What really bothers me, is u can't give a simple apology, cuz ur always right, it's my fault we fight, despite u say hurtful things repeatedly, unless I give in defeatedly, we both keep going one upping, u don't know the definition of supportive loving husband, ur too paranoid accusatory and ungrateful, the words u put in my mouth are self loathing and hateful, throwing pity parties and guilt trips, endless expensive drinking even after a half pint and a few nips, smoking cigs like a fiend, constantly disrespecting me, I've asked for u not to in my car, u take the quiet game way too far, I'm underappreciated taken for granted, and I simply don't understand it, ur without a home of ur own and can't drive, if it weren't for me this relationship wouldn't have thrived, I do all the work, yet u still treat me like a jerk, everything is my fault, express urself best thru text when u should've called, god forbid I make a mistake, it's ok for u to need some space or a break, ur double standards are rather funny, look at ur hypocrisy hunny, focusing all ur criticism on me, no wonder why I wanna be free, u come with nothing but bullshit and drama, why am I the one who must remain patient and calmer, I mean really ur older, u keep putting more of the burden on my shoulders, while u stay unphased and unchanged, I find ur excuses hard to believe and strange, not to mention convenient, u can make threats but don't mean it, yet if I say something wrong, u repeat the same tune/song, over and over again, said if we break up we can't be friends, please deal with ur own issues, why do I have to take responsibility for ur problems and buy u tissues, enough is enough already, we both are unsteady, I can acknowledge my shortcomings, show up for a court summons, ready for trial with an honest defense, instead of trying to avoid consequence, but I shouldn't be surprised, we both have been caught in lies, tho u cherry pick statements to look better, I don't ever try to make u lesser, I state the facts, and will go tit for tat, not just roll over, or go and blow lower, speaking of which, who's sucked more of the other's dick, and bottomed, I'm sick of hearing about ur pains and problems, especially ones uve had before we met, u still haven't settled multiple bets, when u supposedly let me win, u talk about marriage and kin, but we can't take care of ourselves, u refuse to get professional help, I'm done taking ur abuse, why do u insist ending the weekend leaving me confused, seems I'm just ur golden ticket to escape, do u not see u too spew venom and hate, the difference is tho, I say sorry bro, perhaps we shouldn't be together, cuz I no longer believe u when u claim forever!
Peace and 1,
JC
9/18/17
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