a team together, take the leap of faith and make it last forever!
Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/29/17
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